#tinytrashkid

[tinytrashkid]

i can't do anything right no matter how hard i try...

[tinytrashkid]

question for fellow autistics:

i’m like SUPER sensitive to bad criticism to the point where i can’t speak, look, acknowledge, etc. whoever criticized me. i want to avoid them as much as possible. i also feel a deep sinking feeling in my chest and i get very emotional about it.

is anyone else like this? is it an autistic trait or just from trauma from when i was growing up?

[tinytrashkid]

it’s gotten to the point where i’m tired of putting up a front and seeming normal. i’m tired of having to do daily living tasks like showering, eating, cleaning...i’m tired of functioning. i also walk this very fine line of knowing that i have the capability of living a “normal” life but also feeling guilty that i don’t want it. yes, i can speak and drive a car and walk/move. no, i don’t want to sell my soul to make ends meet and have a job. i just want life to not be so damn difficult!!!!

[tinytrashkid]

thanks skin for putting me in continuous pain for days!!!

[tinytrashkid]

i hate being autistic sometimes ‘cause i can hear things ringing or little noises bother me like timers so everywhere i go, there’s always a sound that bothers me and it makes me want to wear noise canceling headphones all the damn time! plus, my ears are always ringing and i can’t escape the ringing!!!!

[tinytrashkid]

it has been decided! i will now become a creature of the forest! exploring! living! breathing!

[tinytrashkid]

oh! to be an opossum!!!! running around eating garbage with your raccoon buddies!!! having all those teeth shine in the moonlight!!! fainting when scared!!! your tail being perfect for helping you climb things!!! *sigh*

[tinytrashkid]

i want to eat only 600 calories for all of september. it’s gonna be hard but i just have to keep my goals in mind and i’ll be alright!!!