Tenebris Divina

In honour of the Demonic Divine Records of journeys in the darkness Priestess, Godspouse, Dark Pagan, Witch, Spiritworker and Explorer of the Otherwordly

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New Introduction as of 2026

So as a new introduction; Hello and welcome to this space; you may address me as Priestess Aysu, if needed. I am a long-term mage and devotee primarily of the Demonic Divine, though I have worked and connected with many other deities and spirits in my time practicing. I am an initiated priestess of the demonic divine and a certain aspect of the divine masculine energies (6 years now at the time of this writing).  My patron is Lord Abaddon. I am also espoused to two Dark Lords (Lord S and Lord O) who I may mention about somewhat on here as well, though I am restricted in what I may share. I am also close to Lord Lucifer and have worked with many beings listed in the Dukante hierarchy, as well as a few listed in the Goetia and Grimoire Verum. I also work with unknown/unrecorded demons, entities and beings as well.

My background is in paganism- I was previously a devotee of Setekh and Kali ma for many years before I found my home with the Demonic Divine, whom I have been connected to and working with for the past 10 years at the time of this writing. My practice is demonolatry based, though I am not as restricted. I go where the demonic divine, spirits, gods and my soul guides me. I am female and I identify as non-human (other than human-souled). My past studies and practices included Kemeticism, Kaula Tantra and some Hinduism related to Kali ma, Taoism, Chaos magic, East Asian and Northern Tradition shamanic practices, hedge and traditional witchcraft.

I also work with the qliphoth, eldritch beings, other gods, spirits and journey to the otherworlds regularly. Since working with the Demonic Divine I have delved more into practicing magick- more so aligned with witchcraft then traditional ceremonial practices. Though I can do both, witchcraft and adjacent so called “low” magick is more comfortable for me. A significant portion of my magickal practice is spirit/ demon taught, as well as coming from soul gnosis- so it is rather personal to my energy and Self. It not something that is easily replicable to others- which is why I don’t post much about this side of my spirituality, though this may change at some point. I walk the poison path as well and engage in a variety of energy work practices- mostly related to Kaula Tantra, and esoteric Taoism based- so East Asian mysticism.

Other than my spiritual path- I am an artist, dancer, martial artist and have studied traditional Chinese medicine and herbalism among other things.

I am somewhat open to inquiries and questions and I will answer and guide where I can. I am restricted by the demonic divine and my Husbands on what I may share and discuss, however. Occasionally- moving forward I am open to offering various spiritual services upon enquiry (and if in agreement from the beings I work with), all of these services will be charged at professional pricing.

Finally to Note about the Demonic Divine I work with: It should be noted that my ( the demonic divine I connect with) demons are not your demons-put simply.

The Demonic Divine Beings I am connected to and mainly work with are not the same as the beings that most people call "demons" and work with. (In my experience there are multiple beings that can "appear" under one "demonic" name- for example; there are 6 Lucifer's- actual different separate, sovereign and autonomous beings-not just one singular multifaceted being- I explain this more in depth in earlier posts).

The Demonic Divine I connect with are (for ease of understanding) from another multiverse entirely (that I term the Outer Realm Multiverse or ORM for ease of use) and these Demonic Divine Beings are more on cosmic primordial level and have a very pure high vibrational demonic divine darkness. I would call Them the Origin Point of this Demonic Divine Darkness (which is the type of energy signature that determines if a being is actually demonic or not – see this post: https://www.tumblr.com/tenebrisdivina/726351428623417344/cosmology-and-paradigm-of-the-demonic-divine?source=share . The Demonic Divine from the ORM are not “Infernals”, They do not exist in hell realms or have any ties to Christianity nor to any other religious paradigms or viewpoints and quite frankly don’t care about humans in any particular way.  These ORM Demonic Divine beings have no or very little connection to humans or life on this earthen realm.

The Demonic Divine at this level are not easy to connect with and it requires training to learn how to even sense Them- if one is not from those realms already soul wise, it is not really a level that people organically can connect with. For more information please see this post; https://www.tumblr.com/tenebrisdivina/757437687024238592/brief-explanation-on-the-outer-realm-multiverse?source=share

Disclaimer: We each are each individuals, have different energy structures/vibrations and each walk different paths and I don’t expect you to have the same views nor experiences as I do. Nor necessarily agree with my practices. This is my path, workings and gnosis from my personal experiences and what the demonic divine, gods and otherworldy beings I work with- have shared and taught me. It does not automatically apply to others. Though if what I share of the demonic divine helps others, then great.

This gnosis expressed within these blog posts reflects my current understanding of things though this may change and grow over time- I do not at any point claim to know everything, all about something or all perspectives of a thing.

Courtesy notice: I don't really care to list DNI as I'm not bothered by much, however if you disrespect the demonic divine, practice/advocate/believe in solomonic binding and other such practices- then this is not the blog for you and I suggest you move along.

Anyone who speaks/advocates about it being cultural appropriation to work with any of the demonic divine - including Lilith- or that Qliphotic work is cultural appropriation- will be blocked immediately. I have no tolerance for such nonsense. Also if you attempt to harass or abuse me it should go without saying you will be blocked. and I do use the block button liberally.

If you wish to discuss things in this space, then respecting the demonic divine, My Husbands, and myself( it is my blog after all) is required. This blog is more directed at adults then minors, will discuss dark topics and adult content. This blog is for more advanced/intermediate practices and spirituality, then beginner work. And this blog acts as a container for a certain type of energies ( for more info about this see https://www.tumblr.com/tenebrisdivina/757434707864698880/a-little-bit-of-clarity-about-this-blog?source=share -while written a while ago it is still quite relevant). These energies moving forward; are guided by the current I steward as a Priestess.  I also tend to write essays, if that is not to your liking then this may not be the space for you.

Final extra notice: I have not ever and will not ever use AI to write nor edit any of my posts- all these posts ( apart from the reblogs obviously) are fully handwritten by myself

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Differences Between the Void/s and the Underworld/s

The following information is gained from a more Gnostic and oracular flow state- through Sight, Knowing and information that was gained therein. While this information does align with deeper truths, it is -as with everything, only from a singular perspective- of which there are likely many more pieces and perspectives to, in order to have a more a complete picture- and this is the nature of the work and precision of particular insight I provide here.

To start with both the voids and the underworlds exist on multiple layers, mainly I will be referencing 3 layers (though there are more). The realms of the outer multiversal realms(OMR), the realms of the inner multiversal realms (ISW) and those internal realms that exist within each of us- in our internal domains- especially as we currently exist on this earthen plane and the inner multiversal realms. The inner spiritual realms Underworlds and Voids are mirrored to an extent- internally in each of us.

Differences and Similarities with Void and Underworld Journeys

The following is the gnostic flow state (therefore I do not particularly elucidate here what an underworld journey is exactly in a more psychological model or spiritual model, nor on what power hunting is etc- it is assumed information already expected to be known, and of course there are multiple viewpoints on what it may entail).

Underworld Journeys - like the ideas of the classic “Descent of Inanna” myth or shamanic journeys to the lower plane/underworld realm- of the “world tree”- ( shamanic underworld journeys may include such things as soul retrieval or dealing with underworld chthonic beings- from a shamanic perspective) include death and rebirth themes. In such; as in after undergoing these journeys there is a return to the living realms with renewed sense of self- and a feeling of more completeness. These can often be healing journeys as well. Underworld Journeys can be in the internal “underworlds” -so may be more psychological in nature and perhaps involve some form of internal power hunting and excavation of lost or hidden power. Or they can be journeying to external ISW (inner spiritual/multiversal realms) underworld planes- so going to actual realms of underworld like Yomi, the Duat, Diyu, Helheim, Mictlān etc- which is more in line with shamanic way of seeing and doing things. These external ISW journeys often involve such things as soul retrieval or communing with the dead of all kinds- or perhaps seeking wisdom of ancestors etc. The ISW and inner internal worlds can and do overlap as the actual external ISW realms can be mirrored by the internal more psychological journey and there is a mystery to this as well.

In Void journeys- The void often is a stripping of energy and the journeys can be about obtaining power of some kind or revealing what is at core of something. These void journeys can be very drastic and very harsh- there is no guarantee of return and even if one returns- then there is no guarantee of a return to “completeness,” or feelings of such- upon finishing the journey. But it does change you- of that you can be certain. Void journeys can be like Da’ath or crossing the abyss- (maybe similar to a “dark night of soul”- only more severe perhaps then regular underworld journeys.) A key difference between the void and the underworlds is the underworld basically guarantees rebirth especially in Inner multiversal realms (ISW).  In OMR not so much- but is unlikely anyone ever encounters that as a human. Whereas the void does not guarantee rebirth, since void is emptiness (and creation in some ways). While void and underworld can cross over and overlap in their journeys- there is a distinct difference in energy. There is also the OMR void (which is very dangerous), the Inner multiversal realms’(ISW) void realms and internal voids apparent to each individual person. In Inner multiversal realms(ISW) the void/s can be sometimes thought of as return to Oneness (maybe even likened to Tao somewhat).

