#spn 14x10

[drulalovescas]

yeah okay go to hell

[secretlycursedd]

One of the craziest things about Wincest for me will always be the dialogue between Dean and Pamela in 14x10, specifically this line.

Their dialogue was clearly about relationships, and as we know, Dean always gets what he wants, or rather who he wants. Girls have been swooning over him since season 1, his exes were ready to come back to him if he chose them over the life of a hunter. So who else could this dialogue be about if not Sam? Everyone knows that for Dean, Sam is the most important person in his life, and Dean always chooses Sam, even in the context of family, Sam will always be first for Dean. But at the same time, Sam is the only one Dean clearly wants, but can’t have in the context of a relationship. And the fact that Dean doesn’t even deny it, and on the contrary, confirms Pamela’s words that Dean doesn’t want her (though he could have her, so again it only makes sense in the context of Sam).

Wincest is everywhere for those with the eyes to see.

[xofemeraldstars]

SUPERNATURAL 14x10 ❝ nihilism ❞

[shallowseeker]

i wish there was more meta on the fact that dean was Clearly and actively suicidal during moriah. like he was in such a crisis mode thinking he had caused jack to lose his soul (and therefore caused mary's death), was resigned to the fact that he'd have to be a killer and kill his own son, was drinking a Lot and cornering himself before leaving to do it, heard about the equalizer killing the person who shot the gun and volunteered to be the one to die. i think there's just some juicy stuff there

Ah. Yes.

He loses his self.

MICHAEL: "I own you."

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He loses Jack.

DEAN: "How could you ever, ever let anyone go through what you went through? The pain of losing a kid? "

///

He chokes in battle with the spear.

MICHAEL: "To break him, to crush and disappoint him so completely that, this time, he'll be nice and quiet for a change -- buried. And he is. He's gone."

///

He builds himself a coffin.

Billie convinces him to build a Ma'lack box for himself. He resolves to keep his suicide a secret.

DEAN: "Okay, well, yeah, that’s because I’m not good with the whole big goodbyes, alright? I-I-I don’t need to get shaky on this thing."

///

He chokes again.

The combined efforts of Mary, Sam, and Cas convince Dean to hang on, but he fails.

AW hunters die. Rowena Tries to Take on What Dean Couldn't, then SUFFERS and almost dies

And finally. Jack Takes on What He Couldn't.

MICHAEL: "If only Dean had used that coffin when he had the chance."

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He was in the bargaining phase of grief.

Hopeful, but talking to Jack sideways, through euphemisms about the "snake" needing to eat. (People with souls eat. He's relieved when Jack opens a packages and hopes so so hard, Jack will eat too.)

DEAN: "Well, anyway, you and the, uh, snake want to go for a little dri-ive?"

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He knows something's up with Cas missing family game night.

It gets a partnership betrayal motif, more on the nose than even the shady financey-business dealings codings of past: "giving a woman jewelry."

MARY (startled at Dean's shout): What— JACK: I thought this was supposed to relax him.

///

He ignores his gut about Jack interrogating Nick.

DEAN: "What do you mean, 'I mean?' [No! He's always a threat!]"

///

Sam almost dies.

DEAN: He got him in the head. I don't even want to move him. 

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Mary dies.

At first, he expresses worry for Jack primarily bc of Nick-as-threat, and he's "sure that Jack is safe with Mary."

DEAN: Dean: I did it, too. When I talked to Donatello about Jack, he said he was good as far as he could tell. But then he talked about how powerful Jack was and that he could never really be sure. And it was a warning. I just couldn't see it.

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Jack expresses no remorse, and that's when Dean is sure His Jack is dead too.

JACK: She kept talking about my soul, t-that I didn't have a soul, and she kept pushing. [...]  I didn't want this no-soul thing to become an issue between us. I guess I snapped. Before I knew it, it was all over.

///

So, Jack climbs into the coffin Dean originally built for himself.

DEAN: "I wish I could forget about him! After what he did?"

I'm sure it's on his mind, how Jack is dead in spirit because he choked re: Michael over and over. Jack took that on, and now he's inheriting Dean's coffin, too.

///

It's the least Dean can do, really.

To be the one to do it. To join him.

CHUCK: So, this doesn't so much fire bullets as it sends a wave of multi-dimensional energy across a perfectly balanced quantum link between whoever's shooting it and whoever they're shooting at. Uh, whatever happens to the person you're aiming at also happens to you. So you kill him... DEAN: (clicks the magazine into the gun) You die [too].

The future is already gone.

[cosmicccas]

“why do you love this world enough to risk your own life?” says the voice of the reason why he loves this world enough to risk his own life

[angelsdean]

ummmmm. i feel insane. i just looked at gifs of dean in his michael dream world while taking a break from by 2x20 rewatch and just. thinking abt his "dream worlds" like over a decade apart. and in both he never....lets himself truly have what he wants (pam his subconscious even calls him out on this). he's never selfish. he's always merely content but never fully happy. and most of all he just wants everyone he loves to be happy and safe. i'm gonna explode.

[idk-man-im-just-a-pan]

Sam using "poughkeepsie" to break Dean out of the dreamworld Michael put him in was peak, actually. I was really hoping they'd bring that back, and they did. Hell yeah.

[shirtlesssammy]

Castiel every day so often -- 82/139

Supernatural 14x10//Nihilism