A ghost left wandering
Tight your hand tightens on my shoulder,Ā
Fear slowly crawls up my spine like a caterpillar on a tree brach
Your nails feel like needles pushing into the ridge of my hip.Ā
Rain falls from the oceans in my eyes as I am pulled farther away from you in the storm you are creating.
How could you? How could the challenger that won my heart and pushed me to believe in the dream of love tear everything away like this? I trusted you, loved youā¦ loveā¦ you.Ā
I love you.
I hate you.Ā
I fear for and of you.Ā
The girl kept trapped and safe behind my walls is scared. Cowering in the corner waiting to be alone again to scramble and build those walls back up again. Before you set the fire that finally ends it all.Ā
Was that your goal all along? To set my free from the prison I had put myself in and things just got messy on the way? Or was it to break through my walls and crush the last semblance of hope for love and happy endings for good? Has this sadistic behavior always been in you? A ghost I will be left behind in your memory until I am replaced. Left to wish and wonder when things changed in your embrace.Ā
A ghost to wander amongst the loving.Ā
