I love myself, I am loved, I am love itself, all of my body and mind is love. I am a good person, a good person who commits mistakes, who can commit mistakes as I am just a human trying to exist. I feel truly at peace today. I think tommorow will be good. Maybe not great but it may be good as I am still on this world.
I think "fuck you, I hate your work and I will do it myself and I will do it better" is a really funny and epic sentiment. i started publishing poetry because an ex boyfriend of mine was publishing really ass poetry in a bunch of journals and I was like "Jesus christ, this is garbage, I could do that, and I could do it better." now I have a page in the Academy of American Poets and I've published a full length collection and his website says "former poet." You should win by succeeding way harder than they do. Spite is a legitimate energy source.
i went to "mad at me" island expecting to find people i knew, something i understood. but when my boat landed, standing upon the shore were a million empty husks wearing my own face. every foot of the island was occupied, and everywhere i went, they watched me with contempt. they never spoke, never breathed. they simply watched. no matter how i grovelled and begged, snarled and cursed, tried to hide or kicked and hit, they simply stared. the hatred in their gaze was inescapable, but i could hardly return it, knowing that their doomed existence was of my own creation. knowing that the hatred was nobody's but my own. in the end i just wept, unable to stand the relentless gaze of my own infinite glare.
the guy who i accidentally cut off in traffic last week was there also
Disciple Shen Yuan (during disciple Shen Jiu era) who accidentally became the Divination Peak's head disciple bc he worked so hard and used all his meta knowledge, just so he could make a video-based divination system that shows the future. The Peak Lords were all appropriately impressed and this seals Shen Yuan as the next Divination Peak Peak Lord. A lot of pre-canon problems get solved. It becomes a world-changing invention.
Shen Yuan made it just to watch the endings of all his favorite animes.
Just. The hilarity of Peak Lord Shen Yuan becoming this mysterious genius Seer, sought after by the entire cultivational world. And then he just locks himself inside, pretending to be "prophesizing" or something. He's a full blown NEET at this point. He completely misses Shen Jiu's entry to the sect bc he was too busy "dvining" the next episode of Frieren Beyond the Journey's End. The next time he comes out, its with some vague words of valuing time spent with your peers.
The Qing Generation Peak Lords immediately listens to him and are now doing constant meet ups as the equivalent of team bulding exercises. The Shen Qingqiu rumors get solved. Shen Jiu is appropriately wary of this seemingly all knowing Peak Lord whom everyone listens to. And yet he also considers. Someone who can see the future? Someone who can SPEAK of the future they see and CHANGE it? Oh? Someone who can see all possible threats? What do you mean he can also divine your past? Past as in blackmail material?
Shen Jiu, in a fit of genius proving his right to be called the sect strategist, decides he'll have to test tf outta Shen Yuan to see if he can trust him (and sj is also low key terrified and hateful bc here is someone who can ruin everything he's ever done and he will NOT just let it be tyvm) and so Shen Jiu just. Does some minor (extensive) background search. And tries ro get Shen Yuan to snap. Yeah, that's right. Just annoy the scary all-seeing dude.
Shen Yuan eventually gets super annoyed, his inner internet troll has been desperately struggling to get free for YEARS, and now here's a convenient target who totally deserves it. Shen-Shixiong you total prick, why do you keep digging up everything about Shen Yuan!
So. In a fit of similar genius spiked with way too much pettiness, Shen Yuan goes "You little prick, lets see how you like it when YOUR privacy gets invaded!" and promptly plays a random scene from Shen Jiu's future ala projector style while they were in a Peak Lord meeting.
Shen Yuan made sure its nothing distressing or embarassing, he's petty not cruel! Except he did this by just doing a routine surface level scan of the emotions involved, and it was on "happy." Shen Yuan, a fuerdai who never really knew about Shen Jiu's past, just assumed it'd be a basic scene of maybe having a good meal or talking to a friend or something. He did NOT realize how fucking rare "Happy" is for Shen Jiu.
The scene that plays is a marriage.
