#technically applicable...........but not quite...........

[mormonculturememes]

happy sunday i'm 500 years late to the trend as usual

[leeny-leens]

11.12. — bf!Damian Wayne x Reader

wc: 3.39

A minor disagreement escalates into something far bigger than it needs to be—but all Damian wants is to kiss you.

warnings: medstudent!Damian, Damian and Reader go through it, fighting, angst with a happy end, fluff, hurt/comfort, ft. Jon

an: ⌯⌲ Dedicated to @justjjkin : Thank you Chungus for always being the most supportive and fun person when it comes to indulging weirdness or randomly hating on life and people.

tags: @viperify @suprclark @revesephemeres @mxxnechos

Event Masterlist

The argument started over something trivial, as most of your arguments do. Truth to be told, Damian can't even remember what it was about.

Actually that's a lie.

Damian remembers everything you say to him, including all the trivial ways your arguments start.

Still, the point is it was something so insignificant and silly—it shouldn't have turned into a full blown fight. Not the kind of fight that has Damian wandering around the cold streets of Gotham in the middle of the winter, hands shoved deep into his pockets and mind a mess.

He supposes the tension has been slowly building, collecting dust on the shelves of your daily life until it got too much and you had to clear it out.

He's been busy for the past month and a half. Like the ‘he wakes up before you're even thinking of waking up and falls into bed hours after you've already drifted into sleep’ kind of busy. He barely calls or texts you throughout the day—hell, he barely has time to eat, drink or breathe.

Between classes, exam preparation, his hospital internship, his part-time job at Wayne Enterprises and the helping out with several open cases his family is working through Damian hasn't had much time to do anything but work and worry about the next big thing he needs to get done.

He knew this would happen of course, had been mentally prepared for the stress that would come with the end sprint of his final semesters as a med student and trying to balance both studying and working. He declined his parents' offer to pay for anything even though it would alleviate his stress. He wanted this to be something he did completely on his own—no short cuts, no interference. The most help he took was the job at Wayne Enterprises, but even for that he waited until a slot opened and went through the entire application and interviewing process like any other applicants. In fact, he’d done it over a different name—Thomas Landor, which was technically still a name he used back in Nanda Parabat on occasion—so that no one could claim he received some sort of favouritism or internal help.

But no amount of planning could quite prepare him for the sheer volume of work and exhaustion he’d be facing. His days consist of commuting between places, heavy bags filled with books and stacks of reports he needed to look over and so much caffeine his intake is starting to rival the entire family put together.

Was it hard not being able to spend much time with you? Absolutely yes it was. More often than not he found himself longing for your presence and comfort, whether it be through just hearing your voice or stealing glimpses at you when you're not looking. It pained him to not be able to see you as often as he'd like—or much as he’s used to, he literally lives with you for Christ’s sake—but you were so understanding it nearly rivalled the nature of saints.

Everyday you sent him morning greetings and night wishes, with not a complaint about waking up and falling asleep without seeing him. You texted him throughout the day, sending pictures and messages he tried to read between shift changes and bus rides but rarely ever had the energy to reply to.

You never complained about the lack of answerr, only continued texting him and sending little reminders in between.

08:09 a.m.

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): Good morning Handsome!! Titus and I are having a relaxed start to the day :D

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): [3 Attachments]

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): Make sure to drink and eat a bite whenever you have time, take care!

02:14 p.m.

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): saw a piano in the window of the instrument shop downtown and it reminded me our first date where you played a song for me

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): I love you so much

07:34 p.m.

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): leaving some leftovers for you on the table whenever you come home ♥️

11:56 p.m.

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): [2 Attachments]

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): just did my skincare and now of all times Alfred decided to plop on my face 😐

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): your daughter is a brat and doesn't want me to sleep smh

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): jk I love cuddling her. Goodnight from the both of us, get home safe and sound to us okay?

Nur Eyuni (Light Of My Eyes): بحبك يا عمري ❤️

(I love you my life ❤️)

A part of him knew of course that your patience would run out at some point, that you couldn’t live with this new rhythm without some sort of conflict arising. He knew it, deep down, but some childish, naive part of him wanted to believe it may not happen after all. Like perhaps, you both might be okay with the lack of time and the exhaustion plaguing you like ghosts in a graveyard.

Reality wasn’t as kind as he hoped it to be, so of course the conflict arose sooner or later. It had been building, brewing steadily in every swallowed back retort, in every irritated glance you masked, in every complaint he kept to himself because you two wanted to keep the peace.

So when the weekend rolled around and the stars aligned in a favourable enough constellation to let Damian have Monday and Tuesday off from all his responsibilities, the break came with a price.

He’s spent the majority of Saturday helping you with household chores, a very brief grocery run and keeping you imprisoned in his arms in your shared bed after you were done. Food had been ordered from your favorite palestinian takeout—a small family owned restaurant that you’ve been frequenting for years now. Damian’s fairly sure half their revenue comes from you both alone—instead of cooking because neither of you had the energy or the will to get up and stand in the kitchen.

Already then there had been underlying tension in the way you observed him move through the apartment, almost like you wanted to say something but changed your mind at the very last minute. He would’ve asked about it, but he had a feeling it would shatter what little serenity settled into his bones—selfishly, he chose to ignore it just this once.

A fatal mistake, as the next day would prove.

Somehow you both had been in a mood from the very start—you irritated, him exasperated. You wanted to do so much and be productive, all he had the energy for was to make some tea and settle into his favorite leather armchair to read a book.

”Would it kill you to actually go outside for once?” You muttered under your breath, eyeing him and the book in his hands.

He didn't even bother looking up, continued to sip on his tea and tried to keep the sharp reply bubbling up inside him at bay. “I already spend my entire week outside, so yes it might actually kill me if I go out any more.”

You didn’t respond and out of the corner of his eye, Damian could see you biting the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from saying anything else. Instead you retreated into the kitchen, where the clatter of ingredients and tools filled the tense silence.

The smell of butter and berries drifted over into the living room—the kinds that indicated you stress baking a pie to cope with whatever was happening.

Half an hour later he heard the fridge slamming, followed by furious footsteps and curses in every language you knew how to curse in.

”Did you leave the fruit jam open on the table yesterday?” Your tone is calm, a stark contrast to how you just barreled into the room.

Damian makes the mistake of not looking at you when he answers. “I think so? I thought you wanted to use it after me.”

”Yeah well I can’t use shit anymore because it’s gone moldy now.”

He finally looks up, annoyed at the accusation in your voice. “You could’ve put it back yourself, Beloved.”

Those words are exactly what break the camel’s back and unleash every brittle and uncontrollable irritant you’ve kept bay.

Somehow the fight evolves from arguing about moldy jam to jabs about his absence and lack of interest in you and your relationship. He couldn’t hold back—didn’t have the restraint to keep his own opinions and defense away and responded in kind. Accusations of too much time on your hand and too little on his, on the inability to keep busy when he isn’t around and disastrous time management on his end.

Words that cut deep. Insults said in the heat of the moment. Sharp glares and verbal daggers meant to incapacitate.

By the end of it his book lay abandoned halfway across the room, his chest heaving and your eyes blazing with feral rage. He looked at you, your tears catching in the low lights of the living room he still remembers picking with you when you first moved in together. The sight shattered whatever anger and fight was still left in him. You looked so vulnerable, so hurt and pained—all because of him. The one person he swore to hear out and not hurt.

The realisation dizzies him so much the world begins to spin. He stands up, strides to the door and grabs his jacket and scarf in passing, completely ignoring your calls that barely register through the ringing in his ears.

Before he knows it, Damian is out on the snow flooded streets of Gotham, weathering a mild snow storm without a goal in sight.

He walks for hours on end, replaying every moment of your fight down to the way you breathe before you snap.

When that gets too much, he dissects the entirety of the last month and a half.

He wants clarity. He wants something to hold onto. He wants a reason to stay mad. He wants to be right about this.

All he comes up with is a gnawing emptiness that spreads through his body like the plague. He can't pinpoint who's fault it is—a bad habit he's actually long since left behind, but he occasionally still falls into it—but a part of him knows it doesn't matter.

Maybe he was wrong and you were right. Maybe he was right and you were wrong.

He doesn't know it exactly, but he's coming to the realization it may not matter much at all.

When he gains awareness of his surroundings again, he finds himself in some lone, abandoned playground. The only source of light are the few strewn about street lamps, illuminating the winding paths and the overgrown bushes that cover most of the area.

Damian spins in circles, trying to figure out why and how exactly he ended up here, only for the memories to resurface in violent waves when he sees the crooked swings.

Your first kiss on those swings, barely fourteen and without a care for what the world might think of your love. He can practically see the ghost of you leaning into your own swing seat so your shoulders are touching. He remembers the way you turned your head, looked at him with the kind of clarity and respect he didn't have to fight to earn. He leaned to kiss you, clumsy and inexperienced in all things feelings but by God had it been the best kiss of his life.

He thinks his mind and body may be conspiring against him by leading him to the very place your relationship started. It pains him, highlights the way your fight has rendered him weary with exhaustion.

His phone is in his pocket, vibrating constantly to a point he can no longer ignore. Dozens of messages and missed calls greet him—some from you, others from his family and friends. The most recent one, sent only a minute ago, is from Jon.

He unlocks his phone, clicks on the notification and is not so surprised to see a barrage of messages waiting for him.

Jon Kent (Hayseed): I heard about the fight and how you left without saying anything

Jon Kent (Hayseed): are you okay? do you want to come over so you can have some space from the city?

Jon Kent (Hayseed): I can get you

For a brief moment, he considers it. He considers running away to gain some space and room to breathe. Maybe it would do the two of you well before you talk it out. Maybe the space will help and allow you to breathe a little better.

As soon as he thinks of it, he throws the thought far away. His heart swings back to you, unable to even seriously consider leaving you and being apart for longer than necessary.

He hesitates before typing back a reply, but his mind is already all made up about his next course of action.

Me: There's no need, I'll be returning to the apartment shortly. I merely stepped out to clear my head and diffuse the tension.

Me: I appreciate the offer though, thank you for checking in.

He turns his phone off and makes the trek back to your shared apartment quickly, overcome with an urgency to be with you as soon as possible. The thought of you alone and overthinking the fight, reeling in loneliness and hurt by his actions is enough to tear him apart.

By the time he sprints up the stairs—taking the elevator would've taken too long—his jacket and hair are drenched in melting snow. He's mildly aware of the cold seeping into his bones, but he can't really bring himself to care about it. All he wants right now is to hold you in his arms and kiss you.

The entryway is dark, just like the rest of the apartment, he notes with concern. The living room is shrouded in perpetual darkness, just like the kitchen and the little office you both share. There's no light in the bathroom or your bedroom.

Worry begins to eat away at him until the sound of soft music drifts over from the balcony. Carefully, he makes his way over to the cracked open door only to find you settled on the long couch you both hauled out a few months ago.

You're curled into the corner, your phone on the small table crammed between the railing and the couch with music playing out loud while you watch the snow fall and dance.

“Your clothes are far too thin for this weather.”

You don't bother looking up, staring ahead without even a single twitch to signify you heard him. If he didn't know any better, Damian would've thought you to be a statue.

To test the waters, he crosses the short distance to sit beside you, the cushions dipping underneath his weight.

This time, you briefly glance at him from your peripheral vision, but you don't make an actual effort to look at him. Still, he takes it as silent acceptance of his presence. He sheds his jacket and scarf in one smooth move, draping the jacket wordlessly on your shoulders and wrapping the scarf around your neck. Without a word, you take the jacket and put it on properly, but extend the loose end of the scarf to him.

A silent invitation to share warmth.

He takes it gratefully, knowing that it is a small step—but a step nonetheless.

Silence stretches between you, fragile and battered like the snowflakes dancing in the wind. Logically, one of you should say something to start the conversation, but Damian can't bring himself to say anything yet. Instead, he basks in the heavy feeling of the fight, of the memories that come back in ripples, in all the tiny cracks he walked past for weeks on end.

He feels the way you lean into him, your head barely touching his shoulder and your warmth sleeping through the fabric of his sweater.

It's a silent display of support and everything he needs to gather his bearings. Your way of giving him first dibs on the conversation.

“I would like to talk about what happened,” he says carefully, his voice cracking on the words. You finally turn to look at him, though you sadly have to move away from his side to properly look him in the eyes.

“I'd like that too.”

You link your pinkies together and Damian thinks maybe he isn't as broken as he thinks he is.

“I think I should start this off with apologizing for my behaviour—I shouldn't have yelled at you, I shouldn't have left you alone and ignored your calls and messages. When I saw you crying I got scared things might escalate more, so I needed to have some space.”

You don't reply with words, instead humming and tilting your head to signal for him to go on.

With a stuttering breath, Damian allows the words to leave his throat, even if they scratch and hurt like needles.

He tells you about everything he's kept to himself. The horrible team he works with in the hospital. His supervisors that keep belittling him. The clients at WE who turn up their noses when they see him. The jokes that fly about his heritage. The notes he needs to memorize but they just won't stick in his mind. The stress of it all. The expectations. The need to make everyone proud. How much he misses you. The cases that don't have an end in sight.

He lays bare the ugly truth—the one he's desperately tried to hide from you. They aren't excuses for his behaviour, but rather insights into the part of his routine you don't get to see.

And when he's done?

You begin to talk. Your voice is quiet at first, barely a whisper. But it grows louder with each remark you spill. You tell him about loneliness. About the worry. About the never ending spiral in your mind. The way your heart aches every time you text him. About the stress at your work and the projects you're so behind on but can't bring yourself to actually care. About the way you feel selfish for wanting your routine back. About the way you keep missing things that are long since artifacts of the past. About how you wish he was there but you couldn't bring yourself to tell him, afraid he might feel burdened.

He listens with utmost attention, like he always does when it comes to you. Your conversation stretches on and on, until you both apologise and reminisce about the past. Until there is no more simmering bitterness beneath the surface. Until all you've kept away finally fades with the security of knowledge. Until the storm quietens and the world falls still. Until the first slivers of dawn stretch across the horizon.

Sometime through the course of the conversation, you slipped into Damian's arms, your head tucked into his shoulder while he held you close enough for you to hear the rhythmic thumping of his heart.

“I love you,” you murmur into his ear, eyes heavy with sleep and the knowledge that you've weathered another storm together.

“And I love you to the ends of the universe, ya hayati.”

His lips find yours in the sweetest, most gentle kiss you could imagine. It's an apology and promise at the same time—I’m sorry, let's do better together from here on.

“You're like oxygen that I breathe,” he whispers against your lips. It comes out of nowhere, enough to make you giggle at the snappy notion of incoherent babbling from Damian Wayne of all people.

“Oh yeah? So now I turn into carbon dioxide?”

Damian rolls his eyes, his head bumping yours gently but still in a chiding manner. “I was trying to be romantic,” he huffs.

“That needs some work, how about you try again after we sleep in till noon?”

“Excellent idea, let us go to bed now.”

The storm may have chipped away at the foundation of your relationship, but it's nothing you can't handle. After all, Damian and you are in for a lifetime—that much he knows is true.

[prettytheyswag]

tears

summary: It’s Sunday , and that means family dinner hosted at your house. Rafe insists he takes care of everything himself. He didn’t just cook dinner. He cleaned the kitchen , set the table and handled your family without flinching. And now ? Now he was about to be thanked. Thoroughly.

warnings: MDNI 18+ , husband!rafe x wife!reader , smut , unprotected p in v , praise , creampie , cum tasting , oral f receiving , explicit language , slight exhibitionism (kinda???), fingers in mouths

a/n: hey!!! Sooo how do we feel??? lmk your thoughts ?? as always likes make me giggly and re-blogs earn you a kiss (on the cheek cause I’m not ab to get my shit beaten up by wifey)

words: 5k+

It started with the smell. 

Wafting butter, rich and golden. Rosemary , fresh and earthy. Garlic, sharp and comforting. 

