Feb 11, 2017
ok but seriously tho i absolutely cannot play video games it's so stressful bc if i'm not the best??? and win all the time??? and complete every challenge perfectly??? i'm a complete failure as a person and my life is worthless garbage????? and if other people are around?!? and comPETIng against me?!? and i'm bad at all in any way?!? i'm a gigantic failure AND a massive embarrassment and people will think i'm dumb and look down on me and i'll be literal actual human trash and my whole existence is a fucking joke???!!!???
#i would honestly - and truly honestly - rather give somebody all of my money and valuables i have on me#than play video games with other people#or with anybody around#i seriously physically cried once bc a well-meaning friend forced me to play goddamn mario party#and just would not. fucking. let it go. until i played#so i cried lmao it was such a garbage time and I'm such an embarrassing garbage person#ocpd#actuallyocpd#obsessive compulsive personality disorder#ocpd tag#tocpdfw#tocpdf#ocpd feel#that ocpd feel when#ocpd problems#personality disorder#adhd#actuallyadhd#rsd#rejection sensitive dysphoria#social anxiety#perfectionism#mental illness#actuallymentallyill#npd#bpd