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Still substituting, still unsure what the “appropriate” in “the kids can go on YouTube afterward, as long as it’s appropriate” means.
I can barely handle doing chores I’m terrified of getting a job… I’m lucky I’m still supported by family but it won’t last forever and I want to be independent but I’m terrified I won’t be able to have a normal job. I have the energy to do like 4 chores on a good day. I used to have so many dreams about what I’d do when I grew up and now all of those just seem impossible. My mobility aids like my knee braces and forearm crutches help some but they don’t do a lot tbh. I start as a substitute teacher for my local school district in the fall and I think that’ll be okay, but I’m still scared.
Part of me believes I should just go back to the office job I had with state gov, even though it's full time..
My fatigue is much better. Maybe it won't matter that my body feels like it's in constant pain?
I dun fucking know. Substitute teaching is the only job with my bachelor's where I can choose the days I work. I feel like I should at least try it first. I have a tendency to give up on something that's new before I even do it.
Just sucks I have to wait til the new school year starts to even see if I like it.
I love that kids have no concept of Adult Ages until roughly their junior year of high school. Like today, while substitute teaching 4th grade, this happened:
11-year-old Student: Hey Ms. Tadhg, did you know that you're taller than most women your age from Japan?
Me: Am I? That's an interesting fact. How tall are they?
Him: Five-foot-two. And you said you're five-foot-five. So that makes you taller based on the average.
Me: True and correct! But how old do you think I am? That might change the averages.
Him: I dunno. Like nineteen.
Buddy I am 28.
there was always this trope that teachers' lounges are cool and interesting as someone who substitute teaches - they are not
No, I don’t “hate kids”. In my job as of right now I can’t hate kids. I work in education. What I do hate however is the current scope of parenting and that the burden of following through with saying no and following through with consequences is placed on me and not by the parents at home first. I hate that these kids are so overstimulated they think I need to feel the same way they do inside, so they do everything in their power to stress me out on purpose. I hate that no one teaches them at home to refrain from pushing boundaries with strangers and that respect has to be earned by an adult when I come from a basis of mutual understanding. I hate that parents and admin will believe student behavior over what I would try to manage. I hate that I’m seen as nothing more than a warm body in the room and they treat me as if I’m lesser than and stupid. I hate that they think it’s normal to use adults like pawns to get their own way and I hate that most of my time in a classroom is wasted on behavior Managment than an actual lesson and they don’t realize how rude they’re being to me. So yeah, lately I get more annoyed at children in public because I’m reminded of it. I don’t “hate children” I hate when they have tantrums and cry so loud it hurts my ears. I hate even more when the parent isn’t actually doing anything to try and de escalate and ignores them. I hate sloppy parenting. I hate the lack of accountability from home to match what’s at school.
Being a substitute teacher is so funny because all day I’m like
"Lines on being asked my age by a middle schooler while substitute teaching at my former middle school" - a quatrain written 1/22/2024