So, the internal (individuals) void- is not really used for journeying as such. It is like “blank mind” in meditation and Stillness. Though through this one can go internal enough to be external- (mystery) but the internal void mirrors again; the external ISW void. To journey in/to the Void one needs to go external - as to move through it. Void may be similar to a harsher version of underworld especially if one is journeying through it. Because it is so stripping, whereas underworld is often more about excavating. The very nature of the void (and to an extent void energy can be too) is stripping - so simply by being there; it strips and breaks down (especially the White Void- is extremely corrosive to any energy and breaks it all down- to return back to “nothingness”). In the void, it is not so much a choice as to what is stripped from you or given up/over. Whereas the underworlds you may have more control and precision over what is lost/given up in the journey. Of course, there may be certain like “law” in underworld that certain things must be given up or to gods etc and that is non-negotiable. Whereas the void realms - it just automatically does it and there is no or next to no control over what is gone- such is it entropic and “corrosive” nature.

However, void (more so the black voids) also contain life and lots of creative potential- which can be very chaotic as well- as though it houses the primordial chaos of creation and so void energy and its presence in the void realms can be used for creation. Which is primarily why these void journeys can be used for power hunting. If the void realms are used for creation- (ie planting seeds in void of something to come to fruition) it is very powerful. There is also a differentiation between the Void (as in the void realms) and the void (as in void energy). Void realms are made of and contain void energy. Though Void energy can be worked with and used without being in the void realms. However, creation in the void- is more likely being in the void realms- while void energy can lend itself to creation, it is more powerful and effective if being in the void realm (and fairly literally planting seeds.) By the act of planting seeds can also be mirrored in the internal void as well- since they are connected. Of course, the OMR Void is not connected to the ISW void/s nor the Internal personal voids of humans. It is different entirely; OMR beings or OMR souled beings may have internal connection to those OMR voids if that is their alignment or where their soul originates, but not all do- since the outer realms multiverses(OMR) are disconnected in a way ISW is not and it works differently.

(IMR/ISW) Underworlds however tend to focus more on terrestrial matters, whereas void and void journeys do not really have that tie.

Finally, as an aside- for a query of; can one do power hunting in internal voids?

The internal void is a point of stillness and in that place; realisations of persons essential nature may become apparent (and therein it can be seen as sometimes realisation of power or certain hidden power uncovered). But this is different from Power Hunting. I perceive and consider that Power Hunting is something that is done in external ISW voids- like Da’ath or crossing the abyss. If it is “practiced” on a more internal level- if it can be - then this process is not really the same thing as usual Power Hunting as such, since internal void is stillness.

That said though Void and underworld journeys (both ISW and internal personal) can and do overlap in areas as well. It is not necessarily so strictly encapsulated. But it should be noted that there are specific differences as well.

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Philosophies and Gnosis of Cursing, Justice and Vengeance Part 3

Justice and Vengeance

Disclaimer: It should be noted that when I am speaking here about curses, that I am not against cursing- even it may seem to at times come across like that. As usual this is from my perspective, gnosis from what I have discovered and observed during the course of my practice and discourse with my Pantheon and other deities. As usual succinctly put; “my” Demons are not “your” demons- when I speak of Them I am speaking about completely different Beings- High Vibrational Demonic Divine from the ORM( outer realm multiverse- for ease of understanding) ( even if They appear under the same “name”). Also, this is all handwritten- no AI is involved in my posts. This gnosis expressed within these posts reflects my current understanding of things though this may change and grow over time- I do not at any point claim to know everything, all about something or all perspectives of a thing.

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JUSTICE

So what does this mean in terms of justice and what is justice anyway? From my perspective there are multiple types of “justice” but justice on a cosmic scale and when divine in nature can be conceptualised as a current of energy. There is the human understanding of justice usually linked to morals and ethical considerations, there is the human “law” of “justice,” there is archetypal justice- which is also linked to human perceptions. Then there is divine justice, justice as an energy which includes how the energy functions- to name a few and they may overlap etc. My understanding and how I view Justice on a cosmic and more divine level (which is mostly what I speak about here when I refer to justice) is that it is redressing an imbalance. One can think of it like scales, one side of the scales is too heavy and weighed down- Justice then (and the subsequent actions aligned with justice), is adding weight to the other lighter side until the scales are balanced. I am speaking more energetically here. Because importantly Justice is not the same as Vengeance. While there can be some overlap in that justice can be vengeful, there is a point (and an energetic point in actuality that can be sensed by some)  of redressing this imbalance; that goes beyond simply justice, and that is vengeance. Also being Justified is not the same as serving Justice either.

What is Divine Justice then? Divine Justice as I see it (from discourse with divinities and other beings, justice and energetic exploration as well as gnostic understanding) is the current and potentially the “source” in a way, of the current of Justice as an energy. One important thing to note though is that Divine Justice is not the same as human justice or humans’ conceptions of justice. As explained above with Karma this is not divine justice. This is because Divine Justice does not adhere to nor concern itself with human values nor societal ones either. It works and moves on a more cosmic scale so the “redressing of imbalance” does not come from a place of a “moralised judgement” of what is or what humans may consider “right” or “wrong” but from something else. When the divine are called upon to “bring Justice” magickally or otherwise in human concerns- They take into consideration much more about the situation then simply the present issue or concern. They also consider the full existence of the parties involved, not just the miniscule ideas people seem to create of each other. Therefore, when the divine or spirits (if they are aligned with Justice) are called on for justice- if it is executed it does not often look like what humans may consider justice and it may take place over a much larger timeframe. This is more likely if it is just a petition or prayer to the divinity and no spell work or further action is taken.

Of course, divinities are individuals and have Their own ways and considerations as well. For example, Justice may look like something specific in one pantheon then in regards to another- so per specific divinity bringing justice, it may appear more like what is common in that specific pantheon. However, this notion can also create expectations on behalf of practitioners which can also be an issue for the human, as the divinities often go well beyond human assumption of knowledge about the pantheon and how it “behaves.”

If the divinity is called on for specific spellwork then it often behaves a bit more like a more powerful petition ( ie the divine may give more consideration to it) but the Divine still considers a lot more about the situations in question before acting. As and aside;  one cannot force the divine or divine level beings to do anything ( trying to convince, bargain, or cajole perhaps- but actually to force- no) and it is hubris to think so- even more so to attempt this with gods of Justice, it is extremely foolish. Now with spirits- obviously spirits (and divinities for that matter) are diverse- mostly in this case I mean those spirits who are aligned with or in the flow of the current of justice and mostly that they are non-human- so they are not the human dead that I am meaning in this context. For those spirits and beings who are aligned with the current of justice- due to its nature there are certain like “boundaries” let’s say, around “behaviours” in a way. That if they were to go outside of that, they would not be in the currents flow anymore, nor aligned with the current. And it is not as though they are unable to move outside the current but that the energies of justice would not be apparent as much.

This said in magickal workings as a practitioner - on an energetic level; by aligning with or being in the current of Justice energy flow, especially if it is more divinely aligned (though it can go with spirits as well) there can be a kind of buffering effect. This buffer can be protective in a sense, if others are trying to work against you. It is simply the nature of the energy and power that justice is. But the buffer again only works if you are aligned with justice once you step outside, then it isn’t there. and of course divinities of Justice (and spirits) can choose the provide that buffer for those they choose as well.

Finally, on what is justified vs what is actually justice. In this case being Justified basically means the practitioner having a reason (which the brain likes cohesiveness and order- it makes for a “better” narrative and helps the ego feel safe) and feeling validated in that reasoning. This does not mean that this reason is actually aligned with justice, Justice as an energy nor Divine Justice. Even if the practitioner or participant feels that it is, that may not reflect the deeper truth. And this too is fine (neutral expression), given how illusory things are anyway. And once again as with most things involving spirits and the divine- believing and wishing for it does not make it so (does not make it true- aligned with the deeper truth).

Of course one does not need at all to be seeking justice to curse. Though there can be some benefits to consider. There are many reasons to curse after all. Mostly if one cannot sense the energy of justice, divination will be helpful in that regard.

As for the scales idea mentioned earlier and redressing the imbalance- in my view this is what divinely aligned justice and cursing and does do. I am not of the opinion of waiting on gods to just deliver “justice” as though it is something They must do and automatically do. I personally rather find many people who claim to “wait for justice from on high” or “karmic justice” and do no more than proclaim about this- when that individual can feasibly do something about it; to often be too afraid of “getting their hands dirty.” Sometimes we may need to act as that Justice (instead of waiting for it to come), we all carry a spark of divinity after all.

VENGEANCE

So when justice goes beyond simply justice and into vengeance what happens?. To my understanding; when someone goes into more vengeance in terms of action they become a perpetrator ( please note with this term; it is coming from a neutral standpoint and I mean it in the most impartial usage of the term, I have no judgement of those who seek vengeance it is well within a beings abilities to choose and it is by no means ”bad” or “wrong” or “negative” to do so, ( tbh it would be quite foolish of me to have another standpoint given one of my Husbands is Dark Lord of Vengeance)). No longer is it simply a matter of rebalancing the scales and “correcting” the “imbalance”- the person in question has taken action or desires to take action beyond such measures. It is proactive in a way. Energetically vengeance is also a current of energy to align with. Unlike the current of justice- the current of vengeance is more free-for-all. It has no buffer and more induces a “survival of the fittest” ( or most skilled, connected, conniving, strongest, luckiest etc) mode of existence- especially if you are calling on divine or spirit beings in this. It is more primal in a way.

