#thought organization

[alvinmichaelmurphyseville]

“It’s been almost a full week and the chamomile tea is still working!”

“I LOVE myself! I LOVE myselves!”

“I feel so weirdly in control of my thoughts. I don’t wanna tempt a spiral, but even when I’m alone I haven’t been spiraling.”

“It’s not all on the tea. I’ve also been listening to Albert and resting when I need it. That helps me not burn out.”

“Vacation was a much needed refresh. I’m excited about the future! I’m ready to take on the next challenges and hopefully not fall into the trap of too emotional or too logical thinking.”

“I’ve also been knockin’ out to-do lists like nobody’s business! That might be because Christmas is such an exciting time of the year. But, you know, I’m hoping it’s the new norm.”

“Oh, and Warbie wanted me to relay the message to you guys that he’ll be working on finishing his new mini fic VERY soon. IF all goes according to plan.”

“Buckle up for a rockin’ holiday season and a truly spectacular New Year!”

“I hope I don’t get sick again like last year. That was annoying! Really really annoying. I’m drinking a lot of orange juice and making sure to take care of my immune system and I’m vaccinated so…fingers crossed.”

“I apologize for the disjointed and topic bouncy ramble, but this is just me and…wait…why AM I apologizing? This is my blog. My blog. My rules. I can ramble as much as I want!”

“But I think my brain’s finally ready to move on to the next activity. I dunno what it’ll be, but I’m ready to listen to my music while I do it!”

[bratty-baby-butch]

thinking about sensory deprivation but like only kind of

so i wear glasses, and i can't see 6 inches in front of me without them. but i also walk around without them all the time when i'm somewhere generally safe and i don't need to see more than the vague shapes of the things around me. i don't wear them in the shower or when i'm laying in bed on my phone, sometimes i take them off when i want to just lay down and listen to music or something.

but i was thinking about Someone taking my glasses from me when i don't need to see. giving up my ability to read and write, to navigate unfamiliar places, to visually identify and recognize anyone around me; all because i can't see much more than lights and shapes. i would have to rely so much on them to go about my day, and i'd be so limited in what activities i could even do

what if at home the rule is that i'm not allowed to wear my glasses at all unless you decide that i need them, just like that rule about my clothes :) which means i can't do any People things like read a book or cook for myself or keep track of my things. and when we sit down to watch a movie together, you'll actually get to watch but i'll just see vague shapes and colors on the screen. i'll lose track of the plot quickly, tune out the movie and let the colors on the screen make me nice and dizzy and dumb. maybe you'd give me some headphones and some different audio to focus on

or what if you took me somewhere but you didn't give me my glasses back. i wouldn't be able to tell where we were at all, i certainly wouldn't be able to get myself back home if i had to. I would need your help to navigate anywhere, even going from room to room. if we went out to dinner i would have to let you order for me since i can't read the menu. i would need you to serve me our appetizer, butter my bread, hand me my silverware. i would need you to guide me to the table, to the restroom, to the car. i couldn't go anywhere without you to gently push me in the correct direction.

or what if you hosted a party with me as the entertainment, a party to show off your helpless little toy! you'd have me walk around and greet everyone, no clothes and no glasses, and it'd be so funny how i'd talk so happily and excitedly with all of your guests without knowing who i'm talking to! i'm sure at least some of them have met me before, but i would never know. all night long i'd set my drink down and immediately lose it, but that's okay because you can bring me a new one! it doesn't matter whether or not i can tell how much liquor i've actually had tonight. and as it gets later, as more people start to touch me and grope me and grab me and play with my holes and fuck me dumber than i already am, i'll have no idea who saw, who participated, or who's cum is dripping from my holes 🥰

[rainyfestivalsweets]

Random thoughts

Brain purge, will address these later in detail:

Time management. 40-50 hours/wk of work. 10-12 hr/wk school. Housework. Exercise. Chores. Downtime.

How to become a study girl. And a working girl. And a healthy diet girl.

Increase calorie burn without increasing hunger.

How to study and not eat more because of whatever makes me want to eat all the things at night. Like last night. I should have been focused. Instead I was continually looking for snacks even though I had obviously eaten more than enough.

Limit night eating.

Limit availability of UPF.

Keep calories within limits. Easier with turkey and chicken items, but I have alot of pork and beef.

Focus time needed for work and school items. (If I need brainpower for work items, I struggle with school focus that day.)

Sample time schedules? Create a habitt schedule??

[literalagenda]

I had the strange experience today of learning about Korryn Gaines’ death through a simple headline and only heard details for the first time from FOX News. Obviously I had to sift through the blatant bias, but I wanted to understand what these other folks usually hear about. For the first time it opened my eyes to see the flaws of the #BlackLivesMatter movement.

