Hi, I'm Spades/Soda!! I figured that, since I'm using Tumblr a bit more, I may as well make an informational pinned post!
I do my best to answer asks, but I'm far more likely to answer when related to my fics or art, and specific fandom stuff that I am apart of.
Speaking of fandoms, the ones I partake in the most are: POWCreation SMPs, Life Series, and Hermitcraft. I dabble in DC.
Tumblr is one of two places I am active on. Tumblr and Ao3, which has the handle 'spadesoftrade' or 'sodapopp'. I do not have Twitter, nor Bluesky, as I avoid social media.
!!! Please be aware that I do post NSFW fics on my Ao3! While I won't make this blog strictly 18+ itself (may make a sideblog for that), my Ao3 does contain explicit material. Don't blindside yourself. !!!
If it wasn't obvious, I admittedly know very little about Tumblr. I only ever used it to look at pretty pictures and go 'oooh', so I am not versed in Tumblr... culture?? Sure. So, I apologize if I seem a bit foolish with it!
I don't do art requests or comms (unless I know you), mainly due to the fact that I am not that confident in my art. If you want to use my art as a PFP (for... some reason) please credit me! I would also prefer you didn’t repost my things without my consent. And on the topic of art: DO FUCKING NOT PUT MY ART OR MY WRITING NEAR GENERATIVE AI. FUCK THAT SHIT. Thaaanks <3
As such, here are a few tags explanations! These will change as time goes on.
#cinders - answering asks! | #reburned - reblogs! (i may avoid reblogging on here, since im more active) | #emblazoned - just talking! | #matchbox - this is my art ttg
as for any particular tags for specific fics, i don't have any yet :[
Do you intend to make a statement about the situation with AvidMC, given that you have worked with him in Vampires and Bannerfalls?
(This is not in any way meant to pressure you to make a statement, this ask can be deleted or never responded to! I am simply curious of your stance on the situation, but it's a complicated and messy situation for sure, and I think I speak for all of us in saying it is justified to move on without speaking about it, and I don't believe any of us will judge you for doing so. Hope you and the family are doing well! <3)
I spoke about it briefly on stream today but it's worth re-iterating here too
I was only aware of one situation between Avid and another creator(s), which I was learned about pretty much after the dust had already settled. Both sides had laid it to rest and were steering clear of one another.
This sudden revelation that it wasn't an isolated incident and happening to most people in their orbit was a shock.
I seem to have avoided all of this scenario as I was never close with Avid/Marm. I've literally only interfaced with them during content and any team meeting calls for Misadventures, Vampires and Flight SMP. In Flight specifically I was never seeking them out for chit-chats or roleplay, but if I stumbled upon them I would engage because it'd be strange in character to just u-turn ya know. So you've all seen the vast majority of my interactions with them.
I'm obviously still pissed off that my friends and collaborators have been hurt (some incredibly deeply) and they all know I'm here for them as an ear should they need it, but hopefully this chapter is behind all of us swiftly. I'm hopeful that the healing process will be helped along by the fact that they've ejected themselves from the MCYT space. It means there isn't a constant reminder or injustice being thrust on their FYP or timeline constantly.
Last note, I've seen way too many people have been kicking themselves for not knowing any of this from a viewer perspective, btu how would you? I'm behind the scenes and it was mostly obscured from me too. Your standing with creators is often just 'i make silly thing, you enjoy watching silly thing' - you've no other evidence to understand their motives or movements off camera. You can only judge and inform yourself with what you're presented. So go easy on yourselves mkay?
So, I've been thinking about this situation for the past few days. The first and most evident point I'm going to make here - support the victims. They've been through enough already. As much as I'm going to talk about my work in regards to this, I am not someone who has been effected in the way that the various individuals coming forth about their experiences with Avid and Marm have. My ability to create and feel comfortable making fanworks does not compare to the emotional stress and loss of stability that has occured in lives of the people at the heart of this.
I say this both because it is obvious, and because the nature of this update is going to delve into how this effects my personal works. However, I don't want that to take away from anything stated previously.
This is going to be long, and I apologize for that. Update under the cut.
On Fanart
First things first - I am NOT going to take down and of my pre-existing works featuring v!Avid. They've already been made. Going back to erase history isn't going to change anything. Additionally, as I have say over and over again throughout my posts: Art takes time. I have spent anything from hours, to days, to months working on the pieces I've put out on Tumblr. And that's not counting any time I've spent working out these ideas outside of digital art, or writing out the storylines that even let me get to them in the first place.