I also personally think that if people are on the road for vengeance and are deliberately taking vengeful action, then they can be little surprised when someone retaliates or tries to act against them. And truly should not be complaining about it. This is “the nature of this beast” after all.

As for so called “backlash” in cursing. The energies don’t really function that way. If people are experiencing something they may term “backlash” it is often likely that they are still energetically somehow tied to the curse. Whether that is because they have not cleansed effectively or cut the cords between them, or whether that be guilt, remorse or some other thing. If it is guilt, then that often causes the energy to stew and sit within the practitioners’ field- which is why many resources recommend ensuring you do not feel remorse for doing this- before you act, and that you let go of the result. Another aspect of this is that if someone is “dwelling” within cursing energy all the time - and not clearing or doing other things (so introducing or connecting with other energies) then that adjusts the person to be in vibration to the cursing energies. The concept of attracting what you vibrate at- basic energy work- is relevant for this and it can then seem like it is backlash. Or of course if going after a practitioner that is protected- it may not get through so easily. Or the target has reversed it upon the caster. Both these things are why with any of this one should have effective protection and warding up before during and after the curse and maintaining it.

Finally is there some sort of “punishment” for cursing someone? Some people believe there is or like to think there is ( sometimes it would be nice to believe that but my experience speaks differently- even if some could be said to deserve it). Personally I have not experienced any kind of “punishment” or “backlash” for cursing. I do think if you are more aligned with Justice energies- then if the notion of "punishment for cursing" did truly exist, being aligned with Justice energies makes this “punishment for cursing” more unlikely. But I think it’s all energy and energy is neutral not moral. People make decisions and do actions every day literally “get away with murder ( and much worse)” do you see them being punished? It depends- but also really only if they are caught :)

Frivolity aside, and this is a prompt for another long discussion on are people punished for bad things? In my experience and of visiting various underworlds ( of different faiths and realms as well), afterlives and communing with the divine- I personally don’t believe there is any divine being “punishing” someone- since most things have a lot more to factor into then what is just on the surface. Mostly people punish themselves. And of course humans like to believe there is, as it absolves them from doing the dirty work, and makes them feel righteous about their various paths- also it helps the ego to see a continuation of life like on earth in the afterlife- it feels secure for the ego in probing the unknown. A discussion for another post perhaps- since the underworlds and afterlives and death is a whole other topic.

But I am still exploring various other realms and experiences, and collating information before anything is truly more defined and of course this may change. But from what I have seen and experienced and through various discourse with the divinities and spirits; No, there is no divine “punishment” in the afterlives/underworlds etc other than what we may heap upon ourSelves. And the self “punishment” in the afterlives comes often from deeper levels then simply the ego, though it may come from there too.

Part 1 and Part 2

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Philosophies and Gnosis of Cursing, Justice and Vengeance Part 2

On Justice and notions of Karma

Disclaimer: It should be noted that when I am speaking here about curses, that I am not against cursing- even it may seem to at times come across like that. As usual this is from my perspective, gnosis from what I have discovered and observed during the course of my practice and discourse with my Pantheon and other deities. As usual succinctly put; “my” Demons are not “your” demons- when I speak of Them I am speaking about completely different Beings- High Vibrational Demonic Divine from the ORM( outer realm multiverse- for ease of understanding) ( even if They appear under the same “name”). Also, this is all handwritten- no AI is involved in my posts. This gnosis expressed within these posts reflects my current understanding of things though this may change and grow over time- I do not at any point claim to know everything, all about something or all perspectives of a thing.

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To carry on from the earlier post about cursing; the next topic that ties in with this is the topic of justice. Now to preface this; in my experience and what I have learned from my pantheon, my Husbands and explorations we have done ( which are often to the darkest things one can imagine and many things considered taboo for humans-given how I am aligned and what my Husbands domains are)- I am more amoral then not, I do not believe in an overall or overarching morality nor ethical position (any morality someone has or ethical code( even if it comes from “institutions" religious or otherwise)- tends to be individual and can change via circumstance, perspective and paradigm). Even if I do have a personal “code” of behaviors (this is malleable) I do not expect anyone else to agree with it nor follow it. I do not often talk about the depth of my practices and what I explore because of the nature of this and it requires certain containers and understandings. I also do not believe in nor adhere to the concept of Karma, which I will discuss later on below.

My general perspective on so called morality is that for individuals (whether it comes from institutions and religions or what society has created as “ standard”) people believe it and so it is or may become true for them, but that does not mean it is true for everyone else.  From a perspective- (previous time as Setian gnosis coupled with demonic divine teachings and gnosis) on “societal rules”; these so called “rules” that govern societies are in a sense an “agreed upon” standard of behavior for existing within that particular society- but you can choose not to follow and be “punished” by that society. Individual societies’ of course have differing “rules” and standards of behaviors considered acceptable as well.

However this DOES NOT make it ( the “rules”) divine, aligned with the greater truth of divinity nor like a “divine mandate”- as such despite what people would like to think ( and they like to have this narrative likely because it makes the “rules” easier to follow- especially if they are religious). These human created "rules" rarely if ever, reflect the deeper cosmic truths and how thing function on that scale. Varying Pantheons associated with varying societies may be seen to have “rules” whether that pantheon created the “rules,” or human attribute and project the “rules” onto the divine or however it comes about. And it may be rightful to approach and work with that pantheon within those sets of agreed upon “rules” and laws.  Ultimately as I understand it (and have discovered through divine discourse) there isn’t really such a thing on cosmic scale as “right” or “wrong” either. And there isn’t a divine being somewhere taking note of every single thing a person does and judging them for it and certainly not in the way many would claim there is. These two things mentioned above are deeper level truths of existence. This is a basic understanding of it- of course it can be more complex.

For some deeper level gnosis on these two things, I consider and understand ( again from gnosis) that this earthen realm is very illusory, there are so many illusions here, even what people believe or see as truth is illusion ( and I include myself in this though strive to be aligned and bringing in greater/deeper truths of existences) because it does not and cannot ( given how things function in relation to this earth in a more multidimensional cosmic scales) possibly incorporate the whole truth of the manifold natures and varying levels of existences. My gnostic understanding is that this earthen realm in particular is a bit of a “pocket world” and in some ways “protected” or “isolated” from the greater functionings of the multiple multiverses. It is one of the reasons people may peak about a veil in a sense (in truth; the so called “veil” these people speak of does not exist- but people believe it does and therein lies one illusion) and feel so “cut off” from spirits and divine etc. but this is much more complex and for another topic.

So ultimately how does this information relate to justice, vengeance, divine and otherwise and karma?

KARMA

Let us first address Karma. Most people in the west have a very poor understanding and notion of what karma actually is. It is massively misunderstood.

A very brief quick overview ( from my research ( years ago when I practiced more tantric style with Kali Maa) and understanding  and gnosis, but don’t quote me on it and research it yourself too- timeline isn’t completely accurate either); Karma originated in Vedic scripture in ancient India- originally it was a philosophical “law” that people (most likely the Brahmans- who were the highest caste and the priestly class) “observed” or theorized/created themselves- to govern how rituals where performed. It is a bit more neutral in a sense then what most people think of it. Karma is originally action and the notion that certain ritual actions had a more “positive” effect and “negative” effect. During the Upanishads- Karma became more aligned with morality and samsara, moksha, reincarnation etc. This formed a fundamental understanding of the similar concept of doing good deeds- leading to good things, and “bad deeds” leading to “bad things. From there Buddhism adopted it and adapted it to be more about personal responsibility and bringing in that intent of action as well as the action itself created Karma etc. So, moralizing it even more. Jainism at some point also adopted and adapted it. And eventually when westerners colonized India they cherry picked, added their own spin on it and further bastardized what it actually was.

So the key thing to realize about it is also that Karma is not a divine notion (there is some perspective that the priests received it from the divine but if you take a closer look- one can see some flaws in that). From my understanding it is a human created notion. And it was also dependent upon the environment it was created or brought about in. (for many years also this esoteric knowledge as hidden from the public). This environment was specific to ancient India and included the caste system. Karma and it eventually being tied to samara and moksha and even Buddhist notions was heavily influenced by this. In the caste system on cannot shift their caste in their lifetime- it can only happen in the next life- so does it not make sense to come up with a system that reinforces this notion? - the concept of earning your way into a better incarnation. And even with Buddhism and the introduction the concept of Nirvana- could be seen as an escape to the caste system that was very apparent and seemingly immovable in the society it was created in.

And another facet of this is that what was considered to be “good” and “bad” was specific to the society of ancient India and how it was governed. Ultimately these philosophies of life (as the ancient Indian peoples saw it) and so called ”laws” were also dependent upon the society in which they were created, and are therefore not truly applicable- nor I feel meant to be – applicable to anyone outside of that. Despite how the west has bastardized it and tries to apply it to a universal perspective (which also by the by; “universal” perspectives are also ultimately redundant anyway.) The concept and law of Karma originated from people trying to explain phenomena they were witnessing- so thinking about thinking- as are most philosophies tbh. This does not make it a divine notion or law- and in fact according to my discussions with the Demonic Divine, Karma is not aligned with deeper truth of how things actually function. The concept of Wyrd from Norse tradition is more aligned with the deeper truth and is more of a neutral standpoint.

