Thoughts into words

A darkness within, that must get out. Words on paper that free the soul. Incoherence that feed the mind. words by K

[thatvoicethatlingers]

Nothing like a good cry in a hot shower

[buttonpoetry]

“I suffer from unrequited self love. I love myself, but I don’t love myself back.”

— Andrea Gibson, "Diagnosis”

[buttonpoetry]

“Wonder if the pain is always worth the family? What happens if you can’t reshape disappointment?”

— Raych Jackson, from Even The Saints Audition

[thatvoicethatlingers]

What I've learn today:

I'm a horrible daughter

I'm very selfish.

I have an ego problem.

Pretty much everything my little voice in my head has been telling me my whole life.

[thatvoicethatlingers]

Dont be with them. Don't go that way. Don't talk to those kind of people.

Don't

Don't

DON'T!

Then, what can I do?

[thatvoicethatlingers]

So now you're telling me that the way I think is wrong?

That what I've learned my whole life isn't what I'm suppose to do?

That I'm suppose to stay in this cookie cutter mold that you've made for me even though it doesn't fit me?

Do I, as a person, really matter?

You tell me you care for me, yet when I speak my mind you dismiss it as something insignificant.

So tell me,

Just what am I to you?

[chibird]

A friendly ghost rest stop before you continue your day! 💗

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[thatvoicethatlingers]

I don't want to alarm you, but there may be something off with me. I barely eat, stay up all night, fake a smile at work, and over all just lay in bed a much as I can.

This is my life now. I guess I'll accept this as a new chapter.

[thatvoicethatlingers]

Mute

We've dance this dance before

You're thoughts vs mine

We both say the same things

Over and over like an ostinato

Quickly changing to a solo

I wonder have you every heard my notes?

I listen to you, and harmonize

But when it's my time, you continue your solo

I try to project and let my sound be heard

Your solo over takes it with ease

In the short pause, I could have made a sound

Yet you've overpowered me for so long I lost my sound

I no longer know what I sound like

I only know of your sound and how to compliment it

I've lost my sound

I have no sound

[growingintosomething]

I think about it over and over again. But everytime i try to speak i cant. I want it out of my head but i cant even find words.

[http-xxaxx]

[dying-human]

[killed-long-ago-deactivated2021]

Why doesn’t anyone ever talks about mental addictions?

I’m addicted to feeling depressed that I really don’t know what I’d feel if I wasn’t depressed. I satisfy my addiction with self destructive habits that make me fall deeper into the state of depression

I’m addicted to feeling lonely that I have no idea who I would be if I wasn’t by myself. I satisfy my addiction by pushing people away and making sure I remain my only friend

I’m addicted to a mental self destruction rather to a physical self destruction and I really don’t know which one is worse.

All I know is that this isn’t healthy and I don’t know if I can ever see myself recovering

[notaveryimportantperson]

“When she commited suicide she finally became loved”

—

[nicotineposts]

“I put up a front like I don’t care, like I don’t feel. But it’s because I’ve cared too much, felt to much, that I don’t want to go through that all over again.”

— Nicolas De Leon

[cemetery-fae]

“I would rather be engulfed in the 3a.m. silence than ask for help because that’s much easier than explaining why I’m not okay.”

— a.c. // I’m tired of losing sleep

[thatvoicethatlingers]

"Don't think about it too much."

"Don't over think it."

Easy for someone to say to an over thinker...