Please. We were told Emma received mean and insulting comments, do NOT go hurt her, harass her, or insult her. This is not what any of us want. If you want to support us, disengage from her content. That’s enough. If you know people who might have been hurt by her behavior or by her group, encourage them to speak up and share their experiences,or to contact us, when and if they feel safe doing so. We’re not here to spread hate. We just want the harm to be acknowledged and stopped in the future .
Again here is an example of the kind of ask I got, I'm pretty sure it was Emma or her group of friends. Maybe one of her fans. Anyways i'm taking a little break from my main account and I'll come back later. The shifting community should be a safe place and not a place where harassment, racism and stalking are normalized. Note that I keep all of this in effect in case at any point I have to take further action against any of you.
as a long insider and member of the dangerous cult who, i am proud to say, is terrorising the beloved platform of tumblr, and as a pr manager (after i manipulated the nation in order to get into a position of power), i feel the urge to make our final statement: a bunch of unemployed 20 years old should really start talking with humans outside of a screen..... and we are all really concerned for of you guys. seriously. our hands are sweating and the hair started losing their curls by the stress. it's obvious that your loneliness (perhaps, envy for not being part of the supreme court) got into your head and your inferiority complex is making you all see patterns that you guys are committing.
Once again you're just proving the point, that you’re a group of harassers. You weren’t even mentioned, and yet now you’re all teaming up to silence our voices.
We’re a mix of adults and minors. Some of us have jobs, some don’t. Some of us are alone, some are not. Shaming people for being lonely or mentally struggling just makes our point even louder (and is kinda ableist but at this point we're not surprised anymore)
It’s clear to everyone that you take pride in bullying people who dare speak up against your behavior. Also, in case it wasn’t obvious, it’s vacation time in many parts of the world.
Thanks so much for pretending to care about our mental health if you really did, maybe you would’ve acknowledged the impact of your harassment instead of making fun of us for naming it.
You're just confirming everything we’ve been saying.
hello there! I'm sunny. I wasn't necessarily attacked by emma or her fans, but I thought my experience would help reveal more of a pattern that I've been seeing on shiftblr, in regards to how she reacts to people, and treats people. I made this post (now deleted because I deactivated).
Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your
Expressing my own personal feelings of jealousy within the shiftblr community and my opinion on how we as a community treat others. it was in no way about emma. I only mentioned her when it came to the jealousy about sharing an s/o. she wasn't the focal point of the post and I made that clear within the disclaimer. made sure to make it the very first thing that people saw. because I knew if I mentioned her, it would automatically get misconstrued. and that's exactly what happened regardless of the disclaimer. emma and, who I presume to be a fan, soon made reblogs. the fan in particular was quite rude in response to seeing my post. and emma's reblog was more condescending , "hi. real person here by the way." I had reached out to both emma and the fan, trying to clear my intentions. I reached out to the fan through an ask, and they never responded.
so, I basically got ignored by the fan. soon after, I realized that both emma and the fan had deleted their reblogs. I used to be a really big fan of emma. I liked a lot of her posts and even used some of her advice. so the response I received from her was very disheartening. I was basically scrambling, trying to fix everything. I sent a message to emma, but as I know of, it never got answered or seen.
I tried to explain that I wasn't trying to be mean and that my intentions weren't to offend or harm emma. I started to even question my own intentions. I was confused on how the post got so easily misconstrued, because to me it was very clear what my intentions were. the confusion made me really anxious. I was scared to even open my tumblr account, in fear of possibly being attacked, or emma deciding to post my account, or make a more direct and formal post, that made me more vulnerable to harassment. thankfully that didn't happen. but the stress lasted much longer than it should have, and I ended up deleting my blog out of anxiety.