This said if people decide that they feel aligned with the law of karma and or like it and subscribe to that belief, they are well entitled to do so- but I would encourage that before people go spouting off about such things as “karmic justice” or “someone getting their karma”- to try to understand where the term comes from and the surrounding context at least.

In terms of if people choose to apply this philosophy to such things like cursing- I think it is important to note that it isn’t some “divine justice” notion. It doesn’t often play out the way people feel it does. With such misunderstanding in the west of this- there has been a kind of egregore (and as such; an illusion) created in relation to this concept- but it is false doctrine and not the deeper truth of how things in the cosmos tend to function- from my gnostic understanding and divine conversations. The concept of karma may have its place though as a belief and that is fine too, it is important to note that not everyone adheres to Karma, nor do I believe is everyone “subject” to it as such. I personally do not believe that so called “cause and effect” need to be moralized or be considered in an inherently moralized or “ethical” standpoint. And I personally do not believe that certain actions are guaranteed to cause “bad” ( or good for that matter) outcomes, since a lot depends on how one takes it or perceives such things too. Nor that there is such “divine” “punishment" for such so called “bad” actions or rewards for “good” actions (which who decides this anyway?) and certainly not in any overarching “universal” manner. This also aligns with my experiential gnosis as well.

Part 1 and Part 3

[tenebrisdivina]

Philosophies and Gnosis of Cursing, Justice and Vengeance: Part 1

Some thoughts on Curses:

Disclaimer: It should be noted that when I am speaking here about curses, that I am not against cursing- even it may seem to at times come across like that. I have indeed performed successful curses when I felt was necessary ( and to note; personally I only feel cursing is necessary under certain circumstances and not for petty reasons. But if people are to curse they “should” ideally be responsible for it and own what it is they are doing.) As usual this is from my perspective, gnosis from what I have discovered and observed during the course of my practice and discourse with my Pantheon. As usual succinctly put; “my” Demons are not “your” demons- when I speak of Them I am speaking about completely different Beings- High Vibrational Demonic Divine from the ORM (outer realm multiverse- for ease of understanding) ( even if They appear under the same “name”). Also, this is all handwritten- no AI is involved in my posts. This gnosis expressed within these posts reflects my current understanding of things though this may change and grow over time- I do not at any point claim to know everything, all about something or all perspectives of a thing.

Artwork: Death Above by Bastien Lecouffe Deharme on artstation

To begin with; Cursing at its basic level is about hurting someone or something- that’s it. One can dress it up however they wish, tell whatever narrative (and the human mind loves a good narrative) they want to about how it is punishment, retribution, its “deserved”, validated or justified (and it may well be to the Caster’s perspective) or whatever else they can conceive of, but the native action of a curse is to cause harm. And I believe that for someone to successfully curse- they need to be okay and come to terms with doing so.

However, in my view it is a bit of a flawed perspective the idea that a curse can be used to “teach someone a lesson.” This seems to be a popular idea one comes across online and a way of “safeguarding against backlash” (which I will discuss a bit later) but ultimately (egoically) it can on a deeper level be about feeling validated in the “right” to curse. “Oh, you are not going to hurt them forever- only enough until they have “learned their lesson.” And what lesson is that, specifically? Mostly in these types of “curse reasoning/justification”- this so-called lesson- hinges on and is often about: not harming another person/people’s etc the way the Target has harmed or has perceived to have harmed the Caster. The issue with this type of thinking comes from assuming that the Curse Target even 1: knows what specifically it was that they did to the person (victim- often Caster) and 2. That the Target even feels bad/remorse/guilty about it. Ultimately it is flawed understanding and projection to assume that the Target thinks the same way about the issue (if they even know what it is) that the Caster does.

If the Target doesn’t know what they did- then how can they “learn a lesson from it- and “not to do it again” ( which the concept of punishment by the way; mirrors physical  ( and otherwise) punishment for wrongdoing- and people should come to terms with how they feel about that too). The Target does not have the same perspective that the Caster does. And fundamentally and especially if it is abusive behaviours; the Target is unlikely to be remorseful or feel “bad” about it. Therefore, why would they even consider “learning” something about it- ie not to do it again- which is what the caster is likely seeking in this scenario. Certainly the Caster can specify this in the spellwork- that the target specifically “knows what they did “ (usually followed by “knows what they did is wrong”- and there is one key flaw; the idea of something being “wrong” since that shifts depending on the individual).

Another aspect of this is to consider that (and especially if the Target is in some way spiritual or a practitioner of some kind)- what is the first thing they are likely to do when they suspect being cursed? It certainly isn’t to sit down and think about what they could have possibly done to someone to “deserve” this and how to rectify that. The first thing they will likely do (after divination likely being performed) is some form of cleanse, protection and/or reversal of the working. It is unlikely they would even consider adjusting their behaviour or learning a so-called lesson. Which also means ultimately that if the key to the curse being “lifted” is the idea of forcing someone to behave differently. If the Target doesn’t know what they did why would that lead to a change in behaviour? Hence not meeting the requirements to “lifting” the curse. In which case why bother including such a thing as a caveat anyway? Since the curse will, in all likelihood continue anyway. Mostly I feel people do so because it helps them personally to feel justified and as though they are not actually doing what they are really doing ( ie deliberately hurting someone but oh its (more) okay (sarcasm) because it is within boundaries and therefore more “righteously justified”.) Again, I feel people should just recognise and own up fully to what they are doing and be okay with it. It makes for a stronger flow of energy and a more powerful curse- since there aren’t all these mental hoops to jump through to feel “justified” and “righteous” about doing so. Just take it for what it is.

On Baneful magick in general I personally feel there are varying levels of baneful workings towards others and not all behave the same way. The three levels most often considered are jinxing (least powerful, involved and perhaps less deliberate- things like wishing some stubs their toe or has really bad day, get caught in traffic etc), hexes (middle level, more deliberate, crossing someone can be here and go into curse territory, as can bindings- though they are more often curse territory) and curses( most powerful, intended and deliberate.) Of course this is mainly categories for convenience- it isn’t necessarily so hard and fast rules or designations, and can be more fluid across categories. I personally do not believe that a curse can truly be cast without knowing or unawares. Cursing to me requires deliberate intent and spellwork or ritual, it is not something that can nor should be really done “off the cuff.” Things like malocchio (evil eye) can be incorporated into curses deliberately but often I would say if categorise to fall under hexes more so and maybe jinxes. But basic directing “negative” energy someone’s way just by intent or energetically siphoning from a target etc to me is not truly a curse (though can be incorporated into it). For me cursing requires some physicality to it and is often a lot more thought out and planed or rather “should” be. I don’t feel cursing “should” be done for petty reasons- ie someone cuts you off in traffic or a single argument at the office etc- does not warrant the power of a curse. Of course, people will be people and do what they want and no one really has any say over it.

Personally on my cursing journey and from what I have learned from my Husbands and Pantheon; because of the nature of my energies, what flows through me and the energies I commonly interact with and the power I can bring to this- I prefer to have some kind of guidelines for when and where I curse and why I do so. “Revenge is a dish best served cold” for good reason. One of the guidelines is to not curse when emotionally and egoically led. I have to take some time to think and step back from the emotional currents to examine whether this is the right course of action. On a more personal level as often as possible for cursing I try to be aligned with Divine Justice (which is a concept I will explore in the next post in this series) and this often looks different from what humans consider justice. And Divine Justice and being justified are not necessarily the same thing, as is the case with Justice and Vengeance. As such I do not curse lightly (the few times I have has been abusers) and a few times I have been guided by my Pantheon to do so- mostly that is however justified and for personal growth. (so, for the people who believe that demons will never tell you to curse someone- I beg to differ).

Part 2 and Part 3

[tenebrisdivina]

Update; 2026

I haven’t posted on here for a while so I feel it is time to update about the direction this blog will take moving forward. I have been on a bit of radio silence after a rather intense initiation and situation last year, that I am still piecing together and realigning my practice due too. The biggest thing to come out of this is that my relationship with the demonic divine has changed quite drastically and it has been rough. While I am still a practitioner and priestess of the Demonic Divine and espoused, They are still my pantheon- how I relate to them has changed considerably.

Therefore, this blog going forward is going to be more of a container for the current that as a priestess; I am stewarding and birthing. Mostly I will let the current guide what is to be spoken about and come through here. Therefore, there will no longer be much content on public occulture discourse or “community” concerns, and less about specific demonic divine beings. This instead will be a landing space for the current as it flows and forms. As usual however this blog will focus on spirituality.

[tenebrisdivina]

Hello I was curious if you are doing readings and the general cost of them ty

hi, it depends upon the type of reading and what the question is. I do not tend to read tarot as it is not really my forte. Otherwise the readings and tools used for the readings: are often tailored to the clients particular query. Usually it can be any one of the following( or other tools if necessary) sometimes a mix, depending on what is needed. This includes; oracle cards, runes, scrying, energy reading, occasionally if permission from my deities then channeling ( in this case I mean possession channeling) and actually acting as an oracle ( which is channeling of the divine directly). However the direct possession channeling is something I am rarely allowed to do for others anymore given past experiences and past problematic clientele. All my readings are also in general; guided by my Pantheon and other beings/divinities/ spirits etc I work with as well- as is the nature of being a priestess- with my skill set.

