‧₊🌸 ⋅˚𝕾𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖟𝖎˚‧🌸₊‧

She/They │Autistic and Adhd│17y│Artist who produces once in an era and creates something every second

[the-worstotter]

ℌ𝔦𝔦!! ℑ𝔫𝔱𝔯𝔬 𝔭𝔬𝔰𝔱 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔢!

My name is Gogo/Otter :3

She/they pronouns 𓆝 Aroace lesbian

Just a autistic girl who dedicates the rare posts on this blog to complaints, platonic declarations, and my OCs and their stories.

𝔐𝔶 𝔣𝔞𝔳𝔬𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔢𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔫𝔤𝔰 𝔦𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢

𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔥

One piece, collectors fashion dolls, Monster High (G1&G3), drawing, painting, crochet, animes in general, maximalist fashion, artist makeup, Sonic, Dislyte, Yuri/WLW, Gacha Games, Helluva Boss, TADC, TOH, Gravity Falls, Hangyodon, animations with gay subtext, CRK, redesign characters, write, cool and colorful art, Percy Jackson, AO3, Chappell Roan, shipping culture, girly girl and gay fandom's, B99, going out with my family, complaining about everyday things, my oc's, yap with interested people, Gigi Perez, those minutes before falling asleep, my grandma, my mom, my dad, my little sister, my best friend Z, Superbat, houses with good natural lighting, bus and subway empty, days without responsibilities at school, my mother's cake, artesanal, fishs, dodos, aquariums, Michael Jackson, Satosugu, Trolls, my silly friends and moot's, good world building, Zootopia, Wicked, Heathers, the musical, Stardew Valley, ATLA.

ℌ𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔣𝔬𝔯

*That one* person, government, misappropriation of public funds, incel's, ignorant people, very hot or very cold days, satin and tactel, random NSFW in my feed, to get wet in the rain, wake up early, go to bed early, tomato sauce, prejudice, romanticization of criminal cases, the English subject at school, chemistry, eat fish, loud noises, physical contact with strangers, the subway during off-peak hours, calls from unknown numbers.

𓆝 𝔐𝔶 𝔟𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔰 𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔰:

@thebestberryever @theoqflowers @tsugummy @frenezing

𓆝 Graphic design student (who's kind of bad at it...)

𓆝 An artist who never posts their own art

𓆝 A writer who hasn't written since the last planetary alignment

𓆝 A person who is venturing into crochet and ceramic sculpture

𓆝 Special interest in One Piece that goes and comes

𓆝 A aromantic person who is always looking for romance, even if it fails miserably

𓆝 Social skills (online and in rl) shallower than a saucer

𓆝 I used to be a dodo, but it's kind of tricky to base the aesthetics of a blog on an extinct animal... Otters have been my favorite animal ever since i first saw Zootopia when I was six, so they're substitutes for my beloved dodo

𝔗𝔥𝔢 𝔟𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔞𝔱

𝔢𝔵𝔦𝔰𝔱 𝔬𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔪𝔞𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔦𝔞𝔩 𝔭𝔩𝔞𝔫𝔢

Monkey D. Luffy, Clawndeen Wolf (G1), Senku Ishigami, Sakura Haruno, Shigeo Kageyama (Mob), Husk, Saiki Kusuo, Jinx (Arcane), Nico Di Angelo, Gyomei Himejima, Charles Boyle, Sorbet Shark Cookie, Twyla Boogeyman (G3), Superman (James Gunn ver.), Yelena Belova (MCU), Namor (MCU), Stolas

[shandy-and-champagne]

when you abandon canon that's when you are truly free

[science-hoes]

Anyways

[beanyysoup]

Happy pride!! Eat some cake with your best friend (or more 😳) you deserve it!!!

[mango-ti]

[treatop]

if her web of lies wasn’t already complicated enough

[thedeepthought]

“i never see you at the club” ok well i never see you on ao3 at 2am reading about the same two bitches falling in love for the 1000th time in the 500th way

[dokelsss]

even more land fish

[amydaily]

137

[writingdose]

[lleyksie]

brown bear, black bear

[alleesaur]

the red herring

[eyeballdrawer]

60s Starr Nova (discarding the idea

[eyeballdrawer]

60s Starr Nova (discarding the idea

[katrayillustrates]

Rushed Starr Nova and Void Master Finx doodles before I head out for a trip 💫

[the-worstotter]

Stolen Pen

Today, during my therapy session, my therapists were chatting. They talked about pens. My psychologist said his pens are always being stolen, my therapist said she doesn't remember having even bought one, but they always have them. A classic case of thief and robbery. This conversation made me think more than necessary.

I'm always the one who gets robbed.

This line of thinking extends further. Everyone wants pens at their disposal without having to buy them, but in order to achieve this, someone loses their own pens. Nobody wants to be the one who is robbed; they want to be the one who steals. Everyone wants to be the obsession, not the obsessed. They want to be the muse, not the artist. They want to be the wick of the candle that illuminates the darkness, not the wax that melts.

My whole life, I've been the observer. Never the protagonist, just a supporting character whose name only the most die-hard fans know. I always sacrificed more than they sacrificed, I was never one to give little. At the same time, I am passive to everything. I never confront, I never ask for my pens back, I never seek to be the candle that lasts the longest, I never fight to be the muse.

I will be the angel whenever necessary for God to feel important on his throne.

But sometimes I wonder if it's asking too much to be the inspiration for a poem. I wonder if it's not too much to want to be the master of ceremonies instead of the clown. To be the one with the name in large letters instead of a footnote. To be the one who walks in front, the one who pulls the leash.

Because at the end of the day, everyone wants to be the most loved, but never the one who loves the most.

And in the early hours of that day, I'm tired of having my pens stolen.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]