i projected onto leah clearwater as a teen

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[renegadepack]

anti-racism resource post for twilight fans

this post is now a carrd!!

back when midnight sun was officially announced, i wrote a post talking about my experience as a white fan of the series, back when i was younger and as i’ve grown and educated myself and interacted with the fandom more and more. now that tumblr lets you pin a post, i wanted to make a new post for resources, because the original post is a lot to scroll through and i wanted the links to be more accessible + easier to find.

under the cut is links to learn about racism (both in general and specifically anti- indigenous, as that is the largest issue present in the twilight books), ways to help, and links to check out various indigenous creators that deserve your support. always open to suggestions of links to add, in any of the categories. if i have linked your post/blog/website/etc. and you do not want it linked, please let me know and i will remove it asap. updated often.

most important: the quileute tribe is currently working on their move to higher ground project. many of their lands are currently in flooding danger zones, and this project is (as the name suggests) working to move to safer areas so they can continue to thrive. if you are able, please consider donating to that project here.

great news! the quileute tribe has begun construction on the new school.(x) there are still many phases to this project however, so please continue donating to them if you are able!

please let me know if a link is incorrect, if i made any type of error, or if there is a way this can be easier to navigate! 

Keep reading

[renegadepack]

because i cannot stop adjusting this, i have decided to make this into a carrd!!! this post will remain as is, however i added the “now a carrd” bit to the beginning, and adjusted the “keep reading” section of the body. i left twilight specific links and the donation links, but everything else is now on the carrd. this leaves more room at add different links for different groups or issues, so please let me know if you have any!! 

the carrd can be viewed here

[renegadepack]

#37. things you said through someone else for Bella & Jacob?

Dear Jacob, I’m sorry I left you like that. I know it was awful timing, and Charlie had so many questions you couldn’t answer, and I put you all in a nightmare of a situation. I’m so, so sorry. I can’t say it enough. But he just needed me, Jake, and I need him. No matter what, I couldn’t let him go through with it. You have to understand that. It wasn’t fair to him. Call me. Please. Bella

From Bella, to Charlie, to Billy, finally to Jacob. “Cullens just can’t leave well enough alone, huh?” Billy said, handing the unfolded and read note to his son. Jacob just left, crumbling the note in his fist before shoving it in his back pocket.

Dear Jacob, Jacob, please. I want need you in my life. I can’t choose between you two; you’re my best friend. I’ll do anything. You win the age battle, for good. You can have my bike. I’ll cook all the lasagna you want, whenever you want. Anything you need. Please. I’m so, so, so sorry. Please give me another chance. You said you wouldn’t give up on me. I won’t give up on us. Please. Bella.

The same chain, daughter to father to friend to son. “Maybe you should just give him some time, Bells. Let him lick his wounds,” Charlie tried to persuade her. She just asked again, a tone of desperation leaking into her voice. He had to agree, frightened of that familiar, haunted look in her eye. Not again.

Dear Jacob, It’s been four months since that night. If I had known how it would hurt you… All I can do now is apologize and pray you accept. What else can I do to make it right? Please, Jake. I can’t do it alone. Bella

Jacob took it straight from Charlie that night, doing his best to avoid the man’s gaze. “Jacob, I’m sorry she keeps doing this, and that I’m enabling her. I don’t really fully know what happened, but-”

“You’re right, Chief Swan. You don’t know what happened. Stay out of it,” Jacob interrupted. He was tired of her father doing her dirty work for her.

“Jacob!” Billy chastised. 

“It’s okay, Billy. He’s right. I’m sorry.”

Dear Bella, If you had known how it would’ve hurt me, you still would have done it. It’s him every time, isn’t it? I’ll choose myself. Jacob

In reverse this time, back through the line to Bella. Charlie tried to avoid giving it, but it wasn’t his hurt to spare. And Bella had already seen the paper; recognized the scrawling handwriting.

