You know this cold you feel like there's is a snowball inside your chest sometimes? And you can't explain how you feel almo as you don't know yourself or other people won't understand or will reply in such way that youll be able to catch any untuned vibration in the interaction and create more anxiety for yourself? The feeling you have when you brush off so much that you feel like you're lying when you telling the truth, perhaps it might be because you lied so much trying to avoid hurt anyone or yourself or perhaps you just didnt know how to handle the situation/ had the balls to. The feeling you have when you've tried a lot and also fucked up a lot and you can't even see yourself succeding, and you feel so angry and sad but you dont wanna ask for help nor feel that it's your place to do so. You don't know how to be an honest person and feel like people are questioning you even when you are telling the truth, you are constantly nervous questioning yourself, you don't trust your own mind, you might think that's the edge, but the snowball will melt. That's another fase you'll overcome.