The kind of smell that seeps into your hair and clings to your clothes, wrapping around you like a secret you want to share but can’t quite put into words. The kind that makes your guests pause in the doorway, catching their breath just long enough to ask for the recipe before they’ve even kicked off their shoes. it floats up the stairs in slow, tantalizing curls, winding through doorways and drifting beneath cracks, wrapping itself around your senses like a promise. 

Or a threat. 

Somewhere downstairs, a drawer slams shut. A pan clicks against another, metal ringing in the quiet house. Rafe swears under his breath, low and quiet, like a man who’s pretending he’s got it all under control, that he’s responsible enough and doesn’t need your help.

It’s Sunday. 

Family dinner day. 

And Rafe? He’s thriving. 

You’re still upstairs, standing in front of the mirror next to your vanity, reapplying your lip gloss with slow, deliberate strokes. The kind that shine more than they color. You pause halfway through, the applicator hovering mid-air. Not because you want to be fashionably late but because you’re lingering. 

Listening. 

Watching the clock on the wall tick closer and closer to the familiar chaos, the storm that always brews on Sundays. 

that storm that somehow always feels like home, even when it’s loud and messy and full of love, while your kitchen runs like a machine operated by one man in a red-striped apron.

You take a breath, slow and steady, feeling it fill your lungs like something sacred. smoothing your hands down the front of your dress, fingertips grazing each small button like they mean something. Like each one is a word in a sentence you’re too proud to speak out loud. They sit snug against the fabric, delicate, intentional. Little secrets wanting to be uncovered. 

This dress isn’t for your mom. Not your dad. And definitely not for your brother. 

The dress is for him. 

For Rafe.

Because for the last two hours, Rafe has been moving around your kitchen with the calm precision of a man who was made for this. Slicing. Sautéing. Tasting garnishes like they’re telling a story. 

you hear the faint scrape of the knife against the wooden board, the soft hiss of something delicious sizzling in the pan.

The hardwood stairs creak softly under your heels as you make your way down, slow and quiet. You don’t mean to sneak, you just want to catch him in the moment, unfiltered, unaware, fully focused on his task. 

He’s plating the salads, using those big strong hands with care like tongs would insult the delicate greens. A white kitchen towel is slung over his shoulder like it belongs there, worn in and perfect.

He hasn’t even noticed you yet. 

And thats what gets you the most. 

How focused he is. How serious. Like this isn’t just dinner, its art, war , worship. 

You lean against the kitchen doorway, a small teasing smile on your lips.

“Hi, chef” 

He doesn’t lift his head. Doesn’t look at you. 

Just hums.

“stay out of my kitchen”

“Uh its technically our kitchen”

“Not when im searing scallops” he replies , still not looking up at ou “Go entertain”

You push off the doorframe and saunter over to him, bumping your hip to his. You’re close enough to see the delicious golden crust on the meat, the steam rising from the pan. Close enough to smell and taste the lemon zest on his fingers. 

He finally glances up at you. And there’s a flicker in his eyes.

Not irritation. Not surprise. Not even annoyance. 

Just pure heat. Barely contained. Quiet. Sizzling. Wanting. 

“I know what that dress means” he says , voice low and velvety. 

You bite back a smirk , blinking and feigning innocence 

“what does it mean?” 

He leans in. Close enough for you to feel the warmth of his breath against the skin of your neck. 

“It means I have to be good” he murmurs, “and you’re going to make it very, very difficult for me”

Before you get to reply, the doorbell rings, making you both pause. 

His eyes stay locked on your for a few seconds, but then he straightens, wiping his hands on the towel he had slung over his shoulder and steps around you to grab the wine. 

The house fills in a flash, like a bolt of lightning. 

Your parents arrive first, early as always, walking in like they own the place, carrying a bottle of wine that’s clearly been debated on the way here , and armed with unsolicited opinions about your new curtains before you’ve even had a chance to say hello.

Rafe moves to open the door, all easy smiles and warmth radiating from him like sunlight through a kitchen window. Their faces brighten immediately as they see him, a mixture of relief and fondness lighting their eyes. Like this is the son-in-law who didn’t used to be a literal feral menace but has somehow learned to tame himself, or at least pretend he can be trusted around your family.

“What is that? It smells amazing in here” your mother says , floating past you towards the kitchen. her voice is light, curious, but there’s a warmth underneath it, like she’s almost tasting the food through the air. 

“That would be the garlic confit” Rafe calls after her , already halfway back to the stove. 

“And the chicken is almost done. I remembered to brine it this time.” 

You blink, shaking your head with a half-smile.

“This time?”

He shrugs “Last time it was dry. Your bother didn’t say anything but I could tell by the look on his face”

You can’t help but laugh quietly. And the worst part? He’s not even joking. He can tell. Because Rafe notices everything. And that thought alone is enough to make you want to drag him upstairs by the apron strings around his waist and ruin dinner, him, and this responsible act completely. 

but then the doorbell rings again, and again. 

And suddenly your house is buzzing. 

Shoes kicked off next to the door. Laughter in the foyer. Someone opens the big window in the living room too far and lets the breeze in. 

The wine is uncorked, your uncle brings too much cheese and your aunt compliments your dress in a tone that doesn’t quite sound sincere. 

It should feel chaotic. But somehow, it doesn’t. 

Because Rafe is at the center of it all, steady and soft-spoken, the kitchen towel still casually slung over his shoulder like a badge of honor. He moves between stove and dining table with an easy grace, like this is exactly where he belongs, like this kitchen is his kingdom and tonight is his triumph.

which, honestly? It kind of is.

and thats what makes you feel unsteady. That’s what makes your breath hitch and your pulse quicken against your wrist. 

Because you’re not supposed to be this turned on by your husband talking about chicken stock with your mother. 

Dinner starts before you even sit down at the table. 

The clink of silverware, the murmur of conversation, the rustle of napkins, it all begins in the kitchen, spills into the dining room like a tide you can’t hold back.

And everyone’s eating it up.

Your aunt laughs, bright and easy, at something Rafe says. 

your brother, shockingly, doesn’t make a single sarcastic comment. Not one. Instead, he’s leaning in, nodding along, maybe even paying attention. 

even your dad, usually the toughest to impress, is quietly nodding, his brow lifted just enough to show he’s mildly, almost grudgingly, impressed.

But you?

You’re barely touching your food. 

Because you’re watching him.

Watching the way his brows furrow when he listens. The way his hand drapes over the back of your chair like he’s forgotten it’s even there. The way he makes everyone else feel comfortable,  and somehow, still makes you feel like the most important person in the room.

Because to him, you are. 

And oh he knows what that does to you. God, he knows.

Because every time your gaze lingers too long, he smirks, just barely and doesn’t say a word.

He wipes a bit of sauce from your lip with his thumb.

Soft. Casual. Like it’s nothing. It’s not nothing. Definitely not nothing. 

the pad of his finger pauses at the corner of your mouth. Just there. Lingering half a second longer than necessary. Like it’s savoring the moment, like it’s memorizing the exact curve of your smile. then, slow and deliberate, he brings that same fingertip to his own lips, licking it clean without ever breaking eye contact.

You forget how to breathe for a few seconds. Don’t breathe for four. 

And then he’s back to talking to your father about roasting techniques like he didn’t just make tears run down your thighs. Like it never happened. 

You sit beside him at the table, trying your best to play good host. To smile, to nod when it’s appropriate, to look like you belong here , just like he does, like your mind isn’t slowly unraveling beneath a pretty dress and a glass of overpriced wine.

But then Rafe’s hand finds your thigh. 

Under the table. Quiet. Still. Familiar. Hot. 

Like it’s been there all along, like it knows exactly where it fits. 

You take a sip of wine, swallowing hard, desperately trying to focus on your uncle’s banter instead of the slow, deliberate pressure of those fingertips playing with fire beneath the table.

He doesn’t look at you, doesn’t even pause in his conversation.

He’s good at this. At pretending. So fucking good. 

You shift restlessly in your seat, squeezing your legs tighter, if that’s even possible, and bite your inner cheek to make sure your expressions stay neutral. 

Rafe reaches for his glass, next to yours, fingers brushing yours, light, but intentional. 

No one would notice. 

No one does notice. 

You do though. You always do. 

You notice everything.

The way he tilts his head to the side when you speak, like he’s memorizing the sound of your voice all over again, like it’s something precious, something he wants to keep close.

The way he says your cousin’s name with perfect pronunciation, even though he’s only heard it once. Because he knows it’s important to you. 

The way he hasn’t moved his hand off of your thigh in over twenty minutes.

You sip your wine a little too fast. Set the glass down with shaky fingers. He doesn’t react, but his thumb presses a little firmer into the flesh of your thigh. Just once. A reminder.  

He’s enjoying this. 

Having you squirm without even doing anything major. 

It feeds him.

It’s his oxygen. 

“This is delicious, Rafe,” your mother says sweetly, fork poised mid-air, beaming with genuine approval.

He smiles at her, warm and polite, hand still not moving from your thigh. “It’s all her,” he says, nodding at you like you’re the secret ingredient behind every perfect bite. “She inspires me.”

And fuck. 

Fuck. 

Your fork nearly slips from your hand. Your legs are crossed together so tight by now, it makes your muscles ache, humming with the tension only he can create.

The compliment lands, but not where it’s supposed to land. It lands somewhere lower, much lower, somewhere warmer, somewhere that has nothing to do with roast chicken or family dinners. 

Youve never wanted to leave a room full of people more than you do now.

By the time dessert arrives, your patience is threadbare, worn thin like fragile lace ready to tear.

You’ve been good. Painfully, excruciatingly good. All phony smiles, practiced laugher when it’s necessary and polite little interjections when its appropriate, barely holding it together while your whole body burned quietly beneath the tablecloth, pretending that you weren’t unraveling at the seams.

Rafe’s hand had finally slipped away from your thigh, after nearly an hour of resting there like a secret between only you two, warm and steady and his. And now, standing at the end of the table like the perfect host he is, he passes around slices of fresh lemon cake with that effortless charm that makes your mother nudge you under the table, proud as ever of her son-in-law.

Youre not sure if this thing twisting inside you is emotional, chemical, or something more primal, something that hums in your bloodstream and makes your skin hum with need. it’s been building all evening, a slow-burning ache you’re desperately trying to hide behind a fragile smile.

The back of your neck is warm and tingly. Your skin feels too tight, making you want to crawl out of it. You’re not even sure you can taste the cake anymore. 

So you get up. Don’t even excuse yourself, not really, just murmur something vague about needing more napkins? Maybe coffee spoons? maybe a serving fork? If that even exists, and slip into the kitchen before anyone has the chance to stop your or follow. 

You brace your hands against the edge of the counter and take a deep breath, filling your lungs with air.

Not that it helps. 

Not at all. 

If anything, it makes things worse.

Because the air smells like citrus, vanilla and wine, the sharp tang of lemon frosting cut with sweet sugar and something darker, muskier, the unmistakable trace of him that still lingers like smoke in the warm pockets of the room. 

You bow your head and let your eyes flutter closed. 

Your knees feel wobbly and your thighs ache in that low persistent way that makes it difficult to stand still. 

And then, like all this isn’t enough. 

He’s behind you. 

Not really touching. 

Not speaking. 

Just hovering. Just there. 

You feel it all, the heat of his body radiating off him in waves, the weight of him, just hovering behind you like gravity has shifted and youre suddenly hyper aware of every inch of your body that isn’t touching his, even though it totally should be. 

And its unbearable. 

He’s close enough that his soft breath stirs the tiny baby hairs at the base of your neck, close enough that your heartbeat stutters in your throat, close enough that your fingers curl against the countertop on instinct, needing something to grip, because you are going to fall apart. 

“One more hour,” he whispers, voice low and wrecked, pressing a small kiss on your neck, the feel of it enough to make you gasp. “One more hour… and you’re all mine” 

Your lips part, not to speak, you’re not even sure you could if you tried, just to breathe. Because suddenly it feels like your lungs forgot how.

And then you nod, barely. Just enough for him to see. Just enough to agree to something you’d already promised hours ago without even speaking.

He sighs, like he’s barely keeping it together, like you’re not the only one who’s been losing your fucking mind all night.“You’re making it very hard to be good, baby.”

You exhale through your nose, grip the counter tighter. You bite down on a smile that wants to ruin you. You don’t look at him. You don’t dare.

Not until this house is empty.

The house is still warm with the memory of too many people, too many voices, laughter spilling from every room, clinking glasses, the quiet hum of family banter that had filled every corner.

But now? Now it’s just the two of you.

Fucking finally. 

You lean against the kitchen counter, arms crossed, eyes narrowing with playful accusation as you point a finger at him like he’s just confessed to a horrendous crime. “you are a menace”

He looks up at you from the pile of dishes, that stupid grin already tugging at the corners of his mouth like he’s been waiting for this moment.

“Sorry?” he says, all innocence and mischief. Like he knows you’re seconds from combusting and he’s got the match ready in his palm, just waiting to light the fuse within you. 

“I made dinner” he lists off,  all feigned innocence. “Set the table. Lit the candles. Got your dad to like me. Again.”

You scoff.

Actually scoff. 

“You made dinner like it was foreplay” 

He blinks, biting back a grin, tilting his head with mock curiosity.

“You brined the chicken” 

“Thats called effort” he defended, voice smooth but eyes dancing with amusement he’s desperately trying to hide.

“You coordinated the table settings by color scheme!” 

“Last time you said it looked nice” 

“You remembered my mom likes red and my brother can’t have tomatoes” you narrow your eyes, stalking closer.

“I listen when you talk, baby” 

Your hands fly up in the air like you’re trying to physically release the insanity.

“And then..then you touched me under the table for two straight hours while charming my entire bloodline like you weren’t slowly, methodically, ruining my life.”

He lets the towel slide off his shoulder, folding it with slow, deliberate care and placing it neatly on the counter. Calm. Intentional. Controlled.

Which only makes you unravel even more. If that’s even possible.

“You seemed fine,” he says, deadpan.

“I wasn’t fine. I am still not fine. I was sitting there soaked through my panties while you tasted sauces and licked your damn thumb off in front of my mother.”

He smiles then, not wide, just a twitch at the corner of his mouth, like he’s barely holding it together. “So you noticed.”

“Of course I noticed!”

You wave a hand back toward the dining room like it’s a crime scene.

“You were doing it on purpose. Stirring the butter like it’s a love language. Sliding your hand up my thigh like you weren’t talking to my dad about lawnmowers.”

He steps forward. Just one step. Slow and deliberate, like he’s approaching a wild animal. Or a ticking bomb. “Baby..” 

“No. Don’t ‘baby’ me right now.”

You jab a finger toward him like it’s a weapon, sharp and impossible to ignore.

“You gave my aunt decorating tips while literally fingering the edge off my dress under the table.”

“You looked so pretty in that dress,” he says, and it’s soft, like he’s saying it for the first time.

“Couldn’t help myself.”

He grabs you by your waist, effortlessly lifting you onto the marble counter like you weight nothing. The marble’s cold against the skin of your thighs, but his hands are hot, and they’re already pushing your dress up and parting your legs.

“Not fair” You whisper, but your arms instantly wrap around his neck, its instinctual. 

“Mmm I know baby,” he murmurs, warm lips finding their way to your neck, soft like a whisper of touch. “I know.” 

He lifts his hand, brushing it against the soft fabric of your dress, slipping open the first few buttons, leaning in and pressing burning kisses on your breasts, gaze never leaving yours. Not for a moment. 

you could feel the goosebumps upon your skin , delicate and unmistakable, and the way his touch made your breath catch in your lungs. 

He kisses his way up to the corner of your mouth, swallowing your breathy gasp with his tongue as his flat palm trails up the back of your dress.

You pull back , breaking the kiss, close enough that your noses still touch and your heaving chests press together,

“mm, you know,” you breathe, voice just above a whisper, a familiar lilt to your teasing. you swallow, eyes flicking up to meet his, then drifting back down to his mouth like muscle memory. “A little initiative can get you a very, very long way.”

His hands  rub up and down your thighs. Once. Twice. Like soothing a fever you both know he started. a breathy laugh escapes him as he plants another quick kiss, still not moving back.

