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Character Primer

TRAVIS “NELLY” NELSON, #49 Born: February 14, 1994 Nationality: Canadian Drafted: First round, 2012 to CHI Current Team: Seattle Schooners Trade(s): 2013, CHI -> SEA Stanley Cup(s): 2013 with the...

So if you’re reading the Check Please Suitehearts ‘verse (and if you’re not, I recommend you do), definitely check out this primer on the characters that I didn’t discover until just now, oops. Fall in love with these good, good (bad, bad) boys.

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if you had to fight one classic monster (dracula, frankenstein's monster, etc) who would you pick and why?

i would absolutely, without any hesitancy, kick dracula's ass. uwu bat daddy has fifty thousand weakness and i'm here to exploit them all, i won't even need to get to sunrise to end him. name a time and a place, this dick is going to hell on the edge of my stake cos i'm done, i'm so done with sexy male vampirism when his main seduction traits -- stalking, hypnosis, forcible blood drinking -- are things the "i get a boner for true crime" community creams their underwear for their favourite male serial killers and i would JUST LIKE TO TALK to vlad about this.

if we're going by "classic" monsters being the dark cinematic verse owned by warner bros studios, then i would also like to be in an enemies to lovers situation with the creature from the black lagoon. don't @ me, don't judge me, we all saw the shape of water and know i'm right.

favourite cryptid?

MOTHMAN!

he looks nothing like a moth, he's more like a big owl, but that's ok. i love him and his big red eyes and 10 foot wing span. swoop down and take me away, mothie, i'm waiting.

favourite scary movie?

i am jennifer's body and candyman fan number 1; i am a fan of those movies first and a human second. candyman apparently is fine, my horror movie buff friends are totally chill with me liking that movie -- even if their eyes all glaze over when i talk about the racist aspect of making the candyman black and the racial profiling of villainhood in the film but sorry, you chose to be friends with me, you know what i'm like -- but jennifer's body?

jennifer's body causes such anger and "you're wrong" in my horror movie buff friends.

but these are people who think the violent gang rape in real time in the original i spit on your grave is a masterclass in political movie making and a fuck you to the censorship of the 1970s. so what am i really expecting from these people? taste? absolutely none.

do you believe in ghosts/the supernatural?

i'm irish so yes. i don't want to believe in ghosts because i get very upset thinking of souls of people trapped in their horrid deaths and don't wish that upon any soul. but. i, and i've mentioned this a few times here, have experienced some sort of spirit twice in my life. also-

so.

it's time for "kat doesn't know anything about science higher than high school chemistry so don't take her word for anything" but energy can't be destroyed. so where do all the memories and emotions and brain usage of a human being go when they die? body dying, yes, understand the theory of that. but making the memories and feeling emotions all use energy so where do they go? whilst i don't believe in ghosts -- altho the fact that time isn't a flat circle and all time exists at once could lead to crossed timelines showing images at the same time despite the gap in their human understanding of when they're taking place, again, i don't know anything about science, i am a certified ding dong, ignore everything i'm say, but i get how seeing an image of the past when timelines cross could be construed as a ghost -- i wanna know where all that energy goes and perhaps it does stay around.

cos. my mom/a caring spirit definitely made itself known and comforted me after i was sexually assaulted and i was lying crying in a ball in bed, and my mother nor anyone else motherly died in the house/on the land my house exists on so if it were my mom, how did she get here other than her energy exists around me because it did so in life as well.

anyway, now that "kat attempts scientific thought; fails massively" is over, back to the supernatural. yes. there are some things that cannot be explained by science and exist in a realm we do not understand. if some wanna call them the fae, if others wanna call them spirits, if some even wanna call them angels, that's all good to me.

life is both incredibly short and insufferably long at the same time so if supernatural occurrences make some people happy to believe in and i am one of them, i say let people believe what they wanna believe as long as they aren't hurting others.

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12. name a scent you wish you coul smell forever:

citrus. especially freshly cut limes, and pink grapefruit newly peeled. the way it lingers on my fingers after i pull the inner skin off and expose the pulpy flesh. the scent of citrus and verbena mixed reminds me of how my mom's hair used to smell when i was a child, when i would sit on her lap and she would read me fairytales before bed.

and while i have accepted my mother's death and processed it. it's been seventeen years, i am ok. she isn’t coming back and i wouldn’t wish her in case i pulled her out of the peace of the afterlife where she is no longer ill or in pain. but there are certain things i wish i could bottle of her and keep.

the smell of her hair, the shampoo she used, and her perfume mixed with it after a whole day, the room dark except for the nightlight on my bedside table, as she read me le prince de beaumont's beauty and the beast is something i wish i could wear on my wrist every day.

