overthinker

18. she/her. infp. ig: annalisaaperone

[these-cold-hands]

the truth is, it's so hard to let go of someone you finally thought would stay.

you can't believe that, yet again, you gave too much to someone whose heart didn't have enough space to keep it all in.

guess it's just too hard to love me

[these-cold-hands]

i forgot how it feels to look at you and not be mesmerised by your beautiful existence.

[these-cold-hands]

getting my hair cut is literally the best form of therapy as well as a hopeless addiction lol

[these-cold-hands]

i miss you

i miss listening to your deep voice

miss your messy curly hair

and your brown eyes

miss your smile

and our conversations on books

i know i'll see you again soon

and even tho i'm looking forward to it

i kinda wish we would never meet again

i kinda wish i could just erase you

from my memories

i wish i could go back in time

at the exact moment i started looking

at you with different eyes

at the exact second i realised i was falling for you

cause maybe there was still hope

maybe i could still prevent my heart from aching this much

and perhaps i wouldn't miss you this much now.

i miss you

and of course it hurts

but it'll never hurt as much as

knowing you don't feel the same

for me

and you never will.

[these-cold-hands]

you say i seem okay when i'm sitting here with all my friends,

easy to say when you're looking from the outside in,

i'll never change, loving myself, it's all pretend.

-my life, mark tuan

[these-cold-hands]

and i know that we just met,

but could you take me everywhere you've ever been?

-formidable, twenty one pilots

[these-cold-hands]

i am eighteen years old

i feel like a child whose time was taken away

i don't want to go to university

and i'm scared i'll mess up everything

i'm scared of disappointing my parents

but most of all

i'm scared to death of disappointing myself

idk what to do

i think i'll just stare at the wall till i find my answers

why does it have to be so difficult to grow up?

[these-cold-hands]

you're so pretty i can't believe my eyes

[these-cold-hands]

please, if i say no, don't pretend to hear something else other than a firm rejection.

i said no. your begging won't make me change my mind. insisting is absolutely unattractive and disrespectful, especially if you're taking advantage of someone who is very kind-hearted.

keep that in mind pls.

[these-cold-hands]

i wanna dance with you all night long and forget about who we are.

[these-cold-hands]

then i must be in love with you because i think of you every time i read a love quote.

[these-cold-hands]

all of this is all for you.

- two of us, louis tomlinson

[these-cold-hands]

i have no idea what love is,

but i'd look into your eyes for hours

and i'd never get tired.

[these-cold-hands]

you fell asleep in my car,

i drove the whole time,

but that's okay, i'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine.

i'm driving here i sit, cursing my government

for not using my taxes to fill holes with more cement.

— tear in my heart, twenty one pilots

[these-cold-hands]

why do we dream?

is it because reality is not enough? or is it because reality is too much to bear?

(spoiler: both of them)

[these-cold-hands]

liking you is exhausting

[these-cold-hands]

and suddenly i become a part of your past,

i'm becoming the part that don't last,

i'm losing you and it's effortless.

—over my head, the fray