I'm sorry, but I need to inflict this brainrot on someone else, and my friends aren't as deep into this as I am so here it goes. (I know you're a Halstarian shipper and so am I but still)
I ended up watching a couple clips of Pearl from Steven Universe, and my brain did some Synthesis and I realized that she and Astarion have a lot in common. I'm not sure if you've watched Steven Universe or not, but other way, I got to the song It's Over Isn't It, and I got hit with the Astarian feels. Like, tell me there isn't a sadfic in here where Astarian is with Tav, Tav ends up leaving him, and then dies.
Who would come into her life now and again.
That they didn't really matter until you.
And we fought like it was all some silly game
Over her, who she'd choose.
After all those years, I never thought I'd lose.
It's over, isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it over?
It's over, isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it over?
You won, and she chose you, and she loved you, and she's gone.
It's over, isn't it? Why can't I move on?
War and glory, reinvention
Fusion, freedom, her attention,
Out in daylight, my potential,
Bold, precise, experimental,
Who am I now in this world without her?
Petty and dull with the nerve to doubt her?
What does it matter, it's already done.
Now I've got to be there for her son.
It's over, isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it over?
It's over, isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it over?
You won, and she chose you, and she loved you, and she's gone!
It's over, isn't it? Why can't I move on?
It's over, isn't it? Why can't I move on?"
Keywords: the whole first section, freedom, "out in daylight, my potential",
It's all there. I had this realization like 20 minutes ago and I feel like Charlie Day with the corkboard with all the strings. Skinny, pale ex-slave who fought their own way to freedom, who by the time they get out, they're so traumatized by intimacy and struggled to even figure out what *they* wanted, now that they actually have a choice... I'm running out of words, I just want to gesture wildly at all this and possibly explode but *please* tell me you see my vision here
i really REALLY admire your passion!!! I can appreciate that you went ahead and shared this with me <3 I haven't seen all of Steven Universe, but I'll publish this ask so others may share in it!!