I'm a sensitive person, so I guess the whole thing hit deeper than it was supposed to. but i'm in no way perfect, I admit that I had talked badly about her, in response to being treated negatively. I said pretty rude things to others about her. but it was all because I felt unseen, unsafe, and unheard in the moment. is that an excuse? obviously not, but it is an emotional truth.
emma claims to be the victim in a lot of situations. which, I'm not denying that people haven been mean to her before, but she, as a bigger blog, publicly responds to people. instead of taking things to dms to get clarification of intentions, avoid making assumptions, or avoid hurting each other she publicly responds to everything, and assumes that the intentions of the person on the opposite side of the screen is attacking her. I'm not the first person she's done this with. there's been other people she has publicly responded to. even though their intentions were not to harm her or be rude to her. I have not seen one instance where she has actually tried to message someone to gain clarity of their intentions. she doesn't have to, but it would avoid an ongoing stream of people attacking each other. emma is a very popular blog. she has more followers than the average person. her fans deliberately attack those who say anything about her that's not remotely positive. she (as I know of) has never asked the intentions of those who she responds to, she assumes they're negative, and attacks them based on that assumption.
she's a bigger blog. her influence on her followers is much more wide scale. it's irresponsible to publicly respond to people as a bigger blog, knowing that your fans will more than likely attack the person you're responding to. and even if you don't know that's what your fans do, why are you posting things publicly anyway? knowing that things could possibly get messier than they should be? or at least try to stop that behavior from happening? If you're a popular blog, with more followers than average, wouldn't you try and stop people from potentially harming another person? specifically those who have lesser followers than you.
when someone with a larger platform publicly engages with someone of a smaller stature, even inadvertently, they will rarely be scrutinized at an equal weight. even if the larger blog did not intend on starting any harassment, it occurs with regularity anyways.
her fans are very sensitive about her. that doesn't just come from nowhere. she often mentions that she has been harassed, stalked, and targeted within the community. but her fans do the exact same thing to others. she accuses others of being harsh and assuming things about her, when she does the exact same thing to others. her struggles are very real and are very valid. but that doesn't make it right to attack others, nor is it an excuse to be harsh. she's right to say that she's more vulnerable because she's a bigger blog. but so are the smaller blogs. especially when she publicly replies to them. smaller blogs are also at risk for their own health, safety, and well-being. if your fans are so sensitive, that they cannot engage with nuance, or have a calm stance when it comes to anyone who disagrees with you, or critiques you, that's a VERY big issue. bordering on dangerous. if people are scared to even mention you in a way that isn't positive, in fear of being attacked...that's scary. and that's very awful. if people can't say something without being attacked, mocked, shunned, or not even remotely taken seriously, there is a PROBLEM.
if your presence is significant enough to spark mass support and defense from fans, then your words, and especially your replies to smaller blogs, carry a lot weight. people who question her, or hold opposite opinions, are not granted the same empathy she is. they are mocked, screenshotted to high heaven, and dismissed. this reinforces an imbalance. allowing only one kind of person to be hurt. and everyone else is either jealous, mean, or obsessed. when people are afraid to speak, even respectfully, because they know the response will be disproportionate, that's not just uncomfortable. that's control. whether it's intentional or not.
emma expresses being misunderstood, attacked, victimized, and persecuted. she says that no one listens to her. yet, she never asks the intentions of anyone else. she is also misunderstanding people (without trying to clear up that misunderstanding), doesn't try to listen to others, and is indirectly victimizing individuals. emma's experiences are valid. and she has every right to feel the way that she does. but her actions do play a role with how they affect others. I am not sharing this to re-open wounds or to rear up old drama, I am sharing this, because I believe these conversations are important. if this can lead to more understanding, and accountability, and can advise how we care for each other in this interactive digital space, that would be amazing. the shiftblr community becomes more toxic and less about shifting when these problems arise.
It's not a drama, this is our experience with Emma and her groups
Part 1 : zazaiafe2
Hi, i'm here to share my experience.It took me a long time to decide if I wanted to post this or not, but after talking with multiple victims of Emma (and some other bloggers too), I decided I couldn't stay silent anymore. This isn’t the first time emma has done this. She and her friends created waves of harassment so intense that it seriously hurt the mental health of smaller creators. So this isn’t just an isolated case, it's a pattern. Emma knows exactly how to push pressure on her victims and shift the blame onto them. she’s good at that.