Two figures decked in regal red marriage robes are in a bow in front of each other. The unmistakeable Grand Hall of Cang Qiong swathed in tastefully luxurious decorations surrounds them. There are also a lot of other damning details.
Qing Jing Peak's logo is embroidered onto the billowing ribbons. Paired with Divination Peak's own logo.
The two figures stand.
Its Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan.
When future-Shen Jiu actually smiled at future-Shen Yuan (who looks disgustingly in love wtf) and started leaning in for a kiss, present-Shen Yuan violently slams the divining tool off.
The loud slam is followed with a damning silent moment. That, unfortunately, lasted only for an actual moment.
Someone clears their throat.
Its Qi Qingqi.
She has a shit eating grin on her face. Besides her, Wei Qingwei's expression is slowly starting to match. Around, the other peak lords are either too invested, or carefully avoiding looking at him and Shen Jiu.
Shen Yuan very, very carefully does not look Shen Jiu's way.
"So..." Qi Qingqi begins. "Interesting divination there, Shen-Da-Shixiong, Shen-Er-Shixiong." Her words practically drip with insinuation.
Oh God. Oh Fuck. Fuck no.
Side Notes:
Shen Yuan's eyes glow a beight system blue whenever he "divines the future"
Shen Yuan wears a fortune teller outfit, meaning he's typically covered head to toe, complete with a veil.
Shen Yuan CAN actually see the future and show it to other people, either ala projector style 2d view of his choosing. or a complete 3d (like a pensieve in hp)
Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe standing across from each other, presumably in Jin Lan city, a crowd visible behind them. shen Qingqiu looks neutral, hiding behind his fan, and Luo Binghe leans in with an eager smile. Though drawn in sepia tones, they both have colorful thought bubbles: Shen Qingqiu's shows him looking panicked and horrified, a gloomy background showing comical severed limbs. Luo Binghe's shows him looking heartbroken, a hand clutching at his chest, broken heart icons surrounding him.
Tianlang Jun sitting on a throne with many last breath candles floating around him. He grins and spreads his arms widely, clawed hands facing palm up. The image is drawn in greenish tones except Tianlang Jun's eyes, zuiyin, and a "crown" of diamond symbols around his head.
Zhuzhi Lang in a leafy environment, sunlight shining through the trees illuminating him. He's wearing a hooded cloak and smiling down at a green snake twining around his wrist. /end ID]
I am rereading svsss right now and work has not been horrible for the past few weeks so here is some fanart
Whenever someone asks me how I'm feeling, how old I am or what I like to do in my free time, I feel like an alien who took over some random human's body and now has to prove that they are, in fact, that human.
Nile: You would not believe how long term you have to mismanage agriculture on my banks to start experiencing soil depletion. I will always be here for you Egypt.
Huang He: *kicks in the door* FUCK YOUR DYNASTY IT'S FAMINE TIME!!!
I took two semesters of Chinese history in college. The first thing the professor started with was “getting to know the rivers, Yangtze and the Yellow Rivers. You need to know them because they will play very important roles in the history of China. The Yangtze has been crucial to trade, movement, culture and more. The Yellow river, the Yellow River can’t be trusted as you will repeatedly see.”
If you got stuck on a question during a test or whatever you could start with “the Yellow river jumped the banks causing instability and chaos that quickly spread” and would be correct more times than you would be incorrect.
Had a dtbpf reverse au where Li Yu is the sweet, airheaded Prince, favored by the emperor and Mu Tianchi is transmigrated as a fish in his courtyard pond.
Li Yu is the deaf son of a concubine and not in line for the throne. In the original novel, he’s a side character who dies tragically trying to protect one of his royal brothers in an assassination attempt.
Mu Tianchi’s task is to become Li Yu’s beloved pet and prevent his death.
Li Yu was a character Mu Tianchi hadn’t thought much about. He wasn’t involved in the palace intrigue and struggle for the throne. Just a character who dies to further motivate his brother- the main character- in his battle for the title of Cown Prince.
But Mu Tianchi was determined to change Li Yu’s fate, even as a simple carp.
The first thing he needed to do was catch Li Yu’s attention.