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they/she | 20's | MN I consist of multitudes. These days, the multitudes involve sewing, formula one, heated rivalry, and dan and phil. Come hang out and say hi!

[trailingdusk]

About Me/Tag Organization

I tried to be organized when I started this blog and I have, so far, failed dramatically. I do my best to not hate-blog and for the most part I am successful. In case it matters to you, though, info on my tagging and some of my f1 opinions are under the cut. Heated Rivalry is tagged #hr. Dan and Phil stuff is tagged #dnp.

Formula 1

These are sometimes complicated. I love a narrative, and if there's a compelling one, I'm interested. I'm pro-RPF.

On Drivers:

I love you: Albon, Piastri, Leclerc, Verstappen, Vettel.

We're chill: Hamilton, Tsunoda, Bottas, Zhou, Sargeant, Bearman.

Sometimes I forget that you exist: Magnussen, Alonso, Ocon, Hulkenberg, Gasly, Stroll, Colapinto, Bortoleto, Hadjar, Antonelli, Lawson.

Depending on the day, I am rooting for your downfall or praying for your success: Russell, Perez, Sainz, Ricciardo, Norris.

Beloved Teams:

I bet on losing horses. Williams.

I bet on winning horses. Red Bull.

Other Teams:

Mercedes: I laugh when you lose, specifically because of the stick up Toto's ass and the cataracts that emerge in his eyes when it comes to his failures.

McLaren: I like you because of Oscar.

Ferrari: I wanted to like you but I like myself more. If you figure your shit out, I'll be happy for you, but I'm not spending my time hoping.

Who are you, again? Sauber, Haas, VCARB, Alpine, Aston Martin.

Ships

If it's not my thing, I just filter and walk away. Current fave ships are landoscar, galex, and lestappen. I'm chill with sewis but there just isn't that much of it these days. I don't write fic, but I do reblog ship content.

Tagging F1

I don't even know how I tag anymore. I try to tag for f1/f1 academy, but I don't remember which variation of f1/formula one/formula 1 I used and until I look it up, things will probably get all three, so apologies. I do my best to tag races with [place] gp [year]. I think what I've been doing is tagging drivers with their initials and number (ie, Alex is aa23) for racing stuff and names for other stuff but to be honest that's not consistent. I tag ships. I know I have a girl dad max tag.

Other Tagging

Nerd stuff:

#book rec

#queer book rec

#scholarship

#queer scholarship

#historical scholarship

#lit

#queer lit

#historical lit

#college

#education

#sexuality

#ADHD thoughts

#fat thoughts

#web weave

#speech resource

#speech resources

#poetry

Writing stuff:

#writing resources

#fanfic meta

Functioning:

#good things to know

#life skills

#tech skills

#organization

#mental health

#mental health support

Miscellaneous:

#art

#architecture

#activism

#watch later

#fave

#do not lose

#video

#edits

#edit

How I've tagged previous gps:

mexican gp

cota 2023/austin gp 2023

[lysimachias]

Not "The Character did nothing wrong" or "The Character is irredeemably awful" but a secret third thing: The Character may display moments of deep love & compassion, may even have a strong sense of ethics, and may also be capable of brutal cruelty that is irreconcilable with those traits. The constant tension between the different sides of The Character's nature is exactly what makes them compelling, and attempting to reduce them down to simply "a terrible person" or "innocent & misunderstood" is missing the point of the questions a media with nuanced characters is asking you to consider

[mothecho]

They should invent a way to sit hunched over doing crafts that is Good for your body

[kucherovv]

nico after crashing out of the 2003 formula 3 euroseries nurburgring race 

[birdylion]

Thinking about the rural queer experience again. I can never truly go back to my hometown because most people there will misgender me all the time, no matter how I look. I can't live in a city because that's too stressful for me. I'm in a new rural community now, but I'm stealth there and I don't tell people I'm queer, so I'm basically back in the closet, which is rather isolating, even though I know who I am and where I stand, which is different from how it was in my teens. There's a city nearby where I can go for queer meetups etc, but I've yet to meet a group with which I really vibe. The trans group came close, but even they weren't my scene.

Then there's the thing that most offline queer spaces I know use "FLINTA" as a label more and more, which is supposed to be "inclusive" but actually means "everyone but cis men", and in practice the only spaces I've seen it used actually meant "women and nonbinary people" (including trans women, yay! and/but trans men only nominally). The last time I was in such a space I got misgendered all the time because everyone there assumed that any person who was there was aligned with womanhood so "she" was the default.

I don't get misgendered in my little village and volunteer community, because apparently nobody questions my gender there. It's a specific kind of masculinity that's prevalent there, the hardworking, sturdy and steady type. I don't quite fit in with that either, but well enough that I'm not questioned. In queer spaces, I feel I'm often seen as "in-between" genders even though I'm rather firmly (binary trans) male. Here, in the village, there's no concept of gender as a spectrum, and while the gender roles aren't as set as they used to be, there's still a firm line between men and women, which I know is a prison for those who aren't either, but for me it's actually a blessing. Here I come with all my knowledge of gender theory and understanding for nonbinary life experiences, and yet I don't talk about that, and I don't mention my own past/childhood, because the firm line between men and women actually affirms my own gender more than any queer scene in the city could so far. Getting to spend time with folks from these parts and being treated as one of the guys is SO gender affirming for me personally, it feels like finally I don't have to prove myself.

It reminds me of a trans woman from the city's trans meetup who said that the place that gets her the most misgendering are queer parties, while backwater villages are mostly fine because people see a person in a dress and think "woman".

While I truly feel at home here, my experience as someone who was a gay girl who grew up to be a man is still unique and something I don't share, even though I've been dealing with it for more than half my life and it deeply influenced my worldview and politics and how I interact with the world. It's like this secret identity that new people don't get to unlock that easily, which again is isolating with regards to my sexuality, because that IS very queer.