“uh huh so does lip gloss and this dress, baby.”

He pulls back just enough to look at you properly, like he’s taking in the full picture. The slight flush on your cheeks. The rise and fall of your chest. Your breasts spilling out of the unbuttoned front of your dress. The way your hands are already curled in the fabric of his shirt.

And fuck.

he felt like the luckiest man alive.

He glances at the untouched plate of cake next to you on the counter. His teeth tug at his bottom lip, head tilted to the side.

“Did you not like my cake?” he teases, eyebrows raised, voice lazy and warm.

He slides the plate closer, digs his fingers into the lemon frosting, and brings them to your chest, smearing it over your breasts like he’s painting you in sugar. “Oh I really messed you up huh?” He murmurs with a grin.

Then brings his now sticky and sweet fingers to your mouth for you to lick them clean, pressing them on your lips. 

You obey. Parting your lips in response and taking his fingers into your mouth, licking and sucking the creamy frosting off of them. A soft moan escaping your lips as the sweet taste hits your tongue, making him groan in response. 

When you release his fingers from your mouth , his tongue darts out and he leans forward to lick all the frosting he smeared on your breasts. “Can’t leave you all messy, right?” 

He sucks, licks and kisses the sugar off your skin, cleaning up the mess he made with his fingers, not stopping until he’s satisfied. 

“Can’t” you moan arching against the counter and into his mouth, wrapping your legs around his waist, desperately pulling him closer, aching for the friction your body needs, and only your husband can provide. 

“mm shit it ran down all the way here” he slips open the rest of the buttons of your dress, making it fall open completely, leaving you in just your soaked lacy panties , exposing you to the cool night air and raising goosebumps along your burning flesh. 

He presses wet open-mouthed kisses down between your breasts and down your ribs, getting on his knees in front of you on the counter in the process, his lips not once leaving your skin and his eyes not ever leaving yours.  

He’s savoring every second of this, practically humming with every lick against your skin, there’s nothing he loves more than how you taste on his tongue, how your soft skin feels against it. 

His hands never leave you either, touching everywhere he can reach from his position. Her runs them up your calves and thighs hunting his fingertips are skimming the curve of your hips and the edges of your panties. 

“Rafe” you gasp , legs finding his shoulders as you grind your hips upwards,  urging him to continue “please don’t stop” 

“You’re so fucking perfect” he mutters, against the skin of your inner thigh, lips trailing up to kiss you through the lace of your panties and tongue lapping over the damp fabric. 

You close your eyes, the sensation of his touch sending a delicious shiver down your spine, as you arch your back against the counter , hands on his head, feeling his scalp under your fingertips. “Off— take them off!” you eagerly tug at the edges of your panties. 

“I got it” he gently swats your hands away, hooking his fingers on either side of them on the outside of your hips pulling the wet lacy fabric down your ankles and taking each foot to remove them completely. 

“Fuck” he groans as he’s met with your pussy, swollen and dripping for him. “Fuck baby look at you” he murmurs kissing your clit with a squeeze of his lips, making you whine. 

“Rafe please!” you gasp hips lifting off the counter and arching into his mouth “I need it!” 

The tip of is tongue circles your clit before licking a long stripe in between your glistering folds, his hands spreading your legs apart so he could taste you, settling in between your thighs. 

Pulling back from your pussy just to kiss the inside of your right thigh and suck on the left, before going straight back to flattening his tongue and tasting all of you, letting your juices drip down his chin reveling at the wetness of you.

 “You’re perfect” he repeats , his warm breath tickling your pussy. “Say it” he looks up at you, not moving from in between your  thighs. 

“Say what?” You moan lifting your head from the counter to look down on him, hand on the top of his head. 

“Say you’re perfect—say it” he pants against you, sucking your swollen clit as if to emphasize his point, his palm reaching up to feel your tit and squeeze the swell of it. 

“Im perfect” you arch your back as he rubs your hardened nipple, back arching off the counter and toes curling against his back. 

“Yeah you’re fucking perfect” he affirms watching your head fall back, your mouth fall open and the sharp bites of your nails scratching the cold marble counter. 

His hand slides up from your tit, reaching to grasp your chin between his fingers, forcing your gaze back on him “look at me” he murmurs, mouth still grazing your pussy in a way that makes your eyes roll back “c’mon let me see your face” 

“Rafe please-“ you gasp meeting his gaze with your own “please I need you baby!” 

He’s back on his feet in an instant, hands grazing the sides of your ribs and up your tits , with his teeth now dragging along your collarbone and then soothing it with his tongue, you reach and rub your thumb on his glistering chin, cleaning him off your juices.

You grab his face and pull him to your lips, tugging his lower lip in between your teeth getting to taste yourself on his tongue and then sliding your hand in between your bodies to feel his throbbing cock through his pants. 

He grunts against your lips, the sound low and desperate, before suddenly lifting you into his arms. His grip is firm, possessive, like he can't wait another second. He carries you up the stairs, taking the steps two at a time, barely breaking the kiss, like every moment not touching you is too long.

He tosses you on the soft mattress with a thump crawling on top of you in record time. You’re both panting, practically gasping for air like the kiss took everything you had and it would’ve gone on forever if you didn’t have the common sense to stop  to breathe.

Your hands slide down his sides, hooking your fingers in the waistband of his pants, one on each side. 

He leans back slightly, pulling his shirt off his head and throwing it aside without a care.

His only care was you. 

Warm fingertips trail down his hard chest,  following its heaving movements, and then down the ridges of his abdomen, making him flex the muscles unintentionally before reaching down the waistband of his pants working them off. 

He helps you, impatiently kicking them off along with his boxers, shoes and socks with a curse, making you giggle under your breath. 

God, you loved your husband. 

“Come here” you huff pulling him down by his shoulders and wrapping you legs around his waist. 

He follows you, leaning down and pressing open-mouthed kisses to your neck and jaw, his lips soft and warm against your skin. “Mm fuck I love you”

You pressed kisses on the side of his face, murmuring against his skin “I love you”

“Need you” he whispers against your jaw running his fingers over your cheek and into your hair. “Need inside you baby, need to be inside you now”

He runs his hand down your leg, grabbing the back of your knee and hooking it over his hip, making you grind upwards, pressing your hips to his. his swollen tip rubbing against your folds. 

“Please” you gasp, fingers clenching around his shoulders and nails digging into his back. 

“Please Rafe” you repeat. 

He doesn’t hesitate. 

Not for a moment. 

Letting your velvety walls envelope his aching hard cock. His forehead falling to your shoulder like its the first time. Savoring the feel of you swallowing him inch by inch. 

His breath hitched in his throat, eyes squeezing shut as he stays there, unmoving, filling you to the brim with one long, heavy, shuddering sigh against the skin of your neck.

“Perfect— my perfect girl” 

He draws back, almost all the way out, slowly, feeling every bit of you clenching around his cock but he doesn’t stop right away, only to slide right back in, all the way to your glistering hole, all the way home.

You don’t know what sound you make or if you’re even making any noise, it could be his name or a moan or a combination of both but they’re the only two syllables in the whole world that have any meaning right now.

“Harder” you gasp, gripping his shoulders like they’re your only lifeline. 

His hand slides down your waist and cups your thigh, fingers digging into your flesh, lifting your legs off the bed and spreading them even more, lifting your bottom up off the bed and changing the angle with an ease that makes your head spin. 

“Oh god” you whine, eyes rolling to the back of your head 

“oh fuuuck” he mutters, grunting in your ear, pulling out just to slam back into you even harder, deeper, balls slapping against your ass

“Fuck take it baby” 

And you do. 

You take it all. 

Everything he throws at you. 

He’s already throbbing inside you and you cant help but clench around him too. Its like a dance. A dance of sensations and muttered praises against your ear while he ruins you in the best way possible. 

“Mm just like that!” You moan, hips lifting up to meet his in a desperate movement. “Rafe, fuck!”

He reaches between your bodies, still thrusting in and out of you in a brutal rhythm, and circles your sensitive clit with his thumb. “Taking me so fucking well” 

“Im gonna—“ 

“Give it to me baby” he pants in your ear, “shit—cum all over my cock”

With a broken moan and an arch of your back off the bed and onto his chest, you do. Your orgasm hits you like a delicious full body sneeze you’ve been chasing after all night. You clench around him repeatedly. Milking his cock dry, letting every last drop of his cum paint your walls. 

He grunts into your neck, trailing hot lazy kisses up your mouth, his thrusts slowing down, turning sloppy yet deep and possessive. His cock pulling out just enough to fuck his cum back into you. 

“So full of me”

He collapses on top of you, just holding you like that for a long moment, before rolling off you and onto his back, puling you with him so your head was resting on his sweaty heaving chest. 

[andmaybegayer]

If you are interested in picking up Linux not as a "I want to be a technical user" thing but rather as a "I want a computer that will handle the average person's daily tasks and not spy on me" I think you should really look at an Atomic desktop system.

I highly recommend Fedora Kinoite, it's a very user friendly but still customisable desktop setup that can do just about anything you want without you ever having to dig into the command line.

The KDE Plasma desktop, in an atomic fashion

I run a variant of this on the computer I keep hooked up to my TV and I have not once been required to go into the command line from the second I installed it.

Atomic desktops like this are high reliability: if an update breaks the system, it'll automatically roll back to the last good version. You can install a huge number of useful programs from the app catalogue and it includes most things you could want: browsers, document editors, ebook managers, art tools, even Steam and Heroic for playing games. Basically, anything on Flathub:

Flathub - Apps for Linux

Find and install hundreds of apps and games for Linux. Enjoy Firefox, Telegram, RetroArch, GIMP and many more!

If you're a programmer or otherwise need access to command line tools, the way to do that is Distrobox, which runs almost any other distribution containerized with high intergration and minimal restrictions. Almost indistinguishable from a native system, very low overhead, if you install a GUI application in a Distrobox and launch it it'll appear seamlessly in your workspace with full access to your directory tree. I currently use this to develop my embedded stuff because a lot of that targets Ubuntu and gets mad when your python and compiler versions start deviating (ESP-IDF, ROS2, etc.)

Use any linux distribution inside your terminal.

This is a sort of necessarily locked down system, but it's distinct from, say, an iPad. The locks are not firm, if you really want to you can switch to root and modify the system and tear into the root tree and make any changes you want, BUT you will give up the specific benefits you chose an atomic system for. You can't really use general purpose Linux help for these systems because they'll suggest editing root config files or tweaking your packages but in general I've found in haven't needed to do those things unless I'm doing power user shit.

Using an app library interface can feel bad because it reminds you of smartphones but it's really quite different.

If you do go this route I recommend not trying to fuck with the root stuff, unless you are specifically trying to learn about immutable systems. This is a great choice for computers you want to just work, and the suite of stuff you can get in FlatPak is more than enough for most people, especially if all you do is web browsing, digital art, or gaming.

If you're really into gaming on Linux specifically, another good shout here is Bazzite, which is what I run on my handheld. It's a gaming focused build based on Fedora that has good hardware compatibility, even if you've heard horror stories about Nvidia on Linux from people like me.

Bazzite - The next generation of Linux gaming

Bazzite makes gaming and everyday use smoother and simpler across desktop PCs, handhelds, tablets, and home theater PCs.

[horrorthrills]

𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝙳𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚎

𝖯𝖺𝗋𝗍 3: 𝖤𝗇𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝖠𝗎𝗀𝗎𝗌𝗍

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And the feelin' of being alive, for the first time, in a long time

The Kents were lovely, you’re glad you got to meet such wonderful people. But Smallville was a temporary visit. And a few days later, you and your host family were back on the road for Metropolis at the start of July.

The stars got dimmer.

Your time left with the Lane-Kent family was becoming short, another few weeks and August will be here. Your last semester was on the horizon. Your life was about to begin.

Upon pulling into the driveway of the suburban home, a twist in your gut gnawed at your nerves. Time was ticking, but you couldn’t waste it on hesitation.

So when the car was unloaded and the bags were starting to get unpacked, you dug out your laptop and filled an application to the Getty for an internship in the fall.

When you hit submit, the anxiety that was running through your veins slowed to a stop.

Huh, the world didn’t end.

Now it was a waiting game.

You were out in the backyard with Jon while you worked on light plyometric and calithenic exercises for building back your strength.

During recovery, you lost a lot of your muscle mass. Being completely inactive for weeks will do that. You missed the feeling of being strong, but if there’s one thing about you, it’s that you always bounce back. Why do you think it’s called muscle memory?

Jon was to your left doing calf raises with you. You wondered if he actually needed to work out to help his super strength, since he was only half Kryptonian, or if it came naturally to him. Maybe he was just trying to be moral support. He was a sweet kid like that.

You switched over to lightly balancing on one foot to the other with a slight squat. Jon followed.

“How’s the flying going?” You decided to break the silence.

“I donno. I haven’t really tried lately.”

“Why not?”

The boy shrugged, “I guess I’m waiting for the energy shift.”

 That's not what you meant when you told him that.

“I don’t think you’ll get very far if you keep waiting for it.”

“But you said–”

“I know, but I didn’t articulate my thoughts fully.”

You sat down on the concrete patio and Jon sat with you.

“Change doesn’t happen overnight. You have to continuously work for it in order to see results. Just like how I have to do these exercises to rebuild the muscles I lost. And when I’m able to run again, I’ll have to start slow before I can go the distances I once could. Trust me, I know what it’s like to feel frustrated from a lack of results, but waiting around and hoping you’ll one day get it, without putting in the hours of effort, won’t lead to any progress. The shift in energy comes from all the hard work you’ve put in that tells you you're ready to go further.”

You hope that made sense. Honestly, sometimes you just open your mouth and start speaking from the heart without the words filtering through your brain first. 

Jon reflected on what you said.

“Huh, so how do I exercise my flying muscles?” He was completely serious.

You burst out laughing, he was just too cute!

Over the course of the following week, Jon would join you in the backyard while you tested your limits, and he would practice strengthening his “flying muscles”. 10 year olds were funny. 

All though, it was an interesting way to look at it. There are things about the body we don’t really think about, like how bones and muscles were technically organs. 

Were organs considered muscles? The brain was an organ, but you’ve heard it be called a muscle before. What else was? Was the body just one big muscle? 

The epistemic inquiry proved to be quite the exercise.

Wait a minute.

Oh, you’re a freaking genius!

If thinking could be considered an exercise for the brain, and the brain was the commanding center for nearly everything the body was capable of, then maybe for Jon the act of flying wasn’t a physical boundary, but a mental one! He had to change his state of mind!

“Hey, Jon. Try thinking about flying.”

He looked at you with a confused brow.

“I’ve already tried that, remember? I tried jumping out of a tree and pretending I was a bird.”

The thought was kinda funny.

“Maybe that was part of the issue. You were thinking about being something you’re not. Try visualizing yourself flying. And without jumping out of a tree or off a tall building, preferably.”

Jon nodded and closed his eyes. He took a deep breath, his face hardening in concentration. He stayed like that for a minute. 

Nothing happened. 

He released the breath he was holding.

“It didn’t work,” the boy complained.

“Well, yeah it didn’t work. It was your first try. You have to keep practicing. Also, breathe while you meditate. Cutting off oxygen to the brain will put you six feet under instead of six feet above. Try again. This time, maybe start smaller. Aim for half an inch off the ground.”

You never thought being a flying coach for a future hero would be something you’d do in your life. Too bad you can’t really put that on your resume. 

Jon tried again, this time staying in his state of concentration for nearly five minutes until he got bored.

“This is gonna take a while, isn’t it?” The young Padawan asked.

“If you wanna build your flying muscles, you’re gonna have to be patient and consistent. You can do it, Jon. I know you’re capable.”

As much as you’ve preached about patience, that was something you also struggled with.

July was almost halfway over and you still haven’t heard back about your internship application yet. The lack of response was making you restless and you couldn’t run out your frustrations either. It was like you were stuck in a cage constructed of days, hours, minutes, and seconds with no idea when the countdown would end or if it even started. 

You felt suspended.