“I’m sorry, Bells. I wish it didn’t have to be this way,” he said as he watched the eagerness on her face fade to a protective numbness. She read the words over and over, fighting for a way to deny them, a way to get him back. She hated when he was right.

“Me too, Dad. Me too.”

more fic // request fic

“things you said” prompts

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags your best friends to lovers ships.

[inthetags]

reblog and tag a character you like in concept, but the execution could have been better

[renegadepack]

#37. things you said through someone else for Bella & Jacob?

Dear Jacob, I’m sorry I left you like that. I know it was awful timing, and Charlie had so many questions you couldn’t answer, and I put you all in a nightmare of a situation. I’m so, so sorry. I can’t say it enough. But he just needed me, Jake, and I need him. No matter what, I couldn’t let him go through with it. You have to understand that. It wasn’t fair to him. Call me. Please. Bella

From Bella, to Charlie, to Billy, finally to Jacob. “Cullens just can’t leave well enough alone, huh?” Billy said, handing the unfolded and read note to his son. Jacob just left, crumbling the note in his fist before shoving it in his back pocket.

Dear Jacob, Jacob, please. I want need you in my life. I can’t choose between you two; you’re my best friend. I’ll do anything. You win the age battle, for good. You can have my bike. I’ll cook all the lasagna you want, whenever you want. Anything you need. Please. I’m so, so, so sorry. Please give me another chance. You said you wouldn’t give up on me. I won’t give up on us. Please. Bella.

The same chain, daughter to father to friend to son. “Maybe you should just give him some time, Bells. Let him lick his wounds,” Charlie tried to persuade her. She just asked again, a tone of desperation leaking into her voice. He had to agree, frightened of that familiar, haunted look in her eye. Not again.

Dear Jacob, It’s been four months since that night. If I had known how it would hurt you… All I can do now is apologize and pray you accept. What else can I do to make it right? Please, Jake. I can’t do it alone. Bella

Jacob took it straight from Charlie that night, doing his best to avoid the man’s gaze. “Jacob, I’m sorry she keeps doing this, and that I’m enabling her. I don’t really fully know what happened, but-”

“You’re right, Chief Swan. You don’t know what happened. Stay out of it,” Jacob interrupted. He was tired of her father doing her dirty work for her.

“Jacob!” Billy chastised. 

“It’s okay, Billy. He’s right. I’m sorry.”

Dear Bella, If you had known how it would’ve hurt me, you still would have done it. It’s him every time, isn’t it? I’ll choose myself. Jacob

In reverse this time, back through the line to Bella. Charlie tried to avoid giving it, but it wasn’t his hurt to spare. And Bella had already seen the paper; recognized the scrawling handwriting.

“I’m sorry, Bells. I wish it didn’t have to be this way,” he said as he watched the eagerness on her face fade to a protective numbness. She read the words over and over, fighting for a way to deny them, a way to get him back. She hated when he was right.

“Me too, Dad. Me too.”

more fic // request fic

“things you said” prompts

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags your favorite interracial couples/ships in fiction.

[teamjacobthot]

i forgot to put this in my comment on the latest nyctophobia chapter but paul as the guy who talks The Biggest Talk about being good at grilling and then burns everyone's burgers every time..........how does it feel to have the biggest, funniest brain in the twilight fandom

had to transcend my tumblr post to ao3 for the one time

also thank you so much for reading!!! 🩷🩷

[teamjacobthot]

nyctophobia

chapter 12: visiting hours

read on ao3 (no longer posting on ff.net, sawryyyy)

summary: She Leah on my Clear til I Water (the life and times of Jailbird Cinderella). word count: a good and healthy ~6500

thank you so much to everybody who's stuck with me throughout this story. but guess what?? I'm getting laid off from my corporate job next month so I plan to update this fic a lot more often!! lets gooooo