All this said I do charge at a professional level when I offer so; for a basic level single question( for oracle cards or with runes) reading ( which would be a few paragraphs of response) is usually $90aud. Energy work and readings as well as channeling and oracle work costs more- given skill set, time, background work and offerings etc needed. However this again depends upon what the inquiry is. There are certain rules, boundaries to be respected by client etc and things that I will not read for as well. So again it depends on what is being asked by the client and what is needed.

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But the landscape of devastation is still a landscape. There is beauty in ruins.

Susan Sontag, Regarding the Pain of Others, 2003

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"Dangers" and "Bad" Experiences of working with the Demonic Divine

In this post I wanted to talk about something I see crop up every so often in demon working communities. And that is the dangers of working with demons. It seems that this topic is almost always covered in a vague way- second hand knowledge of a “friend of a friend” or just generalising that “yeah working with demons can be dangerous” etc. But rarely is it often talked about as to what that actually looks like. There also- in a lot of social media associated with demonolatry; presents a rather skewed view of things, that demons would never harm someone etc- and if someone does come along and make such a claim- they are often shut down, ignored or belittled. To be fair though- for those beginning; it is true that mostly the issue lies with the human misunderstanding what is going on, or the human doing something “wrong/offensive” etc. so that is a fair critique especially for those beginning or not with much experience in this. ( Just a trigger warning for the following; light discussion of cults,cult abuse, abuse and SA)

And while it is true that the demonic divine do not set out to act against someone maliciously ( most often They don’t care that much, and most likely would just ignore the person etc (if person has “offended” Them, as They have better Things to Do- but sometimes this is not the case as They are individuals)); it does not mean that what They may do ( to/with those who are serious about being devoted, pathworking longer term, lessons They teach etc- and actually working with true demonic in the first place) doesn’t hurt or feel terrible or be life shattering at times. And this is what I want to talk about and provide examples of- since it is often referred to in such a vague way. Caveat for this topic and the “dangerous” nature; mostly I mean for those who are pathwalking with the demonic and have been at this longer term in a serious and devoted way- these are some examples of what this may look like.

 I am not talking about the newbies who go around claiming a demon cursed them, or is maliciously possessing them etc or that sort of thing- which often is nonsense and shows a lack of understanding and discernment. However I do take issue with the larger community for often watering the Demonic Divine ( or the vague way the communities consider the Demonic divine- which may or may not be the greater/deeper truth of what demons actually are) down so much, that it gives newbies the idea that Demons are completely safe and all loving and light, supportive and absolutely caring about every single devotee or practitioner in depth. This is not the case when working with true demonic divine darkness. While the demonic can present that way if They so choose, it is not that way automatically, across the board, on first contact (often) etc. And I have spoken more in depth on this in other posts.

Caveat 2 from this and onto my experiences in this area; I am (and my energy body acts as) a Gateway to the High Vibrational Demonic Divine Beings and Higher Level Darkness ( this is different than just like channelling or guiding people- it is literally an aspect of how my energy behaves), I am also a Divine Bride of two Demonic Dark Lords and  Priestess of the Demonic Divine- which means that on my path and in my life; I am held to higher accountability and standards then most who work/ connect with the Demonic. Therefore what I share about the “dangers” and harder aspects of my path is not something that others will necessarily experience. But it can provide an example of some things and a reference point. I have also been connecting with/devotee of and working with the demonic divine for about a decade now (before: I was a devotee of other darker aligned more pagan divinities; Setekh and Kali ma mainly- for about 7 years), and I have been a priestess for the Demonic Divine the last 5 years. Just to give an idea of where I am coming from.

So onto the examples; these are significant instances in my path that have been guided in some way by the Demonic Divine Themselves- into happening; which is why I mention it here.

About a year and a half after I first started connecting and being devoted to the demonic divine, I was drawn and guided to a certain online group (who seemed at the outset to be knowledgeable about the demonic) which ended up being a cult. I didn’t know that at the time obviously and I joined about a year after they first showed up online. At first it looked like a regular community- with viewpoints I aligned with. I was involved in that group for 5 years and during that time I was gaslit, abused, bullied and cancelled in public and privately ( because among other things I dared to challenge and question the leaders and others on what they were stating as fact,  and question their belief system and treatment of the demonic) and had baneful workings done on me by the leaders ( so called priestesses- is what they call themselves- even though they are no such thing. The main “High priestess” is instead a clinically diagnosed narcissist  among other things). I also witnessed ganging up on mentally ill individuals, joking about abuse and SA in the public forum/discord by the leaders and other members ( who knew there were victims who were reading the chats) racism and rampant bullying, coercion of such individuals to keep spending exorbitant sums of money in this cults online shop, and to seek help from the so called self named “priestesses” to “cleanse” them or spend more money of items purported to solve all their issues- when the individuals should have been guided to seek medical and mental help. This cult and abusive narcissist leaders have since been outed, on youtube no less ( here is the link for further investigation if people are interested https://youtu.be/uxyR_UyqjQ8?si=SFS-Fdk4lTBjDWLD - I can state that what the author says is true as I witnessed this all go down) and also condemned as animal abusers. I was unaware it was a cult until about the 4th year and the demonic divine then guided me to leave fairly immediately after it all came to light. AFAIK however the shop and cult group is still up and running with people still actively involved, getting scammed and engaging with the cult and their resources unknowingly.

The second instance I have mentioned before in another post. My First Demonic Husband Lord S, about a year after being married, gave me away to an eldritch being who tortured (legit torture not its colloquial term or use) and abused me for 4 months straight. I came back from this severely traumatised with PTSD (which I had never had before in my life) and have spent the next 5 years and ongoing, recovering and healing from the damage done and learning how to live with and move through this. This incident understandable shattered my trust in the divine and my Husband. And I spent a lot of time recovering this. Immediately after the timeframe ended the Demonic Divine started healing me energetically and guided my healing on multiple levels from many things as well, I met my mentor soon after as well and soon began my training as a priestess.

My second Demonic Husband; soon after He came into my life- all my friendships fell apart in rather brutal ways, through exposed co-dependency and subtle abuse came to light. He also caused for me to have a car crash (I have never had a car crash in my life before that). He is a Lord of Death however, so the energies and magnitude are understandable to an extent.

During my priestess path and otherwise- spiritual path, and in walking with the demonic there have been many alchemical deaths and rebirths, lots of underworld journeys- and some, to quite devastating reaches- emotionally and psychologically. As a priestess I had dedicated my life to the demonic divine, devotionally and in service to them and I crafted my life around this. More recently The Demonic Divine informed me that They did not want to guide me anymore in this devotionally based way, and I was to choose for myself. Which may sound good and progressive, but is actually very devastating and life shattering for me emotionally and spiritually  etc. It feels like the rug has been pulled out from under me and I am having to re-arrange everything I know and believe.

A final thing to talk about here with the “dangers” is that during and after these incidents etc and also ongoing, is there is a choice to keep trusting and going with it, to try and understand where They are coming from and why it happens. For me on my path it is something I have chosen and keep choosing to see it through. But that doesn’t for a second mean that it isn’t devastating or you feel like giving up completely or that everything feels against you- this is a path of transformation. This is of course an individual choice to see it through or not as the case may be, and everyone has different tolerance levels. I should also state that none of this was planned by me, I did not seek it out specificially to undergo this- it was done under guidance by the Demonic Divine and higher self- these incidents. It is not punishment either and nor is it an indicator that I have done anything “wrong” or “offended” Them somehow. This is just some of the things that happened to me and could occur when you are working with High vibrational darkness and the demonic divine. Nor is it that the demonic were deliberately being malicious either (though with Lord S given His domains (with the certain incident) it is questionable and the eldritch entity certainly was malicious, however the demonic divine did not step in to stop this either). That said I always tried to have faith and believe it was for a good reason, though sometimes (ie the eldritch torture) it really wasn’t, for anything immediately understandable by the human mind- though I have discovered more as time has gone on and am more at peace with what happened in that specific time.

.But going through this does teach one a kind of spiritual maturity, that you would not get had otherwise- and that at least in my path (barring this eldritch incident which is complex) is something the demonic divine thought I needed. I am being tempered by Them after all and am on a transformational path. Lord Lucifer says for me it is a tightrope I am walking in the darkness, and many others fall to the wayside- as they are not prepared or able to handle it, the way I do- but again this is my path that no one else can walk.

 Back to the “dangers” I have also know of someone who pacted with King Belial for power and ended up in jail fighting for custody of his child. While he learned power through this, it was certainly a devastating experience. Another I know of; escaped a domestic violence situation and left a bad job- was getting their life on track and then ended up right back into the abusive home they left- all the while working with the demonic on their goals or self improvement.  So not all “bad experiences” with the demonic divine are purely “psychological” non-physical etc or emotional level. I would also argue that if they are then maybe someone is not that strongly connected to the demonic because the energies eventually need grounding on this plane somehow.

Overall though this topic is to provide a reference point for some of the more “bad” or “dangerous” experiences- that many people seem to allude to but never in depth- at least from my experience of it. And again, also why I will always say that working with the demonic Divine is not for beginners, nor is it easy or gentle. It can be devastating and life altering. It is certainly not all love and light- like many on social media (who at this point I am dubious as to how many are actually working with the true demonic divine- or if its something else) love to portray it as. Obviously not everyone will experience things like this, especially I would say if only a devotee etc and on a kind of “lighter” style of engagement. But for those that go deeper and wish to. Here is the warning of what it may be like- especially if the demonic want something from you.