The first thing I wanna talk about is my blog about the void. it blew up a lot, mostly cause Emma reblogged it. but again i just wanna remind people that the void doesn’t have solid or rooted origins. The person who created the void back in 2020 was basically a liar and honestly not a good person. I'll link the post about that here.
Tw: flash warning
DISCLAIMER: before i even start, i just want everyone to know that this post wasn't made with the intentions of starting drama, nor does it
A lot of people asked me to do research, and I did. Even though I already knew a bit about it, I still learned a lot. especially about similar states in other cultures like in hinduism. I'm planning to post something about that soon.
What I meant with the void thing is just that it’s not 100% foolproof. like it doesn’t always work the same way for everyone. From what I see it’s something that can be gradual. it builds up over time. but there's usually one thing that makes it void and it’s ego dissolution. ego death sometimes. When I said inner resistance, I mostly meant the conflict between what the consciousness wants and what the ego wants. that fight inside.I also wanted to talk about how the void experience can be really diverse. It doesn't always carry the same spiritual weight or outcome for everyone. The void isn’t only about shifting or manifesting either, to me it’s before anything else a deeply healing and grounding place.
When I said people have different ways of integrating affirmations and that beliefs aren’t really a “choice,” I wasn't trying to be controversial. I just meant that it’s been shown many times that how someone builds or installs an assumption or belief varies a lot from one person to another.I never said that being neurodivergent means you manifest less or can’t shift. The post made it sound like I said that and it really hurt, because I actually talk a lot about how amazing and inspiring it is that so many neurodivergent and traumatized people shift, even on command sometimes. it was never about “neurodivergence = failure” or anything like that.
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This is literally my survey on the cognitive profiles of people who shift on command. I never implied that neurodivergent people had more difficulty, just that it was often different.
I myself deal with chronic anxiety, I'm autistic, and I have OCD. and I've still shifted. That's not the problem here at all.What I meant is just that we all need a personalized approach. The whole “one shoe fits all” method is really dogmatic and can actually hurt people more than help them. Not everyone processes or integrates beliefs the same way and that’s ok. I never saw myself as some new age Jesus either. Honestly, I'm very critical of the new age movement. it’s not a current i align with especially bc of all the cultural appropriation. you’re free to believe in it ofc, but it’s not really something i vibe with personally.Now if we go back to the definition of an assumption, yes, an assumption is something you believe to be true. I don't have much to add on that part but the keyword really is “believe.” assumptions need faith. faith in yourself, faith in your beliefs. Neville, Florence, and a lot of others have said that.Overall I think the biggest issue here was a mix of miscommunication and people twisting my words. I actually really enjoy debating. me and emma even debated on our first interaction
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and it went okay. We didn't agree on everything, but we also had mutual respect and I clearly said she was free to believe what she wanted.
If I talk about the law of assumption on my blog even if i don’t really believe in it it’s because I still see it as a really powerful tool. and i want to help all kind of people even the one who believe in loa or the void. But like… it’s still my blog. so when people ask me things I'm gonna answer with my own opinion. just like emma does on hers. There's nothing wrong with that.I hope this part is clear now. I'm not here to fight. I just wanted to explain my post better and the intention behind it.
Also I just struggle with the idea of “misinformation” when it comes to something as spiritual and personal as shifting. cause misinformation means we know what shifting actually is. and the truth is we don’t. not as a community. We're still all guessing and building theories. Maybe it will change later with new trends and stuff. but for now we gotta admit a lot of things are based on belief. and sometimes even dogma. I just wish we could be a little more open minded. try to hear other povs too when possible. Also even if you want to correct what you perceive as misinformation (which I did once about the subconscious.) You don't need to take one specific creators for an example or to reblog, You can just speak your truth kindly without targeting anyone on your Tumblr account.
Since the moment emma reblogged my post everything went downhill. like i’m a really sensitive person so i didn’t even understand why she reblogged it. It made me feel super humiliated like I had done something really awful. mostly cause emma use a very harsh and cold tone. a lot of ppl told me “it wasn’t about you” but like… I'm the one who wrote these words. I typed them. if it’s about “correcting misinformation” it still mean that someone human wrote it right ? like i’m here. i exist. I'm not an abstract concept.
