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unfortunately the ao3 author curse is alive and well and while i was mid this next carcosa chapter i: - hit my head - suffered repeated nocturnal -> daytime constant cluster seizures with 0 other obvious trigger - oh shit maybe im brainbleed? - got carted to the ER the next night - got admitted - got EVERY TEST - took almost 3 days to get released when my labs were clean because staff couldnt communicate AT. ALL there - managed to get home without incident - go out the back patio and immediately eat shit, cut my knee and dominant hand, landing on a metal bench and breaking a plastic one to pieces - proceed to need at home first aid bc im not going back to the store - oh god we just moved we only have small bandaids, bactine and paper towels. not even gauze - fuck it we ball . jpg - my dominant hand was bruised/cut the most out of my hands. I broke and hurt my nails and had to cut them all - proceed to learn the next day that on the day i went to the ER they published a study in further findings on my seizure-causing illness nothing is broken-broken, im fine but uh. yeah im gonna... rest... for a bit. this chapter. might be late. please forgive me

introsquirrel

County roads

Full of holes

On the route

I need to go

Road construction

Lane obstruction

Let me go

County roads

#real.

starlightxraven

Google AI Overview court loss in Germany could spell doom for AI search industry.

appalachian-werewolf

"Google AI Overview court loss in Germany could spell doom for AI search industry."

It fucking better.

mrsjdavis

Like to charge, reblog to cast?

yusuke-of-valla

Also as a Black woman who likes fire emblem it is not lost on me that every character in the trailer who has typically Black noses and textured hair is male.

Like men can have big noses and curls and dreads but the women? Eh maybe we'll give them wavy hair but nothing that could actually be called curly.

It's giving very "stereotypically white features are more attractive and feminine and so all the women have to have them because otherwise they'll be ugly"

#so im safe skipping the s2 entirely woopie

saw the finale of TADC in theatres yesterday.

no spoilers but i managed to hold it together till like the last 5 minutes. whoops

#tadc #god what an amazing series #its really brought me a lot of hope when im in a rough spot #also i bought us matching shirts of caine and pomni #so me n my friend went and i wore my pomni shirt and blue bowtie yeah :)#it was a good time.#i needed that lately.

I HAVE INTERNET AGAIN and a pc. And I am moved in. yippie. writing later ive got shit to do today lmao.

#i am so tired y'all we're STILL partially in boxes #we need more furniture lol.

PC access rn spotty as predicted, but the end is in sight. sortakinda. gonna try to get a chapter of carcosa done tonight in time for next month.

anyway we will be back to regularly scheduled posting soon. i am currently in a hotel so internet is a big question mark lmao

about my divorce. the truth. (cw: gross period stuff at bottom, in a link)

i am writing this from my new location which i am keeping to myself. my ex, @cannibal-lesbian, got us into a lot of debt. About to the tune of $20,000.00 USD of unpaid property tax debt. She hid it from me, and abused me while I was having seizures. i wondered why when i developed them she suddenly changed like a switch flipped. i wasn't her perfect 'person' anymore. i wasn't her perfect meat shield. I have lost so much weight. I'm exhausted. I don't know what she expected of me, or what she thinks she has to win me back over when I dealt with her extremely hazardous behavior. The list of issues isn't small. She will be seeing me in divorce court later. This is the bigger problem: she also sat on her ass for months instead of doing ANYthing as the homeowner. I mean she did NOTHING. All she had were excuses and abuse and yelling at me. I had to relearn how to function, and, according to my roommates, there were multiple times I went into cardiac arrest during seizures she caused. Once I was out of that house, my condition began to improve, so I knew it was time to go anyway. I've been busting my ass to sell our home because of her. She did this to me. She lied to me, hid mail, then further lied about the amounts. She would always claim or feign ignorance to literally any responsibility including cleaning, which led to my cat Penne eventually passing from FIV-based complications because she only told me while they tried to resuscitate her that she had it. I had forgotten, due to the Keppra and her losing the medical documents. I will take my fair share of blame. I had a lot of mental issues during this time that it took me time and therapy to seriously fix. I'm writing this before my telehealth appointment, actually, by about an hour or so. I don't really know what the hell to even say here, or how much I legally can, but let me just show you an image of what I dealt with with this woman every day for the last few years. If tumblr blocks it so be it: https://imgur.com/a/6nXFeqB This is my visual evidence of how she destroyed my home and my life. I'm tired. I'm done. Im done with her blood and her attitude and her abuse and her yelling and telling me she's doing things and then doing nothing ever. She couldn't even tell me one thing she liked about me as a feature or person romantically. She is a delusional monster and I'm tired of pretending otherwise. I'm sorry that I have to make this post. Please do not become her victim. I sold her home for her and she couldn't even transfer money correctly and got into trouble and ruined a rebate for that too. She couldn't even pack her own things. She is an adult child at worst. If this is mental illness, I get it. But I am making this public because I never, ever, want anyone to go through what I did. I am SICK of her lying.