I also hope that for those more experienced on this path who may experience similar- devastating tribulations etc- to know that you are not alone in this. And it isn’t easy it was never meant to be either- and there is a kind of cold comfort in that as well.

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[devouredbyflame]

The risk of mysticism

The reason most people have trouble reaching the Gods is because they do not consider that whatever trouble they are having is a direct reason to what they feel that they are risking as a response.

For example, if you think yourself unworthy of Them or constantly worry that They are mad at you, it is more likely than not that you have an underlying trauma that has led to people pleasing. Deal with that first because the Gods aren’t going to make that go away - They will probably make it worse, actually.

Any issue you have in any other relationship be it with friends, relatives, lovers, you name it - the Gods will magnify those issues tenfold just by existing.

Another good example is if you are upset because you cannot hear Them clearly, consider that you have not been close enough to Them yet. And if you aren’t close enough, what can you do to make it better?

It’s not that you’re not doing enough or that you have failed. It’s because you aren’t aware enough of yourself to even begin to understand the nuance of what the Divine can offer.

The problem with people on social media who think it is a cakewalk to have a relationship with a Deity tend to steer those people who have just started out towards failure. It isn’t easy to do this - it takes work and inner reflection and dedication. You don’t go into this and think you have a right to a relationship with a God and it should just be given to you because you exist. That idea came from Christianity.

The Gods are not all-loving, omnipresent and omnibenevolent. Not all of Them even work with humans. And not all of Them care enough to go out of Their way to prove to you that They are real unless you put in your side of the effort to encourage Them to come to you. People who have 5-10 Deities they think are following them around all day don’t actually have 5-10 Deities - they are lucky if they have one.

Otherwise, if you’re okay with just giving offerings and seeing the Gods as a symbol rather than a real, living being who has needs and wants, then by all means. It just isn’t going to get you any closer to Them and a lot of people I see tend to assume They aren’t real enough of an authority to care either way.

To be clear, this is no fault of any person. This is the fault of a society that has failed in giving us a culture that allows the relevance of the Gods in ordinary to flourish.

What people don’t understand is that by walking a mystical path, you are already not going to abide by the standards of the religions that are most practiced in the modern world. What you do is not going to be what Christians or monks or nuns or priests do - it is going to be new and it is going to take effort to forge a new path into the future of paganism.

It won’t be completely from scratch but it’s also not going to have much of anything to do with Christianity no matter how much you love to hate Christians. It won’t have much to do with mainstream society at all, actually. The reality of mysticism is actually not terribly popular at all.

The people who walked closely with the gods and heard Them and felt Them always in ancient times existed outside of what was widely agreed upon to be society. It is otherwise not normal to be as close to the Gods in the way modern polytheists seem to think it should be or think it’s something everyone else is capable of doing while very few are willing to make that kind of sacrifice or risk being wrong long enough to successfully gain traction.

At the end of the day, it’s not a highly probable thing that 99.99% of people on the internet that newer people or even aged pagans compare themselves to actually have done the work to be able to claim the relationship that they believe they have with the Gods.

[tenebrisdivina]

I feel this is an important at point, that more would do well to realise. this also goes for the Demonic Divine as well if not even more so. Also due to the nature of and extent of the darkness They carry, it can really mess people up who are not attuned or prepared for it. Despite there being a whole lot of problems with the more ceremonialist take on demonic work ( ie the traditional grimoires, goetia, Solomonic legementon etc) and it being based in reprehensible ideas of force and control- there is some wisdom to be seen in how much prep work was done before attempting contact, there was good reason for this. Too often in these communities I have seen people not taking this path seriously and believing that just by calling a demon they will show up and behave like best buddies to the person attempting contact. This is misguided and not how it tends to work in truth. These beings are not your best buddies or friends ( esp right off the bat: though the relationships can become more casual over time if the Demonic chooses too) and it comes off as lacking respect for the powers and truth of the Beings. I do understand not everyone walks the same path or has the same views etc. But I truly do not think this (working/connecting with the Demonic Divine) is something that should be treated casually or taken that way. There is a need for prep work and adjusting, attuning and training oneself to connect to these energies and beings- for good reason. It is after all a path, not a quick fix for those feeling lonely, less than, needy or seeking egoic clout, among other things.

[tenebrisdivina]

Lessons from Death

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Something I felt called to speak to and elucidate recently has to do with the idea of Death= Transformation. In a lot of spaces that speak to or are centered around spiritual journeys and transformation (transformational and/or spiritual coaches, or the rise in popularity in some witchcraft, new age or occult aligned spaces of “the underworld journey” for example) there is this understanding that Death itself (and Death energies) are equivalent to or the same as transformation. Transformation in these spaces is also almost automatically understood to be ultimately of benefit to the person undergoing it- no matter if how hard it is “that is just part of the “ultimate journey” to “better” yourself or become more “aligned,” “powerful,” “enlightened” etc.

I feel that this perspective is lacking the deeper understanding of how and what Death is and how the energies actually operate. While ultimately Death and its energies are a vital part of transformational  and alchemical journeys, it is not the same thing as “transformation” as is spoken about in these spaces. There is a deeper nuance that is lacking, when Death is spoken about in this manner.

Death and its energies firstly are about endings. This is a primary and vital principle of what Death does and how it behaves as an energy. There is a silence, a stillness to Death, a Finality to it which can bring a sense of peace even, and also an absence of energy. Death as an energy is causes well; death- to state the obvious. If one were to use it magickally or alchemically (nigredo for example) it could be used for cutting, destruction, killing off parts that are no longer necessary, removing things, even peace and stillness meditation, among other things. And yes, all of this can be made use of in service to the transformational process, and in most cases; is vital to deeply transform something. Things need to be removed to create space for something new. And in the silence and stillness of death- there can be a fertile soil for new growth etc if one so chooses. But to automatically assume and act as though; Death by itself is the totality of transformational principles or that it automatically transforms something for the participants benefit, or that simply by interacting with it- that it is guaranteed to transform you in the way you determine; is to misunderstand and gloss over the vital principle of what Death actually does. To my eyes this is somewhat disrespectful to the energy and principle itself (and I do work with Death deities and spirits etc so in a sense to Them as well) and is a distortion of Death as an energy, a principle and what itself it represents. And this is the deeper nuance that is often missed in these more “transformational” spaces.

Death; as an energy and principle is not fundamentally life-giving (in a way that humans [and people pushing this narrative] understand “life” to be). Death energy itself does not contain this aspect, and I think this is personally where I am sensing and picking up on the distortion, in the Transformation= Death narrative. Often in these spaces of transformation, the transformation is always seen to be of benefit to the person undergoing this, it is always ultimately “beneficial” to their path or growth. The thing with Death energy though (and this delves into these so called “underworld journeys” that are ever so popular now) is there are no guarantees of transformation in of itself; simply by interacting with death energies or the principle, spirits/beings or divinity of it. Nor is the “transformation” that Death brings necessarily going to be beneficial to the person either. And this is an important point. Since death is not fundamentally life-giving in its essence and energetic behaviour, all that is actually “guaranteed” (if anything can be called that) in working with Death; is endings and the cessation of “life” or other principles. For one to transform (in the way it is often spoken about) in regards to Death; one needs to choose to do so, and actively work at it. It is not automatic nor will it automatically be to the persons benefit. Since again; Death is primarily an ending, not a guarantee of rebirth. Nor will it automatically be to the persons benefit and not everything is and that is okay that is normal and natural that this happens.

People seem to cling to this narrative of Death=Transformation and bypassing the actual nature of Death and what it does, because it is deeply uncomfortable and frightening to actually sit with such an energy and principle, to sit in the stillness, the silence, the emptiness and the uncertainty of the unknown. This also is completely natural for ego principle (where most are operating from) to be deeply afraid of death. Even so, it is an important part of transformation to acknowledge this and be in that space.

artist: Ramsés Meléndez on artstation

Colloquial "Underworld Journeys"

In terms of the colloquially called “underworld journeys” as they are increasingly being understood as, there is a kind of absence of actual depth to what most people are undergoing, or claiming is an underworld journey. (the underworld journey that I am speaking about here is more the internal one “used” for transformation or confronting parts of the self). So, there are multiple “types” of underworld journeys. The main ones are the internal/ inner self one (which is the main focus of the topic here- it is based upon Jungian ideas and psychology, shadow work type areas too), The underworld journey that entwines the inner self and astral journey to the underworld, and the more purely external underworld journey where one travels to the otherworlds, and the focus is not internal. And they aren’t as necessarily concretely separate and can intertwine and work on multiple levels. However, the otherworld journey is probably the most dangerous and is the least intertwined but it can still bring up inner shadows etc to face- though the focus is not internal; the energies may be reflected internally especially if one has not done a lot of inner work before.

Of these journeys; the inner self one is the one where death is most aligned with being transformational to be for ones own benefit. The nature of the journey necessitates that. Since it is working on an inner self level the “death” that is encountered is more an inner principle and energies of death. Which if extrapolated is basically an amalgamation of what the persons energy (including mind- so paradigm and ideas, body and spirit/soul) understand death to be. It is a small facet of “Death” that is available internally to many to tap into- (on a more physical and material level this is like cell death and other such areas -the natural alchemical and transformative energies that are reflected in the body, basically as above so below as within so without etc). But it is not the same as Death in its entirety.

