to procrastinate is to willingly endure the discomfort of stagnancy, rather than the discomfort of action!!!! both are burdens to the flesh but only one leads to development
These are my last days of school, so I’m documenting them to just.. have them yk.
Feel free to correct any mistake as English isn’t my first language
10/06/2026
Okay so, Monday 8 was officially my last day of school. I’ve cried so much these days, because I don’t think I’m ready to grow up.
I’m still 19, it’s a silly age. No responsibility, no nothing, just fuck around and find out. Actually, my only responsibility is actually to focus on my finals, which are probably next week? Idk, the school still didn’t give us the dates.. weird I know.
Either way, as I was saying school officially ended (not high school overall, I still have those finals) and I cried a lot.
I’ll miss my friends.
I’ll miss my classmates. Even those that I don’t really like.
I’ll miss my teachers, the janitors, the little moments waiting at the coffee machine..
Hell, I’ll even miss my teachers.
I cried because of them.
I cry because with college/university, I’ll lose everyone.
I am a shy person, the awkward type. I’m actually really nice if you get to know me.. but that’s the problem. It takes too much for me to just be.. me. So I end up looking awkward, closed off, introverted and with a “I hate everything” look
Which is not true! I love everything, I don’t know why that is what I give off to people!
Maybe an answer is because I always self doubt and self sabotage, I feel like everyone actually hates me and only tolerates me because they have me in class and just feel bad, which I know is not true.. but I see things, and I doubt.
I think I’ll fall out of my group. I hope not. I truly truly hope not, because without them, I don’t have anyone.
I’ll see.
I think this is the first time I have been vulnerable for anyone to see.
Maybe because I can’t see who’s reading, that helps I think.
Since these are my last days of school (finishing high school!!) i decided to document some of my life on here.
Please do correct any grammar mistakes, english isn’t my first language!!
4/06/2026
I haven’t updated as usual because I had some people over my house! Like, my little baby cousin :) I love her so much
Either way, I barely remember last week, school is just dragging since we don’t have tests anymore, so it’s just sitting on chairs for six hours.
No! I forgot, actually we had a test. Our last test of philosophy about Heidegger, Jaspers and Sartre and existentialism in general. I got a discrete grade, which is fine by me, it’s hard to study now that it’s ending lol.
It’s a school day, but I’m writing from home because I just did my admission exam for law school! And I passed! I really feel good about myself, so I’m just really really happy!! And tired, I have to admit.
Now I only have to focus on my finals, the end is near!
It’s really short, I have to apologise but I feel like I’ve had more headaches than experiences these days.
I’ve finished the Great Gatsby, I have to say that the ending is a bit confusing, but I understood it, it was sad but left me with a smile somehow, if you haven’t read it, do it, it’s not a complicated book, it’s not even too long but it is extremely interesting.
Here’s a song that I liked and substack articles:
From continuous improvement to the beauty of imperfection, the Japanese frameworks that rewired how i see everything
That’s it, I haven’t really used substack these days..
I actually do think we should discourage women from becoming housewives. Do not become financially dependent on a man. That's how a lot of women ended up dead over the years. A man gets violent suddenly and you have to choose between homelessness or potentially dying at his hand because you have an enormous gap in your resume and no degrees or certifications or anything that will help you pursue a career that will allow you to be financially independent. He owns your bank account. His name is probably the one on the car. Try and leave and he can report it stolen. Where will you go then?
And if you do become a housewife, take steps to protect yourself. Make sure you’re legally married, for starters; stay-at-home girlfriends have very little legal recourse to claim their partner’s assets in a breakup. Make sure your name is on the house deed/rental agreement, and have your car in your name, even if your spouse is paying for it. Have your spouse transfer money every month into an account solely in your name, so you can buy yourself things without needing permission, but also so you can save up to leave if needed.
If your spouse fights you on any of this, then don’t quit your job. The tradwife to poverty pipeline is real, and so is financial abuse.
also, many women/people experience controlling behaviour and domestic violence from their partner for the first time during pregnancy. don’t risk thinking “he’s just stressed, it’ll get better when the baby comes” because it won’t. neither you and your child will ever be safe with that man. get out as early and safely as you can
Since it’s my last days of high school (last year!!!) I decided to document them here.
Feel free to correct any mistake as english isn’t my first language and it’s a subject in my last exam!
If it’s says that there’s “adult content” it’s because there’s ONE painting with a woman with her boob outside, but like, it’s art, not porn
24/05/2026
Soo, I’ve just come back from a school trip in Austria! Five days in Vienna and Salzburg.
If I have to be honest, worst trip of my life, don’t get me wrong! Vienna and Salzburg are absolute beautiful, what I wouldn’t give to just remake the trip correctly!
So, there’s many reasons why I didn’t like this trip: we saw soo many beautiful museums (Hofburg, Kunsthistorisches, Leopold, and the Belvedere), and they were all, all so beautiful! I saw sooo many paintings, so many famous paintings that I would only dream to see in person!
