diary of a person with bpd

21 they/he *a bunch of problems in a trenchcoat* my TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@junos.internet.diary?_r=1&_t=ZG-96AopSZPIkC

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Introduction

Hey people on the internet, my name is Juno, and I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. I got diagnosed in 2024 and still struggle everyday. But while trying out new skills for emotional regulation, I found that writing about my feelings helps me a lot. So I decided that I will start a blog to have my own digital diary this year. My posts will contain Themes of mental health, art and everything else that comes across my mind. Follow me if you want, i'll try my best to not dissapoint you. Thank you for reading this. <3

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I feel like the worst person to ever walk on this earth.

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THOSE GODDAMN CLOWNS ARE DRIVING ME INSANE.

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Today I feel very evil. Like I’m a monster and destroy everything I touch.

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I feel more like myself when I do not sleep.

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I hate and love everything at the same time. That's what having BPD fees like (atleast to me)

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lowkey face reveal haha

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its my birthday!!!

I’m 21 now🥳

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Update 02/05/26

I discharged myself from the psych ward. I missed my boyfriend way too much, the other patients were lowkey triggering me and we barely had any therapies. I feel a lot more stable now and I'm happy that I can spend my birthday (which is tommorow btw) being "free".

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learning how to kill yourself before even learning how to live

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I’m finally admitted to the psych ward. I’ve been here for a few days and everyone is so kind. I already have friends here. I feel a lot better now.

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It’s getting worse again. I’m counting my days until I’m finally admitted to the psych ward. I hate everything. At this point I might kms.

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I'm thinking about getting top surgery

My dysphoria is slowly killing me. I can't do this anymore. I hate my chest and the way my body looks. I've been researching about top surgery, but it is so expensive. I don't have any money so I'm thinking about getting a loan from a bank to pay for the surgery. I just can't live like this anymore, I expirience intense psychological pain. Does anyone have advice for me? My existence is painful.

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It's 03:36 pm and I'm sm0king my third j0int.

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5 posts!

yay I spewed my thoughts into five emotional overloaded posts!!

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I love day drinking and forgetting my responsibilities <3