tag list (literally just copying and pasting from old posts - pls message me if you want me to tag/untag you in future nyctophobia posts): @leahclearwaterdefensesquad @cheerynoir @big-idiot-wolf-boys @the-golden-onion @howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen @phil-dwyer-stan-account @paulxlahotee @edwardsmedow @the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis @effervescent-influenza @gezellig-writes @witchyangela @leahcee @haletwinsstan @musingsofvenus @leahclearwlwater @haemshaems @vampiresarezombies @femmealice @blackpack @bellasoutrageousflavor @tenarcansteponme @me-and-jake @plainjaniedee @renegadepack @manicpixietwilight @emotwilights @jacobyouidiotihadit @edwardsmate4ever @sugarshackpeasant @nativegaymer @bellasdumptruckass

[teamjacobthot]

yall mind if I post a new chapter of nyctophobia? 😳😳😳

[twilight-bih]

pls

[teamjacobthot]

[sent with slam effect] https://archiveofourown.org/works/36529180/chapters/224472801

https://archiveofourown.org/works/36529180/chapters/224472801

[teamjacobthot]

nyctophobia

chapter 12: visiting hours

read on ao3 (no longer posting on ff.net, sawryyyy)

summary: She Leah on my Clear til I Water (the life and times of Jailbird Cinderella). word count: a good and healthy ~6500

thank you so much to everybody who's stuck with me throughout this story. but guess what?? I'm getting laid off from my corporate job next month so I plan to update this fic a lot more often!! lets gooooo

tag list (literally just copying and pasting from old posts - pls message me if you want me to tag/untag you in future nyctophobia posts): @leahclearwaterdefensesquad @cheerynoir @big-idiot-wolf-boys @the-golden-onion @howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen @phil-dwyer-stan-account @paulxlahotee @edwardsmedow @the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis @effervescent-influenza @gezellig-writes @witchyangela @leahcee @haletwinsstan @musingsofvenus @leahclearwlwater @haemshaems @vampiresarezombies @femmealice @blackpack @bellasoutrageousflavor @tenarcansteponme @me-and-jake @plainjaniedee @renegadepack @manicpixietwilight @emotwilights @jacobyouidiotihadit @edwardsmate4ever @sugarshackpeasant @nativegaymer @bellasdumptruckass

[teamjacobthot]

yall mind if I post a new chapter of nyctophobia? 😳😳😳

[achillesinhighheels]

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

my actual vampire hot take is that if you're going to be a 'vegetarian' vampire (a vampire that only drinks the blood of animals) you MUST have hunter education. i'm so sick of people being like oh well predator animals are mean and scary because they kill cute 'harmless' animals like NO they're crucial for the environment and if you're going to hunt animals for blood you still need to stick to regular people hunting guidelines and only hunt things that are in season and abide by your areas bag limits

[robothell]

there was a cloud shaped like bart simpson in 1852 and nobody recognized it

[paper-mario-wiki]

there was a cloud shaped like lois griffin in 1344 china and everyone recognized her immediately

[mariapedia]

It honestly shocks me that Aro never decided to go after the Denali sisters for breaking the law of secrecy. The whole succubus legend was started because of them. That’s not exactly what I could call “being inconspicuous.”

[bisexualcharlieswan]

I think the sisters got away with it because they were smart enough not to go too far after Sasha got killed by the Volturi for creating an immortal child. I think they figured out how to interact with humans without technically breaking the law of secrecy, like the Cullens did. But of course, they couldn't get away with it completely because they still drank human blood and left corpses behind. As long as they killed or turned any human lovers, looking at you Edward, the Volturi couldn't justify killing them, even if they were toeing the lines.

[twilightsourceinforks]

Alice Cullen

2026

[ejacutastic]

drove past a hotel and they had a pretty big digital message board and I glanced over and almost had a fucking stroke while driving because it was just playing this gif

[ejacutastic]

I’M GOING TO LOSE IT IT WASN’T FOR MOTHER’S DAY THEY JUST HAVE THE FUCKING DANCING BABY 24/7

[khanooqa]

WE WENT??? ITS THERE???