my diary. well, sort of.

just gonna post my feelings. feel free to message your stories if you want them to be posted on here.

[theanonymousentries]

covered my fave verse from All too Well :) 

just for fun!! 

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i want to be in love so badly i get so excited about a potential boy and then get way too upset and disappointed when nothing comes out of it. :’/

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people out here stanning harry styles after making fun of me for loving him in 1D in 2011 im upset -

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hey guys, was bored today and decided to play around with garage band

I covered ever since new york by the one and only harry styles

Take a listen and let me know what you think😊

[theanonymousentries]

i love boys so much i hate them

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consequences

you got comfortable

you stopped trying

now i have tears in my eyes and you don’t understand how your words and actions affected me

you say work made you exhausted but now you’re working somewhere else and tell me that ‘you’ve changed and will be different’

i tell you it’s too late-but it still hurts when i say those words to him

you tell me, ‘so you don’t want to be with me romantically anymore.’

i take a long pause and then a deep breath

‘yeah. i can’t’

silence.

he tells me he thinks of what he could have done differently, like tell me more of when he might have felt uncomfortable but chose to be quiet instead.

i tell him i wish he could have shared those feelings with me.

he drops me off and i close the door.

as my hand leaves the car handle i take a breath and look behind my shoulder and see him staring at me.

i feel like my heart is on the floor and i let out a slight smile

but it probably looks more like a broken one.

[theanonymousentries]

um i never sing to anyone or show anyone my real voice but i thought this sounded ok so im sharing lol

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poem.

when i’m with you i feel like i’m on vacation; time moves slower and nothing else seems to matter.

you crept up on me slowly and now i can’t get you out of my head.

i think about the way you tease me and how i roll my eyes.

i think about how i look at you and you return the gaze with your warm brown eyes.

but even more than that i think of how you make me feel.

safe. like i’m home when i’m with you. how we can cuddle and not have a need to say anything. comfort.

you teach me new things and challenge me to grow as a person.

i think of your touch late at night when you’re not here, and i think of you when i wake up.

i don’t know how you did it, but you have me wanting to be called your girl.

i haven’t given you my whole heart yet because i’m afraid of what you might do with it.

but you’ll see it soon. because i said it feels like i’m home when i’m with you.

and you know that old saying...

home is where the heart is.

[missleonardodicaprio]

I GOT INTO COLUMBIA 

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also we had to put my dog down yesterday :(

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my mom fell in love with someone else while still married to my dad. she was unfaithful. i am very torn up right now and im very confused. does it make it better or worse that she loves someone else as opposed to it being someone random and who means nothing?

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so i thought my long term crush was single and i saw him on hinge and sent him a friendly like and everything and today a group of us went to dinner and i over hear him say something about a girlfriend and then my heart was shattered to pieces...

it’s just annoying bc i feel like there’s a tension but like neither of us can do anything about it obv

also he asked to follow my instagram and i would have been way more excited about this if he was single (but i still am happy about it lol)

i just feel kind of pathetic i guess bc i am obviously thinking about him and whatever and i feel like he’s not even thinking twice

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JUST WATCHED PRETTY WOMAN FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IM IN LOVE. I. AM. IN. LOVE.

i am going to be channeling Vivian Ward from now on. 

i saw the broadway show also and i’ve been listening to it 24/7 since i saw it

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so this guy...always seems to have a damn girlfriend....and the other day i was on hinge just scrolling through not really paying attention

and im singing along to my song that’s playing 

and all of a sudden, his picture pops up and i literally go, “oh. SHIT.”

so clearly text my bff and im like im not about to sWIPE LEFT! IVE HAD A CRUSH ON HIM ON AND OFF FOR LIKE A YEAR

so i sent him a like.

and liked one of his comment things he posted. and i didn’t want to be weird about it (being “friends” or acquaintances”  or what have you) so i figured i should comment something back.

so i wrote, “oh hey nice to meet you!”

i sent him that saturday night around midnight. 

there’s no response yet & im low key freaking out...what do you guys think about this situation?!!? I feel like either he hasn’t checked the app yet so therefore hasn’t seen it....or didn’t like me back.

but i feel like that would be weird if he didn’t like me back because i am going to see him again..you know?!?!? ugh god.

[theanonymousentries]

so i have had this crush on this person for so long but only see him occasionally so here’s what usually happens:

-he walks in the room

-my heart sinks (i literally feel it drop)

-i become so self conscious bc his presence makes me nervous as HECK

-we talk a little

-we flirt a little

-vibes all over the place

-i get sad bc he has a gf

-im like why the fuck u flirting with me if you have a gf

-make eyes

-high five

-he goes home

-i think about him for a while until it fades 

-weeks go by

-i see him again

-SEQUENCE REPEATS

[theanonymousentries]

wow u guys having a crush on someone really takes up so much of your time someone help me

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gOING ON A DATE TN