21. name something that you’re both proud and ashamed of:

a man i haven't spoken to in five years has fall out boy lyrics tattooed on the left side of his ribcage for me.

he was in a band. we met when i was a teenager and dated on again, off again for three years -- despite him fucking every fan he could while touring and me almost marrying another guy (to prevent him from joining the army but that's a story for another day) -- and there are now two albums and multiple songs of his all on spotify. and all about me. i was his reluctant sad girl muse from 2006 to 2015 which was long after we stopped dating but still, his second band's final album? titled after and all about me.

there was fanfiction about us on lj. his fans had a slash fanfiction community and wrote fic with me as a secondary character/the terrible gf preventing the slash relationship from happening. i was befriended by fans of his -- also teenagers so i hold no ill will towards them for this -- and they used snippets of conversations and information they learned about me from me in fanfiction.

needless to say, it was a wild ride and he was a piece of shit at the end and i'm glad we no longer talk and a lot of who i was during that period and the things that happened make me die internally of embarrassment but-

every time he takes off his shirt in front of a new person, especially a sex partner, there, right in front of them, is "you're just a line in a song" in cursive font on his fucking ribs.

28. name something that makes you feel like yourself:

@ithvka/bluey's kat tag.

allow me to explain -- i have, over the last few years, become very solid and aware of who i am as a human being, especially since i have taken a lot of my image basis away from how others view me and made it my own. i know who i am. but bluey's tag for me, the images she sees and thinks of me and wants me to see, sits firmly in the space of "mother or terror". which is how i wish to be perceived because it is who i am.

now, i can say this from the safety of being a white cis woman and therefore can be terrible and terrifying without fear of losing my humanity the way non-white women and non-binary folk cannot. i am aware of this. so sometimes i use it, my terrifying nature, to exemplify others who do not have the luxury of my positioning in the world.

i also never ever want to be perceived as a terrifying mother; i am not here to be mommy dearest. but i don't want my motherhood to be lessened by my terror or my terror to be removed from my mothering nature. i want to protect, i want to take care of and exist for others as a safe space. but should that space be attacked, should someone come to hurt someone i care for, i will be the terrifying creature of teeth and rage fighting back.

for anyone who attempts to hurt, to be the monster that goes bump in the night, i will, from my position as white cis terror mother, be the thing that bumps back. and bluey gets that with the imagery she associates with me and this- this is how to be subjected to the mortifying ordeal of being known.

i am perceived as precisely who i am.

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U and Z for the fandom asks? 😘

for this memeU - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.

Oh, this one is good and interesting.MCU - Loki. It’s always been Loki, at the end of the day, hasn’t it? There’s just so much interesting potential. The movies did such a good job of really only giving us tiny bits and pieces of his life, and a character with a facade means that there are so many ways to interpret him. He’s so easy to both project on and extrapolate from, I honestly think that’s a huge part of his fandom appeal. He can be anything to anyone, and we see that in the multitudes of fic, the way people fight over which interpretation is ‘right’, and so on. It was always going to be Loki, and all these years later, he’s still my fave.Homestuck - Dave Strider. What a fucked up kid who loves his friends and is doing his best. His story, of coming to understand and accept himself for who he is, realizing all the toxic and fucked up things he’d absorbed, was one that was so important to helping me realize myself. I came to this one late, but it doesn’t change how much I love him and his story, in all its facets, and all the facets of him.LoTR - Legolas. I’ve loved him since I first laid eyes on his trashy romance novel cover, and I’ll probably love him until I die. His and Gimli’s relationship, the way it grew on both sides, was probably the most important relationship to me in the entire series. I made it through all of Tolkein’s prose (that, frankly, I hate reading) just so I could what happened to Legolas (and Pippin). Orlando Bloom’s goofy faces and take on him in the movies really only cemented it; even if it’s not quite the same as backwoods hick Leggles, it’s still a wonderful portrayal of the character.Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! (Prompts optional but encouraged.)I think a lot about the Avengers found family meme that seemed to just become the default after that first movie. Like just everyone, living together. Wasn’t that nice? It was so clean, so much fun. After Infinity war came out, I found myself thinking about it a lot again, and how much that movie shit all over just wanting to have something good and fun in favour of the dark and edgy. Things were always so much more fun when we still had the hope of good coming.