And we didn’t have a guide. I’m so mad about that. How do you understand Schiele or Kokoschka? Luckily we studied Klimt and Courbet in class.. it would’ve been better if we had guides. All those museums and not even ONE guide. And only one had the
The hotel we stayed at was nice, a bit small but clean. Smaller than my room, but somehow four beds fit in there.
I also ate really well in Vienna! The food is just amazing, but I feel like it’s a bit “dead” during the nights? We went out in bars, and even clubs, but it was only us outside.. maybe because it was like school/work days? I don’t know, here where I’m from, every place is full, or at least has people inside.
A club even let us in for free!
We stayed in Vienna for like.. three days and four nights, the fourth day we went to visit Mauthausen, one of the biggest concentration camps in history mind you.. and we didn’t even have a guide there! Apparently, the guide couldn’t come. And we only had like.. forty minutes to visit the whole thing..
I found it almost disrespectful.
And we spent the whole day to get into Salzburg, and we only had one hour to visit the city! A superficial visit!
At least we went to the club after dinner, and the hotel had bigger rooms, but the food was disputing. It smelled bad. At least we went to the club after dinner (it was called C Beats, really really recommend it!! But I recommend more an in depth tour of the city.)
We came late since it was a walkable distance and we had to get up super early to visit a salt mine and then leave to get back to the country.
My friends fought early in the morning, the bus had problems (air conditioning wasn’t working), we were dying of heat basically, a girl cried from how hot it was.
But, around 8pm the weather outside cooled down, and so did the bus, and so my friends were able to make peace.
And finally, around 2am we were home! A 15 hour travel by bus!
Horrible, do not recommend. I also smoked way too much. I’ll go back to normal obviously, it’s just that trip “do not count” in terms of how much one should smoke or drink..
I didn’t even get to buy nice souvenirs! Because my friends really wanted to eat Sacher, which is this famous cake that I had never heard of, and they hyped it up so much and I was only left with disappointment because it really was just a chocolate cake…
Either way, this was it! I did not read on Substack as I literally did not have time, so I’ll leave a picture and the song I liked at the clubs I visited:
Since these are my last days of school (last year of high school!!) I decided to document them, just to share or to just have it here on my blog.
Feel free to correct any grammatical error, I’d very much appreciate tips since english isn’t my first language (and I only unfortunately have a B2 Cambridge).
Date: 17/05/2026
I think this was the hardest week ever this year!! I’ve had a test every day, sometimes twice a day, it really stressed me out so much that Friday I just.. napped three times throughout the afternoon.
And I’m still not done!! School ends on June 8, but I only have like three other things: french, arts, philosophy.
Well, art isn’t required, I asked to be tested so that I could get a better grade, I’ll think if doing it or not.. but I think I will.
French is a group project but we don’t have much time.. I’ve resorted to use chatgpt and other AI stuff, which I am not proud of, but you know…desperate times call for desperate measures.
Philosophy is a test test that our professor insisted we had to do! It’s incredible, in these years that we had him he was fine with two marks (meaning two tests for semester), I don’t know what got to him this year!
The only good thing of this week was that yesterday I went shopping! I love love shopping! I bought three shirts, one who is like super trending on tik tok and I was considering making it myself, then I bought a simple jacket and also a gorgeous white set.
And also I bought headphones, like some that are similar to earpods? I don’t really like wireless headphones, but I didn’t have anything else and I missed listening to some music.
I haven’t head headphones since a year and a half because I insisted on buying the ten euros ones that would break after a while.
I hope these one will last! They’re lilac, and they costed me 20euros!!
Oh and I also bought two books!! It was a deal like buy two for €11.
I got the Great Gatsby and something that should be translated into “Nothing happens by chance”.
Hope they’re good, I’ll probably write about them here.
Either wayyy substack articles that I enjoyed this week:
my confession
Why putting your life on hold doesn't help you "get it together"
why loving yourself scientifically makes you more attractive
Since its my last 40ish(?) days of school, (last year of high school!) I decided to document it on tumblr, with weekly updates hopefully to also have a way to “unwind”
Hope everyone that reads it likes it (and if you want, correct my grammatical errors, english isn’t my first language and i have it as my last exam so you’d only do me a favour!!)
Ok, so today is May 11, 2026.
Today in class I did a sort of simulation for our final exam, we were supposed to write an essay for six hours.. I was able to do it in four/five, then I left to get coffee with a friend.
After that I went home, but I have a bad allergy (or maybe flu), which did not let me relax completely. It was fine though, I worked out a bit (I just showered), and now I have to drink my tea and start studying, but I really wanted to post this first, since it's been in my drafts for almost a week!
I didn't post it because I was quite in a bad place mentally, I had been scammed like in March? And I decided to believe this peroson that was actually impersonating another famous creator! I admit, I leaked their number here on some communities, which I know it's something to absolutely not do! BUT! I was feeling really angry, and scared (since this person was threatening me with murder)
It's fine now, I laughed it off like.. the next day.
School is really taking a toll on me, I haven't read as much.. currently I'm reading a sort of biography of the brand Prada, I found a place that sells these little books for like ten euros.
However, I read on Substack a lot! I read every morning on the bus on the way to school, my favourite of today is:
a goal without action is just a thought
Which is also the one that gave me the push to post here!
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