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looking forward to finding out approximately what happens in the supernatural series finale through wildly out of context hysterical text posts here on tumblr dot com

deep-dark-fears

A little pick-me-up. A fear submitted by Lydburg to Deep Dark Fears - thanks!

You can pick up autographed copies of my Deep Dark Fears books in my Etsy store, they make great gifts!

#oh #i guess it makes sense i would see this so soon after my cat passed on #i hope they'll be kind to her

thyrell

if that sewer clown makes himself an image of your worst fear before he eats you, i could kick his ass. what’s he gonna do turn into the physical manifestation of being abandoned by your closest friends? gonna turn into an ooky spooky visual representation of catastrophic failure and loss? jokes on you dumbass the only thing im afraid of is myself

happy 10th birthday to iron man (2008) dir. jon favreau

and to the rest of the mcu i guess, but we all know where my heart lies.

#spoiler alert: it's with my favourite #the queue king of lucis

adiosassholesarchive

the skywalkers + being super chill all the time

afloweroutofstone

I wish there was a way to tell companies that I dislike an ad so much that I will actively avoid buying anything from them because of it

botprince

So slightly unrelated but still relevant, generally when I come across an ad that just really fuckin annoys me for whatever reason I’ll go into Google and just type different variations of “I hate ‘x’ product” like 5 times until googles algorithm picks it up an I never see an ad for that product again. It’s amazing.

reallycoolsoup

Use that cooperate spyware to your advantage

phylumhearts

hmm

#KSKSKSKSHG

@ rl friends: maybe don’t read idk

ok but for fucking real what am i supposed to do with “i don’t want to be alive i hate myself because i am inherently and inescapably a fuck up at my core and i want to die because i cannot see any future in which i’m not a pathetic worthless husk of a person with no ambition or goals or positive traits, but i don’t want to kill myself because i know the stress & grief of it would probably literally kill my elderly parents too, not to mention i’m probably just faking depression for attention because THAT’S how pathetically worthless i am”

like you go to a doctor and you have to answer the question “are you a suicide risk?” with “no” because (a) i’m not really, not while my parents are around to suffer for it, and (b) HAHA LIKE I WOULD E V E R manage to spit out an answer that isn’t “it’s not that bad really! :)” even when it’s the exact reason i WENT to the doctor in the first place, because like HELL will i do anything other than downplay whatever fucking issue i have when i spend most of my own time convinced that sitting around contemplating how much i wish i was dead is actually just me being a pathetic excuse for a human being who’s just too lazy & pathetic to handle the real world like everyone else even though there’s definitely nothing wrong with me

and then they send you on your merry way with some chirpy life advice and that’s the end of that until your hormones and/or brain chemistry have you obsessively reading articles about the golden gate bridge and crying nonstop from 2am to 8am instead of revising for your final year uni exams again

lmao i’d feel a Fuck Ton better if i could just... get a definitive answer from a therapist as to whether this is a “real issue” like an actual mental health problem, or if i SHOULD just go top myself for being a pathetic excuse-making piece of shit without a real problem. like i feel that if i could name it, then i’d be able to forgive myself for at least some of the reasons i absolutely fucking despise myself and actually take some steps towards doing better that aren’t just screaming at myself “do better you piece of shit”. but the fact that i even doubt it’s legitimacy probably means it ISN’T legitimate and i’m just a scummy person looking to justify their shitty lazy habits and general worthlessness instead of trying just SELF IMPROVE on my own.

in summary i have three (3) moods: “my life is pointless and worthless and i actually actively want to die” “i haven’t given a shit about anything, ever, not even once. who the fuck CARES about things. nothing matters and then you die” and “haha man this is DEFINITELY a real and genuine lasting happiness i am deriving from sitting on youtube/twitter/tumblr/games all day and pretending nothing else is real”

#yeah @ rl friends: probs best... not to read