However, I will not be making any more fanworks featuring them.***
This is not to shame anyone who has chosen another route for the future. I am simply not comfortable continuing to do so. It's a difficult decision to make, as v!Avid is so heavily involved in the overarching plots of several other VSMP characters. I don't want to abandon VSMP entirely. They are not all it had to offer, far from it. Frankly, I feel as though it would be giving them too much credit to even imply that such a thing is true. There was so much wonderful work that was put into the series by the other creators, and so many amazing fanworks made by my fellow fan creators before and after. None of that time and effort and love deserves to be washed down the drain because of the selfish and cruel actions of two people.
So, to put it simply, yes, there will be more VSMP content on this blog. There just won't be any more v!Avid content.***
On Trustbites AU (Fanfiction)***
The little addendum I've have to put in the previous section is because of my Trustbites Fic. While they were never the main focus of the story, with it being set after the events of the original series, their presence in the narrative exists through other characters. This is particularly in regards to v!Drift and v!Shelby, two characters who are already disregarded more often than others (for reasons you can probably guess). Their stories can exist without v!Avid to some extent, but to pretend like there was no real effect there would just be a flat out lie.
I could just throw out everyone but the Trustbites trio and call it a day. But I'm not gonna do that. There's already such a problem within fandom of dismissing female characters, as well as characters of marginilzed identity as a whole. I don't want to contribute to that. I don't want to get rid of them, and I don't want to flatten their arcs in a story meant to be a continuation of the original series. And I will acknowledge that this is what I am doing to v!Avid to some extent. I'd rather not do it to anyone else.
I may never get to the point where v!Drift and v!Shelby get explored. The same can be said for any other points that would've somehow involved v!Avid. Writing is hard for me. Especially with how unbelievable unmedicated my ADHD is. But I want to write Sever the Leg with the intent to get to the point, regardless of if life lets me get there in the future. Basically, the fic will continue as usual (release schedule affected by my personal life notwithstanding).
On Starter Swap
Here's the big one.
Even outside of what's gone on in the past few days; I have been feeling disatisfied with Starter Swap for some time now.
There's a lot of reasons as to why. Early on, I felt pressured to change parts of it I liked due to comments I had recieved. And as more and more "sireswaps" and "starter change" AUs arose, I began to feel like the one I had made was inadequate. That is, of course, no one's fault but my own, but that didn't stop it from weighing on me as I tried to write out the story or make new art.
Anyone who has sat through a call with me trying to draw will know I am a perfectionist to a fault. And unfortunately, this carried over to my work on this AU. It started with the old sketches, and how I couldn't look at them without hating them. Then, when I started to work on refs, I would nitpick my own designs endlessly, even if deep down I knew nothing was actually wrong with them. This was to the point that I look weeks to do singular characters.
As for the pages themselves, and I only completed four (though there is currently six unfinished ones I've been chipping away at over the past two months), but I think the way I approached them was flat out unsustainable for the long run. It drained me to work on them alone, even with the larger-than-average amount of freetime I have at my disposal. This was something I had somewhat fixed by the time of the second ask, but looking back, the way the story was meant to be revealed is not something I think that I, even with the two friends I managed to get help from, could have handled.
What came out about Avid was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. I've thought about it a lot over the past few days, and I've talked about it with my team. There were ways I could have moved forward with the project. But when faced with what had happened, and the people that had been hurt, I had to sit down and ask myself a question. That being: did you even want to do this beforehand? And as much as I know the answer will disappoint some people, the answer was no. There is no point in me attempting to salvage a story that I do not want to keep making.
I'm sorry to anyone this upsets. To anyone who liked this AU: I'm not gonna take down any of the old Starter Swap work. You're free to enjoy it as it exists. It will not disappear. It just won't continue on.
I'm going to pivot to something else. Something more sustainable, and something focused on the creations of other people who worked hard on the Vampires SMP I still enjoy. There are two main options - one more original content focused, but I will make a separate post about that, since I don't want to detract from the circumstance more than I already have.
Thank you to anyone who read through all of this. I completely understand if people will not want to stick around afterward. It's a difficult time in this community, and I entirely get the desire to step away from it all.
