Shhh- it's too loud

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[tokkibean]

gripping the edges of the sink. its all for the love of the game. i love the game.

[thesearejustchoices]

WARNING OC x CANON NONSENSE

In the worst of the winter I would think about this oc/self insert x Underfell Papyrus au to go to sleep...then I started doodling about it in class... I even wrote like 1,200 words about it...

First off a drawing of Toriel because you meet her first :)

boiled down it's a scar soulmate au for Underfell where I imagined basically everything but the two characters meeting lol. Slow burn has nothing on me, what if the characters just never met •ᴗ•

It starts with the main character waking up in the underground as a cat monster and basically just staying with Toriel as her child to avoid conflict. But when Toriel describes the magic soulmate scars on MC to the voice on the other side of the door, someone gets suspicious and decides they need to pay a visit and see for themselves. I imagine sans would have to trick Toriel into letting him visit which would shock MC (I'll think of a name ummm,,, never sorry) and then sans would also be unnerved because he does recognize the scars, actually he sees them every day (cough cough papyrus' scars cough cough). This would then lead to a lot of hi jinks of sans trying to get Toriel to let MC into the underground, so his little brother can meet his soulmate, Toriel having none of it because why would she let her child leave and get killed, and MC being confused as to why this skeleton flirting with her pseudo mom has anything to do with her (yes there is soriel in this au I just think it's sweet, also the soulmate thing isn't necessarily romantic and also not everyone has a soulmate mark in the same way (๑•᎑•๑))

Here's a comic of sans and MC meeting

I think eventually sans convinces Toriel to create a "mailbox"-esque system to the ruins. Papyrus and the MC become pen palls which allows both characters to be more vulnerable. With them being such good friends now sans and Toriel are a little less stressed and they start forming a relationship! Which would probably lead to everyone meeting but who's to say ¯( ⏑‿⏑ ) this au was mostly an excuse to explore a character who is fine staying in the ruins with Toriel and soulmates because they help me sleep at night (ᴗ˳ᴗ)ᶻ𝗓𐰁

[thesearejustchoices]

Dedicated to the two weeks that I was obsessed with House MD

The fan fiction goes wild ngl

Full doodle sheet:

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I am once again posting dovekat,,, yuri (ᵕ///—ᴗ—//)

Pose from Pinterest photo

[ndnbutch]

the author’s thinly veiled nothing #notwriting #straightupnotwritingit

[thesearejustchoices]

Some doodles of my dnd character Severin, he's a boy scout ̤̮

Full doodle sheet+clown:

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Various ootds and doodles of THE oc/self insert

This is where the character stopped being about my middle school self so much and instead an exploration of how I feel when I am feminine as a gender-fluid person. I also just loved drawing them.

Talking about things that should probably go in a journal tho, this character has helped me explore how I feel like I still look like a middle schooler and so have a hard time taking myself seriously, or I take myself too seriously as an over compensation :\ it's okay tho team I'll just draw myself as a cat 10 more times that'll fix it ( ⏑‿⏑ ) ⁾⁾

[thesearejustchoices]

Oc I created based on a Drawfee episode challenge that uses this generator: https://en.shindanmaker.com/574959 I kinda became obsessed with doing this,,, I may or may not have made some drawings based on people's names who I know in real life,,,

Also, if you want to watch the drawfee episode here it is!

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I made this literally forever ago, but I still like it so here you go: Dovekat I drew after being inspired by ooppo as always.

Also an old digital painting pose practice that I turned into Karkat ˙ᵕ˙

Poses are based off of photos I found on Pinterest.

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I present the birth of my oc/self insert that started as an exploration of a maladaptive daydream I indulged in a lot in middle school. This character evolves a lot/has a lot of different aus so umm I'm just going to post collections together as much as I can. Initially I wanted to make a character that included what I thought was cool in middle school, edgy colors, cats, and of course utmv aus, but also stay true to my most vivid memory of this daydream;

I was at a football game cheering and I remember thinking that swapfell sans and papyrus (aaah cringe I know) were secretly watching me (I didn't have any family come watch me cheer so it was comforting to imagine someone was there for me, sorry this is kinda a cringy and sad story) and that I would go home with them after the game.

So for this AU they start in the cheer uniform as much as I can remember it (no photos for me to reference, but I do know that my middle school did have KMS on the cheer uniforms which I thought was so funny in middle school, and even now) and they fall into the underswap underground and are transformed into this cat creature and are taken care of by the swapfell skeleton bros. Basically very found family taking care of my neglected middle school self •ᴗ•

Non-digital versions as well.

I don't really have a name for this character... anyways be cringe and kind

[thesearejustchoices]

early clown intermission

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I just have a kinda obsession with them for like no reason.... also different background because I like both :]

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I was trying out new brushes in Krita and this guy is so dramatic

another victim to the brush tryin:

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The warned time has finally come...

It is summer, and so I am going to try slowly posting all of my art and doodles on here... so prepare yourself for all the stressed induce drawings that I did to comfort myself over this last school year and summer, there will be an unsurprising amount of clowns and a surprising amount of self insert ocs. Enjoy or don't who cares

[amelya-007]

Paper Dolls tadc animation

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Some saved stuff from the process

[no-lava]

to me as a disabled housebound bedbound person the amazing digital circus is a chronic illness and disability story.

i broke down crying and had to pause the episode when Zooble said "But I had dreams and goals! This just sucks" because FUCKING SAME.

but sometimes people lose their place in the world. their dreams and goals are inaccessible. their bodies become unrecognizable. their personalities and emotions become unrecognizable. they deny reality, reject companionship. they dissociate from their lives and past selves. they lose the ability to be a part of the larger world and do the things they used to do and live the lives they always lived.

I dont think they will leave the circus and i hope they wont because i dont want a cure story.

sometimes you lose your life and you just have to figure out how to keep living afterwards.

and at least having someone else there makes it bearable. as long as you have other people, you can keep living even if your life is over.

[seirxi]

levitating