At first i tried to focus on the nice comments and messages. but quickly i got tons of super mean and hateful reblogs and i’ll show some of them. i just wanna say this… it’s 100% possible to have a debate:
Things I received in comments or reblogs https://www.tumblr.com/salemlunaa/789449245755408384/is-it-guaranteed-that-once-im-in-void-and-i?so
Open this with Google doc, if you open on google everything will appear blurry, this isn't even everything I received
1) Without insulting
2) Without belittling
3) Without being cruel or attacking the person
If you attacked me personally. if you said i was saying bs. if you told me i was dumb or that i needed to educate myself. If you sent me mean or hostile ask… Then sorry but that’s not “correction” anymore. It's harassment. and it hurts.I get that people l might not agree with me. like i know my take is not exactly aligned with the mainstream discourse so yeah obviously some people l won’t agree. but even if you think a post is “problematic” just... Take a moment to read it fully ? Try to understand ? Don’t jump to wild conclusions about what someone meant. I saw people saying that i basically said ppl can’t manifest or shift in the void ?? When all i said was that i don’t think it’s 100% foolproof. Like maybe it’s 90%. maybe 80%. That’s not an attack.
A lot of her friends and fans reblogged and said “she’s telling the truth” or “clock it Emma” and then twisted my words or called me dumb. That's something i really really hate. i know not everyone will read everything I write. I don't expect that anymore.
But personally emma’s reblog triggered a full anxiety attack. I cried for like an hour non-stop. and yeah you can say i’m sensitive. i am. and i’m not ashamed of it. I was bullied badly when I was younger and stuff like this... it triggers me easily. especially when it’s followed by waves of hate. and Emma did nothing to calm it down. actually she kinda made it worse with the way she behaved
The day after that I wanted to make a clarifying post. I still wasn’t even sure if it was all coming from her or from others. But after i posted it I thought maybe things would calm down. Instead emma reblogged it again in a “you’re wrong and I'm right, period” kinda way. she ignored everything I said about how her words affected me. I didn't talk about the hate I got. nothing about her tone. she just redirected and deflected and acted like she had no part in what happened. But her tone wasn’t just harsh. it was completely disproportionate. and hurtful.
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but you cannot use its vocabulary, quotes, and then decide t
Anyway emma made another post about me this time to apologize and even if i felt like it was kinda back handed I accepted it and unblocked her. i tried to send a message in dm after that but i got scared and blocked her again... then later i sent a second one. she didn’t reply for hours even though she was clearly active like reblogging and posting and stuff. so i just assumed she didn’t really want to talk in dm or maybe she was busy and since i was kinda scared she’ll make another blog or ask about me i just deleted. I'm assuming she didn't saw but since she was active, rebloging and answering others person I'm not sure about it.
The first message didn't stayed long the second one stayed for 4-5hours if I remember correctly, yeah I know the message are similar,I didn't know what to say and I didn't know if she had seen the first message.
her "apology"
But even with the apology Emma didn’t do anything to stop the asks or messages from her followers who kept flooding my posts and inbox. The only reason it kinda calmed down is just time. and even today when i’m writing this, sunday july 20th, i’m still getting some stuff.you gotta understand that with her platform vs mine it’s really not the same weight like at all. it’s two different levels. I'm not in a position of power in this situation. It took me a lot of courage to write all this because I was super scared and i still am. scared of possible backlash or people twisting my words again
They made me look like an aggressor or like a toxic person when in reality I just shared an opinion. Yeah, it was strong maybe but still respectful. I didn't insult anyone. I didn't attack anyone personally. I didn't try to put anyone down In total, Emma made like 6 clear posts about me. first was her reblog on my post about loa (that one was respectful tbh no problem with debating even if i didn’t like how it was like pushed as some universal truth) but the 3 others were really condescending and mocking and caused a whole wave of hate and disrespect and just people being mean plus one vagueposting post that i know wasn’t fully neutral even if i won’t take it personally i know i was partially aimed at. so in total 9 posts and none of them were started by me. The first time Emma reblogged me. the other times too or she answered ask . and even the apology post happened when she was blocked. I don't like drama at all. Not even sure it was only 9 post ngl.
