I don’t mean to be intrusive, but I’m so sorry you’re feeling lost at the moment. The fact is you’re already fantastically talented at many things: baking, creating, your ability to write (I don’t know if you write creatively but your captions are a delight to read); your blog is a work of art. All of these are very sought after and transferable skills in my experience, and they’re just the things you choose to share online. When I was feeling similarly isolated due to being in a similar situation, I got a part time job at a small local business. I came to the conclusion that homemaking was unsustainable for me at that point in my life due to the isolation and loneliness I felt facing another day alone whilst my husband worked, and living in area away from my friends meant I couldn’t socialise easily without facing the pressure of making new ones. The fact this wasn’t “The Job” I wanted to commit myself to helped, as there was less pressure surrounding the whole endeavour (if it didn’t work out, I could just quit) and it being part time meant I still had enough time to pursue my own interests and ambitions, which I had lost interest in doing before I got the job. The routine of having a job and the built in socialisation with coworkers and customers helped lift my mood immeasurably. I also think you have many skills which would enable you to start your own creative business if that was something you desired; if you wanted to continue working in dance then perhaps you could become an instructor. I also found that learning difficult skills (like a language or instrument) can serve as a good distraction when you can’t commit to other more physical things. I don’t know how helpful this was, and I don’t know if this sort of thing is incompatible with your current responsibilities as I obviously don’t know the specifics of your circumstances but I wanted to try and help even slightly if I could. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in your experiences, that others have gone through similar things even if not exactly alike and that there are people who are rooting for you even if you feel alone right now. And that your blog is awesome! ❤️ 🌸
Thank you 💕💕
I do write creatively but I unfortunately got very put off sharing my writing/poetry when I was constantly told my writing was rather “dated” and I sounded like a “stuffy victorian” these things stick with me 😭
I have lots of ideas for going back into dancing/arts, possibly studying again, possibly opening my own business but then I have a such a large amount of self doubt I can not bring myself to even try one 😔 For context I was a very ambitious person, very dedicated to achieving my goal of becoming a dancer so after my failure (injury? Extremely early retirement?) I’ve sadly become a very negative and pessimistic person 😔
But thank you for your kind message, it does help to feel less alone (being a housewife with no duties, no tasks can be surprisingly very difficult. Who would think free days for whatever you liked could be so hard) 💜🌿
