My Own Little Escape

Late night thoughts put into writing. Verbal crying and virtual binging.

[thorns-in-papercranes]

This blog was made 3 years ago as an outlet for my heartbreak. I felt so lost and alone. I felt there was no way out of my despair. Now I can’t say the scars aren’t still there, but I’ve definitely healed. I’m in a much better place and I’m happy - at peace. I’m proud of how far I came.

[thorns-in-papercranes]

I’ve tried avoiding my feelings and distracting myself but that never works. Hiding your feelings is just temporary relief. I’m losing hope that I’ll ever get better... Maybe I won’t.

[thorns-in-papercranes]

I wish I can choose to forget everything so I can be blissfully happy with you. I guess that just shows how little I value myself

[thorns-in-papercranes]

“I used to think I was a strong person and that nothing could ever bring me down for long. I realized I was lucky when I found out how heartbreak and self-hatred feels like. I never understood why people clutch at their heart in tears until now.”

---thorns-in-papercranes

[wnq-writers]

Maybe life is about learning to be whole in the brokenness.

sweatersandlazydays  (via wnq-writers)

[enjoy-the-life-baby]

[vomitingwords]

It doesn’t matter what time is it of the day, because I always catch myself, dreaming about you, even if it sounds ridiculous to you.

ma.c.a // 10:08 PM (via vomitingwords)

[thorns-in-papercranes]

“I’m in an extreme cycle of happiness and sadness. Being able to see you again makes all the pain worth it, but the minute you’re gone everything goes dark. It’s like I just stepped out of my shelter and into a storm. I can’t see straight. I can’t feel or I feel too much. The overwhelming feeling of worthlessness makes me wish to end it all. You’re a dark poison that I wish wasn’t a metaphor. But I can never have the courage to leave you, because I see too much hope of our future in your eyes.”

---thorns-in-papercranes

[thorns-in-papercranes]

“I can’t see what’s worse getting tired of trying to be happy, or trying to be sad”

---thorns-in-papercranes

[thorns-in-papercranes]

“I was so easily touched when you said you could die for me, but you never wanted to change and you always gave up. I was so hurt. Then I realized how you could  say that so easily when you said your will to die was worth more than your love for me.”

---thorns-in-papercranes

[earthunboxed-blog-deactivated20]

Emerald Lake, British Columbia, Canada

[wnq-writers]

You can tell yourself all the lies you want but never forget that these wounds and your cruelty were real.

amindmadeofwordsandsilence  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I had to kill a lot of parts of myself to kill this sadness. I am sorry you turned out to be one.

kriti-g, To the people I let go (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

There are remnants of the pain winding, like weeds, across my soul, I have begun to untwist the sorrow and free my soul to receive love again. I have begun preparing the soil for a new harvest. Fear is no longer allowed to dictate what grows here.

iammyss, no longer a slave to fear  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

I wish they’d quit.
 Quit talking. 
The voices.
 They keep telling me I’m not enough. 
I’ll never be enough.
 They tell me not to try.
 It’s no use, they say. 
They tell me it doesn’t matter.
 Nobody really cares. 
They get me late at night.
 When I’m all alone.
It’s just me, and them…..
And they won’t stop talking. 
I wish they’d quit.

wordsbyt  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

You deserved wild screaming, and fierce tears, and clenched fists, and agony. I failed you. Take my hatred, take my anger. Here is my love.

adriannesolida  (via wnq-writers)

[wnq-writers]

Love can start life inside you, at the same time it can be your death. You will feel alive when your heart beats go fast at the first sight, butterflies will tickle you softly, tight hugs, and slow kisses. But when you get hurt, when love disappoints you, it will be your feelings cemetery.”

sauuvagee  (via wnq-writers)