The vague post that ig was about me
Answering an ask about me
I know this will probably upset a lot of people and I'm not even doing this out of kindness or anything. For three whole days I had this awful knot in my stomach just opening tumblr so I ended up blocking most people who reblogged Emma's post or the comments under. some of yall asked why you were blocked just for a “simple disagreement” but like.
Either you called me stupid or said i was talking bullshit. Or you reblogged her post. Or I was just really really scared of this whole harassment wave. in any case if you want me to unblock you just ask me here i don’t mind.
Now i wanna talk more specifically.Some ppl defended what she did 100% like sheezu or gothcowgrl most of these people are Emma's friends which make me things they all purposely targettes me. Others were more open to actual talk and i really appreciated that.
Now I'm gonna talk about the suspicions I have about stalking from Emma or her group.
The first thing is this account. it's super suspicious and they also commented kinda aggressively on my post wishing i’d never manifest. When I looked a bit closer I saw that there was a lot of liz’s stuff reposted there. liz is a tumblr creator who was basically pushed off the platform and literally harassed by Emma and her group. stalked relentlessly. she doesn't really wanna be part of this anymore but like here’s some screenshots
The tumblr account did the same thing with Liz which I'll explain to you after basically reposting things about her in a weird way .
All the screenshots on the weird account that stalked Liz and reposted weird stuff about me. I think it was a little bit before she desactiv
Liz's testimony
I blocked this account but honestly i have strong suspicions it's either emma or someone close to her.
The same day someone else just shows up and keeps asking to join my protocol group (I'm not 100% sure abt this person tbh that part is more speculative thank you, maybe it was just a person totally eager to join it but the way they spoke to me made me suspicious). I told them no, but they kept pushing and asking again and again. the acc was super empty like no info no posts, same for insta. it just felt weird idk. i’ll let you be the judge of that.
The number 1 weird account that asked me about the group I’m honestly not as suspicious as the others but I remain on my guard.
Then the day after that again someone started reblogging my masterlist and it immediately felt weird cause like nobody ever reblogs it usually, so I thought okay maybe they just wanna keep track of my blog or something but still it felt off.
Later I was making a new post and saw that same blog reposting my stuff again. So i go check the acc and like i barely do reblog chains or anything like that i only have 2 mutuals cause i like my page clean and ordered.
So yeah i get surprised cause that blog had lots of reblogs but mostly from sheezu and emmanation only. So I block right away and keep doing my stuff. then boom another acc shows up with a lil more effort put into it and it starts reblogging my things again but same order same vibe like copy paste and also filled with reblogs of sheezu and emanation just like before like exactly like what happened with liz, so again i block and it calms down a bit but i was scared honestly. I really feel like it’s emma or someone from her group cause that exact thing happened to Liz too and to others apparently. I don't know why they are doing it, it's just creepy. they’ll say i got no proof but the patterns are too disturbing. and it gets worse. my friend actually dm’d the first acc and told them “emma i know it’s you stop stalking and reblogging immediately” or something along those lines and like right after that the acc got deleted which is like super sus.
Proof about the similarities and things that weirded me out (also there is a video of that if you want I can update with it)
I really didn’t want it to go this far. I'm just writing all of this cause I know other people got hurt by her too and I feel like it might happen again. Like that kind of stalking and harassment can really push someone to a breaking point especially if tumblr is like their only safe space.
