TherapyBoy

I'm struggling with poor mental health, and I hope that together we can relate and help each other grow and heal. Important/Original things are tagged #real talk .

[maxknightley]

how the fuck did we evolve grogginess, anyway. it seems EXTREMELY maladaptive

clearly waking up ought to flood us with adrenaline

[maxknightley]

i want to leap out of bed in the morning, screaming and ravenous

[therapyboy]

Hey 2pm me

[herosuggestion]

acts of bravery that go underappreciated: - taking medication/seeing a professional - bringing up something that makes you anxious and talking through it - admitting you made a mistake - sending a message first - apologizing - standing up for yourself

feel free to add on!

[galaxies-of-apple-trees]

Eating a meal

Opening up

Leaving a place that makes you uncomfortable

Setting boundaries, even teeny-tiny ones

[cashcutie]

one day i will take a really good selfie and you will be sorry….. you will all be sorry

[therapyboy]

Nothing like being alone in your bed in the cold angry sad lonely and crying

[therapyboy]

Fuck you you have no idea what it's like to be me you have no fucking clue you ignorant fuck with your perfect defined identity your passions and your skills you're adored and you love yourself and I fucking hate you for everything that you are you make me sick fuck you for not understanding me or connecting with me or being down here in the real fucking world us fuck you

[therapyboy]

I wonder what it's like for my mother. Having given birth to a wacko

[therapyboy]

None of this is right and none of it makes any sense. I can't understand it. It's like everything around me is jumbled just so I can't understand it but it's me and me alone. Everyone else seems to get it. At least a little.

[therapyboy]

Why do other peope get to be sane? Why do I have to be like this It's not fair I'm so envious of my talented nurtured friends and their shitty fucking perfections and niceties even their worst bits are so understandable and lovable and I can't and they can't say the same about me and I hate it I just hate it they're all better than me and I don't know why. To add insult to injury how much better they are only divides us further. Good to know there's nobody to relate to on this shitty rock.

[therapyboy]

I'm writing all this shit on tumblr because writing it out and getting interaction might help convince me I'm sane. Because at this point I'm so mentally ill I'm really not sure I am. And it's terrifying. I wasn't like this as a child. I just want to be okay again

[therapyboy]

I've spent so much time fighting the urge to die and yet now I'm in the awkard middle state of convincing myself that it's worth living despite being thoroughly miffed by the experience I find I miss the clarity of it all

[therapyboy]

There's nothing quite as scary as seeing someone you love go down dangerous paths. How upset it makes me makes me really jealous, wish I was ever that worried about myself.

[therapyboy]

It's really funny how the universe is so apathetic towards whatever you want or need because the human insistence on creating meaning acts like stockholm syndrome. A very good defense mechanism but still irrational and honestly hateful

[therapyboy]

Hundreds of thousands of years of evolution

And I still can't sleep cus I'm sad

[bpdbambino]

i want to smash my brains in

[plotanic]

the lack of cuddling i am experiencing right now is upsetting 

[theunsentproject]

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