Hidden Self

This is a place for me to vent/rant about anything & everything on my mind. I will speak as though I am speaking to the person/thing I wish to vent/rant to. This will be about the pretty, the ugly, & everything far in between. THIS PLACE IS FOR YOU TOO!

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Sharing my Hidden Self pt.3

So, we finally got to talking about everything that has been bothering me. And the funniest thing happened, you touched me and I felt a fire again. It was small but it was there and it made it known to me that right now I’m going through something and it’s not you. It was literally the best realization ever. To know that even though I felt as if maybe our love was no longer there , it was there all a long and I just need a moment to myself to put manage my personal situation. December has been hard for me the last 8 years going on 9 and this is the first time I have someone who is in love with me and understands that it’s ok for me to step away for a moment to just breathe and take it all in. I will never forget this moment and I will cherish no matter what happens between us.

@the-hiddenself - 12/21/2016

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Sharing my Hidden Self - pt. 2

I haven’t felt this way since I was 16 years old. It all started when I called my sister not realizing it was your house phone. When you picked up it wasn’t “hi mija how are you?” It was “who is this?” *Hidden Self* “Who?” *your daughter!* “why do you have this number?! I don’t care! Don’t ever call this number again!” *click!* I fought for 16 years to try and get to know you. I fought for 16 years for you to see me. I fought for 16 years to have you, my “mom,” be in my life. And just within a small moment you took it all away. I thought after my sister died you would want a bond with me, but instead you hung up the phone. That pain you caused me laid with me for YEARS and now I find myself reliving those feelings. It took me so long to overcome it. I don’t know it’s haunting me again. I was finally happy with myself. I was finally free from your abandonment. I learned to love, trust, and care for others and most importantly myself. But yet here I am finding myself to be numb and hurt inside. I can feel myself being closed and pushing those who love me away. I want to stop it but for some reason it isn’t as easy this time. For some reason I’m hurt all over again. All I ever wanted was a bond with you. All you ever wanted was an empty phone call. -By: The-HiddenSelf @the-hiddenself (12/12/17 11:26PM) #Share your Hidden Self

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Sharing my Hidden Self - pt. 1

I don't know what happened. I don't know where it started or better put, how it ended. All I know is that one day I was madly in love and the next I wasn't. I used to look at you with so much love and fire inside me. I used to look at you with dreamy eyes of our future together. I used to love the way your embrace felt. But "used" is past tense and today I'm still with you. I have no reason to leave. I have no reason to not love you. I do not know if it is me. I just feel numb inside. My heart feels hardened and locked. I can see a door in front of me, but I cannot find the key. Is it you that has built this door or is it my past coming back to haunt me? I don't know what happened. I don't know where it started or better put, how it ended. All I know is that one day I was madly in love and the next I wasn't.

-by: the-hiddenself @the-hiddenself (12/12/17 5:16PM)

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Work on you, for you.

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TUG***

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[divinepoem]

you hope they’re feeling a little less and smiling a lot more stop telling them it’s okay because it’s not okay that they made you feel this way your body finds everything easier at 2am but your brain keeps screaming for you to stop alcohol finds its way into your bloodstream but you swear you don’t know how it got there a tearstained pillow is better than a makeup stained one. in your opinion it’s easier to clean up and hide sex doesn’t feel as fulfilling anymore, just filling your empty chest so it seems full i dont love you i never did they remind you i know i know i know you say you aren’t allowed to feel that anymore

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[poems-she-wrote]

I promised I would stay, and I meant it, you were so happy that someone would finally stay. I stayed when everyone else couldn’t handle it anymore, I stayed when everyone said you were a mess. I stayed because I loved you. But now I had to leave, not because I couldn’t handle it anymore But because you didn’t want me there anymore.

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