Trying To Ease The Pressure In My Head

I’m going to vomit my soul here. Be nice to me 25!!! My writing is 18+ Any/all my pronouns are whatever vibe you catch from me I genuinely couldn’t give a single frick

[terminalbrainitch]

been cooking up a supernatural fic because ive got winchester brainrot

theres only two chapters up but im having fun playing with a new oc and the spn boys like dolls here

i recently found out what whump is and these are my new playthings to experiment with (eventually once i set everything up as it needs to be)

ive been spacing out all day at work and just plotting details and turns i wanna take, how certain emotional high points would be altered with a pretty lady thrown in between the brothers

the jealousy, the drama, the awkward conversations, the messy emotions, getting clocked by strangers and read to filth hehe all of the above. plus trauma bonding as a love language and overprotective winchesters is tickling my fancy atm

[terminalbrainitch]

Update!!! There’s now 3 and I’m working on the fourth

[3000s]

tumblr giveaway

reblog to win one of that

[infectiouspiss]

grace fucking pissing rocky off statement

[triangleguy]

[shnehollander]

when the sex is a character analysis

[imsodishy]

been seeing a lot of fics recently tagged with 'no ai used' right from the jump and hmm– i don't think we should be normalizing that. I don't think people should feel like they have to preemptively announce 'hey, I didn't shit my pants! just FYI.'

and yes, I know there are witch-hunting weirdos running around loudly accusing strangers of having shit their pants with zero evidence or reason. but maybe we should just tell those people to fuck off? and block them if they keep insisting they know for a fact you shit your pants?? and not give them a single inch of our mental real-estate?

[wishywashysmoshy]

My favorite part of Smosh is whenever Shayne starts laughing like a cartoon bully

[tubbbee]

this comment made me take psychic damage

[thejesterstears]

Damn it’s been a good run but we really are dying for real once the show ends 😔

[3hkowalski]

Just leaving a little star right here ⭐

you can claim it after ep8…

UPDATE: THIS AGED BADLY

[hothotmiso]

[terminalbrainitch]

I love that this is a very different jinshi here. He’s no longer the eunuch manager of the rear palace. He’s the prince and heir of the nation. I get that that’s the point but like FUCK ITS SO GOOD everything about him is harsher

[optheboyssssss]

Me when I see a beautiful fic but it uses a first person pov:

LIKE PLEASE DON'T USE “I” 😭😭😭😭

[terminalbrainitch]

Me enjoying writing and reading first person pov fanfics til the day I die

[sugarcubetikki]

these pics of winona ryder from the late 80s are giving willow byers (in other words the casting is on point jfhfnfjk)

[terminalbrainitch]

As someone who was also raised white trash being a quarter way through “Half His Age” by Jennette McCurdy is like having a mirror shoved in my face and having someone tell me “the things that happened to you weren’t normal and it made you act fucking weird and it made you weird and everyone could and can still tell”

But like the thing I’ve made peace with as a 25 year old after spending my teens and early twenties shouldering a massive amount of trauma, both generational and personal, and dealing with it through quick fix dopamine, is that your feet will always keep moving, as long as you let them. My heart fucking shatters for Waldo because she is me. She is Jenette. She is countless other girls trapped in horrible cycles and lost in isolation chambers trying to figure out what the right fucking choice is.

I didn’t exactly make it out of my cycles but I’m still here. I’m the closest version to happy that I can be. I’m content and I’m in love with a man that actually hears me when I speak and treats me with decency after a slew of men who left me more fucked up than the last. I found that connection those girls dream of. It hasn’t magically fixed anything but it’s helped me become a real person, it’s taught me healthy cycles by osmosis. It’s taught me how to stand on my own two feet.

I’m so stirred up inside by this book. I think the taboo situation of the age gap is an important element specifically because it highlights that inability to make appropriate choices over what feels good in a world that seems gray and empty. But it also provides a space where this young girl is forced to have a fucked up deeply warped adult themed lens to view life through that’s been crafted through her trauma. She isn’t who she is without these decisions, without these specific situations, without the story being exactly what it is.

Nothing about this book feels heavy handed to me. It feels exactly like what it was like to be a neglected child navigating a world that is all isolation. It’s a painful read that makes my stomach hurt because it really is just like having a mirror up for me.

The person I am now wants to shake Waldo and push her towards something right. The person I am now wants to do the same to 17 year old me.

I don’t know man my everything hurts and I’m not even halfway through it.

[terminalbrainitch]

IM LEARNING TO CODE A VISUAL NOVEL

And I’m THINKING TO EXPAND MY MOUTHWASHING ONESHOT INTO A FAN GAME AS A FIRST PROJECT

[cinuwoll]

#conformitygate

[boyfriendsmalec]

THIS IS WHY REPRESENTATION MATTERS