You missed your stars. You haven’t seen them in a while. The light pollution made it difficult to see the night clearly. 

Realistically, you knew they were there. They were just hidden from view. But that didn’t mean you didn’t miss their glittering brilliance. 

In a way, they reminded you of your…they reminded you of the Waynes. Not your family. They haven’t been your family in a long time, if ever. 

The stars felt so far away. They were far away, farther than you were from Gotham. But in a way, they felt closer to your heart and soul than the place you once thought of as home. They gave you more comfort than you ever felt within the walls of Wayne Manor. They watched over you more than the ones who were supposed to keep you safe.

Stars felt more familiar than bats.

July was coming to an end and you had a little over three weeks left before the start of the fall semester. 

You’ve healed quite well by now. You could move your limbs in their complete range of motion and there was only a faint discomfort when you walked normally. 

Along with your exercise in the backyard, you’d go on walks with Jon, who’s become like a little brother to you, around the neighborhood. On occasion, Clark, Lois, or both would also accompany your walks as well. Not out of obligation, but because they want to. It warmed your heart that all three of them chose to spend time with you. They really knew how to make you feel wanted.

Currently, you and Jon were training in the backyard again. Lois and Clark decided to sit at the iron table on the back patio with their morning coffees while they watched the two of you do your thing.

You were barefoot on the concrete doing pogos while Jon sat close by in the grass in an upward meditative position, channeling his mind to visualize himself floating.

You were proud of the kid for sticking to the practice you suggested for weeks, it really showed his dedication and desire to learn how to fly. But without seeing any difference between then and now, you were starting to think that maybe you got it wrong. Seriously, what did you know about flying? That wasn’t something you could do, what were you doing telling a half-Kryptonian how to fly?

You kept your gaze to the point where the edge of the concrete meets the grass, keeping your core engaged while you jumped and landed on the balls of your feet, strengthening your calves, shins, and achilles.

A movement caught your peripheral and you abruptly stopped jumping as you saw what was happening. Your mouth parted in shock. A gasp from Lois behind you told you weren’t hallucinating.

Jon was hovering right over the blades of grass while sitting crisscross. His eyes were still closed in concentration. He had no idea he was flying! Well, floating, but still! He won the battle against gravity!

You glanced over at his parents, the glow of pride, awe, and excitement in their smiles mirrored your own. 

A silent conversation using expressions, hand motions, and lip reading took place between the three adults. How do you tell Jon without startling him and causing him to fall? Clark motioned you to say something since you were the closest to his proximity.

You sat at the edge of the concrete, not wanting to touch the lawn in case for whatever reason made you think that might disturb him.

You cupped your hands around your mouth.

“Jon,” you whisper-shouted. 

The boy hummed in acknowledgement. Good, he wasn’t accidentally asleep.

“Open your eyes.”

Jon fluttered his eyelids and looked at you expectantly. Your grin grew wider.

“You did it, buddy!” You kept your voice low, but the enthusiasm was there.

His eyes grew wide as he looked down, catching up with the rest of the family’s excitement. A joyous shout came from the boy as he looked back at you.

“I did it!” He cried. He looked over at his parents.

“Mom! Dad! I did it!”

Lois and Clark cheered for their son while he lunged at you, breaking out of his levitation. You caught him in a hug.

“You did it! You taught me how to fly!”

You laughed, “No, buddy, I was just a guide, You learned to fly on your own!”

Lois came over to help Jon up and developed him in a hug of her own.

Clark extended his hand to help you up. You accepted the gesture. But instead of letting you go, he drew you in and wrapped his arms around your back and held you tight. It reminded you of Pa Kent. Safe and warm.

A father’s hug. 

Ice cream was suggested and just as quickly as the warmth greeted you, it left just as fast.

You didn’t want it to go, but this moment wasn’t about you. Jon just hit a major milestone, he deserved to be celebrated for his accomplishments.

So, you made your smile bigger and met the family in the kitchen.

Who will celebrate you?

With the city lights blocking your stars, you didn’t have them to comfort you in the dead of night. 

It was just you and your thoughts as you tossed sleeplessly in the sheets of the guestbed. Because that was what you were. Just a guest. 

The Lane-Kent’s were great people. They were kind to open their doors to you. But this is not your home. This is not your bed. And this is not your family.

Your time was almost done here. Summer will end and you’ll be on your own. 

You always have been.

Lost and alone. 

No home. 

No family.

When you first came to this place, you felt guilty for being a burden. Now, you felt guilty for being jealous. 

You were jealous of Clark. He was seen as a blessing by Ma and Pa and welcomed into their family with open hearts. And you were jealous of Jon. He was fortunate to have parents who were there for him. They both were.

Their family was small, but at least no was forgotten about.

Each one of them; Ma, Pa, Clark, Lois, and Jon, were loved so fiercely by each other, they didn’t deserve your complex insecurities being projected onto them just because they had the things you wanted most in this lifetime. The type of things no amount of money Bruce’s card could buy. They’ve been good to you. They deserved the love they had.

You wished someone thought you were deserving of love.

August had just begun. You had 24 days left until the start of the fall semester and still no response regarding your possible internship. Hope was starting to slip through your fingers.

If you didn’t hear back soon, you were going to have to figure something else out. You might have no other choice than to return to Gotham.

The thought made your skin crawl.

You’d rather be anywhere else.

Was it too late to go hike the Triple Crown?

Seven days later you were at the kitchen table with your laptop open in front of you. Brows knitted and chin firmly supported in the palm of your hand while you scroll through the beginner Triple Crown hiker’s guides for safety tips and any mention of specialized equipment one might need for the journey. You know, just in case.

The intensity of your concentration earned curious and slightly worried looks among the family you were staying with. Clark was afraid you were about to pop a vein if you glared at your screen any harder.

You were looking at midweight wool socks when a notification pingged in the upper corner of your screen. 

You were about to ignore it since you got a lot of junk emails from organizations and heads of whatever departments at GCU you didn’t care about, until you got a glimpse at the subject line. 

You took a sharp inhale.

RE: Fall Internship Application

You clicked the notification.

You read the first line and gasped, shooting up from your seat.

“OH MY GOD!” you shouted.

Lois, Clark and Jon were startled when you started freaking out and jumped away from your laptop, laughing in disbelief. 

“I got it! I got it! I got it! Oh my God, I got it!” you chanted with all the excitement of a child on Christmas morning.

Lois, ever curious on what made you so giddy and acting like it was new years, angled your laptop and read documents out loud for Clark and Jon.

“Dear (name) Wayne, we are pleased to inform you that your application for the internship position at The Getty Center has been approved–ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!” She crescendoed when she read the name of the establishment from pure shock and amazement.

Now the entire family was cheering and laughing with joy. You did it! You got the internship! And not only that, it was a paid position too! This had to be a dream!

Clark was the closest to you on your left. He had the same ecstatic smile as he did last week when Jon figured out how to defy gravity. And when you locked eyes with him, you didn’t hesitate.

You jumped right into his waiting arms, where their warmth and strength picked you up and held you tightly.

“That’s amazing! You did it, kiddo!” His praise plucked your heartstring, and your eyes became glossy as a fundamental truth struck you right then and there.

You were not alone. 

You haven’t been for some time. You’ve just been too blind to see it.

The Waynes might have you legally, but it was the Lane-Kents that were your true family.

They were the ones who answered your call. They were the ones who chose to take care of you and spend time with you. They were the ones who saw you.

They were the ones who loved you.

In congratulations for the good news, the four of you went out to eat for dinner that night. 

They were the ones who celebrated you.

For so long, you wished on your stars for Bruce and the others to realize you were there and try to bridge the great divide, because that was what you wanted most of all. A family.

As it turned out, that family looked a little different from what you imagined.

You're gonna have to give Ma Kent a call. You’ve found what you were looking for.

As the last of your bags were loaded into your car, dropped off by the Green Lantern a few months ago, and the trunk was shut, you told your new family Goodbye.

Poor Jon, all teary eyed, circled his arms around your torso and buried his face into your shirt. His grip was unwavering.

“Promise you’re gonna come back?” He sniffled. He didn’t want you to leave. He grew to really enjoy having an older sibling who was as cool as you were. Dare he say he thought you were cooler than Damian and his brothers. Who else could accomplish all the things you have?

You hugged him back and kissed the top of his head, “I promise.” He was your little brother after all, how could you deny him?

When it was Lois’s turn to embrace you, she was also reluctant to let you go. You were such a gift to their little family. Even if it hasn’t been for long, she saw you as hers. But as every good mother knows, baby birds have to eventually leave the nest and learn to fly on their own.

“You’re going to do great things, honey. Remember to call us and visit for Christmas, okay?” There was no force in the universe that will keep her from wanting you to come home. You were always welcomed under their roof.

You promised to keep in touch as often as you could. You had their numbers and socials.

Clark was the last one to give you a parting hug and tears stung your eyes once again.

It was him that saved you four months ago. He was the one that answered.

“I’m so proud of you, kiddo. I hope you know how much we love you.”

For the first time, you did.

When you pulled away, he wiped your tears.

“If you ever find yourself lost, scared, or in trouble, call me, and I’ll be there in a heartbeat to get you.”

He was the father you needed. 

With a kiss on the forehead, you were told to be careful, drive safe, and update them on your trip.

Clark, Lois, and Jon waved you goodbye as you pulled out of the driveway. You watched their silhouettes disappear in your rearview mirror as you drove down their street and out of the suburban neighborhood. You watched as you drove through Metropolis, and as the city turned to a spec behind you when you entered the familiar Appalachian mountains.

You crossed several state lines over the course of several days, driving the same journey you took months ago when you were just learning who you were and what you were capable of. During that time, you were lost, alone, and hurting, with only the stars to keep you company. But here you were again, more confident and stronger than ever.

You always did bounce back.

And you weren’t alone this time.

Even though you were over 3,000 miles away from them, Lois, Clark, and Jon were just a call away.

You were going to be fine.

At night, the stars seemed to shine brighter as you drove westward, like they'd wondered where you’d gone off too. And when you passed the California state line, they welcomed you to the Golden State.

For the first time in months, you felt alive and free again.

August might have ended, but your life was just beginning.

a/n: New drinking game just dropped: take a shot of water every time you read the word family. You'll be well hydrated by the end of the series! If you haven't already, go listen to Noah Kahan's album The Great Divide: The Last of the Bugs (that's the extended version). The songs I'm naming the chapters after are inspired by some of the lyrics and I think listening to the songs will help set the mood for each read. I've had the album on loop the entire time while writing (it's playing righting now as I'm writing this!) and let me tell you, it's a vibe!

Now technically, the story can end right here and that will be completely fine if no one wants to go beyond this chapter, but we got some loose ends back in Gotham to fix up! I won't be tagging the people who I tagged before just in case it's not something that they're interested in, but LMK if you want to be tagged in the next group and I will! This fic is my emotional bop-it (Break it, fix it, heal it!) and I'm a sucker for happy endings, so I'm gonna follow my whimsy!

Anyways, thank you everyone for reading and LMK your thoughts! All your love makes my heart happy!

Edit: I’m rewatching Superman 2025 and I’m ugly crying.

𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝖦𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍 𝖣𝗂𝗏𝗂𝖽𝖾: 𝖠 𝖬𝖺𝗌𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗅𝗂𝗌𝗍

[romanoffsrequiem]

Pillow Princess

Pairing: adhd Spider woman reader x Sophia Laforteza Warnings: Smut, praise kink, titty worship,cum eating,strap reffered to as cock, rough sex?,sophia is a pillow princess,increased stamina,soft sex also?,humor, happy ending

word count:2.7k

a/n: WRITTEN FOR MY LOVE, MY PRECIOUS 🪼 ANON Request is here pt 2

The late afternoon sun poured through the classroom windows in long golden bars, turning floating dust motes into tiny sparkling stars above the rows of desks. You sat near the back, third row from the window, your leg bouncing steadily under the table in that familiar restless rhythm that never quite settled.

Your notebook lay open in front of you, half-filled with notes on mitosis and cytokinesis, the margins crowded with tight spiraling web patterns that seemed to crawl across the page like living things. Your way to many pens lay strewn around you.

The teacher’s voice carried on about point mutations and frameshifts, steady and calm, but your mind kept slipping back to your night before and the sharp thrill of webbing a speeding getaway car to a lamppost, the rush of city lights blurring past as you swung between rooftops, your heart pounding so hard it felt like it might crack your ribs open as you barely escaped being seen by the cops

You hardly registered the new girl until Mrs. Alvarez called out her name.

“Sophia Laforteza,” the teacher said, pointing to the empty chair right next to you. “You’ll be working with our resident science nut here.”

Sophia turned, her dark hair falling like a curtain, and smiled at you with a small, easy smile that settled in your chest. She gathered her belongings, a tidy notebook with a spiral binding, a black pen, and a water bottle with a cartoon fox sticker that was peeling at the corner, and plopped down into the chair next to you without a second thought.

You hardly registered the new girl until Mrs. Alvarez called out her name.

“Sophia Laforteza,” the teacher said, pointing to the empty chair right next to you. “You’ll be working with our resident science nut here.”

Sophia turned, her dark hair falling like a curtain, and smiled at you with a small, easy smile that settled in your chest. She gathered her belongings, a tidy notebook with a spiral binding, a black pen, and a water bottle with a cartoon fox sticker that was peeling at the corner, and plopped down into the chair next to you without a second thought.

“Habit mostly,” you said, “keeps my hands busy so they don’t start vibrating off my arms or something.”

Her laugh came out soft and surprised, like she hadn’t expected to enjoy the sound of her own voice mixing with yours. “I get that, my leg does the same thing during long tests, just bounces forever.”

The teacher had already moved on, projecting the project guidelines onto the screen in bold Comic Sans nobody had bothered to change since 2012, forty percent of the semester grade, genetic mutations, real-world or fictional applications allowed,10-12 minute presentation due in two weeks. You felt Sophia lean in just slightly to read over your shoulder, her perfume drifting into your space, light citrus blended with warm vanilla, and for three full seconds nothing else in the room existed.

When the pairing instructions wrapped up, she didn’t pull her chair back. Instead she tilted her head toward your notes again.

“So, any ideas already?”

You shrugged, trying to keep it casual even as your knee picked up another notch of speed. “I was thinking something with superheroes maybe, how mutations in comics and movies sort of mirror real genetic changes, radiation accidents, spider bites, gamma rays turning people into rage monsters, that kind of thing, it’s fun and I’ve… read way too much about it already.”

Her eyes brightened instantly. “Spider-Man?”

“Spider-Woman technically,” you corrected before you could stop yourself, “but yeah either works, the spider thing is cool, silk proteins, tensile strength, all that.”

Sophia nodded slowly gave you a sort of odd look at your correction of spider man, but then shales her head. “I like it a lot, makes it way less boring than doing sickle-cell or Down syndrome for the hundredth time.”

You laughed too loud again, felt the heat crawl up your neck, but she just smiled wider, like the volume didn’t bother her at all.

By the end of the period you had a rough outline typed into a shared Google Doc, introduction to mutations, real examples like albinism in animals and antibiotic resistance in bacteria, fictional parallels with Peter Parker, Bruce Banner, maybe even Matt Murdock’s heightened senses, the conclusion was about ethics and responsibility. Sophia typed almost as fast as you talked, jumping on every tangent without ever losing the thread, asking sharp follow-up questions that proved she was really listening, which kind of shocked you as no one really paid much attention to your tangents half the time.

When the bell rang she stayed seated for a second longer than everyone else.

“So,” she said, closing her laptop with a soft click, “we doing this at your place or mine?”

“Mine,” you answered immediately, “my parents work pretty late, it’s pretty quiet.”

“Perfect,” she said, standing and slinging her bag over one shoulder. “Text me your address?”

You nodded, already pulling out your phone, fingers shaking just a tiny bit as you typed the street number.

Walking home together felt strangely natural.

