reading tgf makes me feel all high and shit its not even funny i felt so fuckin disoriented after reading it and so fucking sad i don’t even know why also @birdstanley pls bring ur stenboreo back :((( its the only thing that cheers me up after tgf. and fics.
i know i’m not alone; i searched tgf before and found a few more people saying it made them feel intoxicated as well and im wondering if this is the tgf effect?
also, off topic, i love the rambling paragraphs in the end of tgf when theo’s reminiscing but also being real philosophical and he says “better not born than born into this cesspool” and “life is catastrophe”
tgf is a book of a fucking lifetime.
Very much remember the high feeling I got when reading it for the first time, especially since I read it as a turbulent teenager myself. But i remember it eeking into my brain in every moment of silence even after I finished it. I was so caught up in it the material itself and also the circumstances were eerily mirroring my own life at the time. Almost like the characters lived in my world. My world of equally reckless friends and total lack of parental surveillance. Just sweaty and walking the empty streets until our high wore off. Skinny dipping in beaches and getting drunk off our ass in someone’s empty house. Not having come home to your own homes in days and not a single text on any of our cellphones. Showering all the sticky sand out of our hair and glances we threw and quickly averted from each other. the chunky eyeliner and dry itchy mascara and the pooling together our money to walk to the breakfast dinner to share an entree after spending the night passed out under park swings
So yeah.. I guess I can say this book came at the perfect time in my life and helped me grow into myself to remember it as a fun time but we all grow older close the book and face the music.
