The Smeagol System

DID system blog

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Intro Post 2.0

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Hello, we’re the Smeagol System, formerly the Rat Hive System. We’re a programmed polyfragmented DID system of some number. This is our collective blog we have a few others for different members and subsystems. I’m bad at tech so I’m not sure how to link those but they do exist.

So uh us info:

- We are RAMCOA/OEA survivors

- We’re collectively trans, he/they unless otherwise specified

- We’re chronically ill both physically and mentally

- Minorly visually impaired

- AuDHD havers

- Fictive heavy, our Fictives are our most active and public parts

- Hosts name will not be shared you can call them Z

- We have a queer platonic partner system who I will try and figure out how to tag

- We’re generally pagan

- Anti non traumagenic systems, not because we don’t think they have real experiences that isn’t our place to say but because if they do we are so different we would like separate spaces. We are heavily disordered and want to interact with similar people. We don’t hate you, we just ask that you please avoid us as we avoid you

- Anti rad queers, especially the transRAMCOA people, those are people we do hate

- Anti pro shipping stuff

Interest wise we all differ but some general ones are:

- Crime/rescue shows

- Animals, especially sharks and bats

- Drawing and writing

- Psychology

- Pokemon

- Dumb mobile games

Do not interact list:

- Radqueers

- “Transabled” people

- Proshippers

- Endos/non traumagenic systems as stated above

- Bigots, aka abelists, homophobes, transphobes, racists, all that stuff

Otherwise I hope you enjoy our account.

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So uhhh forgot we can post on tumblr. Like didn’t forget we have it, we use it, but forgot that we can do things other than looking at posts. Posting is an option. Just remembered.

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So we split a lot and that has led to us having multiple of the same fictive and usually we’ll change the spelling or the whole name but when we struggle with that we get situations like nice Nikki, mean Nikki, and fish Nikki. Truly incredible.

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Update nice Nikki got a name of her own, Fleur, the other two are still adjective Nikki though. If anyone has suggestions for fish names let us know

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I just woke up so I’m not sure if this makes any sense but I think a good way of explaining fragments is that “normal” systems break like regular glass and polyfrag systems break like safety glass with all the little bits.

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Ahhhh this body doesn’t move the way I want it to!!!

-Jinx

[the-smeagol-system]

So we split a lot and that has led to us having multiple of the same fictive and usually we’ll change the spelling or the whole name but when we struggle with that we get situations like nice Nikki, mean Nikki, and fish Nikki. Truly incredible.

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I miss myself. I don’t know how else to put it. I know I am still me, I know moving on from my source is good, but I miss who I was. I liked that me, my family liked that me, I had a family. I miss home, I know I’ll never go back but it hurts. I’ve tried so hard to keep going, to move forward in the four years since I split but it’s a challenge. I’m not the person I remember. We have other alters from my source but it isn’t my version. I am alone and I am not who I want to be. I miss looking the way I do, this body isn’t mine it never will be. I miss my hair, my eyes, my scars, my body. I will never really get to live in it again and I really wish I could. I still look like me in headspace but that doesn’t really feel like living. It doesn’t feel as real. I wish I was still real, that I still felt real. I know this is the realest I’ve ever been, I know that, but it really doesn’t feel that way. I miss myself.

- Tommy

[the-smeagol-system]

I know too much but not enough to fix anything. I can pinpoint exactly what’s wrong with me but I have no idea how to fix any of it. The more I learn the worse it gets but at least I know. I need to know.

-Z

[i-am-a-fish]

I got that temporary sadness in me

[i-am-a-fish]

I also have inevitable joy lying dormant within me. Also bones are in me

[i-am-a-fish]

[chronicallydragons]

anyone else ever wish they could lie down harder? Like, I'm already horizontal, but I need more horizontal. I need to be absorbed by the floor. I think that would fix me

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

[to4st3er]

yay :3

feel better by penelope scott

@bittofeverything @justaneurodivergentwithissues @slay-toes

[justaneurodivergentwithissues]

Thanks for the tag :)

miracle worker - Forrest Frank

@godblessthisfuckingfandom @reyna4ever

@ih8thewww

[reyna4ever-deactivated20250130]

Thx for the tag :)

Red Wine Supernova - Chapell Roan

@goddess-of-bubblegum @bast-the-best26 @sleep-depprived-mf @asp3n4ever

[l1ttlehavocc]

LALALALA - stray kids

@asp3n4ever @dusty-does-stuff @crowwwwwwwwww @shark-tranny @sunshine-boi1 @death-breath and any1 else.

[crow-line]

The cult of Dionysus

[coraalcollective-deactivated202]

Cicada Days by Will Wood and Medo do Medo by O terno

@blackkittiesinabox @trashyclementine (sorry for @ :])

[purplepodcast]

Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan

@an-archive-of-idiots @bassguitarinablackt-shirt @the-rat-hive-collective @caninecluster @carrdboard @virtue1nvain @godsfallenstar @gangyganggang

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Little Wolf, Epic the Musical

@pink-glitter-garbage

[the-smeagol-system]

You seem like a cool bunch of people

also noticed you mentioned looking for other system friends so thought I’d reach out and stuff.

also what is your favorite pokemon?

Love dragapult but bulbasaur is also top tier

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Ahhhhhhhh I hate fireworks!!!!!!

-Tobie

[shirtsthatgohard]

[the-sewer-system]

@the-rat-hive-collective made me think of you

[the-smeagol-system]

I don’t watch birds, birds freak me out.

They’ve got beady little eyes and freak necks/j

But I do love that shirt

[the-smeagol-system]

I as a spider part and planning on creating a spider sona because I can and need more things to do. I am very much a violent part but I am working on reformation and I think making a super hero version of myself would be a nice activity.

If I, or anyone else, end up drawing this sona I will attempt to remember to post it here.

I hope to be around more in the future so if anyone has any other ideas for spider esk things I could do please let me know. I’ve begun bracelet making and it is really enjoyable.

-🕷️🕸️(online alias to be determined)

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I did it.

I was intending to include my additional arms and some other aspects but this is how we ended up illustrating it. I was also considering adding in some of my children as spider sidekicks but I am not the most artistic and it was proving to be difficult.

-🕷️🕸️(online alias to be determined)

[the-smeagol-system]

I as a spider part and planning on creating a spider sona because I can and need more things to do. I am very much a violent part but I am working on reformation and I think making a super hero version of myself would be a nice activity.

If I, or anyone else, end up drawing this sona I will attempt to remember to post it here.

I hope to be around more in the future so if anyone has any other ideas for spider esk things I could do please let me know. I’ve begun bracelet making and it is really enjoyable.

-🕷️🕸️(online alias to be determined)