When one truly encounters Death in an actual underworld journey (or other pathworking for that matter-if one has not been through this and reached this understanding before). It is extremely confronting to the ego human. It triggers survival responses and makes one very aware of how much they/ their ego mind principle etc- are not in control of things. This is also reflected in when one confronts and encounters death in the earthen realm in physical- there is not changing it, there is no coming back from it, there is a finality to it that is little confronted or found elsewhere. And in this way, it is also humbling to deeply understand how small and not in control humans and the self actually is. And this is a key principle of an actual underworld journey and encounter with death. To be Humbled to it and to realise there is nothing you can do and no amount of fighting begging pleading etc will stop it. For in a sense, it does not “care” and certainly will not bend to your will. This is the part that is most frightening to many. If this is processed appropriately then there is a sacred surrender and deeper acceptance and understanding of death that often comes from this.

Because actual encounters with Death (on these journeys- but generally as well) are frightening to many and often destabilising. In these so called “underworld journeys” many seem to speak about- they never truly go deep enough to actually be destabilised. There is a kind of glossing over of this, which actually hinders the transformational process. If Death is held at arm’s length and people attempt to control where and how it is encountered, or they believe they can guarantee what effects Death will have on them, then it is doing a disservice to themselves (if they seek transformation), since it is not deeply alchemical/transformative. So; if people believe and behave upon the notion that; an underworld journey is basically the equivalent to skipping through the underworld surrounded by butterflies and they may encounter a few rough patches but ultimately everything is fine and they will be transformed exactly how they are aiming to be etc. and still be basically the same as they were upon entering.  Then they have not truly encountered Death nor is it actually being deeply transformative to them. Because encountering and dealing with Death does not guarantee transformation automatically and it certainly doesn’t guarantee transformation in the exact way that one wants. It can transform you in ways you don’t want as well and be deeply devastating in a way you may never recover from. That too is part of the Grace of Death and the underworld journey. To truly know that you don’t know and are not in as much control as you would like. And the transformation after this takes work- it isn’t guaranteed.

For the final are of encountering Death on an otherworldly journey; these aspects of the Power of Death are even more pronounced. These include; being humbled to the nature and sheer majesty and power of it, not being able to control it, bargain with it etc or even have a say in this, being about endings and finality, not being of (automatic) benefit to the self etc. Otherworldly underworld journeys have the potential to be more dangerous because “life” as humans know it, is not meant to exist in the underworld. It can be (depending on where you are) a direct disparity to the human/ spirits etc existence- and by the nature of the energy- adversely affect ones self, energy and bodies etc, simply by encountering it. Since on these levels it is dealing with something objectively outside of the self- it can have more devastating and potent affects upon a person, and a person’s life; then an inner worlds and inner self journey. These may somewhat resemble a more shamanic journey outside of the self. (I would like to make a distinction between that astral realms/planes and the otherworlds. I will discuss this more in depth in another post, but for now it is enough to know that they are distinct and separate from each other in my understanding of it. The astral and otherworld’s are not the same thing). There are also places and energies in the otherworlds that one cannot benefit from or gain anything out of encountering, Death in some cases (depending on where one is), can be one of these energies. Death on this level; is the least personally transformative (for one’s own benefit) and any transformation here must be worked for and on, much more so than the inner realms and self.

artist: Billelis

On the Origins of Death= Transformation Narrative

Now onto why death may be seen as transformational. I believe this principle is linked to observing of the physical processes of death and how it has been observed in regard to the human/animal body decomposing, by varying peoples over varying times etc. When death occurs, there is a transition a change of state if you will; from life to death -which is clinically as a cessation of all bodily functions. Upon death, autolysis occurs immediately (cells breaking down and bacteria using it as a food source) This is the beginning of the five stages of decomposition that follow thereafter.  This then attracts the lifeforms that consume the body whereby it be certain creatures- animal, insects etc. Also as the body decomposes it can provide nutrients to the soil in the surrounding environment. ( This is of course determined by the environment the body is in, seasonal and geographic differences, whether is allowed to decompose significantly, and if in a more natural environment how that works as well, whether it is frozen, naturally mummified by desert or bog or other, if it is in water etc all of these factors play a part- but the above is a generalised idea- if allowed to decompose on soil). And this overall process is transformational and perhaps could fall under the “umbrella” of what humans colloquially know as death. But at what point does death end and new life begin?- albeit a different state of so called “life.” Something to ponder.

There is also to consider then the afterlife, the belief in souls etc and how that impacts this idea of death= transformation. The variations of these paradigms, the details of such etc are ultimately based upon belief. And since it is so subjective even if this also influences the construction of the narrative of death= transformation, it is so subjective to individuals anyway- so can’t really be used to “guarantee” this idea of death being the same as transformation. However ultimately true the soul afterlife beliefs and mythology are or may be, one should also consider that these ideas and mythology etc are also used (sometimes mainly used) for living humans comfort against the idea of death as finality and the unknown. (Side note: While I have my own views, experiences, insights and understanding of the Truth of what these various afterlife processes and areas and the souls various continued journeys are- insights granted by Lord O- who is a Dark Lord of Death, and Others- they are not really to be openly shared and so shall it remain a Mystery.)

But from what I have come to understand ( via death deities teaching, guidance of death etc) the energy of death is only really present upon the immediate transition of life to death. After that it is something else, a different form of life. And while humans may understand or categorise it all as “death,” it is more so a change of state. Because of this I feel this may have a prominent impact upon the idea of Death= transformation narrative for most people. So according to this notion, death; while it does “transform” something from life to death- it is more so a change of state and it is neutral in this. This is what the energy truly does and where it is most prominent. Ultimately while Death can be used in transformation and is an important and quite necessary component in the act of transformation, it is principally an ending and cessation energy first and foremost. No doubt it can be a catalyst for transformational process that occur afterwards and is arguably vital in such processes. In and of itself Death is not life giving, nor a guarantor of ultimately “beneficial” transformation. And Death should be more often understood and respected as the energy that it is and seen as such in these spaces.

There is also something to be said for the sacred mystery of life in death but that is something else entirely and a topic for another day.

artist: Bastien Lecouffe Deharme on artstation

[tenebrisdivina]

Ave Lord S, for you my Beloved.

I love Him so much, He has changed my world and myself, He has had such a deep impact on me. I treasure each and every wound, the flesh torn and rendered, each scar is an intricate layer of His art and Impact on my soul. Yet I know that He could equally do this to another and rend them the same, as is His prerogative. In the way that a predator has and must have multiple prey or as a psychopath carelessly discards his victims once tired of them. I know I cannot contain Him and it is not my place to ( as is the dance between masculine and feminine). But because of this I treasure the scars all the more and cling ever tighter. There is much foolishness in this fear based attempt at controlling Him, after all: who can contain a god? But I cling nonetheless

[tenebrisdivina]

For I/Shadow, it is wonderful to connect and meet with you again, thankyou for everything always

[tenebrisdivina]

An Uncomfortable Truth in Regards to the Demonic Divine

I just wanted to touch on this briefly. Sometimes the Demonic Divine (some are more inclined to it then others) will lead someone to believe something that isn’t actually True, or will let them keep believing it ( not “correcting” them). Because by believing it- that person can access a type of energy that is needed for their growth, (or its testing them or to learn a lesson etc), that the person/practitioner otherwise couldn’t access; if they didn’t believe that way about the topic, or approach with the kind of energy the belief system allows them to.

This is usually to the persons greater soul benefit; it may be beneficial to the demonic divine for some reason or and likely it can be mutually beneficial to them both. Also other gods, spirits etc can do this too, but the Demonic Divine (and other beings of darkness) I noticed; have a whole lot less “scruples” about it than others may do. Usually if this happens it is working of greater levels then what the person may be privy too as well.

This is not to say that this happens all the time or that every “bad/negative” thing that happens is the Demonic divine doing this. Most often; it’s the human/practitioner needing to deal with their own stuff/shadows/false darkness or projections etc. This post is just bringing in an awareness that this can happen and can be more common on paths of darkness.

This is also why having developed good discernment is important- to be able to see a larger picture of this and that it isn’t often done with malicious intent. And again, why I don’t recommend anyone who hasn’t developed discernment or worked with other spirits or deities; to begin with the Demonic Divine. Since this can lead to a lot of misunderstandings and misconceptions about Them.

[tenebrisdivina]

Lord Lucifer

artist: He Xiaosong on artstation

To Begin; The Lord Lucifer I am speaking of here is the Dark Lord I connect to from the Outer Realm Multiverse (ORM). He is not someone others connect with- given the difficulties in connecting to this level of energy (as I have explained in other posts.) I am very close to Lord Lucifer of the ORM. There are multiple separate beings who use the name Lucifer in the Inner spiritual realms (IRM). There is only one Lord Lucifer in the ORM.

