diagnosed with hyperandrogenic pcos with insulin resistance and i have symptoms of some form of cah likely ncah and i am so angry at myself and im so afraid of getting type 2 diabetes because its my fault. trigger warning for weight talk and internalized fatphobia but i stupidly decided to weigh myself and I went up 3 whole pounds within a week. i feel so angry at myself because im eating breakfast again and not constantly exercising so i know its from that and im afraid im gonna give myself diabetes if i get back up to 200 again. I dont want to let my mom down because she would totally blame it on my eating habits because she blamed it on her own despite her having hyperandrogenic pcos with insulin resistance and likely ncah most likely. and i am just at a loss of what to do. my a1c is low enough to be reversible but im scared it'll go into diabetes if I go back to 200 lbs and I am already mid fat to super fat at my typical weight (within 180-220 lbs) and I don't want to be the one whose problems are all my fault im already blamed for being bald because "the fatter you are the more androgens you have" according to my endocrinologist and dermatologist im sick of it i just want to stop feeling too "masculinized" to not have sympathy
(sounds rough. hope it gets better for you soon.)