Again, please remember to show your support for the people who have been most affected by this. Musithical, a music artist who collaborated Avid on their songs, is facing serious risk to their income due to cutting him off. She goes more indepth on this post, which also lists a variety of ways you can support her during this time. Additionally TheRandomBox and Peeporp are two others who are facing significant impact to their income in light cutting ties with AvidMC. If you know of anyone else under similiar circumstance, feel free to add on.
When there is drama. The most important thing is to be informed
right now there is drama in the MCYT Fandom.
As of June 7 2026 Avidmc and Marma1ade have quit content creation.
Also as of June 7 2026, creators from the Minecraft server Skyblock Kingdoms (sbk) have come forward about “irrevocable damage [Avidmc and Marma1ade] have caused to SBK and its friends” (quote from Sbk statement on twitter) and have removed them from the server.
Below is a time line of statements, with links to the original, for ease of access. However I want to make clear that every one of these statements does not ask for aggression or violence against anyone, infact many implore the reader not to send any hate or aggression. Instead these statements ask for caution. ⚠️ do not attack anyone for who they support. Do not send hate to anyone involved. Doing so will get you banned across platforms, and make you a shitty person. ⚠️
This is purely for information collection and gathering. Make judgments based on your values and verifiable fact.
8:38 pst(or pdt? Idk pacific time for all of this*) Avid sends an announcement to his discord, announcing he is quitting content creation
He left his discord sometime after.
link to the discord from his offline twitch chat
A hub for Minecraft Adventurers | 7330 members
[unknown time, image received second hand. Discord invitation, acquired through her twitch chat, has been disabled] Marm quits content creation
12:00pdt Mulitiple creators post at the same time. In no particular order
Skyblock Kingdoms twitter post:
Nukeri/Nuke twitter post:
Nukeri/nuke Google doc statement:
AMy Statement regarding AvidMC and Marma1ade Please do not take this statement as an excuse to send any hate or aggression to anyone involv
Legundo twitter post:
Doovid twitter post:
12:01 pdt VikingPilot twitter post:
12:01pdt Musithical tumblr post:
💬 19 🔁 126 ❤️ 550 · i am no longer going to be working with AvidMc
over the past several days, i have talked with dozens of people who ha
this part is one that i'm really going to hate. in the wake of all that happened yesterday, i need to talk about finances. i know this is long, but i urge you to read through, because i could really use some tangible, real help right now.
as many of you know, the work we did for Avid was substantial. the music we made with him has been our lifeblood for the past several months as we have been reeling from the onset of a severe, life changing disability diagnosis that prevents us from working a typical job. music, video editing, streaming, and making our own videos are about all we can do. our disabling dissociative amnesia prevents the timely and reasonable learning of new skills. while we have been working constantly with a dissociative specialist to inch towards remedying this, we do not expect that we will be equipped to work in any other capacity any time soon.
the royalties we received from the music we made together with Avid were roughly 80-90% of our income on any given month for the calendar year so far, and they have helped us stay afloat while we have been trying to go through the rigorous and ill-equipped disability system.
putting all your eggs in one basket is never a good idea regardless, and the fears i had building for the past couple of months only further emphasized this. as such, i have been trying to diversify by engaging with streaming, trying to get my name out there for collaborative work in other SMPs, and reaching out to my creator friends for editing work. i really can't thank two people in particular enough - LeonSBU and NatureOfGaming - for providing me work as they have been able to afford and especially in Leon's case, getting my name out there for other SMPs.
unfortunately, the true extent of Avid's manipulations and lies were more than i could ever have imagined. the fact that my entire understanding of his intentions has been flipped in a matter of no more than 3 days feels like being hit by a truck. for full transparency, i am no longer in contact with Avid, but i did inform them that i was leaving the fate of our music in their hands. in the final messages he sent to me before i cut contact, he told me that he "would never cut [me] off financially". he told me he would never do a lot of things, so forgive me if i have trouble trusting this. regardless, the dropoff in listenership after what has been revealed will be substantial and immediate.
in the best case-scenario, i have a month or two left before royalties catch up to this dropoff, and will see consistent income for that time still. in the worst, i will no longer be able to afford my rent by the end of the month if he does remove the music and disable my royalty splits.
