So we've realized that there's a lot of ableism in our life. Mostly from our mother.
For reference, we are a system and we have ADHD, Autism, Sinus Tachycardia (average of 100+ bpm), and Psychogenic Nonepilleptic Seizures.
She used to get angry and tried to punish us for taking breaks when we were in high school, even though we'd finished whatever we were working on. She thought we were being lazy.
She also tried to bar us from listening to Youtube videos while we worked. Even though it helps us better than regular music sometimes.
She will look us in the eye when we're trying to catch our breath from climbing stairs or something and tell us we're fine.
She never asks us who's fronting or makes an effort to learn about our system, and refers negatively to anyone who isn't our host. If she ever asks questions, it's because someone else engaged the topic.
She actively ignores when we say we're overstimulated. She once forced us to make a phone call while we were overstimulated and it was awful. But then she'll look at us when she's overstimulated and say "you get it." ...Yeah, I'm not sure you do though.
She was in the room when we got diagnosed with PNES and yet when we tell her that we're feeling warning signs of a potential seizure, she acts like we're making it up for attention.
She also tried to punish us for calling 911 once because we'd had seven seizures in a day and passed out during one of them (we usually stay conscious). We called because we were scared. We told her about it before that, and she acted like it was no big deal and there was nothing she could do. Later, at the hospital, she said "well you should have said something, we would have taken you if we knew it was that bad." WE DID. YOU BLATANTLY IGNORED US LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO.
Then there was last week. We found out that we could get accomodations at work for our physical disabilities. Our mother tried to actively discourage us from doing it because "It could make it harder to get a job later on". To her credit, she does have a point, but it's the fact that she was actively trying to discourage us from getting something that would help us at work. And the fact that she seemed to think we didn't think of that.
I just- it hit like a brick wall, honestly. I never realized how ableist she acts. Maybe some of the others did. I'm also fairly sure that half of this counts as neglect? Idk. But it's definitely ablist. And I'm getting really tired of it tbh. She acts like she isn't the problem here when she is. She acts all supportive in public, but the moment we're alone, forget having any kind of support from her.