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[findingemmaa]

I hope that one day you get a daughter; and I hope you look at her and realize your fear of anyone ever breaking her heart. And in that moment, I hope you think of me and how you tore me apart, and I hope you feel sick to your stomach.

- I hope you’ll be sorry. // E.A.

[everydxyblvck]

It was stupid of me to have hope. Hope always tears me apart in the end, I always have false hope and it only leaves a dull ache where my heart is supposed to be.” She sighed, her eyes looking down to the ground. After a moment, her dark eyes peered up at me. She looked at me for a second before speaking, her voice trembling. “Don't do that to yourself, have hope that I'll be there for you and that I'll stay because false hope will only end up breaking you. It will be the thing that shatters you inside.

Everydxyblvck (via instagram)

[findingemmaa]

I no longer can decide what hurts more; living without him or living with him

E.A.

[findingemmaa]

Apology

“ I am sorry, it wasn’t my intentions to hurt you. I just wasn’t ready to love someone. 

I am sorry, I put you through sleepless nights with pillow thoughts at 3 am. I am sorry I didn’t show up at your mom’s birthday even though I knew how much you looked forward to introducing me to your family. 

I am sorry I didn’t hold your hand that night in front of her, I am sorry I made you unsure of whether or not you are good enough . Because you are. 

I am sorry you had to smile through days when you all you needed was to cry. I am sorry you couldn’t tell your friends about this, because you didn’t want them to hate me. 

I am sorry for making you arrive late a lot, even though you are the one person who always shows up early. 

I am sorry for never taking you out on a real date, though you often asked me if we couldn’t go to the movies. 

I am sorry I made you question everything we have ever been by making one mistake, and I am sorry for not thinking it was a mistake to sleep with her.

And I am sorry to next man that gets to love you, because I ruined your faith in love. “

    - The words you never told me. //E.A. 

[findingemmaa]

“Please, can’t you just forgive me? I didn’t mean to hurt you. “ you said, taking one step closer to me - “ I can’t just forgive and forget this, John. That’s not how it works”, I said taking two steps back - “ But I love you. I really do”

I smiled at you, keeping my tears from falling “ But telling me now, the day after you spent the night at her place, is just a little too late. Choosing to drive over to her place instead of mine yesterday, was also the choice of leaving us”, your eyes were blank at my reaction. I think, it was the first time I saw you weak, I continued “ Sometimes, you just have to live with the consequences. You chose her over me. That was your choice, we aren’t getting through this one” I said, ending the conversation. 

- That day I didn’t look back. // E.A 

[existential-whale]

Writing Prompt #1

A mortal befriends an immortal who once loved another. They ask him/her to tell them about him/her. They regale the mortal with stories of love and happiness, hardship and heartbreak, loneliness and sorrow. Then something inside the mortal falls into place. Suddenly they’re in front of the immortal. He/she looks them in the eye. “Finally...I found you.”

[ota-dream]

TGIF “ Tell me about yourself,” “well,I say, then pause to think for a moment. “I guess I love the feeling of summer wind in my hair, but I also love crisp breezes of fall. I love to sing, and I also love to listen to music. I’m on my phone way too much. I could live in pajamas but I also love cute dresses.” I pause and smile. “But those are just a few things I like, and I’m guessing you want to know more about me.” “I’m shy...” from #storiesiwillneverwrite • • • . #style #fashion #ootd #styleoftheday #outfitpost #love #dfw #igdaily #lifestyled #photograph #inspiration #potd #beautiful #beauty #whatimwearing #whowhatwear #asseenonme #selfportrait #letsdream #otadream #asos #withlove #tgif #peasanttop #hm #details #bw #vintage #blogger #fashionblogger

[findingemmaa]

“I know”, I yelled from the top of my lungs, “I know I am not as good as her. I know you love her. I can see it in your eyes. I can see the way that not only your mouth but your entire face smiles and lights up when she enters the room. Everyone sees.” Without realising, tears were streaming down my face. He looked at me closely and said, “ I really did care about you, but I guess, I care more about her now. She makes me a better person. She sees whom I could become“.

- I saw that too, a long time ago... //E.A. (Via a1000thoughts) #1