I sometimes wonder what we’d need to get back to that. So much history has happened between all these characters, and so much has been undone. So let’s talk about that:

Firstly, assume that everyone, somehow, magically comes back. The soul stone has them, or something. So let’s say we have everyone. Now what?

We have....

Tony, grief stricken, and Pepper, betrayed again by Tony going off to be a big damn hero moments after saying he wasn’t going to do that anymore, so THAT’S a lot to unpack

Steve and Bucky

Wakanda, damaged, but T’challa returned at least, along with everyone else lost by the Snap of Bullshit, so that can be rebuilt.

Thor, the asgardian refugees, Loki, Valkyrie

all the guardians

Wanda and Jarvis, Wanda getting something good back, and the knowledge it was taken

strange and antman and spiderman and all those people whose stories I’ve missed because frankly I stopped caring a lot about the MCU after Age of Ultron, and stuck firmly to everything before that

look maybe some of these wouldn’t get to come back, but fuck, it’s my sandbox, and I’m saying let’s undo all the needless death that was Infinity Fart.

And let’s say all these people are now stuck together. Let’s drop them in Wakanda, and let’s say there’s the media circus and zoo.

God that’s so much drama. Remember when the drama was just Thor and poptarts and his murderous kid brother and Clint in air ducts? Fuck I miss that.

Let’s say they help with rebuilding Wakanda. Wakanda doesn’t need their help, but, well they did have a hand in it. 

Let’s say, while they’re doing this, Steve and Tony actually get forced to sit down and hash shit out. Let’s say they still disagree, but they aren’t fucking trying to tear each other apart. Let’s say, for the sake of argument, Tony actually realizes how much his own fears have torn him apart.

Let’s have Tony adoring Shuri and her genius, because he would, because Tony Stark loves the future and Shuri is that future.

Let’s say Pepper arrives, and her and Tony finally finally for good have a conversation that they’ve been having and undoing and having and undoing for how many fucking movies now. Let’s say that this time, it sticks. Let’s say they don’t get back together, because they both understand at last it never was going to stick, and that as much as they love each other, they’re terrible for each other (well, Tony is terrible for Pepper, and it’s not her job to keep fucking fixing him). 

(he and Pepper should never have gotten back together after they undid all his character growth from IM3 and you really can’t change my mind--that moment, when they undid it, that’s when I stopped caring about Tony Stark of now, and it was so much of my disillusionment with the MCU)

Okay, so there’s some. 

What’s next?

We have these Asgardian refugees, and Thor and Loki and Valkyrie. Where do they go? Land and refugees has always been so hair trigger in modern history, so now what? 

You know what? It’s my sandbox.

They figure it out. Thor, after all, is the god of Thunder, and he did just help undo the snap and everything. They make it work, and they get their own bit of home. 

There’s still the Loki problem, and god, isn’t that a lot to fucking unpack? But he’s so much smaller, and Bruce clearly knows about Thanos, a little, and that Loki didn’t have a choice, and I imagine that helps. Between Thor and Bruce and Valkyrie, no one is going to come out trusting Loki totally on the other side, but it will be contextualized, and Loki is, for the most part, trying to be better.

(He’s had his own character growth too, after all)

Wanda and Vision are allowed, finally, to be happy; Wanda, especially. She always deserved that.

Loki gets to stab Strange. It’s wonderful.

Tony and Peter get to sit down and talk and the stakes are so so so much clearer to Peter, and whatever comes out of that conversation, Tony has learned, and Peter is more aware than ever just what he has to lose, and how terrifying that is--but of course he’s not going to give it up. 

Peter and Shuri are a terror.

And maybe, maybe they don’t all live together. We’ll never be able to get back to post Avengers 1, but we can get adjacent, and somewhere where they work together, where they argue but reason it out, somewhere where there’s hope, and suddenly we have this little force for good, a new Avengers--but maybe it’s not about Avenging but protecting, and them working together to figure out just how to do that, with all the moral gray and need to hash out the details that takes.

Maybe.

Just... imagine. The Avengers, a found family again, and not tearing itself apart from the inside because that’s what the studio thinks will put butts in seats.

(yeah I know I didn’t mention Clint or any of the TV shows; I have no idea what to do with Clint, and I have so many goddamn problems with his stuff from Age of Ultron I’d need to utterly rewrite him to make it work; and I know nothing about the TV shows because I have never once watched them because I hate watching TV shows soooooo here we are)

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thank you, lovely. always here to shove my favourite not-sibling siblings in people’s faces, so glad someone else appreciates them <3