Hey lol Iām crying because the guy (and my former muse) who broke my heart emailed me again so I made this, itās not my style of writing, Iām not going to bother proofreading it. You should read it though, itās the raw version of me and I donāt know if Iāll make anything like this again.
My phones been ringing since you left,
Just some friends checking up on me.
But when I hear it I want it to be you,
And thatās kind of the issue.
Because I know you wonāt love me,
You never knew how.
I tried and tried again,
Held us up for 3 months.
Then I left and learned how to scab,
Just for you to reopen my wound.
I guess Iāve never had depth perception,
Because I know the drop will break me again,
I guess I donāt really care about that.
Maybe Iāll find something to be sorry over,
Thinking I need your forgiveness.
Please tell me why I wasnāt enough to love?
Why you just didnāt know how?
When you see my name in media do you cry?
Because I know I do.
I really do.
Those arenāt the two words Iāll say one day,
I donāt have anything left to give you.
So say sorry to our future lovers,
We will never love properly again,
If we even did to begin with.
For you have become me and I have become you.
And I canāt clean you off me,
That tends to be my reoccurring issue.
Sure Iāve fallen out of love,
But I miss the piece of me you took.
Iām sorry for doing the same.
I wish I hadnāt taken yours these days,
I really canāt handle the weightā¦
I canāt handle being reminded of you when I look at myself.
And I canāt handle falling apart when a song comes on the radio.
I canāt handle that you pushed me to leave.
How itās been almost a year,
And I know Iāll never come back.
Thatās really what hurts the mostā¦
I donāt know if Iāll reach out,
What would I even say?
You know Iām stupid and muted,
I know you wouldnāt expect anything.
Thanks love, I āve really enjoyed the product,
Even though it was nothing like the description.
Iāve enjoyed getting addicted to pain,
To you,
To being neglected,
Rejected,
Shattered and broken.
I hope youāre doing better,
And that was all you should have said.
Talking to me after months wasnāt very āIāll never leave, Iāll never hurt youā of you.
Sorry, just hope youāre doing better,
Even though Iām stained in my own dry tears.
I just want the best,
Just god I donāt knowā¦please donāt contact me again.























