#wretchedswallow

[tarrybirdy]

Had a dream where Caine had an AM style mental breakdown, ya know pretty common stuff in this fandom.

However there was this one line that is still stuck with me

"Why have you designed me to create love, to yearn for it, to exist for it, and yet make me so perfectly unloveable?"

[tarrybirdy]

Realizing your trans while being a creative writer is so weird cause you realize how you had subconsciously projected that onto your writing and characters.

Came out to my friends and no one was surprised. One of their reasons was how one of my characters is similar to me in almost every aspect (sheltered, aroace and wants to pursue a creative craft, but in his case it's music). Expect for one. Which is him being a guy.

Honestly the signs were always there man. What else can I say?

[tarrybirdy]

Anyone else stared at the end credits of Iron Lung and shed a singular tear or was that just me?

[tarrybirdy]

Just a casual reminder for myself and other writers:

✨You do not have to write smut to have your work be considered mature✨

And if someone is telling you that the only way your mature work will be valid and succesful is if add sex scenes, then throw a copy of any smutless mature work of your preference and dare them to find the spice like the addict that they are

[tarrybirdy]

So I had a dream where Prism and Flambae were in a Christmas themed music video

The main gimmick was that they were so damn HOT that they snow melted around them when near them

When Flambae held a snowman ✨homoerotic style✨, he left an imprint of his abs on the lucky bastard

[tarrybirdy]

I think Frankie is kinda neat tbh

So I just watched Knights of Guinevere, and I gotta say, I absolutely adored it. Everything about it was great, Dana and the entire team the an amazing job and I hope to see more of it.

However I would like to mention one thing I especially enjoyed, and that is a character like Frankie being the main protagonist.

The show does feel like it will be a three main character structure, but the fact that Frankie so far has been the one who got the most attention was really delightful to see.

I feel like in most stories character like her end up being the supporting secondary protagonist for characters such as Andie, as well as usually just being tough cookies and sailor mouths. The fact that Frankie is the more silly one in the duo, Andie having the more serious personality and having her desire to work at Planet Park drive the plot instead of some other tough character motifs has been really refreshing to see personally.

Plus just look at her

Her design is so refreshing as well. Instead of making her a hard butch, she is given feminine traits as well, like long hair and earrings.

I hope to see more of her and her friendship with Andie, this show is going to be one of my all time favorites with the direction it is going.

[tarrybirdy]

When the sexually transmitted disease in your worldbuilding is preventing your characters from having sex

[tarrybirdy]

So I've been discussing how smut-based fiction has become extremely mainstream in the writing industry with a few of my friends (who are also beta readers) as one does Then one of them said I would unironically be a really good smut writer cause of my vivid writing style Bitch I know I would, that's why I'm instead using my power to write gruesomely detailed gore and death scenes, exactly how my sadistic creative nature demands