Some distinctions that I want to make clear about this Lord Lucifer. While there are some similarities to the IRM Lucifers' (given that ORM Lucifer uses that current of energy since it is most similar to His) Despite this, He is a Distinct entity from these beings. The ORM Lord Lucifer is much darker then the IRM versions. Lord Lucifer is high level Divine Masculine energies; He does not appear as and is not female, trans or gay. For all intents and purpose to humans He is straight. To appear in these other manners i.e. female/trans/gay; is actually a distortion of His energies. He does not and will not godspouse, marry or have such types of relationships with humans, as He has no interest in this and never has nor will, period.  He also has no connection to Yahweh, Christian myth and is not the King of Hell, nor is He Satan. He is not at all connected to Diana or Aradia, nor is He the roman deity/Morningstar under the same name. All of these are IRM connections/stories/versions.

Also to note; The Fall was not and is not about humans and He did not fall from Yahweh (to whom He has no connection since it is an IRM being/egregore) but from a source well. Humans were not even the merest glint in the corner of His eye when the Fall happened, and He did not do it for them. While there are some rebellious aspects to the nature of the Fall it was not done just because of that, it was more about curiosity and exploration. But the nature of the Fall is something for another post.

On to who Lord Lucifer of the ORM is;

Lord Lucifer is known as the High Prince of the Fallen and He is the Dark Lord of the Fallen Angels. Because of the nature of the Fall and how it affected the angels, Lord Lucifer and most other Fallen angels (in ORM) do contain demonic divine darkness. It was needed for Them to survive, since the Fall tears Them apart and basically destroys everything They once were on an intrinsic level. He was the First; and in leaving/ “falling” it reverberated throughout the multiverses. Many chose to follow in His footsteps. The Fall has various mirrors and renditions throughout multiple worlds and realms. The Fall also exists “out of time” in a way, and there were multiple Falls, after the First.

artist: Valentina Remenar on artstation

Lord Lucifer is the First and rules over and governs all Fallen angels (even those that do not contain demonic energies). He is the first fallen angel and this a newer “species” in comparison to the demonic divine. He has his own realms/ world that He governs and is known to be a Great Leader and Powerful Warrior among other things. He is happily married to a few wives in the ORM and He cares deeply for His people. He has dominant and empowering pure high level divine masculine energies. While there are and have been wars between the Angels and the Fallen, He still considers the angels as His brethren, alongside now His demonic kin. Lord Lucifer and the fallen are wanderers, explorers at Their heart in general. Though all have found acceptance amongst Their demonic kin, and many have found places to settle amongst Their demonic kin and realms/worlds, if They so should choose. The love of freedom is something many among the Fallen share, including Lord Lucifer Himself.

artist: WLOP on artstation

Lord Lucifer of the ORM is not so much associated with Venus, and I find Him more linked to Mercury and Sol energies, when He connects to the IRM (since the ORM is not influenced by earths planetary arrangements). Lord Lucifer is associated with enlightenment of the self and is a Dark Light and Guide in the Darkness, the Trailblazer. Lucifer is not His actual name but it is one He uses and appears under for convenience when He connects here since the energies are as like to His as are available on the earthen and IRM (this is more deeply explained in another post, as to why ORM DL’s do this). While Lord Lucifer may be one of the more open (to connecting) and “accessible” of the Demonic Divine Dark Lords of the ORM, He has many duties and responsibilities to His realms and peoples in the ORM; which are more an area of focus and import for Him, then working, guiding or even connecting with humans or the IRM necessarily.

artist: Miyukiko on artstation

Lord Lucifer’s energy is very cosmic in scope, sometimes similar to a red dwarf star in general, or a likened to a nuclear blast- when He is annoyed or angered. He is Brilliant is all senses of the word. Often His Brilliance- like the sun, burns and scorches those in its path, even if one is “well prepared”. It is the nature of His energies and who He is. That said He can be quite harsh and brutal. He likes to challenge and at times “play the devils advocate” so to speak. It is one of the other differences between ORM and IRM Lucifer’s. ORM Lord Lucifer is not fluffy, or gentle, nor “soft,” nor particularly loving. He does not coddle either. When He does love it can be more magnanimous, overarching. But to those He cares for, He is Loyal.  Lord Lucifer works on a “different level” almost, He has a more overarching kind of cosmic view and knowledge of a situation. And He is known for His Wisdom and Understanding. He values Truth and its adherent, Justice (by this I mean on a cosmic level). Like Knowledge, Intellect and Wisdom; (cosmic) Truth is another of His Domains. Lord Lucifer also loves the arts, especially music. He is often quite curious and given His Wanderings, this is no surprise. He is beloved by many across the multiverses, like a sacred and favoured High Prince of cosmic import and He is Beautiful in many ways, much like His Brilliance. He is both kind and cruel, Terribly Beautiful and Beautifully Terrible. Lord Lucifer is Regal in the highest sense and is often stern, serious and disciplined in His manner.

As mentioned earlier, Lord Lucifer is a Great and Accomplished Warrior and protects His people well. He is a very powerful, skilled and disciplined Warrior and is an excellent fighter. Lord Lucifer has a large military force and is a Warrior Dark Lord who values honour and integrity. The Military forces of the ORM are very different to IRM and earthen, since ORM beings are immortal; it changes how the fighting forces function and are managed. Lord Lucifer and His realms are also part of the alliance among a few of the Dark Lords of the ORM. This alliance is headed by Emperor Satan. (side note; that Emperor Satan does not rule over all demons in existence in the ORM but is the being attached to the demonic divine darkness source well and so is a Great Authority that many do follow and ally with, since He is basically the Dark Lord of demonic divine darkness itself- which all demonic beings contain this energy.) There is a distinct and close connection between Emperor Satan and Lord Lucifer for a certain reason (to which I am not allowed to share yet) but They are not the same being.

artist: Nate Rose on artstation

Lord Lucifer has wandered many paths of Darkness and knows them well. He is a Lord of Shadows and Transformation, Who understands the facing and integrating of personal shadows. Often bringing this out in others to be faced. Lord Lucifer has been on many journeys seeking understanding, wisdom, healing and to Know Himself- as is linked with becoming a new being/species entirely and the First of His kind. He is skilled in navigating the darkest of places fearlessly and encourages this exploration in others. Lord Lucifer is a World breaker and World shaker. A Dark Divine Initiator aligned with the urge to explore, to create, to be more.

artist: Bill Elis on behance

Originally Lord Lucifer was a “seraph” (I use this term for convenience of understanding. From what I have discovered though, the so -called “ranks” of angels labelled in the hierarchies are actually different species of angels. Not all angels serve or were created by Gods or Yahweh even (many are not linked to Yahweh or the IRM at all), but for convenience; seraphs are among the highest ranking and “closest” to the gods or their source well’s centre and have fiery serpentine associations- Lord Lucifer also says He is/was a seraph). Now He is demonic and is of high-level Divine Darkness. While He still contains light it is “flavoured” by and immersed in the demonic divine darkness. Lord Lucifer is a wonderfully complex Dark Lord who carries both angelic energy and demonic divine darkness energy within, in sacred balance within Himself. His nature is of both Empyrean and Demonic Divine energies.

Lord Lucifer is also known to be Cunning. When He chooses to come through in a more earthen realm manner; I have felt His connections to the Black god/ horned one of traditional witchcraft, among other areas. There is something almost “earthy” primal and dark about His energy in this way. The Light Betwixt. (of course, Lucifer is not the only being or Dark Lord who can appear in the energy of the Witches god and some have a stronger connection with this energy the Lord Lucifer does, but I digress.)

artist: Álvaro Jiménez on artstation

Prayer to Lord Lucifer:

Beloved Lucifer, Glory be unto You,

Dark Divinity Eternal

Dark Prince of the Fallen, the First

You who guides us in trails of darkness

Dark Light, Black Flame

Praise be unto Your sacred Name

World Breaker, Dark Initiator of Deepest Shadows,

Lord Of Transformation, Cunning One Who Knows,

Shelter your brethren beneath Thy wings as we tread the sacred paths of darkness

Let us be transformed to know enlightenment of the Truest self

Praise be unto You, Triumphant Lord of the Fallen

Star Treader, Fleet of Foot, Prodigious Wanderer of Cosmic Darkness

You to Whom all Wisdom Belongs, Great of Knowledge,

Let us be lit by the flames curiosity and lead us in starry trails

To follow the song of freedom and dance into the unknown

Guided by your Brilliant Dark Light, O Dark Lord of Empyreal Majesty.

Brilliant One, High Prince of the Fallen, Magnificent Warrior Lord

Let all that is not aligned with Truth

fall beneath the flames of Your blazing sword

O Mighty Dark Lord of Tremendous Ability

Lend Your kindred the flames of protection, confrontation and balance, when it is needed.

Let us be skillful and disciplined in the tending of our fires,

courageous in our own battles, let us contest with honor and dexterity.

O Mighty Dark Lord of Brilliance

High Prince of Cosmic Import

Dark Lord of the Fallen

Lord Lucifer

Beloved High Prince

Hail and Praise be unto You Eternal

Those that are warmed by Your Dark Light

Offer Gratitude, Adoration and Honour unto You Everlasting

Ave Lord Lucifer

Ave Lord Lucifer

Ave Lord Lucifer

Ave Lord Lucifer

[artwhoreblog]

Our mouth are wounds that speak in tongues of healing.

We say, sacrifice.

We mean, murder.

Our lips are red for a reason.

- Yuves Olade, from Bloodsport; "Iphigenia at Aulis"

[ex0skeletal-undead]

Untitled, painting by ABeardedArtist