Tiffiny Says So✨

32. Dog mom. Leo. ENFP. I like to ramble a lot. Mental health awareness. A raw & personal glimpse into my life. Journaling, etc🤍

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Country roads, take me home🌾

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Daily quotes dump

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Dear best friend,

𝟭𝟭 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗵𝘀. It’s been 11 months since I lost you. Suicide is such a horrible thing to cope with, because it’s preventable. If people could get the 𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴 they need to proper mental healthcare, maybe things would have been different. You called me that night. I asked if you were good, and you told me you were great, you just wanted to chat for a second. You’d always 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗺𝗲 if you weren’t okay. But you were great. So I told you I’d call you as soon as I got done taking my dog for a walk. … I forgot to call you back. It happened less than 2 hours after I told you I’d call you back. You should have 𝗧𝗢𝗟𝗗 me. Like you always did, all those times before when I’d head straight to your house and let you let it all out. I struggle with that so much, because I know I could have helped you that night, if I had known. I know I could’ve talked you down because I had before.

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦? I would’ve dropped everything. You might still be here. I wouldn’t be having to send these unanswered texts to a phone that’s probably not even in service anymore. I wouldn’t be hanging out with you at your grave instead of at your house. In these 11 months, there have been so many times I reached to call you, to tell you something exciting or funny, or to break down myself.

But I can’t hear your voice anymore. You’ll never again tell me that everything is going to be okay. You’ll never make me laugh until I cry again. And I hate it. I hate it with every fiber of my being that I can’t hear your voice again in this life. I don’t want to wait 50 years down the road to see you again.

I ask myself so many questions. But the main question I ask myself is 𝘸𝘩𝘺. Why did you leave? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not angry. I could never be angry with you. I’ve tried. It’s not in me. Because in our 10 years of best friendship, I have never been mad or angry with you. You made that impossible. I’m a lot to handle sometimes, and yet you always knew exactly what to do to make me love you and forget about everything else.

I ask myself why again, why the mental healthcare system in our country failed you. Because it failed you so bad. You put your life on the line every single time you put that police uniform on, you’ve seen things and witnessed things on the job that 𝗡𝗢 𝗢𝗡𝗘 should ever have to be exposed to. So why could our country not give you a little bit back and help you when you needed help the most? I could talk all day about how fucked up our system is, but if I could do one thing with my life, I’d help those in the military, law enforcement, and first responders get access to the mental healthcare they so desperately need.

I don’t really know why I’m typing all of this out, because someone else has your number now, but I had to get it out of my brain somehow, at least for a few minutes. I think about you every day. I miss you every day. I love you every day. I wish you were here.

Love,

T💗

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Beautiful neutral spring front porch🔆

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its not a sunday unless you completely waste it and then feel really sad around 8pm

[pokpokpokemongo]

Just started playing on 8/28/21, so I’m always looking for more friends! I try to gift every day and I do raids! Especially remote ones when I have the passes. I’m level 32!

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If you play PoGo, add me!

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Just started playing 8/28/21 and finally got to evolve magikarp!

Pokemon Go friend code in other post and on my header!

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God painted a gorgeous picture for us the other night🌝

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Love this pic I took of the moon a couple nights ago🌝🖤

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Living with depression & anxiety...

I'll start off by saying that unless you've dealt with mental illness, you couldn't possibly understand what it's like living with it day to day. I know it's tough as hell to live with someone who suffers from a mental illness, wheni you don't understand what you can do to make it better. Because our instinct is to take care of our loved ones when they aren't feeling well, it can be almost as difficult to live with someone who has mental illness as it is to actually suffer from the illness itself. If you have a loved one who has depression and/or anxiety, here are a few insights:

1. Depression is NOT an emotion, it's an illness. It's a literal chemical imbalance in our brain that we cannot help. Therapy, medication, and the proper treatment may HELP, but it isn't something that's going to just go away.

2. They can hit out of nowhere. Nothing has to be going wrong for depression/anxiety to hit. Things could be going perfectly, and still BOOM, out of nowhere, our illness rears its ugly head. Just because we're having trouble with our mental illness does not mean things aren't going well in our lives. These illnesses have a mind of their own, and sometimes we cannot control when they hit us. It doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong or that we aren't satisfied with our lives.

3. Just be there. You don't have to do anything really, just understanding and being there for us is everything.

4. When our illness hits, even the smallest task (i.e taking a shower, getting dressed, eating, etc) can be daunting. We aren't lazy. Our illness is literally taking every ounce of energy out of our mind and body. The worst pet peeve in the world is someone calling me lazy when it's my depression. Just like physical pain can keep someone incapacitated, so can mental illness. Trust me, we don't WANT to be exhausted. We don't WANT to feel useless. And trust me on this, we do. Depression will get into our heads and make us feel useless and worthless BECAUSE we can't get out of bed. It only makes everything worse because we already feel bad. Don't make it worse on us by putting even more guilt on us too. We feel worthless and useless because we can't get out of bed, we feel guilty because we can't do anything, so please, PLEASE don't make it worse.

5. We aren't trying to be distant. Again, it's all about not being mentally or physically able to deal with things sometimes. We'll get better, just give us our space. It's great to check in on your loved ones who may suffer from mental illness, we appreciate it more than you know, but don't give us the third degree if we say no to a social gathering. We need to recharge and focus on healing ourselves.

6. SELF CARE IS NOT SELFISH. Don't let anyone make you feel like it is.

7. If a loved one has been showing severe signs of mental illness, go check on them. Check in with them. You never know just how bad it is.

8. When your loved one isn't in a depression slump, ask them about it. Ask them about their mental illness when they're having a good day. Odds are, we'll be a lot more open to talking about it when we can without it making things even worse for us.

9. If you feel like your loved one is suicidal or having suicidal tendencies/thoughts, PLEASE get them help. You can call the suicide hotline or even check them into a treatment center. Most states have mental healthcare available for those who don't have insurance, and they can get the care they need for a few days or so until they're in a better mindset.

[muresetivoire]

When Mr.Darcy said, "If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you, you have bewitched me body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on," my expectation in romance was forever changed

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I know this might be weird, but I really like this. Not sure what it is, but I just drew this for no reason and I feel drawn to it. What do you guys think? It feels like my soul on paper.

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