Santa Monica in late spring carried that perfect mix of salt air and warm pavement, palm trees swaying lazily overhead, the sun still high enough to heat your shoulders through your hoodie. You always walked fast, legs eating up sidewalk without thinking about it, but Sophia matched your stride effortlessly, sneakers scuffing in perfect rhythm with yours. Conversation rolled out easier, no awkward pauses and you somehow managed to hold yourself back from interrupting her which you mentally high fived yourself for doing.

“You really know a ton about spiders,” she said after you launched into a three-minute ramble about how orb-weaver silk is five times stronger than steel by weight and still flexible enough to catch prey without snapping.

“They’re efficient,” you told her, “no wasted energy, build exactly what they need then wait, patient, precise, kind of beautiful when you think about it.”

She glanced sideways at you, eyes catching the late light. “You sound like you admire them a lot.”

“I do,” you admitted with a small shrug, “plus the swinging thing would be pretty sick.”

She laughed again, that bright unguarded sound that made something in your chest loosen. “You talk about it like you’ve actually done it.”

You swallowed hard, flexed your fingers to push down the itch in your palms. “Just imagination, late-night Wikipedia holes mostly.”

“Uh-huh,” she teased, bumping your shoulder lightly with hers. “You’re kind of mysterious you know that?Its adorable”

Your cheeks flushed a bit “Uh thanks?”

The rest of the walk slipped by in comfortably, her favorite horror movie was Hereditary because the dinner scene still haunted her dreams, you both hated group projects that turned into one person doing ninety percent of the work, she had transferred because her mom got a new nursing job at a hospital downtown and the commute from the valley wasnt worth it.

When you reached your house, a low white bungalow two short blocks from the beach, a small flicker of nerves sparked in your stomach, not about the project exactly, more about her stepping into your space, seeing the real version of you.

You led her through the front door, past the living room with its mismatched thrift-store couch and the ancient coffee table covered in science magazines, into the kitchen where sunlight spilled across the wide table in warm pools. You dumped your backpack, pulled out snacks, chips, a bag of sour gummies, two cans of sparkling water, spread everything across the table like a small offering.

Sophia dropped into a chair, already opening her laptop. “Okay, let’s make this thing actually good.”

You worked for hours, real work, not the fake kind where people scroll and pretend to research. You traded sections back and forth, fact-checked each other, argued gently about whether the Incredible Hulk’s transformation could count as a beneficial mutation or just a catastrophic one. She laughed every time you got excited and started talking with your hands flying everywhere, you caught yourself staring when she tucked her hair behind her ear and chewed her bottom lip while reading a dense paragraph.

Around 6:30 the rough draft was done, fourteen slides, proper citations, even a stupid meme slide you both agreed to keep because it made you laugh whenever you saw it.

You leaned back in your chair, stretching until your spine popped satisfyingly. “We actually finished early.”

Sophia closed her laptop with a satisfied little click. “We’re good together.”

The kitchen had gone quiet except for the low hum of the fridge and the distant steady roll of waves through the open window. She looked at you, really looked, and the air between you shifted, not dramatically, just warmer, heavier in the best way.

“Your parents really not home till late?” she asked.

“Probably nine, maybe later if the shift runs long.”

She nodded slowly. “Cool if I stay a bit? No rush to get home.”

Your heart did the flip it usually saved for the moment right before a big swing. “Yeah, definitely cool.”

You didn’t plan to end up in your bedroom. The original idea was the living room, some dumb Netflix movie, popcorn, casual hanging out. But when you stood to grab another drink she stood too, and followed you down the short hallway without saying anything. When you pushed your bedroom door open, messy unmade bed, posters of city skylines taped crookedly to the wall, one very faded Spider-Woman comic cover thumbtacked above the desk, she stepped inside like she belonged there.

The door clicked shut behind you.

You turned. She was closer than you expected

“Hey,” she said softly.

“Hey yourself.”

The first kiss happened like it had been waiting since third period.

Slow at first, tentative, lips brushing carefully, testing the shape of each other. Then her fingers curled into the front of your shirt and tugged you closer, and slow turned hungry fast. You backed her toward the bed until her calves hit the mattress, she sank down willingly, pulling you with her so you ended up braced over her, knees bracketing her hips, weight held on your forearms.

You broke apart just long enough to breathe, foreheads resting together.

“You’ve been thinking about this,” she whispered.

“Since you sat next to me,” you admitted, voice rough around the edges. “Maybe before.”

She smiled against your mouth. “Same.” as you made out with her for minutes which felt like delicious hours

When you finally pulled back with swollen lips and flushed face clothes came off slowly, reverently, like unwrapping. Her shirt a soft pale blue cotton sliding over her head. You kissed the newly bared skin of her collarbone making her sigh and goosebumps break out across her skin, and then her shoulder, then the gentle swell above her bra. When you unhooked it and let it fall away she shivered even though the room felt warm.

Your mouth found her breast, soft, warm, perfect, you took your time, slow circles with your tongue, gentle suction, then a little more pressure when she arched up, god you could stay burried in these all fucking day.

“Harder please”

"m'kay princess"

 She tasted faintly sweet, like the vanilla in her perfume had soaked into her skin as you complied with her order. Every small sound she made as you followed her request made you want to nut on the spot, and every hitch of breath, every quiet moan felt like permission, like a reward and you were damn well gonna earn it.

You kissed lower, across the stomach, the hip bones, the spot where her thigh met torso. When you hooked your fingers in the waistband of her underwear you paused, and looked up at her with the biggest puppy eyes ever.

“Can I?” you asked looking up at her

Her nod was immediate, eager. “P-please.”

You peeled them down her legs, kissing every new inch of skin you uncovered. When you finally settled between her thighs and dragged your tongue along her, long slow deliberate, her hips jerked hard off the bed.

“Oh fuck—” she let out  a pornographic sound that most likely woke the neighboorhood.

You held her open right there with easy strength, palms flat against the insides of her thighs, keeping her spread while you worked her over, like you had years , and just the taste of her, the way her breath hitched every time your tongue circled her clit made you groan ,as you licked and sucked till she was writhing and you felt the way her fingers twisted in your hair as she held on for dear life while you continued eating her out.

The first orgasm hit her fast and hard, she gasped your name, her thighs trembled and , a sudden rush of wet heat against your tongue and you swallowed it down. You didn’t stop, licked her through the aftershocks, gentler now, soothing, until she was whimpering, oversensitive, and tugging you upward.

You crawled back up her body, kissed her deep so she could taste herself on your lips. She moaned into your mouth, 

“Y’have to many clothes on” she pouted as she started to undress you hands fumbling at your clothes until you were both naked.

When you reached for the drawer, the harness, the strap she had seen you glance at earlier, her eyes darkened with clear interest.

“You want that?” you asked, voice low.

“Yeah,” she bit her lip. “Want you to fuck me with it.”

You took your time buckling it on, let her watch every movement. The silicone was smooth, dark, realistically veined. When you settled between her thighs again you rubbed the tip along her folds first, teasing, coating it in her slick.

“Ready baby?”

She nodded, legs falling open wider. “Please.”

You pushed in slowly, watching her face the whole time. Her mouth dropped open on a silent gasp, nails digging into your shoulders which you barely registered.

“Fuck it’s big,” she breathed.

“You’re taking it so well,” you murmured, bottoming out. “Look at you, so fucking perfect.”

You started gentle, long thrusts that let her adjust, but when she rocked up to meet you, the last thread of your paper thin restraint snapped.

You fucked her deep and steady, hips snapping against her ass, her tits bounced with every thrust, you couldn’t resist leaning down to suck fresh bruises into them while you fucked.

“So pretty like this,” you rasped against her skin. “Just laying there letting me take you apart.”

She moaned high and broken. “Yes your cock feels so good—fuck”

You sensed her second orgasm building fast. When it hit she squirted hard, hot messy, soaking your thighs and the sheets. You groaned at the sight, fucked her through it until she was babbling, glassy-eyed, trembling all over.

“Thats so fucking hot soph”

You flipped her onto her stomach. She stayed soft pliant, ass up just enough for you to slide back in from behind. You gripped her hips and pounded into her, watching the way she melted into the mattress with every thrust.

“Good girl,” you praised, reaching around to circle her clit. “Taking it so deep, my perfect princess.”

She came again like that with muffled cries and her body shaking so hard you were pretty sure that the bed had started to rock.

You turned her onto her back once more because you needed to see her face her legs wrapped around your waist, your mouth on her breasts since you couldnt get enough of them, as you thrusted into her fast and deep.

“Look at me,” you said softly. “Let me watch you fall apart.”

Her eyes locked on yours, wide hazy trusting her mouth opening and closing as she failed to put what she was feeling into coherent words. The final orgasm ripped through her, back arching, squirting again, a string of broken pleas leaving her.

You slowed down but only when she went completely limp beneath you, with her chest heaving, and the small aftershocks still rolling through her body.

You eased outof her carefully, unbuckled the harness threw it on the ground, walked into the bathroom and came back with a warm cloth which you gently wiped her with before wiping yourself down and, then gathering her against your chest. She curled into you immediately, face tucked under your jaw, one leg thrown over yours.

“That was…” She laughed weakly. “I think you broke my brain.”

You kissed her temple. “You were fucking incredible, letting go like that, beautiful.”

She snuggled closer. “You’re kind of intense.”

“Only when I really want someone.” you blushed

A sleepy smile curved her lips. “Good thing I really want you too.”

a/n: super happy abt this one i kinda wanna make it a series

[the-darklings]

js saw ur jjk ask u r genuinely the love of my life CAN U DO HDCS FOR GOJO PLEASEEEE I NEED TO KNOW HOW U THINK ABT HIM PLS MAMA I NEED ITTTT

I don't go here either, technically. But boy oh boy did I have a lot to say. This one is personal. Starts as a bit of a character analysis and then goes into relationship. 18+ for smutty parts ( ¯\_(ツ)_/¯). mdni. boyfriend hdcs series: jason todd ✶ dick grayson

SATORU GOJO AS YOUR BOYFRIEND HDCS—

He's the strongest, and that isn't ego, it's a fact he was handed when he was born before he understood what it costs to be the strongest.

By the time he was eleven he'd already started to suspect what it would cost, and by twenty-eight he's stopped caring enough to articulate it. He just lives inside it the way other people live inside a body, and like a body it's the only one he gets and he can't take it off. So the burden is not something he can set down, he can't ever for one minute be a person who isn't that.

The older he gets the more Satoru realises he doesn't know who he would have been without it, and there's nobody alive to ask, and there never was.

People forget he is genuinely, structurally lonely in a way most humans can't fathom.

It's important to understand this isn't the lonely of no one understands me, it's the lonely of no one can stand on this floor with me. Every person who could meet him as an equal is either dead, sealed, or his enemy, and the floor is empty, and he stands on it anyway, has stood on it so long that he's started to mistake the loneliness for his own personality.

Which is what makes meeting someone who can stand next to him, even slightly, even imperfectly, a kind of catastrophic event he doesn't know how to process, doesn't have a category for. Finds himself returning to over and over in idle moments the way a tongue returns to a missing tooth.

He speaks in a permanent register of irony because sincerity costs him too much. The playful drawl, the dramatic stretching, the singsong nah, nah, nah, the way he turns every serious moment with a joke... it's a screen.

He learned by his late teens that if he stops smiling the room reorganises itself around him in a way he hates. People start whispering and treating him like something not quite human. So the smile stays on, the smile is always on, and over the years it's become so welded to his face that even he sometimes forgets there's a person underneath it.

Which is its own kind of horror when he catches himself looking in a mirror at three in the morning and seeing only the public face looking back, the same face strangers see, the same face his enemies see, and wondering, briefly, if there's any difference between him and the mask anymore.

People use him constantly: the higher-ups use him as a weapon they keep aimed at whatever threatens their power, the students use him as a teacher and a shield, the public when they know about him at all uses him as a myth, and the clan that raised him used him as a vessel before he was even old enough to have a personality of his own.

And Satoru lets them, because being used is preferable to being seen, and being seen would require him to admit how tired he is, how much of his life he's spent solving other people's problems with the casual application of impossible violence. How no one has ever quite remembered to ask if he wanted to be doing any of it, including, eventually, him, because once you've been a tool for long enough you forget there was an alternative.

You forget you were a child once, you forget you were ever asked what you wanted, you forget there was ever a you who wanted things.

Which brings us to Limitless and Infinity.

His technique means that nothing touches him, ever. It's literal, the world arrives at the surface of his skin and stops a hair's breadth short and slides off, rain doesn't actually land on him, wind doesn't actually move his hair the way it moves other people's hair, a hand reaching for his shoulder is gently, automatically, declined by the space between atoms. The technique runs in the background of his being the way breathing runs in the background of yours, it doesn't require thought, it doesn't require permission, it simply is.

So he's lived almost his entire life inside a bubble of not-touch that he didn't choose and can only consciously turn off, and the body remembers being touched the way a tongue remembers a word in a language it hasn't spoken since childhood, dimly, hungrily.

Think about what this does to a person over decades, think about the cumulative weight of it. The absence of casual contact, the absence of the hand on the shoulder, the absence of being jostled in a crowd, the absence of even the small environmental touches everyone else takes for granted. Water on skin, a breeze, the press of a chair against your back.

He has all of these only at one remove, mediated, filtered through Infinity. Near but never quite landing. And the part of him that's animal, the part of him that's simply human, the part of him that needed to be held as a baby and got it but only sometimes, only when the clan elders permitted it, only carefully, that part of him has been screaming low in the background for so long he doesn't even hear it anymore, has mistaken the scream for silence.

He has to consciously let you touch him, has to make the decision, it isn't passive. Every brush of your fingers against his wrist is a small deliberate act of disarmament on his part, a tiny lowering of the only defence his body has ever known.

You don't realise at first what it means when he reaches for your hand or leans his head against your shoulder. You think it's casual the way it would be casual with anyone else. Then one night you catch him doing it and you see the way his eye flickers shut for half a second when your skin meets his. The way his breath catches almost imperceptibly, the way his whole body subtly leans into the contact like a plant turning toward light, and you understand with a kind of slow horror that this is the only place in his entire life where he's touched. That he's starving. That he's been starving for as long as he can remember, and that the person who gets to feed him is, by some impossible accident of the universe, you.

So he hoards it, he hoards you, hoards your time, hoards the contact, in a way he doesn't hoard anything else in his life.

He's famously, almost ostentatiously generous with money, with food, with attention to his students, with the violence he hands out on behalf of strangers, he gives and gives because giving costs him nothing and proves he is who they say he is.

But your time, your touch, the hours when he gets to sit on your kitchen floor with his head against your knee and not be Gojo Satoru for a little while, those he holds with both hands, those he counts.

He'll rearrange his entire week, lie to the elders, dodge three different missions to protect. Because they're the only currency in his life that is actually scarce. The only thing he's not been given freely and at scale, the only thing he's poor in, and a man who's been rich in everything he doesn't want and poor in the one thing he does will guard that one thing like his life depends on it, because in some sense it does.

You'll notice, after a while, that he's started to count, in small ways. The number of hours you have together before his next mission, the number of nights in a row he gets to come home to your apartment, the number of mornings he gets to wake up with his face in your hair.

He'll never say any of this aloud, will not admit even to himself that he's keeping a tally, but you'll catch him standing at the window at five a.m. before a long deployment with that particular stillness, that not-quite-smile, and you'll understand he's memorising this, banking the look of you in low light against the days, weeks, he won't have it.

And there's cruelty to Satoru we can't ignore, don't romanticise it away.

He laughs at his enemies and threatens elders with a smile. He flicks people out of existence the way you'd flick lint off a sleeve and doesn't think about it for longer than the gesture takes.

He loves selectively, narrowly, and the people outside that narrow circle barely register as real to him. It's not a tsundere thing and not a misunderstood-softie thing, it's a him thing. The consequence of being raised by people who treated him as a vessel rather than a child and a world that has confirmed for him over and over that most lives are not equivalent to his.

So why should he act as if they are, when nobody else does, when the entire structure of his existence is built on the premise that they aren't?

And yet—Suguru. The never healing wound.

