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originally going to be inspired by that one edgy sans aus and reader fanfic.. and also someone who was supposed to be inspired by fpe-verse fen
i actually stopped because i felt better about myself.. idkk why maybe because i was drawing this dood and made me feel happy, slightly.. the start was so bad dude i gave up on it..
** ill make this an actual fanfic. im just dealing thru serious shit rn.
only 700ish words, lowercase on purpose. crappy art at the bottom.
youre tired.
so, so fucking tired.
is there even a point in living? any point in continuing with this life? with this absurd luck you have, the next life would somehow be worse.
so, so pitiful. how useless you are. contributing nothing to your family, your grades, your social life, and your character on the internet.
what was once your safe heaven, quickly became purgatory. you cant use it to cope anymore.
how could you let this happen?
you're so fucking embarrassing. too scared to even do more than just hitting your head in frustration. cant even.. commit to your thoughts.
death was too painful.. and scary.
you sat there, your utensils mindlessly prodding at your food. everything was muffled, too loud. all you could do was try to blink the tears away.
"..updates..?"
slowly lifting your head, you paused. your "brother" was staring back at you. his smug smirk and crossed arms becoming the only thing that you could see. the background of everything else ceased to exist.
"I want to punt his fucking face off." is a thought that always came to mind. its a daily practice at that point.
however..
everything came back to normal as your dad wrapped an arm around your brothers shoulder, messing up his hair. you deflated in your seat, biting the insides of your cheek. so, so stupid. you wanna just leave but you can't. your relatives were suffocating you, preventing you from getting up from your seat.
"heyhey!! got new mail.. and guess what?" your dad turned to everyone, his beaming smile soon getting crossed out through your blurry vision.
"this little critter here got an award! AGAIN!" the entire table erupted in cheers, celebrating while you continue to sink in your seat. nobody except your brother notices your pathetic form. as soon as they quiet down, theyre going to shame you. shame you for not being like him, for not being as studious or .. normal.
…
everything blacked out as you walked back into your room, ignoring the calls from your dad and the others. you could hear their little whispers, their jabs at your stupid fucking-
rattle, rattle.
…
you turned your head to the sound
..
holy shit theres a naked man out your window.. he only had one visible eye, everything was covered with his dark messy hair and darker highlights in random tufts of hair. he seemed to have horns ..? in his messy, unkept hair, there was two smaller eyeballs looking right back at you. almost like he came out of some erotic monster eldritch horror fanfic.
he puts his claw against the window.. staring back at you. his eyes slowly trail to the bag of chips that laid on your messy desk. he blinked once with his giant eye, his smaller eyeballs still on you. …is he hungry..? you turned to the bag of chips, your favorite.
you let out a shuddering breath as you reached out, your hands shaking. your legs wobbled when you slowly walk to the window. this was a horrible idea.. but.. do you really have a choice here..? fat tears rolled down your cheeks, your heart beating so fast that your entire body feels like the color white.
finally, you opened the window,, quickly shoving the bag of chips into his hand. you raced to shut the window but his other claw gripped your neck tightly. you couldnt even scream- too mortified. instead, you shut your eyes closed, to comfort yourself before you die.
munch munch
…?
the sounds of chewing.. it continued for what seems like hours ( which was only around twenty seconds in real time ) before the rustling of the chips vanish. the cold wind whipped at your face, knowing the monster was staring you down while holding you in place.
your breath hitched as you felt his arm claw wipe away your tears. through your eyelashes, you can see him lean closer..
..
is that purring. thats.. definitely purring. you blinked wide open to see the monster staring back at you. the two mini eyeballs.. their pupils were a heart.. shape? he continued to caress your face, wiping away the final tears. the claw that was wrapped around your neck loosened-
boop. heres artwork i made of critter.. drawing him made me happy.. hes not supposerd to be nakey ,, supposed to have fur and spikey stuff but like idaf anymore - was gonna write him comforting you, you give him ur damaged bow, and you guys escape to the forest where you bang or something help ts frying me
I have many projects currently and won't be posting as much!! ( When I do come back, I'll probably post at least 3 chapters or fanfics at once!! )
Plus, I'm facing harassments in my asks/inbox so I'll also need to disable that ( ･ั﹏･ั)
It was draining for me to open the sudden influx of asks and realize it was mainly all pushy & ignorance- about updating one of my fanfics
I know I shouldn't take what they were saying to heart but I couldn't help but feel dejected when they said something along the lines of "Seraphim was my best fanfic" ouch
If you're that anon, reading this message now.. please know that things are discontinued with or without reason- authors aren't obligated to tell you why and you shouldn't send over 20 messages about it.. especially in such a short time frame.
( these are the two recent ones )
I just have no words.. am I thankful that there's someone who's that dedicated to my fanfic? A tiny bit?? Am I weirded out by the obsessive requests? 100%
See you all ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡ I love my readers, drink lots of water and take care of yourself
What does the angel from DISPATCH X ANGELIC!READER look like? Does she wear a dress or outfit?
🦸🏻♀️😇🪽
to be honest...
i didnt really have an idea... and the series IS discontinued BUT
i did have a design! but its lost in dms and broken discord ahahaaaa anyways..
Y/N / Angel (<- y/n's title) didnt have a set look. All they had was head wings like sundays and another pair of wings sprouting from their waist i believe.. and ofc- their horns! something like...
i dont think I ever wrote their outfits- it was all for the readers to decide plus
Y/N / Angel was gender neutral, i tried to make them a blank slate so all viewers could read it.. I was going to make it more female orientated but i found out that there was mascu readers who were interested in seraph!m
again, i dun remember much about it since i ignored it for like 3 months. I dont even remember how *I* saw angel!! but i tried to redraw them from memory.. i remember that my ver of angel had a scarf thingy and a tilted halo but that was it
(ignore how the current angel doesnt have their head wings- i forgor it)
DUDE WHEN I WAS WRITING THE FANFIC THE POLL WASTHAT UNICORN WAS WINNING BUT I JUST CHECKED AND IT SAYS QILIN RIGHT HERE OHH MY GODDDDD IM MAKING SEPERATE FANFICS NOW I AM SO SORRY
finish writing chapter 2 of As Gorge. as Dancing Petals..
plan out the fpe swimming teacher! reader fanfic..
publish chapter 1 of Liar, Liar, Horn on Fire..
create an introduction for my page..
draw my oc for fpe..
