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For personal reasons I am a joke

[tetheredbird]

In my youth I had a friend I gave the nickname Kitkat to, I miss her and yet I can remember nothing about her. I often wonder what happened to the people who made growing up not so scary. I wonder if I think about them, do they think of me? I know life is unpredictable at the worst of times and yet? I still hope for their safety, a text, a sign from the heavens that my old friends are okay. I remember Ducky and Muffin, I remember birb, Kitkat and Gaylord. people I've considered my "circle" even if it was brief. I wonder what happened to those I've hurt as well, I only hope life has been kind to them.

[tetheredbird]

love is a trip to the store for a week worth of groceries for a staycation - just because I needed a break, love is in buying pineapple juice because I can't live on just soda. it's in the way she says my name, says she loves me. love for her seems so easy - taking care of someone else. love for her is giving it my all even at my wits end.

and it's gonna be her asking "why are you crying?" it's because I don't know how to show even a portion of the love she shows me.

[tetheredbird]

Hello again internet!

I ate today, it wasn't much just a chicken sandwich but it kinda felt like progress? I've been feeling real bleh lately and was for the first time I was hungry. I tend to let myself hold me back and didn't think I deserved it because all I did today was wake up but it turns out that's enough. I'm still alive and that that's fuel not a reward.

If all you do is get out of bed and microwave a chicken sandwich. I'm proud of you.

[tetheredbird]

I want this to be at least an advice blog, share experiences and stories. if not driving lessons the least I want from this blog would be connection.

The digital age is low-key scary to me, I grew up with it but I'm still terrified of people so if anything, this blog is hopefully a chance at human connection, potential (and frankly much needed) grammar and advice for me, everyone who needs it and those who just like the vibe.

[tetheredbird]

my favorite character of all time is Chloe Price. I'm not inspired by her and I'd love to be like her, just that I can be better? I don't think anything is wrong with her but I don't want to be what I feel. if anything, this blog is a nod at the void that is the Internet (a tool both incredible and awful) to hopefully maybe get noticed in a social way. (the reason I would like to be considered a concept is because as a person I'm not social? I'm not an extrovert and I've already found my one person to text 25/8).

And for anyone asking why I used the Chloe Price tag. I think the world is against me, daddy issues, distant mother who at least made the attempt? I don't know I just love her sm as a character and she's a little too relatable.

[tetheredbird]

Hi internet, my name is L. I'd like to remain anonymous, a concept if you will. I'm theoretically between the ages of 0 - 102. (for actual sake though I am 22, I will mention drinking in this blog? thing and I'm making it clear that I would prefer people 21+ for that reason, though it's just life through my lens. I don't really feel I have a purpose in this life and world so I'd like to start this blog for that reason.

I am anonymous for a reason, I'm not my own biggest fan. I'll try not to share face pictures because I'm 22, mentally feel 17 trapped in COVID era, ya'know. I don't have the best grammar but I'll happily take notes and criticism on my own English. - L