The friend he loved more than he loved anyone before or perhaps since, the only person who ever stood on the floor with him even briefly. Who walked away from that floor into atrocity, who built a life around the proposition that non-sorcerers were cattle, and who Satoru ultimately had to kill, and then couldn't even bury, and then couldn't even mourn properly because Kenjaku stole the corpse and wore it like a coat.

Satoru carries that loss like a second spine, doesn't talk about it, just moves differently when it comes up, the joke arrives a half-second late, the smile thins by a few millimetres, but if you know him well enough you can see it and if you don't you'll miss it entirely. Which is exactly how he wants it, and you'll live for a long time in a relationship with a person whose central grief you're not invited to share.

You'll have to learn that the not-being-invited is not a rejection, it's the closest he can come to protecting you from a wound that he himself doesn't believe can be healed.

Occasionally, very occasionally, he'll mention Suguru in passing, in a sentence that ends a sentence too soon, we used to, or he would have laughed at, or simply yeah, well, trailing off, and the right thing to do in those moments is nothing, no follow-up question, no soft inquiring look, just keep your hand where it is on his back and let the sentence die in the air.

Over time he'll give you more, in his way, in fragments, never a story, never a confession, just shards, and you'll assemble them into something private that lives between you and that he'll never quite acknowledge you have.

The first time he notices you it's almost an accident.

You're a curiosity, the way a cat notices a thing that moves wrong, something about you registers. Maybe you didn't flinch when he walked in, maybe you said something acidic to him and meant it, or maybe you simply didn't look at him with that mixture of fear and worship he's catalogued in everyone since he was a child.

So he files you under interesting and then he starts poking. That's the opening move, relentless, low-stakes provocation.

He stands too close, he steals your drink, he says something outrageous to watch your face, and if you laugh he files that, and if you snap back he files it harder, and if you do the rarest thing of all (meet his eyes and not perform anything in particular, just look at him like he's a person) he goes briefly quiet and changes the subject, because that one he doesn't know what to do with, that one his mind doesn't have an entry for.

He'll think about it for days afterwards in idle moments and pretend he isn't.

The teasing is constant and surgically tuned to whatever insecurity he picks up on within forty-eight hours of meeting you. He's monstrously perceptive. He reads people the way other people read traffic signs, automatically and without effort, he'll find the exact thing you don't want named and name it grinning, sunglasses on, while you choke on your coffee.

Then ten minutes later he'll buy you something stupidly expensive without comment, and you'll start to understand that the cruelty and the tenderness come from the same place in him. That Satoru doesn't really separate them, that being seen by him is going to involve being seen all the way through and there's no version where you only get the soft parts. No version where he agrees to look at you only in the flattering light, the deal is the whole gaze or nothing, and most people, in practice, take nothing.

He will not, at this stage, tell you he likes you. He barely tells himself. He tells himself he's bored and you're entertaining, which is the lie he's been telling about every meaningful relationship in his life since he was a child.

The not dating but dating phase can last months, plural, with no internal acknowledgment of what it is. He shows up at your apartment at eleven p.m. with bags from three different cities because he was in Kyoto for a mission and remembered you mentioned a sweet shop.

He eats half your food, he sleeps on your couch, he leaves a hoodie behind that you don't know is deliberate. He starts referring to your address as home in passing and then catches himself and redirects. Gives the cashier at your local market a tip that the cashier remembers for a year (because it's obscene) because Satoru went there exactly once to buy you a thing and decided everyone connected to your daily life was now retroactively important.

You ask what this is and he says aw, don't be weird about it, with that slight enigmatic smile (that runs the danger of coming off as dismissive so it's always a balance to read it), and you let it go because the alternative is losing whatever this is, and you've already, without quite noticing, begun to organise parts of your life around his unpredictable orbit.

He's also obnoxious about your attention. Obnoxious.

If you're on your phone he'll lie across your lap to block the screen. If you're talking to someone else at a gathering he'll drape an arm around your shoulders and announce something embarrassing about you. If you don't text back fast enough you'll get fifteen messages, three voice notes, and a selfie of him pouting at his own reflection.

He's a six-foot-three nuisance who's also the strongest sorcerer alive and he'll use every inch of both facts to make sure your eyes land on him and stay there. And the moment you give him your full attention, undivided, looking right at him, he goes shy in a way he'd never name, looks away, changes the subject, asks you something offhand that's actually the most sincere question he's asked in weeks.

Because he wants your attention the way a man dying of thirst wants water and now that he has it he doesn't quite know what to do with it, doesn't have the muscle memory for being looked at the way you look at him. Has spent his entire life being looked at as something rather than seen as someone, and the difference is everything, and he's bad at receiving it.

It tips eventually because of something small. It always does with Satoru. He doesn't have the language for grand declarations, he's never needed them, never been asked for them, so the moment something shifts it's quiet.

He stops by after a mission and maybe there's blood under his nails and his hair is damp and he sits down on your floor and leans his head against your knee and doesn't say anything for a long time. And you, against your better judgment, put a hand in his hair, and he closes his eye behind the blindfold and exhales like he's been holding his breath for a decade.

Somewhere in the next sixty seconds, without a word being spoken about it, the shape of what you are to each other has changed permanently (and the thing is, the thing is, you've put your hand in his hair before, plenty of times, that isn't what's new) what's new is that this time he didn't make a joke about it. Didn't tilt his head away with a smirk, didn't deflect. He just let it happen. Let himself receive it, let himself be a person being touched on the floor of your apartment by someone who loves him, and that's the act of trust that closes the door behind you both.

He doesn't ask you out, he just starts treating the thing like it's already real, that's his version of commitment.

One morning you wake up and there's a toothbrush, then a drawer, then he's giving the higher-ups your name as his emergency contact, which is functionally insane given his life, and when you ask him about it he shrugs and says who else? i'll kill them if they hurt you

And you have to sit with the fact that this is, by his standards, a declaration of love so vast and total it would be embarrassing if he knew how to say it out loud. Which he doesn't, might never, and which you will, over time, learn to translate from. To read his language of moved-in objects and undeclared decisions and the small adjustments he makes to the architecture of his life to fit you into it.

You'll learn that who else is the closest thing he has to I love you and that it is, in its way, more total than any conventional confession could be. Because Satoru genuinely means it. There is no one else, there has not been anyone else for a long time, and there is unlikely to be anyone else again, and the who else contains all of that without spending a word on it.

Once you're his, he's terrifyingly possessive in a way he frames as joking but isn't joking at all.

It's not jealousy in the petty sense, he genuinely doesn't feel threatened by other people because no one is a threat to him on any axis he understands. It's something far deeper, a quiet total refusal to share the thing he loves with the world that has spent his entire life trying to take pieces of him.

You are his and the door closes on that, and people who don't understand this about him will mistake the lightness of his voice for the lightness of his meaning, and they'll be wrong. They'll only be wrong once, because Satoru Gojo does not need to make a point twice for the point to be understood.

He's all laughs until something touches you and then he isn't. When he isn't he's the scariest thing in any room. Because he doesn't raise his voice, he doesn't even change his posture much, he just goes still. That smile thins, the blindfold tips down a quarter-inch so whoever's standing in front of him can see one eye, and that's usually all it takes.

The people he loves have a very, very short list of enemies, and the enemies don't tend to stay enemies for long, and the first time you see this happen, the first time you watch him decide that someone has done something unforgivable in his vicinity, you'll understand viscerally and forever that the man who steals your snacks and complains about your coffee is also a creature of almost unbearable lethality.

Those two facts about him are not in tension, they live in the same person and have always lived in the same person, and loving him means loving both, and finding, somewhere in yourself, that you're not horrified by the second one. That you are, in some quiet shameful corner of yourself, relieved by it. Glad that the thing standing between you and the world is that.

But the protectiveness has a flipside that's harder.

Sometimes he genuinely forgets that you don't operate at his level. Not just power-wise but emotionally.

He'll keep things from you because he's decided you can't handle them, will make decisions about your safety without consulting you because he's already run every scenario and arrived at the answer before you've finished asking the question.

When you call him on it he gets that look. The one that says he knows you're right and he's going to do it again anyway, because protecting you matters more in his internal calculation than your autonomy. He's not yet figured out, possibly never will figure out, that those two things are not actually separable. That taking your choice from you in the name of keeping you alive is its own kind of small theft, and the fights you'll have about this are some of the worst fights you'll ever have. Because you're both right, in your own ways, and neither of you knows how to give ground without feeling like the giving will cost you the other person entirely.

Satoru is, frankly, bluntly, a difficult partner.

He disappears for a week and comes back like he was gone four hours. He forgets birthdays unless he's set six different reminders. He eats your leftovers and lies about it with a face so straight you almost believe him. He'll be in the middle of a conversation about something important to you and his phone rings and he's gone and you don't see him for three days. When he comes back he's edgy and dark but grinning. For you. Doesn't want to talk about it.

There'll be times you sit on the edge of your bed at two in the morning wondering whether you can actually do this. Whether anyone can actually do this. Whether loving him is sustainable as a long-term proposition or whether it's just an extended exercise in being slowly hollowed out by absence. You will not always know the answer, and the not-knowing will sit in your chest like a stone for weeks at a time. You'll not be able to talk to anyone about it because nobody else's relationship looks anything like this and the comparisons don't help.

And then he'll come home, and he'll walk through the door and look at you and his whole face will change.

The public face drops off like a coat slid from his shoulders, and he'll cross the room and wrap his arms around you and bury his face in your hair and just breathe, and you'll feel in the slight tremor through his ribs exactly how much it costs him to be away from you. Exactly how much of him has been holding itself together by force for however many days. How much of his nervous system has been waiting to come back into a place where it could let go, and you'll be reminded that whatever this is, it's not nothing.

It is, in fact, possibly, the most something either of you has ever had, and the stone in your chest will dissolve a little, and you'll get through another stretch, and another, and another, and that's the rhythm of it. The rhythm of loving him. You take the absences and the homecomings and you live in the gap between them.

You have to learn to steer him back, too. That's the part no one will tell you. When he's deflecting too hard, when the grin is too wide, with too many teeth. When he's started narrating the conversation in third person because he can't bear to be in it. You have to say his name, just Satoru, quietly, without performance, and watch him land back in his own body like a kid who'd forgotten he had one.

That's the work, and you have to learn the difference between the moments when he wants to be steered back and the moments when he genuinely needs the deflection. When the deflection is the only thing keeping him functional, and you have to develop an ear for which one is which.

You'll get it wrong sometimes, you'll reach for him at the wrong moment and he'll shut the door in your face, politely, with a smile. You'll have to not take it personally, will have to remember that the shutting is a survival mechanism older than you, older than this relationship, older than his ability to choose otherwise.

The work is also recognising when he's being cruel and not letting it slide.

He tests people, not consciously, not maliciously, but he tests. He'll say something cutting just to see if you'll flinch, and if you do he'll mark it and never quite trust you again, and if you don't, if you look at him steadily and say that was mean and I'd like you to not, he goes quiet and apologises in his own roundabout way. Usually with food, sometimes with an extravagant gift, occasionally with a real plain sorry that sounds half-coughed up but sincere, and the trust deepens by a millimetre that'll matter for years. Over time the tests get rarer. Not strictly because he stops needing to know, but because he stops needing to ask. Because the answer has been written into the structure of you by then.

His indifference is real too and you have to make peace with it.

He'll not care about things you care about. He'll not pretend to care because he despises performance in his private life. He already performs enough in public, the whole rest of his life is a performance, and what he wants from you is the place where he doesn't have to.

He'll tune out during your work stories, he'll forget the names of your friends, you'll mention something that happened to a person he doesn't know and his face will do that thing where it goes politely blank and you'll realise he genuinely doesn't register them as real people.

You have two choices: take it personally, or accept that the narrowness of his caring is the price of how completely he cares about you when he's actually looking at you, and that for someone who has spent his whole life forced to be important to everyone in a generalised and meaningless way, this fierce specific narrowness is the closest thing to honesty he can offer. Once you understand it as honesty rather than as withholding, it gets easier, not easy, but easier.

Without the blindfold, in low light, in your apartment, his eyes are the most beautiful thing you'll ever see.

He'll look at you with them and you'll feel briefly like you understand what infinity means. He knows what they do, he doesn't take the blindfold off often and never carelessly. So when he does, with you, it's a gift he won't name.

The first few times it happens you'll find yourself going still under that gaze, because it isn't only that the eyes are beautiful, it's that he is looking at you with them, which is to say he's choosing to use the full devastating bandwidth of his perception on you. You'll feel seen in a way that is somewhere between being loved and being read, and you'll not know which you prefer.

Eventually you'll stop trying to know, will accept that with him those two things are not really separate, that being read by Satoru Gojo and being loved by him are the same action performed at the same time and there's no version where you get one without the other.

He sleeps with his face pressed into your shoulder or the crook of your neck, always. He steals the blanket. He talks in his sleep occasionally, usually nonsense, occasionally names (Suguru is one of them, and you learn early not to ask, you learn to put your hand on the back of his neck when it happens and feel him settle again, and you learn that the privilege of being the person he sleeps next to is also the responsibility of being the person who holds him through the dreams he won't acknowledge in daylight) and you also notice, after a while, that he sleeps deeper with you than he does anywhere else.

That the man who's hyperaware in every other context goes completely under when his face is in your neck, that his Limitless does something different when he's asleep next to you. You don't fully understand what, but the air around him in your bed feels less guarded, feels permeable, feels like he's decided, in some pre-verbal way, that this is the one place he can stop running the defence, and you carry that knowledge with you everywhere afterwards.

He eats sweets like a child. You'll find empty wrappers in every pocket of every jacket he owns. He buys you absurd desserts and watches you eat them with this soft unguarded look that he immediately replaces with something dumb when he notices you've caught him.

He's intensely physical in low-key ways once he trusts you, constantly touching, a hand at the small of your back, a leg over yours on the couch, fingers in your hair while he's reading something on his phone. Now you understand why.

Now you understand the hunger underneath each touch, the way his hand drifts to your wrist like a magnet when you're in the same room not even talking, the way he'll pass through a doorway behind you and let his palm trail across your hip just to feel something land where his body is used to nothing landing.

The way he will sit pressed against your side on a couch that has plenty of room as if he doesn't quite understand that the configuration is unusual, and the way he will, in public, in front of people who fear him, slip his hand into yours with a casualness that's itself the most extravagant possible declaration. Because his hand is the part of him that touches nothing, and he's letting it touch you, and he doesn't care who sees.

He gives you things, not flowers, weird specific things.

A ring he saw in a window in Istanbul, a knife that belonged to someone he killed (he thinks this is romantic somehow 💀), a stupid keychain from a vending machine in a service station, a single perfect peach from a market in a city you can't pronounce.

The expensive ones and the trash ones come from the same place, he saw it, he thought of you, that was the whole transaction in his head, and over time you learn that the thinking of you is the gift. The object is just the receipt, and you also learn that the volume of objects accumulating in your apartment is itself a kind of secret census. A record of all the moments his mind drifted to you while he was supposed to be doing something else, all the moments he was killing or eating or sitting in a meeting and an image of you crossed his attention and he reached into the world and grabbed the nearest thing and carried it home.

There's a specific way he touches you in public that is different from how he touches you at home. At home it's constant, tactile and greedy.

In public it's more restrained but somehow heavier, a hand at the small of your back that presses just slightly too hard, a thumb brushing the inside of your wrist in a way that recalls what that hand was doing six hours ago, an arm slung over your shoulders that positions your body against his in a way that is, if you're paying attention, absolutely a territorial claim.

The first time you notice it, the first time you realise he's performing I have someone for an audience that may or may not be paying attention, you feel something complicated, because the displaying is obnoxious and possessive and also, underneath that, it's the closest he can come in daylight to saying mine, I have a person, I'm not untethered, someone chose me, and that part is so vulnerable you almost can't look at it directly.

He is, predictably and unbearably, a menace in bed.

The teasing doesn't stop, if anything it gets worse. He'll work you up for an hour with hands and mouth, that low laugh against your skin and every time you try to push things forward he'll pull back and grin and say something insufferable like aw, what's the rush? and you'll want to kill him. You'll also never wanted him more in your life, which is precisely the effect he's after.