I should clarify that I’m speaking in terms of political science. I fully support the #BlackLivesMatter Movement, and believe #AllLivesMatter folks are “a little bit” racist, in no uncertain terms.

But it is only when you can recognize the weak points in your argument that you can strengthen it. 

So now I’m trying to debate both sides inside my head and I can’t tell what is what and... well, it’s not helping at all, yet.

So I’m gonna let that simmer.

Sorry, organizing my thoughts...

[allicekitty13]

When you're growing up, you're told that the key to happiness is to be yourself. But every adult who's telling you this at the same time keepa you from doing just that. But then you grow up and it's no longer their rules and you get to choose. But then you have society giving you ultimatums. Sure, go ahead and be you but you'll have a hell of a time finding a job. People and businesses are going to treat you different. And you've got a choice between do I follow and fit in and feel like a stranger in my body or be myself and face the consequences.

[intj-confessions]

Organizing Thoughts

I think a lot. However, my train of thought is easily derailed. My mind jumps from one idea to the next in rapid succession and new ideas quickly push the others aside. If I don’t somehow record my thoughts immediately there is a good change I’ll lose them. The problem is memory retrieval. I can come to the same thought again, given the right triggers, so jotting down something very briefly is usually enough to recall the idea. For instance, the note for this post was simply “organizing thoughts.”

Before smart phones, I used to carry a little pad of paper and a pen in my purse. Driving is a great time for thinking, and I would have a larger pad in the car for jotting down ideas while driving (I can easily write without looking. Yay muscle memory.). Post it notes also worked well, but they had a tendency to migrate so I preferred a notepad.

Apparently fountain pens are popular with the stock image crowd.

If I needed to do something after getting home but knew I wouldn’t bother to check my notepad at that time, I would call myself and leave a message on my answering machine. This got a few laughs at work, but it was very effective. Since I rarely got calls, just coming home to see a message on the machine was usually enough to trigger retrieval of the memory. These days I’m keeping more ideas in my phone.

When I was in high school they taught us various ways to brainstorm before writing a paper. The problem was that they forced us to use a specific type, usually the one with the little circles.

This shit right here.

They also required us to be detailed. I hated that shit. I prefer thought fragments, not complete sentences, when taking notes. I’m sure it was helpful for some students, but forcing everyone to organize their thoughts in exactly the same way was frustrating. Not everyone thinks the same way. What they should have done was introduced various methods of brainstorming and then let the students either pick whatever worked best for them or create their own. As long as it makes sense to the student that’s all that matters.

Hell, don’t require a method at all. Some kids might have the internal organization to be able to blast out an awesome essay without writing down a single thing beforehand. It’ll become clear very quickly if they can’t do this.

Congratulations, Susie, you failed.

[elm-books-blog]

Maryn McKenna, on thought organization: Find an organizational scheme for your notes and materials; keep up with it (if you are transcribing sound files or notebooks, don’t let yourself fall behind); and be faithful to it: Don’t obsess over an apparently better scheme that someone else has. At some point during your work, someone will release what looks like a brilliant piece of software that will solve all your problems. Resist the urge to try it out, whatever it is, unless 1) it is endorsed by people whose working methods you already know to be like your own and 2) you know you can implement it quickly and easily without a lot of backfilling. Reworking organizational schemes is incredibly seductive and a massive time-suck.

[miramuerto]

random post on the subject of privilege bc i've been talking about it with friends lately -

i often get things like "how can you hate rich white people when you pretty much are that" and "stop being so cynical and just enjoy life" and "accept the hand you're dealt"

and yeah i'm absolutely in a position of tons of privilege and so are the people that say that stuff but i've also experienced some low key shit that contradicts that, i.e. having a parent that's incarcerated, growing up on food stamps etc, living with a 'single mom' with mental health issues.... and that shit did nothing but help me gain an awareness of what it's like to have to accept being dealt a shitty hand, and then from there kind of have this sense of guilt in the back of my head from not using the privileges that i have to help those who don't! (which is a main driving force behind my dropping out of art school to find a more fulfilling/helpful career path).. i don't think this post has a point except for ~why in heck would i NOT hate on rich white people~ 

am i correct in saying that my duty in the pursuit of equality is to use my privilege to educate & advocate? are other middle class white kids getting upset when i say these things bc it threatens their way of accepting privilege? do i sound like an asshole right now? i've never really talked about this stuff much with anyone hrrrrr

if any of u actually read this and have ideas on understanding/using one's privilege or if u think i'm saying dumb things pls message me