Liz was so scared she deleted everything cause they even found her insta and followed her on twitter too,i’m scared and i just want other victims to be able to talk and find peace too, Emma and her friends apparently also got racist to Liz, I just wanna say this before anything else bc i feel like i have to protect myself emotionally now,there’s a big chance emma or ppl close to her are gonna use some classic manipulation stuff like darvo (deny attack reverse victim and offender) you know like suddenly i’m the big bad person now even tho i literally said nothing mean nothing harsh nothing insulting and just shared a thought respectfully (even if yeah strongly worded maybe)i just want ppl to be aware of the pattern bc it already happened to others too (not just me) and I really think she might use strategies like:
- saying that she’s the one being harassed and that we're all lying
-pretending she was just “correcting misinformation” and that i “overreacted”
- twisting the story so it looks like i attacked her first
- acting like i’m dangerous or manipulative just for blocking or expressing how scared i was
None of that is true. I was just overwhelmed and hurt and tried to clarify my side. I never insulted anyone. I never encouraged hate. I didn't start this.I just want peace now but i rlly think ppl should know these tactics exist so you don't get tricked. Sometimes people with more followers and more "reputation" can twist a narrative so fast and make the victim look like the aggressor. pls just keep that in mind if things start shifting in weird ways.I'm not trying to start anything, I'm just scared and tired and I want to protect my space and my truth.I’m pretty sure there are other victims. Please don't be afraid to speak up and spread awareness. This is only part 1 with me There will be other testimonies and this account was created just for that, I also hope that we can hear your experiences and open a community open to talking about harassment on shiftbrl.
No victim was perfect and I wasn't either I know that.
Thanks you for listening to me. And hope you'll be able to listen to the others
I am not sure if my testimony will amount to anything, because I am not a perfect victim by any means, if I can call myself one at all. Because of how i reacted to Emma attack and fueled into the "drama circle." I was upset and had difficulty managing the way i reacted to this. Since i'm really sensitive and have anger issue, (which is on me.)
I am sure that many of you who are Emma’s followers know me as a controversial figure.
I have made many mistakes and my behavior was by no means a correct course of action. I would like to publically apologize for it. I sincerely apologize for the cat-spamming. I apologize for the aggressive tone of my criticisms towards Emma. I apologize for my outbursts and any hostility towards Emma’s followers. I would also like to sincerely apologize to intimidaid (cncs) and delaythings for any unjust accusations.
And while the context of it doesn’t absolve me of what I did, I would like to provide it. Some accusations Emma did about me weren't true.
As many of you know, I have mentioned multiple times that the conception of the whole controversy stemmed from me being baselessly accused of enabling abuse. It happened in January, when Emma made a “red flag” post containing a screenshot of another shifter’s post.
Specifically, the portion that contained all the people scripted out of that shifter’s fame dr. That shifter had decided to script out Amber Heard, which was the sole reason Emma had accused the person for enabling abuse. It was nothing regarding rape or domestic abuse itself, as Emma later tried to claim, in what I feel might have been an attempt to make herself look better and make me look worse. I will not lie, I still don’t understand the logic behind the accusation as much as I did not back then. Many shifters in the community script people out of their drs, simply because they find them annoying. I actually defend amber heard in this reality and I agree that she suffered a wave of lynchings, and I support her.
Anyways, I wasn’t sure what to comment. I wanted to point out, that Emma’s post could have potential of causing harassment against the person in the screenshot, as she had not bothered to hide the blog’s url. But I feared since Emma had a large following that me pointing that out, no matter how gently, would lead to misunderstanding and potential harassment of me. Keep in mind, despite months passing…the tumblr staff situation regarding their blatant transphobia and trans mysoginy was fresh in my mind.
(For context: I am referring to mass termination of trans (specifically, transfemme) blogs by the tumblr stuff, for no apparent reason. The mass harassment campaigns and fake callout posts initiated against them. And the most well-known example: a transfemme blog having a the literal CEO of tumblr (Matt Mullenweg) personally join in the harassment, going as far as personally dm’ing people defending that blog, as well as following that trans girl onto another platform to continue harassing her following the termination of her blog. One of the blogs I have known and been friends with have also been terminated, about 2-3 months later. I can only speculate but I feel that the termination was caused by them being non-binary. Anyways, I'm getting off-track…)
Fearing my comment could be misunderstood, I settled for a simple “this is such a non-issue”. And simply for that I was branded an abuse enabler , which had enormous consequences given the size of Emma's community compared to mine. Personally, I find that ridiculous. I had not even stated any opinion that would warrant an accusation of such sort.
(I feel like this post is getting too long, so I’ll try to not get distracted from my point.)
