im 18 now. i made this when i was 12. six years might not seem like that long but oh my god this blog was my everything, it saved me. to this day im confident only about 1 person knows that i have this and that i was so deeply invested in this fandom at such a young age. i couldnt wait until i was 16 bc that meant that i was sodapops age. i couldnt wait but then i fell out of this fandom. god it hurt. i miss the friends ive lost touch with but i still think of them more than i should. i still remember the late night talks and the greaser sleepovers. i sometimes wonder if i should come back, i mean i wasnt a prominent writer or artist or anything in the fandom but i was there and i got a good following going. i know, however, that if i were to come back that the fandom wouldve changed too much for me. i still remember how it was. it holds so much nostalgia. with the few people ive kept in touch with, ive gotten to watch them grow and change and its bittersweet bc i remember them just how i was. naive and in love with a group of fictional boys. i remember all the headcannons, i miss all of the ships, and i just miss it all but i know that the people who made my time special in this fandom have most likely moved on just like me. i hope youre all out there changing the world like i know you can. i miss u. im still here.
