I Want Adventure In The Great Wide Somewhere.

allmylovesatonce on Archive of Our Own. Posting whatever fixation comes across my dash.

[three-drink-amy]

I knew you’d haunt all of my what ifs

Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

E | Hollanov | angst | post-break up

chapter one | chapter two | chapter three | chapter four | chapter five | chapter six | chapter seven | chapter eight | chapter nine | chapter ten | chapter eleven | chapter twelve | chapter thirteen | chapter fourteen | chapter fifteen

New: chapter sixteen

[drawballa]

Family ice time 🏒

[heymacy]

#they never stood a chance

[mymansmoon]

imagining shane hanging out with his parents and while he's away from his phone doing something with his dad a call comes in. yuna sees this and goes, "shane, someone's calling you!"

and shane says, "who is it?"

"lily!"

"oh." shane immediately sets aside what he's doing and walks over, saying to his mom, "that's ilya."

yuna looks at him in confusion as he picks up his phone. "why is ilya saved as 'lily' in your phone?"

and shane looks at her, away, shrugs as if it's obvious and simply says, "I can't have ilya rozanov saved on my phone, mom" before answering the call with a, "hey, baby" and walking away.

leaving yuna (and david) standing shocked and, once again, shaken at how little they knew about their son and the layers of concealment he's had to operate under for years just to love who he loves.

[fanficfanaticfreak]

i wish troy barrett’s complexity got more hype. he really shows the toxicity in hockey culture, but also just how society views men. he stands up against the culture and gets shamed. but then is also seen as a hero for doing the bare minimum. troy knows he is not a hero, he is just a guy trying to do better. but both sides get so intense. there is no inbetween. they force him into a box of being a villain or a hero, when in reality he’s neither. he is just a man on a path of self betterment.

[hudconov]

the way they’re looking at each other here

[ravenclairee]

HEATED RIVALRY — 1.02 "Olympians" | Chapter Eleven

[emziess]

Ilya... Heated Rivalry, S01E06

[papiercranes]

2481 <3

[twobabkas]

heated rivalry episode 6: the cottage

[emziess]

Shane & Ilya Heated Rivalry, S01E06

[firstprinced]

Iconic moments from Heated Rivalry 1.05 I'll believe in anything

[thisfeebleheart]

It's true, I've been with many women, but…

[charl0ttan]

protip if youre growing up with an authority figure who freaks out on you when you fuck up you can learn to get preemptively anxious and stressed and then just keep doing that your whole life 👍

[lumoxy]

in the meadow, near the cottage

𝒸𝑜𝓂𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓈𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓀

[kosmogrl]

the scary part about getting better is that there's this constant fear that things will go back to what they once were

[anditslove]

[rederiswrites]

Just watched Adam Conover (of Adam Ruins Everything) make such a solid point that I think we should spread far and wide. Yes, having AI write your emails is lazy, sure, but people love being lazy. We need to really emphasize that sending AI emails (or using AI responses on social media, or publishing AI flyers, or or or) is rude.

It's rude. You're making someone take their time to read something you couldn't bother to write. You're telling them they were so unimportant you couldn't be bothered to actually take the time to say something yourself. And frankly, you're lying about it while you're at it.

It's rude.