what i need is two things: i need immediate funds to fall back on in case things go poorly, and i need longevity. i have been so lucky to be surrounded by so many truly astounding and generous creators who have been willing to put my name out there for work. i am hoping this comes to fruition. i am already hearing from some about potential editing opportunities which is amazing. but things are still up in the air, and i need to be quick and smart. this is why i am doing something that my fans know i hate. i'm asking for help.
as i see it, there are three pillars to this. all the highlighted text below links directly:
immediate aid - if you have the funds to spare, buying our music on Bandcamp and donating to our Ko-Fi are methods of which we see the funds in a matter of days, if not instantly. this will help us build an emergency fund if worse comes to worse.
supporting our work - by spreading the word about our streaming on Twitch and listening to our music on streaming services such as Spotify, Apple Music, and YouTube (and any other platform our music is on), you provide a significant source of consistent income that we can rely on month-to-month.
word of mouth - talking about what we do and why you enjoy it is a surprisingly big help, because it helps us find connections for potential growth opportunities and commission work. additionally, letting people know we have a Discord and are the ones responsible for Avid's music in the first place not only helps us, but it helps the people who loved Avid's music know there is more out there from the person who made his songs possible.
i'm gonna level with you all. i fucking hate writing this. i feel like a beggar. i feel humiliated. these past three days of piecing things together have been some of the worst of my life, and having to once again ask for help is the cherry on top. since i learned about the truth three days ago, this has been constantly looming over me. everything else has been made crystal clear to me, so i at least know without a shadow of a doubt what happened. but with this? i'm terrified. Avid knew my situation, my disability, my reliance on our work together. he has left me in a truly impossible situation. i am taking it as an opportunity to double down on the work i was already doing and try to turn it into a positive. i hope that you all are gracious enough to help me make that a reality. it would really mean the world right now.
for some positivity in all of this, here's a sneak peak of my next song. i'm so ready to move forwards and i'm trying to let this empower me to make some awesome fucking art. thank you to everyone who read to the end. hope to see you all soon <3
Also about the avid and marm situation, i know its tough rn but remember that we as a community, in vsmp, skyblock, the flight etc, did nothing wrong by loving their work, their characters, their stories.
No matter how many "i told you sos" youll see on twitter or anywhere else, please dont feel like you should've known better when the whole point of the shitstorm is that people got manipulated, intentionally. Youll see the sentiment of "dont idolise content creators" repeated, and it seems so obvious from the get go, but I know it often only hits once something of this severity happens in relation to a creator you love.
It hurts and it sucks and however you decide to react to it is your business and your business alone. Keep creating, keep loving, or take a break, focus on something else entirely, whatever you do, there is no correct or right way to deal with putting so much effort and care into stories of people who hurt others, not when theyre already off the cc sphere anyway.
I know i dont need to give my two cents on this, that it has all been said before, but just yknow. Support circle and a little empathy to my fellow mcyt fan compatriots bc yall are some of the most talented, passionate and creative people ive seen and its so easy to get lost in further discoursauce and let it get to you
All three admins are aware of the avid/marm situation. While existing posts will stay up, going forward Avid will no longer be a part of the au. We will rework the story as if his character was never involved.
We ask that people do not discuss the situation in the comments or reblogs. Supporters of Avid or Marm are not welcome on this blog either. Our support goes to the people affected by their actions. We wish those people the best going forward.
just wanted to pop by from ao3 and let you know that I absolutely ADORE your writing, fireshot is kinda my favorite pairing right now and you do them so well!
please keep writing whatever makes you happy <3
(also may have peaked at your bookmarks and you have excellent taste, I will be reading a few and sharing some more love with those authors *:･ﾟ✧)
hii!!
sorry for the delayed response aha - thank you so so much!!! i do try my best and i really love writing for y'all
<3
(yesss good good, i love spreading more books to other people)
never apologise for how you feel, and if that means never writing fireshot again, then so be it! do what makes YOU comfortable 💛
The whole situation is awful and it's made me feel so goddamn sick to my stomach, I can never forgive him for what he's done to people
personally, I like your writing and I'll continue reading whatever you write:3 you should never feel bad or like you're disappointing people - especially me!
I hope you have an absolutely amazing rest of your day
i really really appreciate it <3
tbh i'm just... so at a loss for words. i've... honestly, the past few months, avid has been giving me such weird vibes, especially after the vague posting, so i haven't been writing him as much but fuck man i wish those suspicions weren't true.
i really do appreciate your support dude, hoping to at least get something out here soon ^^
hope you have an amazing rest of your day as well!!!
