hurt/comfort lover

i love when terrible things happen to my favorite characters

[thefishiswriting]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, Shadow and Bone (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jesper Fahey/Wylan Van Eck, Colm Fahey & Jesper Fahey, Colm Fahey & Wylan Van Eck Characters: Wylan Van Eck, Jesper Fahey, Colm Fahey Additional Tags: Wylan Van Eck Needs a Hug, Jesper Fahey Needs a Hug, Good Parent Colm Fahey, Jealousy, oh so much jealousy, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Past Child Abuse, wylan has daddy issues, how is that now a tag, Jesper has issues, Everyone Has Issues, Colm is the best, Trauma, youhou, inspired by the song silver spoon by erin lecount, go listen to it, and make yourself sad about it, the fish is full of envy and self-hatred, Autistic Wylan Van Eck, he wrote himself like that, no mourners but A BETA, Finally Series: Part 4 of Wylan goes through pain Summary:

If you asked him he'd deny it with his whole heart, but Jesper started to think maybe this whole thing was not that good of an idea as soon as the carriage dropped him and Wylan in front of the farm. -

or, Wylan and Jesper spend a couple weeks at Colm's farm to take a break from work. What could go wrong? Everything, of course! (spoiler: lot of jealousy, lot of guilt, lot of daddy issues, lot of self-hatred. have fun.)

[thefishiswriting]

should i try to participate to whumptober? i might try to write for other fandoms too (voltron? narnia?), idk. I'd have to prewrite a bit in september, idk when the prompts come out.

[thefishiswriting]

chapter 2 of the silver spoon fic is finally out :D

sorry for how long it takes me to update this fic :( my summer job is making it really complicated for me to write often and i am always tired :(

[angst-is-a-genre]

okay so if i hypothetically were to write a crows at the beach fic would anyone hypothetically read it?? also it's hypothetically set in noyvi zem when they all go visit colm

and if hypothetically my hcs were so far hypothetically

inej befriends the seagulls: "crows are their cousins!" kaz thinks this is ridiculous because, no, crows and seagulls are not cousins and crows are much superior in his view

wylan and jesper walk along the beach and wylan keeps pointing out animals by there scientific names: "ooh look a Tripedalia cystophora!" jesper doesnt know what the hell is happening but he loves his boyfriend

nina spends most of her time sunbathing but at one point matthias finds some tubes and they go in together but come back out pretty quickly because nina is cold (the cold doesn't bother matthias at all because he's used to fjerda)

jesper dives into the water right off the bat but then retreats back to where wylan is sitting under an umbrella because he gets bored super easily and just walks around wylan and they talk until wylan decides to finally get in the water

wylan wears a swim shirt because his ginger ass will get sunburnt (hey dont hate me i speak from experience)

inej has convinced kaz to forgo his collar and suspenders (begrudgingly) and instead he wears a t shirt and cargo pants plus gloves ofc (inej CANNOT convince him to get in the water sadly)

inej and nina build sand castles and jesper accidentally crushes it and they make him rebuild it (wylan thinks this is the FUNNIEST thing but helps anyway and does most of the work)

matthias and kaz at some point end up being the only two not building sand castles and sit in brooding silence while watching their girlfriends. the silence isn't exactly uncomfortable though.

anyway

these are only some of my hypothetical ideas

edit:

forgot matthias was dead. i'm in denial.

[redpandalover12]

We don't talk enough about how Wylan was basically told he'd do great working in a pleasure house. He's 16 years old.

I want to know how the other crows would react to that, especially Inej and Jesper.

[thefishiswriting]

fuck it, i might post the first chapter of my fic because i know it will motivate me to write the next ones. rn im just modifying the chapter over and over again. not productive.

[thefishiswriting]

FIRST CHAPTER IS OUT! SILVER SPOON FIC IS HERE! YAAY

[thefishiswriting]

wylan at 23 learning how after 7 years all your cells are officially regenerated. him realizing he now lives with a body his father never touched. him telling inej about it. inej quitely weeping that night because even if the memories are still there this body is entirely hers. idk if it makes sense and it is very badly worded but i'm at work and it's driving me insane.

[lyralows]

Kaz, after realizing these hands never touched Jordie, neither in life or death, and feelings strangely numb at the thought.

[the-fish-is-alive]

well, it just keeps getting worse. May I also offer you: Nina, years after Matthias's death, sobbing because all remnants of his touch are gone.

[lyralows]

Just say you hate me.

Jesper, realizing that one day, his body will forget the day he took a spin at the Makker's Wheel- and now he only has to get his mind to do the same.

[thefishiswriting]

well, how am i supposed to sleep in peace now?

