InnerBloom

[thegentlevibe]

me: i want to live authentically

also me: *checks what everyone else is doing first*

ancient women really said "fuck it, i'm doing math" while society tried to stone them and honestly? inspirational. made a whole thing about it.

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2:37am thoughts that hit different

you know that feeling when you're living but not really *living*?

like you're watching your life through a window instead of actually being in it

everyone around you seems to have their shit figured out and you're just... existing. going through the motions. autopilot mode 24/7.

wake up. coffee. work. scroll. sleep. repeat.

but sometimes at 3am your brain goes "hey remember when you used to have dreams?"

and you're like "shut up brain i have bills"

but what if that restless feeling isn't your enemy

what if it's your soul being like "HELLO?? ANYBODY HOME??"

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been doing shadow work lately and honestly? it's terrifying

you know when someone does something and you have this visceral reaction? like your whole body rejects what you're seeing?

yeah. that's your shadow talking

spent years thinking certain people were just "wrong" or "too much"

turns out they were just reflecting back parts of me i'd buried alive

the angry part. the selfish part. the part that takes up space

jung was right. what we don't own, owns us

been sitting with my triggers instead of running from them

asking "what in me is this person showing me?"

uncomfortable as hell but... liberating?

turns out the parts of myself i hated most were just... misunderstood

made a whole thing about it

#shadow work #jung #personal #inner work #psychology #HealingJourney

[thegentlevibe]

parents visiting next week

already rehearsing conversations in my head

"yes i'm eating enough"

"no i don't know when i'll settle down"

love them but god

why does home feel like an interrogation

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sometimes i think about how we learn helplessness the same way we learn everything else

like walking or tying shoes or believing we're not enough

one failed attempt becomes "i can't do this"

one rejection becomes "they don't want people like me"

one closed door becomes "all doors are locked"

but here's the thing that keeps me up at night:

if helplessness is learned

then it can be unlearned

your agency didn't disappear

it's just been sleeping under layers of "maybe next time" and "i'm not ready yet"

and sometimes

just sometimes

the smallest choice wakes it up

choosing different coffee

taking another route home

speaking up when your voice shakes

each tiny decision is proof you're not passive in your own life

you're not a leaf in the wind

you're the fucking wind

anyway made a video about this bc apparently i have feelings about women remembering their power

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caught myself laughing at a joke that wasn't funny yesterday

just to fill the silence. to be likeable. to fit in

how many times do i do this without noticing?

been thinking... what if the person everyone seems to love isn't even me

what if i've gotten so good at shape-shifting that i forgot my original form

scary thought: what if i stopped performing for five minutes

who would i be then

made something about this

[thegentlevibe]

been thinking about this all morning

you know how you can accomplish something amazing and still feel... empty? like you're waiting for someone to tell you it matters?

realized i've been giving everyone else the power to decide if i'm good enough

while simultaneously never giving myself that same grace

like what if i've been the gatekeeper of my own approval this whole time

wild concept: i don't need permission to think i'm worthy

anyway made this thing about it

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morning thoughts hit different when you're eating cereal in the dark

wondering if anyone else feels like they're performing their own life

like there's an audience that doesn't exist

but you're still trying to impress them

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bought myself flowers today

no reason. just because

they're sitting on my kitchen counter being pretty

feels weird to do nice things for myself

but good weird

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6am thoughts hitting different today

you know when you can't let someone go but you KNOW you should?

been thinking... maybe i'm not holding onto them

maybe i'm holding onto not having to sit with just... me

what if the fear isn't losing them. what if it's finding out i'm whole without them

anyway made this thing about it

[thegentlevibe]

realized today that i don't need to apologize for wanting to be alone

sometimes silence isn't emptiness, it's space for yourself

we're so used to being needed by everyone that we forget to be needed by ourselves

[thegentlevibe]

said yes again when i meant no

hate how automatic it is

like my mouth moves before my brain catches up

been diving deep into why this happens

how we're literally conditioned to prioritize everyone else's comfort over our own sanity

and why "just say no" feels impossible when you've spent years being the person who fixes everything

anyway

learning that boundaries aren't mean

they're necessary

[addzeysatticofasinine]

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2am again

staring at the ceiling thinking about how different things could've been

if i'd said yes that time

if i hadn't been scared

if i

god

why am i always like this

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why do we feel guilty about unfinished books like??? i read 200 pages and learned something new about myself but apparently that doesn't count because i didn't reach page 300??

make it make sense

my closet is full of half-finished paintings and abandoned hobbies and honestly? they're not failures. they're just... evidence that i'm curious about life

idk I feel like sometimes the journey IS the destination

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today i don’t want to change.

i just want to be.

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someone out there found this when I was asleep.

and liked it.

maybe it’ll find you too.