But the teasing is also doing something else, something he wouldn't articulate if you asked him. It's stretching the time. It's making the encounter longer, because every minute his skin is on your skin is a minute he's not in the bubble of not-touch, and the part of him that has been starving since he was boy is in no hurry whatsoever to be done.

The leisureliness is the hunger, the leisureliness is the entire point. The man who could end any fight in a quarter of a second is, here, deliberately taking the long way through everything. Because he can, because no one is going to take it from him, because for the duration of this his entire body is being touched and nothing else has ever been worth slowing down for.

He has no shame. Zero. Nada. Zilch. He's never in his life been embarrassed in a bedroom and he never will be.

He'll say things that make you cover your face, he'll narrate in that bright drawl exactly what he's doing and exactly what he's going to do next. He wants to watch you come apart and he wants you to know he's watching.

The eyes (those impossible, beautiful eyes) fixed on you with the same focus he turns on enemies in combat, except now it's all you, all of it, every inch of that perception aimed at your face and your body and the small involuntary sounds you make.

The experience of being the sole object of Satoru Gojo's attention is something the average human nervous system was not designed to absorb, and you will feel, more than once, like you might come apart from the looking alone, before he's even properly touched you.

And underneath the showmanship, he's attentive in a way that borders on uncanny. That perceptiveness he uses to hurt people, that catalogue of every micro-expression, he turns it the other way here.

He learns you like a language. Inside two weeks he knows exactly what makes you gasp, what makes you go quiet, what makes you grab his wrist, what you don't like and haven't said, and what you do like and demand more of without a word.

He files all of it and he uses all of it, and there'll come a point where you realise he's better at being in your body, at appreciating your body, than you are. Which is humiliating, and which also means that there is, in his head, a Satoru-shaped map of you that nobody else has ever made and nobody else will ever make, and the existence of that map is, in its own way, another form of declaration. Another way he's keeping you, another piece of you he's quietly taken into the private hoard.

The teasing finally breaks at some point, it always does, he'll have been playing for too long and you'll do something (say his name in a particular way, or just stop laughing, or reach up and put your hand on his face and look at him) and the temperature in the room changes.

He goes quiet, the joke dies in his throat, his eyes go dark and his hand goes still in your hair, and what comes after the break is intensity. That's the word, the same focus he uses in combat, the same focus that makes him the strongest, except now it's all turned on you and there's nothing else in his world in those minutes.

You'll never have been looked at like that before and after him no one will look at you like that again, and a small frightened part of you will register that this level of attention is probably not survivable as a permanent condition. Which is fine, because it's also not survivable to live without it once you've had it, and somewhere in the negotiation between those two unlivable conditions is what people mean when they talk about being ruined for anyone else.

He's rough when you want him rough, gentle when you want him gentle. Satoru reads it in your breathing.

He'll hold you down with one hand like it's nothing because for him it is nothing, the strongest man alive applying a fraction of a fraction of his strength, and the wrongness of the math of that (the absolute power held in such restraint, just enough pressure to make a point) does something to you.

Then five minutes later he'll be brushing your hair off your forehead with a tenderness that'll undo you, the same hand, the same man, the same impossible bandwidth of control directed now at the most delicate possible task. And you'll understand, again, that loving him means containing two facts about him that other people would prefer to keep separate.

He likes you on top because he likes watching your body move, he likes you under him because he likes the way you reach for him. He likes you against a wall because he's dramatic and he likes how you hold onto him. There's no position he won't enjoy and he has opinions about all of them which he will tell you, at length, while you're trying to catch your breath.

But the one position he keeps coming back to, the one he doesn't make jokes about, the one that you start to suspect is his actual favourite, is the one where he's wrapped around you completely. His chest against your back, his face in your hair, every possible square centimetre of his skin in contact with yours. Because that one is the one that delivers the most touch per second, that one is the one that delivers him to the place his body has been trying to reach his whole life. He'll hold you like that and sigh into your neck and you'll feel him become, for a few minutes, a different kind of creature than the one the world sees.

The frequency is, frankly, ridiculous, and you should make peace with this early.

Satoru wants you constantly. Mornings before missions when he's pulling on his uniform and changes his mind and crawls back into bed because the look of you half-asleep is more than he can walk away from. Afternoons in the kitchen when you're making tea and he comes up behind you and sets his hands on your hips and the tea goes cold. Nights when he's just gotten home and is bleeding from a shallow cut on his temple and the first thing he wants (before food, before a shower, before sleep) is you. Your hands on him, your mouth, the proof of being alive that arrives most reliably through your body.

The stamina is, predictably, unreal, because cursed energy is in some sense life-force and his is bottomless. He can genuinely go for hours. He can do it twice in an hour and then a third time after a nap. He'll keep going long after you've lost the ability to form coherent words, and the only thing that ever actually stops him is you reaching up and putting your hand on his face and saying Satoru, enough. At which point he immediately collapses on top of you and laughs into your collarbone like a kid.

He has a very specific thing he does with his mouth that you're convinced could be classified as a war crime in several countries.

Starts with his tongue flat and broad, almost lazy, and then narrows the focus incrementally over the course of what feels like fifteen years until the attention is so precise and unrelenting that you forget how to speak in full sentences.

The entire time he's doing this he's watching, eyes flicking up to your face to monitor every reaction, every hitch in your breathing, and he will adjust in real-time based on what he sees, will speed up or slow down or change the angle by millimetres, and the realisation that he is essentially conducting your nervous system, that he's turned your pleasure into a project he's solving in real-time with his mouth and his horrible perfect attention, is almost worse than the physical sensation.

Except the physical sensation is also destroying you, and at some point you'll try to push his head away because it's too much and he will grab your wrist and pin it to your hip and keep going, and the combination of the restraint plus the relentlessness plus the looking at you will take you apart so thoroughly that you'll briefly forget your own name.

The first time you go down on him he tries very, very hard to stay in control. The teasing is still running, he's making comments, he's got one hand in your hair but loosely, he's performing the whole yeah, that's good, you look so pretty like this routine. And then you do something with your tongue, or maybe it's the suction, or maybe it's just the accumulation of sensation and the fact that your eyes are on him, but whatever it is, the performance cracks.

His hand tightens in your hair and his hips jerk forward before he can stop them and he makes this sound, this completely unguarded ah fuck that comes from somewhere deep in his chest, and for about thirty seconds he's not Gojo Satoru, just a man getting his soul sucked out through his dick, and his head tips back and his eyes close and his breathing goes ragged.

You'll file this away as maybe the most erotic thing you've ever witnessed.

Then he catches himself, opens his eyes, tries to get the grin back, but it's too late. You've seen it. You know what's under there now, and every subsequent time you'll chase that crack, will try to widen it, and he knows you're doing it and it becomes this silent game between you. Him trying to keep the mask up and you trying to fuck it off his face with your mouth, and it's unclear who's winning but it's very clear that you're both enjoying the game.

He uses his hands the way some people use a violin. Fingers that know exactly how much pressure, exactly what speed, exactly when to slow down, and the way he watches your face the whole time he's working you up with them is unbearable. That intensity again, that focus. He'll keep his hand between your thighs and his other hand braced beside your head and just look at you, will drink in every twitch of your eyelids and every involuntary sound, will say there, right? right there, when he feels you tense and he's always (always) right.

Because he's been mapping you since the first night and his memory when it comes to you almost photographic, and the first time Satoru gets you off with just his fingers and that low patient voice telling you how good you're being, you'll understand viscerally that this man is dangerous in a category you had not previously had a word for.

He gives head like he's apologising for something, like it's an offering, like he's discovered that this is one of the only contexts in his life where he gets to put his actual face (not the public face, not the smirk, the bare unguarded thing under it) against another person's skin for an extended period of time and have it be welcome. Have it be wanted, have it be received with gratitude, and so he takes his time, takes a humiliating amount of time. He'll spend an hour between your thighs and emerge looking pleased with himself and slightly drunk, and the psychology of it is that this is the closest he gets in the entire repertoire of physical intimacy to being able to give without performing strength. Without performing wit, without performing anything but devotion.

It turns out the strongest sorcerer in the world is, behind closed doors, almost embarrassingly devoted, and you'll have to learn to take it without flinching, will have to learn to keep your hand in his hair and your eyes on him and let him do the thing he so badly wants to do, because trying to redirect him out of generosity will read to him as rejection and the resulting sulk will last days.

Which brings us to: he loves having his hair pulled. Loves it.

You'll discover this the first time you do it by accident, will feel the sound that comes out of his throat and store the information forever (and it's not just the sensation, though that's part of it, it's the relinquishment, it's the fact that he's spent his entire life as the person no one can put hands on, and the experience of someone closing a fist in his hair and directing him is, for a man whose body has been autonomous and unreachable since he was a boy, a kind of erotic release he didn't know was possible until you stumbled into giving it to him) and once you know, you can undo him almost at will. Can grab a handful and pull and watch his eyes go dark and his whole posture change.

Use it to slow him down when he's being insufferable, can use it to make him beg, which he will, eventually, if you're very, very patient, in a low ruined voice that sounds nothing like the public Satoru and will live in your head for the rest of your life.

The dirty talk is foul, by the way, just so you're prepared.

He has no filter, no embarrassment, no concept of going too far. He;ll narrate exactly what he's doing to you and exactly what he wants to do next and exactly how good you look while he's doing it.

He has a running commentary habit that should be annoying but is instead devastatingly hot. Will narrate exactly what he's doing to you with clinical precision, gonna put two fingers in now, okay? yeah, you can take it, I know you can, fuck you're tight, relax for me, that's it, good, so good, and the constant stream of words does something to you. Keeps you anchored in the moment, keeps you present in your own body, and there's something about the way he phrases things as statements of fact rather than questions that makes your brain short-circuit.

He's not asking permission, exactly, but he's also not not asking, he's narrating the thing right before he does it which gives you a half-second to object if you wanted to but also presumes you won't, and the presumption is correct, you never do, and the combination of the warning plus the confidence plus the good, I knew you could praise immediately after makes you feel simultaneously taken-apart and taken-care-of, will find that just the tone of it, that particular low register he drops into, can make you wet before he's even touched you.

He has a particular thing about your mouth and it borders on a obsession.

He loves kissing you, will kiss you for twenty minutes, will interrupt himself mid-sentence to lean over and kiss you because the proximity of your mouth has overridden whatever he was saying, will, during sex, slow everything down so he can press his forehead against yours and just breathe you in and kiss you like he's trying to memorise the inside of your mouth.

The psychology with this one is straightforward and kinda devastating: kissing is the form of touch where the most square inches of skin are in motion, where two faces meet with no defences up, where Infinity has to come all the way down for it to work at all, and so kissing you is one of the most undefended things he ever does. And he wants more of it, always more, and you'll find that your jaw aches sometimes from the sheer duration of his attention and you will not mind.

There's a specific thing that happens sometimes when he's inside you where he just... stops. Fully seated, not moving, just looking at you with an expression you can't quite parse. The first time it happens you think something's wrong, you start to ask if he's okay, and he puts a hand over your mouth (gently, not to silence you but to pause the question) and says just let me feel you for a second.

You understand he's savouring the sensation of being inside another person which is, for someone whose body has been a closed system for decades, about as intimate as it's possible to get. He'll stay like that for thirty, forty seconds, barely breathing, just feeling it, the heat and the pressure and the aliveness of it, and then he'll move again and the sex resumes, but you'll carry that pause with you. That moment of him needing to just experience the fact of connection.

He likes you in his lap because he likes the height parity. He likes you pinned beneath him with your wrists held in one of his hands because he likes feeling you strain against the grip just enough to know he's holding you.

He likes you facedown with your hips pulled up because the angle is filthy and because it gives him an unobstructed view of his hand on the small of your back.

He likes you bent over the kitchen counter because he's a menace and because he thinks it's funny. He likes you against the wall in the hallway because he came home and couldn't wait the eight steps to the bedroom, and he likes you riding him slow with his hands on your hips guiding the pace because then he gets to watch, and watching you fall apart on top of him is one of his very favourite things in the world, possibly the favourite, certainly in the top five.

He likes to be bitten, which you discover by accident when you're kissing his neck and you scrape your teeth against the tendon there without thinking. Satoru makes a sound you've never heard before and his hand comes up to the back of your head and holds you there, and when you pull back to look at him his eyes are unfocused and his breathing is uneven. He says do that again, so you do, harder this time, and he shudders, full-body, and you realise that this is another version of the marking thing but inverted.

He can't keep marks, his body won't allow it, the bruise from your teeth will be gone in an hour, but for that hour he gets to carry the evidence of you on his skin, and more than that, biting is one of the only kinds of pain that actually registers for him, his tolerance is so high and his healing is so fast that most sensation just... slides off, but teeth in his skin, that gets through, that makes it past the Infinity, and he wants it, wants to be hurt in the small specific way that confirms he has a body at all, and you'll bite him often after this.

His neck, his shoulder, once the tendon between his thumb and forefinger just to watch his eyes go dark, and he'll never ask for it out loud but he'll angle himself toward your mouth, and you'll know what he needs without him having to say it.

The sounds you make apparently do something to him that borders on medical.

You learn this because he tells you, in that running-commentary voice, fuck, the sounds you make, I could come just from listening to you, and you think it's hyperbole until the night when you're louder than usual and he legitimately almost finishes before he means to, has to stop moving entirely and breathe through it, and afterwards he tells you, in a sheepish voice you've heard maybe twice, that he wasn't joking. That the audio of you falling apart does something to his brain he doesn't totally understand, lights up some reward pathway that's usually reserved for combat victory or successful technique execution, and the fact that your pleasure registers in his nervous system the same way winning a fight does tells you more about how he's wired than any conversation you've ever had.

It tells you that he has somehow neurologically linked making you feel good with the thing I was put on earth to do, and once you know this you'll feel a strange responsibility, will understand that you are, in some sense, feeding something in him that has been hungry for decades.

He has exactly one position he'll almost never initiate but will melt into if you start it.

Which is you on top facing away from him, reverse cowgirl, and the reason he won't ask for it is because it's the one position where he can't see your face, can't monitor your reactions, has to rely entirely on sound and touch. Which means he can't manage the situation the way he manages everything else, has to just receive whatever you're giving him.

When you figure this out and put him there deliberately, take his hands and pin them to his own chest (or yours) and tell him to keep them there, and then set a pace that's slower than he'd ever choose, he comes apart in a way that's almost alarming. Makes sounds like he's being pulled apart at the seams, and his hands will come up to your hips eventually because he can't help it, but he won't direct you, won't try to speed you up, will just hold on like he's drowning, and afterwards he won't make eye contact for like ten minutes, will just pull you down against his chest and hide his face in your hair.

There's a very specific sequence that happens sometimes in the early morning.

You'll wake up to him already hard against your back, his hand already sliding between your thighs, and he's still half-asleep himself, moving on instinct, and his voice when he speaks is rough and unguarded, need you, can I, please, which is the only time he says please without sarcasm, and if you say yes he'll slide in from behind without preamble, no teasing, no buildup. Just the blunt animal need of a man who woke up wanting, and the sex is slow and messy and graceless, nothing like his usual performance, he's just moving in you with his face pressed between your shoulder blades, one arm locked around your waist, and he'll finish fast, too fast, with a sound that's more relief than pleasure.

Then he'll soften inside you and not pull out, will just stay there while his breathing evens out, and half the time he falls back asleep like that, still inside you, like even unconscious his body doesn't want to give up the connection, and you'll lie there feeling him slip out eventually as he softens, feeling the mess between your thighs, and you'll not move, will not disturb him, because this morning creature is the version of Satoru that no one else will ever meet, and you guard it the way he guards you.

He has a thing for marking but not in a possessive-bruise way, exactly, though there's an element of that. But in a more specific sense.

He likes leaving evidence on your skin that he was here, hickeys low on your neck where a collar won't quite hide them, fingertip bruises on your hips the morning after, a bite mark on your shoulder he'll trace with his thumb at breakfast looking insufferably pleased, and the psychology is, of course, that he himself can't be marked easily.