The rest of what happened is history. Throughout what happened over the next few months, Emma had first doubled down on her accusation, then denied it and accused me of lying to harass her. As well as making a variety of claims regarding me, with little to no evidence.
I’ve refuted her claims already, so I am not gonna further go on about that. But I will about the effect it had on myself.
While currently undiagnosed due to lack of financial resources to seek professional help, I am a person struggling from mental health issues. From the age of twelve, I have struggled with depressive thought patterns and self-image issues. While I can say, that as I got older I slowly progressed from the lowest I have been…The controversies regarding me and Emma, and the overwhelming amount of hate (and often times outright harassment) I have received has set me back again in my journey. I did not realize that at the time, just how much it all affected me.
It only became clear to me now, when the outright hostility I’ve been receiving from Emma’s follower base has reached a boiling point. I have developed intense paranoia and fear even months before it came to that. I know that it does not absolve me from my actions, but that paranoia has made me turn onto my own friends and mutuals. It culminated in episodes of outbursts. Me accusing others. That was precisely what happened, in regards to intimidaid and delaythings. The feeling of being watched and seeing so many vague posts about me only made me spiral further into self-destruction and bad behavior, and again, I want to apologize for that. Many others victim admitted to becoming paranoid after being attacked by Emma, her friends and her fans.
Intimidaid made a post reinforcing the (false) narrative of me harassing Emma. But as I said, I will not discuss that. I have talked about that enough. She is the person who attacked me first and from then on the situation only made it worse in the bad direction, whether it was by my behavior, or by the attacks of Emma, her friends and her community.
Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your
What I will say though, is that it hurt me that intimidaid would make a post instead of confronting me personally in the dms. I would have explained and apologized to you, if you had only done that. But instead it was publicized. And for what reason, I ask.
Currently, I am actively fearing for my safety. I do not know, what Emma’s followers are capable of doing. Or even, what Emma is capable of doing herself. I have received hate messages, been called names and insulted, have had a plethora of vagueposts made about me. All of that rooting back to me defending myself against an unjust accusation?
(For example: This person had come into my dms to harass me, screaming, calling me names and throwing accusations at me. I tried to respond calmly and then decided to not engage, considering it futile. And although it is deleted now, the same person tried to use those exact same screenshots of them harassing me as "proof" against me.)
(Further examples. Again, with accus)
I have sincerely hoped, that shiftblr would prove to be a safe space for all. And I did believe that for a long time. But it is obviously not the case.
And also, I am aware that Emma has claimed she apologized to me.
To that, I will have to say yes and no.
When sheezu reached out to me as a messager of Emma, proposing me and her talk discord (with sheezu as a mediator), i expected a genuine conversation, where both sides would bury the hatchet and admit their wrongdoings. This was not that. I have admitted my faults and apologized, but when I expected Emma to do the same? She once again denied what she had done. I have felt hurt and tricked, by the clear double standard of this “mediation” talk.
And at the time I begrudgingly accepted this “apology”, simply because I was tired of all of this. I feel like it doesn’t do me any justice. Even more so, a half-assed one I had to force out of Emma by threatening to leave the conversation. I would also like to point about how her “apology” is structured. How it is essentially a non-apology.
“i’m sorry if i hurt your feelings or you felt like they weren’t acknowledged” is not an apology for any of her actions. It is a way of phrasing, a technique used by manipulators to shift the blame of any of their actions back onto the victim. It's a deflection that moreso says “I'm sorry YOU reacted poorly to my words and actions” rather than “I am sorry my words and actions caused this reaction”.
This pattern of apology is also present in her “apology” directed to zazaiafe2.
Finally in the light of provided evidence and speculation by zazaiafe2, I have to point out the hypocrisy of Emma, who has accused me of being a stalker myself.
It is truly hypocritical of you to do so, while you seem to exhibit such behavior yourself.
I have noticed a pattern of you displaying all of the behaviors you accuse others of doing.
From the aforementioned accusation of me being a stalker to accusing others of attacking you, when you are the instigator.
An example of it here, which the blog owner has agreed for me to share.
Finally, I encourage anyone who has also had bad experiences (like harassment,stalking, attack...) with Emma and her group to speak up.