#cw: abuse #cw: blood #cw: period gore

leaving soon. just counting down the days now. we have a chickadee pair nesting in the little bit by our drains. they were so cute and showed me some branches they took to it :-) I hope whoever lives here after me is good to the birds and plants too...

#hrgh. im so mad about what happened at this fucking house #over ten years of my life fucking wasted man #this house is so cute and they are finally ripping out and fixing the sidewalk and roads #its queer here. i wish i could stay.

toothfairyinc

never let the fact that you were born a girl stop you from being the gayest man alive

#M e

sanscest69

I just realized that many many people have jobs

Rb with your job, wtf do you people do while offline???

#currently everything #signing up for survey sites #disability #trying to go back to school soon dunno how im gonna manage THAT #but its not college its GED soooooo #i want to work in either massage therapy or handyman stuff though idk

yusuke-of-valla

Dimitri and Edelgard: Yeah no I would totally let my range consume me and go on some kind of mindless rampage.

Claude: Anyone in this thread smoke weed?

#lmfao #byleth tried.#these three are hopeless.

megthemariner

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finally got the twins in p5x woooooo now i just need akechi for personal reasons

#bias. bias is the reasons

akechi-stole-my-heart

i've seen a lot of people express the sentiment that if cognitive akechi hadn't shown up in that moment that akechi would have joined the phantom thieves and gotten his vengeance at their side. and i just don't agree.

let's pretend that cognitive akechi never showed up. can you imagine akechi going 'yeah ok fine i'll join y'all'? because personally, i can't. i don't think akechi can say yes to them at this point. i think he's spent so long alone, and wrapped up his self worth so thoroughly in his ability to endure without help from others, that he can't get himself to join them, no matter how badly he may want that deep down.

but that aside, let's just take on the position that he was capable of accepting their offer in that moment, and would have done so if cognitive akechi hadn't shown up. what is that saying, narratively? that if akechi hadn't gotten supremely unlucky he would have been fine? that the only thing standing between him and everything he's ever wanted was random chance? if that's the case, that's terrible writing. it means atlus contrived a situation out of thin air to force an ending where akechi isn't allowed to be happy for no good reason.

you could say that cognitive akechi represents the consequences of his actions, which is true. he is representative of the fate he's sealed for himself by becoming shido's puppet. but even then, akechi being seconds away from getting the friends he's always wanted and being stripped of that at the last possible moment is both cheap and extremely pessimistic. at that point, atlus is saying akechi cannot redeem himself. no matter what choices he makes in the future, he will always be doomed because of his past mistakes. and honestly, just, like, fuck that shit. that might be an appropriate theme in a grimdark story but it doesn't belong in a persona game.

besides: if akechi really was going to join the phantom thieves, but his cognitive self got in the way, what better opportunity than this to prove his determination to create a new destiny for himself? if akechi really wanted that, if he really believed he could have a life with the phantom thieves, he would have fought for it. he could have joined them in that moment and fought cognitive akechi at their side.

but no. akechi doesn't want to join the phantom thieves. correction: he does, desperately, but he fundamentally does not believe he deserves it. he can't let himself accept their offer because it would mean accepting he deserves anything but death as the consequence of his ultimate failure to prove he was worth anything to shido.

when akechi put himself behind that partition wall, it wasn't because he had no choice. he could have chosen differently, could have fought harder to live, could have asked the thieves for their help instead of forcing them away--but he also couldn't. not because he's too far gone, but because he's so caught up in his trauma that no other choice felt possible to him. it was an act of suicide. he did not need to die in the engine room. he chose to, and only regretted it once it was too late, and joker was already sealed on the other side of that door.

and this is why it is so, so important that he is alive post-canon, and that he's alive because he wants to be. third semester gave him the chance to get a taste at what belonging felt like, what friendship felt like, and he realizes he wants that, even if it's too late he wants to try to have that. maybe he still doesn't believe he can have it, or that he deserves it, but it is so important that on 2/2 akechi no longer wants to die. and that when he wakes up on 2/4, it is because he's finally escaped the mindset his trauma had trapped him in. he was given a second chance, and this time, because of the extra time given to him, he makes the choice he couldn't let himself make that night in the engine room, the choice to live.

#GOOD POST OP #this is exactly why in my fic i have him hanging out with naoya and elly #bc he DOES want to live in fact and hates this even happened.#dont mistake it for the kind of guilt youd expect #hes not heartless but hes also not just an asshole or innocent #hes a kid in a complicated as FUCK situation.#persona talk;#p5r spoilers

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