His skin doesn't register injury at all under normal circumstances, no scar of his is older than five years. No bruise lasts beyond a few hours of activated Reverse Curse Technique, so his body is annoyingly, inhumanly pristine, and so the visible evidence of intimacy is something only your body can hold longer term, and he's fascinated by the marks the way a man who's never seen colour might be fascinated by a sunset. He'll trace them with something close to reverence when he thinks you aren't paying attention.

He's loud.

You'd think a man who controls his image so carefully would be controlled here too, but no, when it's good, when it's very good, when you've found the rhythm or the angle or the particular thing that he can't talk through, Satoru makes the most beautiful unguarded sounds you've ever heard.

Low and broken. Your name and a string of curses and sometimes just a sound that isn't a word at all, and the first time you hear it you'll understand that you're getting a version of him no one else on earth has ever heard, will ever hear, and the asymmetry of that (the fact that you and only you carry this audio file of Satoru Gojo coming undone) will live in you for the rest of your life as a kind of secret you can't tell anyone, not because he asked you not to, but because it would feel like theft.

He also likes overstimulation, on either side. He likes pushing you past the point you thought you could go and watching what happens when your body keeps responding past your conscious permission.

The way you shake, the way you grab at his wrist and don't actually push it away, the way you say Satoru in a voice that sounds like you don't recognise yourself, and he likes being on the receiving end of it too.

Will let you take him apart in slow stages and will not tap out, will let you keep going until he is, at the very end, actually begging, in a voice you've heard maybe four times in the entire relationship and will spend years trying to coax back out.

On both ends, It's about being driven past the point of self-control, about losing the management he's been maintaining since he was a child, about being delivered, even briefly, to a state in which he's not running the world or himself. In which something happens to him that he's not pre-calculated, and you're the only person who gets to deliver him there.

He has a specific tell when he's about to come that you learn to recognise within a month.

His breathing goes shallow and his hand, wherever it is on your body, tightens incrementally, and his eyes, if they're visible, flutter shut for just a second before snapping back open like he's refusing to miss a single frame of what's happening, and in that last stretch right before he tips over he gets quiet.

The dirty talk stops mid-sentence, the teasing dies, and what's left is just a man holding on by his fingernails to the last shred of composure, and then he says your name, just once, like a question, and that's it, that's the whole sequence, and once you know it you can time it, can push him right to that edge and hold him there, and the first time you do it deliberately he looks at you afterwards like you've performed a magic trick.

There are nights when the sex is fast and rough and plausibly selfish.

Where he takes what he needs without much preamble and you take what you need from being taken, and those nights usually follow the missions where something went badly, where he had to do something he doesn't want to carry into a conversation, and you learn not to ask, learn to just be the place where he can discharge the voltage.

He's never actually selfish even when he's pretending to be, his hand still finds its way between your legs, he still makes sure you get there, but the veneer of selfishness is important to him in those moments, the fiction that he's simply using you rather than the more complicated truth that he needs you to absorb something he can't process on his own, and you let him have the fiction because the alternative is watching him go somewhere unreachable inside himself, and you would rather be fucked like an outlet for excess energy than watch him disappear.

He is, despite all of the above, capable of being unbearably tender. The same man who an hour ago had your wrists pinned over your head while he said something filthy into your ear is now propped up on one elbow looking down at you in the half-light with an expression so soft it doesn't seem to belong to his face.

Brushing his thumb across your lower lip, not saying anything, just looking, and when he does this he'll sometimes slide back inside you slowly with the same intention with which he was watching, will move in long unhurried strokes with his forehead against yours, will let you feel every inch of it while he keeps your eyes locked to his, and the experience is not really about sex anymore at that point. It's about being witnessed by Satoru Gojo with the entirety of his attention, and you'll not be the same person on the other side of it, and he'll not say a word the whole time.

That silence will be the loudest thing he's ever offered you.

He'll also fuck you to apologise when he doesn't have the words for an apology, which is most of the time.

You'll learn to read it, will learn the difference between the cocky-Satoru sex and the I-was-an-asshole-and-I-know-it Satoru sex, the second one is quieter and more attentive and involves him doing things he would normally tease you for asking for.

It involves him taking your hand and putting it in his hair himself, will involve him saying tell me what you want and meaning it without sarcasm, and afterwards he'll lie there with his head on your chest and you'll run your fingers along his spine and neither of you will say what just happened or what it was for, but the apology will be received and the thing he did will be, if not forgiven, at least set down for now.

This is how a lot of arguments end with him, in a language he never had to learn because his body already knew it.

He'll also fuck you the night before he has to do something dangerous.

You'll learn to read this one too, will feel it in the way his hands move slower than usual, in the way he keeps pulling back to look at your face, the way he's paying attention not to the act but to you. Specific you, the version of you that exists in this room on this night, as if he's taking a photograph he can carry with him.

You'll know, on those nights, not to ask where he's going in the morning, will know to let him have whatever shape of you he needs to take. You'll know to be still and present and here, because in the morning he'll be gone and the version of you he carries into the field is the one he assembled from the night before, and you want it to be a good version.

You want him to come home, and so you'll give him every part of yourself that he asks for and a few he doesn't, and he'll leave without waking you, and there'll be a hoodie on the pillow where his head was, and you'll not see him for ten days, and when he comes back the first thing he does is press his face into the side of your neck and breathe.

And the thing about all of this (the menace, the stamina, the filth, the devotion, the foul mouth, the long slow worship sessions, the apology-fucks, the goodbye-fucks, the way he hoards the contact like a man who has been freezing his whole life finally finding fire) the thing about all of it is that it is all, every part of it, the same thing, the same hunger expressing itself in different registers. The same starvation reaching for the same food, the same impossible undefended boy finally, finally being allowed to put his hands on another human being and have them not slide off.

You'll lie next to him in the dark afterwards and you'll understand that what just happened was, on its surface, sex, and underneath the surface was something older and stranger and closer to a religious rite. A man being touched, and not many people in the history of the world have been loved like that, and you're one of them, and whatever else happens, whatever else this relationship costs you or gives you, that fact will not stop being true.

The praise is constant (look at you, just like that, good, fuck, that's good, you're doing so well for me) he says it casually, almost lazily, like it's just a fact he's observing. That's somehow more devastating than if he were being intense about it, because it means he thinks these things about you all the time and is only sharing a small sample of them with you out loud.

But he likes being praised too, he won't ask, he'd rather die than ask, but the first time you tell him breathless that he's incredible, that no one has ever done this to you, he gets this look. A flicker. The mask slips for half a second and you see something hungry underneath, something almost grateful, and then it's gone and he's smirking again and telling you of course he is, he's Gojo Satoru, what did you expect?

You let him have the bit, but you know what you saw, and you'll say it again, more, every time, because no one in his entire life has thought to tell him he was good at anything other than killing, and that's a wrong that you can begin, slowly, to correct.

The correcting will be one of the most important things you ever do for another person, and he'll never quite let you know how much it matters, but it does, and you will see, over months and years, the small ways it has remade him. The way the deflections come slightly less automatically, the way he will, occasionally, just say thanks, without irony, before he can stop himself.

Aftercare from him is strange and lovely. Satoru doesn't have a script for it, he didn't grow up with a script for any of this, but he'll get you water without being asked. He'll pull a blanket over you, lie next to you with one arm slung across your waist and trace patterns on your skin with a fingertip while he talks about something completely unrelated (a mission, a student, a snack he wants) and you'll realise slowly that this is him being soft. Him decompressing.

This is him letting you in, and the touch never stops, his hand never leaves your skin for the entire conversation. He's banking the contact, storing it, he's making sure his body remembers as much of yours as it can before he has to walk back out the door tomorrow and be untouchable again.

Once you understand this you will never again interrupt him when he's doing it, will never again roll away to get up too early, will lie there and let him have all the minutes he can take, because you understand now what the minutes cost him to come by and what they'll have to last him through.

And sometimes, not often, but sometimes, afterward, in the dark, with the blindfold on the nightstand and his face hidden in your shoulder, he'll say something (something small) I'm glad you're here, or don't go anywhere, okay? or, once, very quietly, thank you.

You'll know this is hard and you'll hold him a little tighter, not make a thing of it. Because making a thing of it would close the door, and the door has been closed for so long in his life that you've learned to walk through every opening softly, without comment, without celebration, just in, the way smoke moves through a window.

You'll lie there listening to him breathe and you'll think about how this man, this impossible, terrible, beloved man, has just told you something true, and how the world will never know he's capable of it, and how you're the only person alive who gets to.

In the morning he'll be insufferable again, of course he will, he'll be eating your breakfast and stealing your shower and complaining loudly about your coffee. But he'll catch your eye across the kitchen and the smile he gives you won't be the one he gives the world, it'll be a smaller one, a realer one, one that for a moment looks like a man and not a myth.

You'll understand that this (the kitchen, the bad coffee, the man who's just stolen your food and is now grinning at you like he's gotten away with it) is the only piece of his life that actually belongs to him.

That everything else has been claimed by other people, by the clan, the elders, the higher-ups, the public, his students and the dead. That he's hoarding this slow, ordinary morning the way a dragon hoards gold, fiercely, secretly.

Loving Satoru Gojo means loving a person who's been told his entire life that he's more important than the people around him and who's come to believe it in some ways and despise it in others and who's no idea how to be loved as a person rather than as a weapon.

You'll be one of the first people in his life to try. You'll fail sometimes, he'll fail more.

The failure will sometimes be cruel, but when he gets it right, when he lets you in, when the mask falls, when he reaches for you in his sleep, when he kills for you without flinching and then comes home and makes a stupid joke about dinner, when he hoards an afternoon with you the way other men hoard treasure, when his hand finds your wrist for the hundredth time that day because his body simply will not stop seeking yours out, when you understand that you are, in the entire impossible structure of his existence, the one thing he chose and the one thing that chooses him back... you'll understand that nothing in his life prepared him to be loved and he's trying anyway, badly and brilliantly, with everything he has left.

And he has a lot left, he just doesn't know it yet, and that part, you get to show him.

[zirkkun-games]

"Gaster" Speedpaint + Fifth Devlog!

I almost forgot to do these sprites a few months back, but hey, look, I even recorded the process!

Here's to hoping this'll be the final devlog... because I'd like to release the game sooner rather than later!! There's also been some progress on the (hopefully final) update for Act to Flirt, but I haven't written too much here about that.

Rest of the devlog update is below the cut! 📺💗

I have unfortunately not made the kind of progress I wanted to this month due to just being hit with a truck of life things (and a new family emergency, fun! (not) (I'm okay, so don't worry! But it's a lot right now.))

Overall, I've been left without much time or energy... I did a lot of work in the first week of March, but after that, it's been rough goings. BUT! There's STILL progress.

That being said, there might be a delay based on my previous prediction... I'm hoping no later than June for a release date. IDEALLY, I'd like to be able to release the next Act to Flirt update by the 6th anniversary of its first demo release (May 14th.)

Speaking of, a decent chunk of my working time this past month was also taken up by me working on an update for Act to Flirt! But I don't want to detail all of that progress here-- it's actually a decently chunky update despite it mostly being small revisions and reorganization. And one other new thing :) ... but I'm not quite done with that, either.

Back to I Love TV!, though. Let me detail some of the progress:

Despite not initially planning to, I implemented an "HP" and "Heartbreak" system, akin to that in Act to Flirt. THIS DOES NOT MEAN THERE WILL BE A HEARTBREAK ROUTE. Before this, though, there was little gameplay involved past Tenna's Route. It was very boring to "play" by just clicking buttons without any risk involved (especially since the "Secret" date is supposed to be more difficult, akin to the "Secret" / Shadow Crystal bosses). This has not impacted Tenna's Route at all, though! So I don't need to re-write anything and it has not significantly added to development time in that regard.

I'm making an effort to include alt text during the cutscenes and make the existing alt text less insufferable to listen to (before, the TTS would read out every * as "asterisk" and it was... annoying.) I've never worked with this so intentionally, so do bare with me if I miss something!

(That being said, one character is making this a nightmare... I apologize if I'm not properly able to implement things correctly because of this.)

Implemented a setting to turn off glitches/shaking imagery. This has to be done manually for every place where it would show up, so again, I might miss something, but I am trying my best to be thorough!

Implemented the final Legend of Tenna-style section, although I have done none of the writing for it yet.

Speaking of that, I also cleaned up the existing Legend of Tenna-style sections, which I mentioned wanting to do before. I have a couple parts to one of them yet, but these two should otherwise be done.

Made a handful of new "funny text"s for Tenna, as well as re-made the "Technical Difficulties" screen from Deltarune to be upscaled and feature a new chibi Tenna.

Finished the Secret date, as well as the CG for its date ending!

The first date for the [Weird] Route is ALMOST done! I just want to add another "Act" option. Other than that, it's completely playable, just needs some fine-tuning.

Connected all the separated pieces! This includes connecting all the cutscenes to the main story, connecting the Secret date to the rest of the game (and its post-date dialogue), connecting in the "Aside Story," adding access to the endings... The main hurdle is that I haven't made anything for the "Universal End" (or credits) so there's nothing to connect here.

ONLY ONE MORE CUTSCENE IS LEFT!! 8/9 of them are DONE AND IMPLEMENTED!! :D

10/12 of the endings are COMPLETE (aside from CG's and their connection to the "Universal End," if applicable), and the remaining 2 are WIP's. But I also haven't started the "Universal End" yet.

ALL of the CG's for Tenna's Route / endings should be completed. Started work for other the ending CG's, but only otherwise finished the one for the "Good" End of the Secret Date and have started the set for the "Universal End."

To frame that into the outline I've been using--

Tenna’s Route [COMPLETE]: ⭐ Route Introduction [COMPLETE] ⭐ Quiz Date [COMPLETE] ⭐ Point-n-Click section [COMPLETE] ⭐ Shop Intermission [COMPLETE] ⭐ “Park” Date [COMPLETE] ⭐ Route “Ending” [COMPLETE] [Weird] Route: 💚 Route Introduction [COMPLETE] 💚 Point-n-Click section 1 [COMPLETE] 💚 Shop Interactions [COMPLETE] 💚 First Date [Nearly complete] 💚 Point-n-Click section 2 [Nearly complete] 💚 Second Date [not started] Secret Date [COMPLETE]: 🔷 Actual Date [COMPLETE] 🔷 Date Ending [COMPLETE] 🔷 “Bad” Ending [COMPLETE] Endings: ⭐ Good Ending [COMPLETE] ⭐ “Bad” Ending [COMPLETE] ⭐ Ending alone [COMPLETE] 💚 Good Ending [COMPLETE] 💚 “Bad” Ending [COMPLETE] 🔷 Good Ending [Started, not yet complete] ⭐🔷 Combo Ending [COMPLETE] 💚🔷 Combo Ending [Started, not yet complete] ⭐💚 Combo Ending [COMPLETE] ⭐💚🔷 Triple Ending [COMPLETE] 💗 “Actual”/Universal Ending [not started] Other Things: 💗 Cutscenes [8/9 completed] 💗 “Aside Story”(?) [COMPLETE, aside from a small part]

DO NOTE: All of these things marked as complete, I haven't necessarily actually "completed" in the sense that all of the image assets, alt text, and polishing is done. The biggest hurdle for me is writing the dialogue and code and making sure it functions. Once I finish that part, the rest doesn't feel so much like "work" to me anymore... So, this list isn't IMMENSELY accurate, but the main aspect to me is that it's playable and readable all the way through even if it doesn't look pretty yet.

I've also been setting up the couple of Tumblr-blog-oriented things designed for AtF's new update and then the subsequent ILTV release in the background... Hopefully, even if Tumblr tries to implement a dumb update again, I'll still be able to do things. It'll revolve around your guys' input and asks!! :D

Other than that, that's all I have for now. March has been rather cruel to me and progress has drastically slowed, but it is what it is. I am still very determined to get this out sooner rather than later!! The end is near, I can almost reach it...