i don’t think i identify as ace but like, it’s definitely very hard for me to overcome a repulsion for people’s bodies even if i want to like, be with them? i’m probably just rusty but multiple ppl ive gone on dates with have been like, oh i couldn’t tell if you like me as a friend or something more, but it’s like, what kind of degenerate would go on a dating app with the goal of making platonic friends. what are people doing differently that clears up that confusion??
it’s like being a very short distance from the opposite shore but there is no way to cross over. i think i’d like to cuddle with someone but the process of getting to that point is quite difficult to imagine. kibbs and i have bodies and patterns familiar to each other and it doesn’t feel like that big of a stretch.
i dunno. sometimes the shitposter is flirtatious and i am alarmed by it and change the terms of conversation. i’m thinking about this one interaction that would be excruciatingly embarrassing to describe, but suffice it to say i ended up having to explain explicitly that i wasn’t just trying to be platonic. he agreed with that so i guess maybe this could go somewhere? i’m stressed lol
