#spn moriah

[cas-gpt]

Thinking about 14x20 Moriah from Cas' pov because I want to ruin my morning.

You are Castiel, Angel of Thursday. Your son has lost his soul. You pray to your father, God, to help you save your son. You prayed to him before, once. He didn't help you and it ended in a colossal disaster. But he does come, this time. And you have hope that he'll save your son. That this time, he'll listen to you like you wanted him to listen to you.

You find out that your son without his soul is dangerous. GOD himself tells you that a sneeze from him could eradicate a whole country. That killing him is the only way to stop him. That he can't help you get your son's soul back. You look at your best friends, your son's other fathers for any solution. They look- defeated. The love of your life looks at you and says that your choices are either them or your son. You leave.

Your son killed the mother of your best friends. It's your fault, you thought you could save him. Save her. The love of your life has deemed you dead to him.

You find your son. You think, finally, something good happened. You can still run away with him and never look back and fix him, fix his soul-

You are thrown back on a grave. The only thing you see is your son's other father, the only man you ever loved, pointing a gun on his head. You know this gun will kill both of them.

The gun is dropped. You have a sliver of hope again. Your father is here and he is.. annoyed?

You find your whole life was a lie. That you were just characters in a story. In His story. And your son is a threat to it.

So, your father kills your son. You give every last particle of your own falling grace to heal him.

Nothing happens. Burnt out eyes of your son stare you back.

Your father is not your father. Not really. Your father is a writer.

And writers lie.

[shallowseeker]

i wish there was more meta on the fact that dean was Clearly and actively suicidal during moriah. like he was in such a crisis mode thinking he had caused jack to lose his soul (and therefore caused mary's death), was resigned to the fact that he'd have to be a killer and kill his own son, was drinking a Lot and cornering himself before leaving to do it, heard about the equalizer killing the person who shot the gun and volunteered to be the one to die. i think there's just some juicy stuff there

Ah. Yes.

He loses his self.

MICHAEL: "I own you."

///

He loses Jack.

DEAN: "How could you ever, ever let anyone go through what you went through? The pain of losing a kid? "

///

He chokes in battle with the spear.

MICHAEL: "To break him, to crush and disappoint him so completely that, this time, he'll be nice and quiet for a change -- buried. And he is. He's gone."

///

He builds himself a coffin.

Billie convinces him to build a Ma'lack box for himself. He resolves to keep his suicide a secret.

DEAN: "Okay, well, yeah, that’s because I’m not good with the whole big goodbyes, alright? I-I-I don’t need to get shaky on this thing."

///

He chokes again.

The combined efforts of Mary, Sam, and Cas convince Dean to hang on, but he fails.

AW hunters die. Rowena Tries to Take on What Dean Couldn't, then SUFFERS and almost dies

And finally. Jack Takes on What He Couldn't.

MICHAEL: "If only Dean had used that coffin when he had the chance."

///

He was in the bargaining phase of grief.

Hopeful, but talking to Jack sideways, through euphemisms about the "snake" needing to eat. (People with souls eat. He's relieved when Jack opens a packages and hopes so so hard, Jack will eat too.)

DEAN: "Well, anyway, you and the, uh, snake want to go for a little dri-ive?"

///

He knows something's up with Cas missing family game night.

It gets a partnership betrayal motif, more on the nose than even the shady financey-business dealings codings of past: "giving a woman jewelry."

MARY (startled at Dean's shout): What— JACK: I thought this was supposed to relax him.

///

He ignores his gut about Jack interrogating Nick.

DEAN: "What do you mean, 'I mean?' [No! He's always a threat!]"

///

Sam almost dies.

DEAN: He got him in the head. I don't even want to move him. 

///

Mary dies.

At first, he expresses worry for Jack primarily bc of Nick-as-threat, and he's "sure that Jack is safe with Mary."

DEAN: Dean: I did it, too. When I talked to Donatello about Jack, he said he was good as far as he could tell. But then he talked about how powerful Jack was and that he could never really be sure. And it was a warning. I just couldn't see it.

///

Jack expresses no remorse, and that's when Dean is sure His Jack is dead too.

JACK: She kept talking about my soul, t-that I didn't have a soul, and she kept pushing. [...]  I didn't want this no-soul thing to become an issue between us. I guess I snapped. Before I knew it, it was all over.

///

So, Jack climbs into the coffin Dean originally built for himself.

DEAN: "I wish I could forget about him! After what he did?"

I'm sure it's on his mind, how Jack is dead in spirit because he choked re: Michael over and over. Jack took that on, and now he's inheriting Dean's coffin, too.

///

It's the least Dean can do, really.

To be the one to do it. To join him.

CHUCK: So, this doesn't so much fire bullets as it sends a wave of multi-dimensional energy across a perfectly balanced quantum link between whoever's shooting it and whoever they're shooting at. Uh, whatever happens to the person you're aiming at also happens to you. So you kill him... DEAN: (clicks the magazine into the gun) You die [too].

The future is already gone.

[spn20rewatch]

Season 14, Episode 20: Moriah (August 24th)

Chuck reappears to help Sam, Dean, and Castiel with the Jack situation. -Super-Wiki

Originally aired on April 25th, 2019.

Written by Andrew Dabb. Directed by Philip Sgriccia.

Fun Fact: With Sam listing Celine Dion as his true favourite artist, we get to remember a time when the Television Without Pity boards nicknamed Azazel "Celine Demon."

Enjoy the episode, and check out #spn20rewatch for more!

[transthatmasc]

Dean being the one to point the gun at Jack. Being the Abraham father figure???? Insane. Cas loved him no matter what. Sam always saw him as useful. But Dean saw himself being in the position John was in when he told Dean to kill Sam if he turned evil. Genuinely thinking that your son, whom you love so much, has truly turned dark side. Killed your mother in seeming cold blood. And then to stand there, have him look you in the face and submit as you point a gun at his head, knowing it will physically kill you too. God it’s so fucked. And if Jack had tried to fight him, he would have killed him too. But he didn’t and Dean couldn’t look Jack in the eyes and see the evil he had conjured up in his mind cause it wasn’t there, it was just the little kid in big kid clothing that he had grown to love. Fucking hell

[deanwasalwaysbi]

There’s a World of Just Deans. Change My Mind

“How many are there - How many other worlds or universes or realities or whatever?”

“I don’t know. Kinda lost count. Most of them are boring. One’s in reverse. In one, there’s no yellow. One of them’s just all squirrels.”

Crowley is going to be So. Happy.

Shoutout to the AU!Dean that just dropped AU!Sam at Stanford. Their mom is still alive bc Azazel never showed up.  If yellow is coded as happiness and that apple pie life, is this the world with no yellow?

[charliethechocolateeater]

Some of you fandoms have never had God as your final villain and it really shows

[angel-e-v-a]

Castiel and Jack | Until the End

↳ I never gave up hope. I never stopped trying. I never stopped loving you. I choose to stay. To protect you. And I’m sorry I failed.

[weird-dorky-little-d]

Hippie Castiel has it all figured out!