I had this dream a good while back and wanted to talk about it. I know it’ll likely get lost in the unending funnies & art that is Tumblr, and I kind of hope it is. It just helps to get my thoughts out in a public space.
I was some kind of feminine deity watching over the universe. I could see every facet of existence, but I was a part of it as well.
I don’t know how to describe it well, but this is the closest I can get: Existence was a house, and I was standing in the hall. Each open doorway lead to a different part of our universe, and each window showed the others parallel to ours.
I watched over my universe, guarding any star systems that bore life. I protected the Earth and countless other planets like it, each with their own ecosystems beyond description.
I redirected meteors, moved black holes, extended the lifetimes of stars, and positioned the planets a perfect distance from them so they could have the best of everything. The only thing I couldn’t protect life from was its own intelligence threatening to destroy itself, but I had long since come to terms with my inability to stop it, and continued protecting life in every way I could.
All the time, there was another deity, masculine, begging me to stop. He was worried about me. He tried to tell me that there was no point to my continued efforts, that someday they would face something I couldn’t save them from. But I kept trying. Because all I wanted was to see my beautiful planets thrive, and especially my precious life forms inhabiting them.
I knew I couldn’t keep my planets close forever. I knew that each life on them was finite. But I didn’t care. All I wanted was for them to live their best lives in the time they had. I saw Earth inhabitants, everyone that was doubting their own worth, everyone that had lost hope. I wished for nothing more than for them to be happy, but I was too far away to help.
I don’t know who needs to hear it, but if you’re reading this, never fall into the belief that nobody loves you or that nobody would care if you disappeared. I was never deeply involved with any spirituality, but this dream showed me in one of my darkest moments that somewhere, someone will notice, and somebody will miss you. You have worth. All life has worth. All life is loved. You are loved.
Again, I don’t mean for this to get overly deep or religious or something, I just haven’t been able to shake this dream for weeks now and wanted to talk about it.
Extra details:
- Individual parts of the universe were simultaneously 2D & 3D.
- I was seeing everything at the same time, but was focusing on individual parts.
- I saw my own human body among those on Earth that were feeling worthless.
- One of the intelligent species on another planet was a light blue color. It was unlike anything I’ve ever seen. It wasn’t any form of matter we’ve discovered, and despite being nearly twice the size of humans, it was a single body rather than a collection of cells. The best I can describe it is “giant amoeba”. Hell if I know how they were communicating, but they made no audible sound, but still understood each other as easily as we speak to others in our own language. Their planet had no liquid water nor oxygen, yet sustained alien plant life as well as these odd creatures. There were no children, yet there was clear distinction between the young & old.