I'm uh... not really sure how to move forward, after what has occurred today. There are so many works in progress with Fireshot or Bloodystake that... I don't know if I want to finish them, now. I look at 'you don't want to hurt me, i can't say the same' with nothing but apathy. I feel so fucking bad for all the people affected. This is an awful situation, and I cannot bear to look or write Avid in the same light as I used to.
I think I'm just going to settle on writing other ships, now. I'll finish the few Fireshot wips that I have left, before moving on to other fields, but I apologize if they don't seem like they have much heart. I... won't abandon the long fic, but it's... going to take me longer to actually finish it, after today. I sincerely apologize if this upsets some of you who follow me specifically for Fireshot (sincerest to you, fireshot anon), but hopefully things pan out for me.
over the past several days, i have talked with dozens of people who have corroborated evidence which confirms fears i have had for months - fears which i had been made to believe were unsubstantiated, until now. for my own privacy, safety, and wellbeing, i will be keeping this a personal matter. if there comes a time where it becomes relevant to share my perspective, i will do so with care and respect for everyone involved. at this time, however, i do not feel it would be helpful.
this situation has left me heartbroken. it has been devastating to find that someone who i trusted, loved, and considered one of my best friends was not the person i believed him to be. i am feeling more betrayed than i know how to express. my only solace is that in spite of this, i still find myself surrounded by friends and beloveds. forgive me if i choose to lean into them rather than my art in the coming weeks.
as for our music with Avid, i have given them the option to do what he pleases with it. while i am so, so proud of the love and care i have put into those songs, i sincerely cannot in good conscious claim them anymore. so many people have loved those songs, and i would not feel right taking them from anyone. this is why i have left it his decision whether he wants them to remain, or whether he chooses to remove them.
i ask that all of you please, please remain cordial. we are hurt, and the only thing that poking around and harassing others does is perpetuate the cycle of harm. if any malice burns within your heart, extinguish it now. i am tired of vitriol. i am tired, just in general. i want to take my time to heal, and then continue to make the art that i love, and share it with all of you. i ask each of you to do me the favor of not rocking the boat in the meantime.
thank you all for always being here for us, through all our rough roads and smooth sails. much love.
fireshot anon here !! just here to say that I hope you are having a wonderful, amazing time and are thriving in everything you do !!
hey!! thanks for sending this in, i honestly needed it! this is also a good way to, again unfortunately, say that i am alive!! i may or may not have swamped myself in wips n' responsibilities, and ended up incredibly fatigued during the spring (kinda forgot that happens to me so it came out of nowhere, fucking seasonal depression amirite) but i should be good to go soon!! raring to let loose my like. seven fireshot wips unto the world. (hinthint i made the fireshot heat fic a chapter fic teehee)
(also, i recently got super involved and actually social in a specific mcyt space via my main, and i have been highkey terrified to be uncovered since what i write is kind of seen as taboo.)
Hey y’all I have an announcement! My web app that I’ve been working on, Afro Index, is now live! It’s a visual reference library of Black hairstyles, for artist, animators, writers, and anyone who wants to learn more about them!
Check it out at afroindex.org! 💛✨
A reference library for Black hairstyles with accurate naming,
structured filtering, and curated reference images.
figured i should pop on tumblr for a mo' to chitterchatter a little
i am not dead!! im still writing, i promise, i've just been... really fucking tired to be honest, and have been severely lacking motivation. and also i am very bannerfall-pilled. we kill nominalgravy, what the fuck was today. but, ANYWAYS. (also my laptop broke. waiting to fix it lol.)
So. I don't have Twitter, so I’ve only picked up bits and pieces, BUT, I figured now is a good time to mention that I won't stop writing what I like. Fanworks are for the fans, for what we want to see, read, write, or draw. etc. My fics are mine to write and the fans to read. Whatever's happened won't change that.
I do sincerely apologize for the radio-silence on my end. I'm hoping to get the third chapter out (and two chapters of a continuation of my fireshot fic, 'you drive me crazy, out of my mind' because surprise!!! it's got chapters now) before the end of the month, but there are no guarantees. Love you guys, and thank you so much for the support.