Jesper, holding his mother's clothes, hoping to get a semblance of the touch that his body forgot

[lyralows]

Sigh 💔

Matthias, drifting in and out of consciousness, thinking how lovely life must be, for Nina to be the last thing his body remembers.

[thefishiswriting]

screaming crying throwing UP oh my GOD

[thefishiswriting]

wylan at 23 learning how after 7 years all your cells are officially regenerated. him realizing he now lives with a body his father never touched. him telling inej about it. inej quitely weeping that night because even if the memories are still there this body is entirely hers. idk if it makes sense and it is very badly worded but i'm at work and it's driving me insane.

[lyralows]

Kaz, after realizing these hands never touched Jordie, neither in life or death, and feelings strangely numb at the thought.

[the-fish-is-alive]

well, it just keeps getting worse. May I also offer you: Nina, years after Matthias's death, sobbing because all remnants of his touch are gone.

[lyralows]

Just say you hate me.

Jesper, realizing that one day, his body will forget the day he took a spin at the Makker's Wheel- and now he only has to get his mind to do the same.

[thefishiswriting]

well, how am i supposed to sleep in peace now?

Jesper, holding his mother's clothes, hoping to get a semblance of the touch that his body forgot

[lyralows]

Sigh 💔

Matthias, drifting in and out of consciousness, thinking how lovely life must be, for Nina to be the last thing his body remembers.

[thefishiswriting]

screaming crying throwing UP oh my GOD

[thefishiswriting]

fuck it, i might post the first chapter of my fic because i know it will motivate me to write the next ones. rn im just modifying the chapter over and over again. not productive.

[thefishiswriting]

wylan at 23 learning how after 7 years all your cells are officially regenerated. him realizing he now lives with a body his father never touched. him telling inej about it. inej quitely weeping that night because even if the memories are still there this body is entirely hers. idk if it makes sense and it is very badly worded but i'm at work and it's driving me insane.

[lyralows]

Kaz, after realizing these hands never touched Jordie, neither in life or death, and feelings strangely numb at the thought.

[the-fish-is-alive]

well, it just keeps getting worse. May I also offer you: Nina, years after Matthias's death, sobbing because all remnants of his touch are gone.

[lyralows]

Just say you hate me.

Jesper, realizing that one day, his body will forget the day he took a spin at the Makker's Wheel- and now he only has to get his mind to do the same.

[thefishiswriting]

well, how am i supposed to sleep in peace now?

Jesper, holding his mother's clothes, hoping to get a semblance of the touch that his body forgot

[thefishiswriting]

be prepared, i am making wylan SO autistic in my next fic

[thefishiswriting]

wylan at 23 learning how after 7 years all your cells are officially regenerated. him realizing he now lives with a body his father never touched. him telling inej about it. inej quitely weeping that night because even if the memories are still there this body is entirely hers. idk if it makes sense and it is very badly worded but i'm at work and it's driving me insane.

[thefishiswriting]

im getting the first chapter of the silver spoon fic betaed by one of my irl besties im shaking but really excited because this is the first time i find the courage to make someone i know read my fanfics :D she writes A LOT and her most used tag in her 50+ fics is "Angst and Tragedy" so im in good hands.

[willowskindaobsessed]

When this comes out I won’t stop talking about it btw. Like, I’m still so happy someone else saw the same vision as me but even better I know if it’s anything like your last fic I will be enamored with how you write it.

[thefishiswriting]

thats so kind ToT i really hope it will meet your expectations, but know im having a lot of fun writing it!

[thefishiswriting]

im getting the first chapter of the silver spoon fic betaed by one of my irl besties im shaking but really excited because this is the first time i find the courage to make someone i know read my fanfics :D she writes A LOT and her most used tag in her 50+ fics is "Angst and Tragedy" so im in good hands.

[willowskindaobsessed]

When this comes out I won’t stop talking about it btw. Like, I’m still so happy someone else saw the same vision as me but even better I know if it’s anything like your last fic I will be enamored with how you write it.

[darlingxxdeer]

hey guys. do you ever think about Jesper being jealous of Wy and his mom because he got his mom back and Jesper can’t? do you ever think about Wylan being jealous of Jes and his Da’s relationship because he sees what he and JVE could never have? do you ever think about how they would both feel guilty over that and hate themselves because of that?

[thefishiswriting]

thats exactly what my next fic will be about im shaking in my boots are you in my walls

[thefishiswriting]

help

what would you guys prefer?

i only post my new fic once it's entirely written, so in august, 1chap/day

i post soon the 1st chapter and then update as i write, but it won't be regular

Voting ended onJul 8

[thefishiswriting]

me: doesnt write a single word for a fic in two months

also me: writes 4k words in 5h