[likematingcall]

Canada, Hockey, Masculinity, Race, and Belonging

little bits I found interesting while reading about Canadian masculinity + hockey + race and thinking about Shane Hollander

First excerpt is from "Selective Memory in a Global Culture: Reconsidering Links between Youth, Hockey, and Canadian Identity" by Brian Wilson, 2nd chapter in Artificial Ice ed. David Whitson & Richard Gruneau

All following excerpts are from Changing on the Fly: Hockey Through the Voice of South Asian Canadians by Courtney Szto

[milfbro]

I will be honest guys, the Red portrait of king Charles is gorgeous asdfghjkl

it's a bad portrait. Like. Objectively. It does the opposite of what's intended. It looks like the painter is insulting him. If it was in a contemporary gallery with no context you would see it immediately as the ambivalent criticism of Charles's reign, how he fades into the overwhelming red background as a tiny little figure, small and insignificant, insufficient for the clothes he's wearing. It reminds my of Goya's portraits, how they were so 'realistic' that they ended up making these great figures look pathetic to the viewer. So these are our rulers?

the sheer novelty. the surprise and shock, the kinda cunt it's serving for no reason. I. I love it. It's an incredible portrait by Jonathan Yeo. By the sheer fact that Charles, the man, is impossible to portray as greater than man because he's just such a nothingburger of a dude. So a portrait made to make him look huge and interesting made him be swallowed in red brushstrokes. The butterfly, that reminded me immediately of " we will all laugh at guilded butterflies", draws more attention than him. It looks like an omen. It looks like a warning in all this red. Something is not right here.

This is the best royal portrait ever 10/10

[chromegnomes]

This is a painting of a monarch whose individual personality and even bodily presence are a mere footnote within the legacy of bloodshed that built the throne he occupies. This is the only way it's possible to depict him. It's a photograph of his soul

[fansofsebvettel]

Sebastian Vettel at age 10: Ich bin kein Schumacher, ich bin der Vettel. (I’m not Schumacher. I’m Vettel). (x)

[chillyfeetsteak]

been getting really into rockhounding lately and the subreddits are great

[septembian]

via thierrylechantuer

[lewierre]

I FOUND IT

AND THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT A FUCKING WALL??

[rookieluck]

major pillar of sports viewing is my team sucks in a devine and biblical way and everyone else’s team just sucks because they’re bad at their jobs

[idlestories]

not just ‘he would not fucking say that’ but ‘he would not, under torture, admit that’

[willowcrowned]

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

I need tiktokers to understand that ao3 has been home for the freaks (affectionate) ever since the day it was created. the entire site was created because “dark and fucked up fics” were banned and removed from other platforms, so us freaks came together and created a site for other freaks — a site where nothing is censored, a site with no algorithm, no capitalism, no ads, and again, absolutely no censorship.

this has been our house for decades. you newbies don’t come into our house and tell us how to arrange our furniture. either be nice and respect our house, or leave and build your own house elsewhere.

[freesiadotcom]

having friends notably older than you is fantastic actually, cause you can drop in a little mention of how old you would have been at the time of a story they tell and watch the existential crisis set in

[daisyfornost]

I'm in this and I love it.

[nohomo-mrfrodo]

Gandalf in The Hobbit: You are Took and that makes you absolutely suited for adventure!

Gandalf in The Fellowship of the Ring: Who the FUCK let the Took come on this adventure?

[maironsmaid]

He learned his lesson

[golwenlothlindel]

Nah you guys don’t get it. For all that Gandalf complained about Pippin, he better than anyone else knew that Pippin was absolutely crucial. Pippin accomplishes a very impressive feat: not only does he manage to see something in the palantír (most hobbits would perceive nothing, as these stones were designed for use by high elves), but he manages to close his mind against Sauron. That is a seriously impressive feat of ósanwë given Pippin’s youth and almost total inexperience. The only clue Sauron manages to glean from the meeting with Pippin is that he is in Meduseld: which Pippin probably did not even directly give to him. Pippin did not tell Sauron his name, so Sauron is led to believe that Pippin is Frodo. I remind you, in the books, the Good Guys manage to trick Sauron, by making him believe that Aragorn has claimed the One Ring. They can only do that because of Pippin’s ridiculous feat of ósanwë. Far from sabotaging the mission, he is the one who allows it to succeed (albeit, not on purpose). This is why Sauron doesn’t think anything is fishy when Aragorn wins the Battle of the Pelennor Fields by controlling ghosts: that would be consistent with the idea that he is using the One Ring. Which Sauron believes that Pippin brought to him. This is why Sauron pulls out his old “play nice and weak” card from his Númenor days. He first of all believes that Aragorn is a lot more powerful than he actually is, and secondly thinks that the Ring is beginning to affect him.

He should perhaps have remembered that Aragorn is named for Fingolfin. Fingolfin’s mother-name, Arakáno, would properly be translated to Sindarin as “Aragorn”. Most people would not show up to an enemy fortress with an army they knew was far too small, and start a battle they knew they would lose. But Fingolfin famously did exactly that.

When you read the line “fool of a Took!” It is important to understand that in the context of Gandalf calling himself a fool on several occasions. Galadriel too sees beyond the veneer of foolish naivety in Pippin. She gives him and Merry belts that almost definitely were once her brothers’. A golden flower on a gift from Galadriel can only be a golden lily, the sigil of the House of Finarfin. Galadriel, while all hell was breaking loose in Tirion, raided her brothers’ rooms and took their belts from when they were little kiddos, hauled them across the Helcaraxë, and then held onto them for three Ages before giving them to two hobbits she just met. Merry, of course, is comparable to Angrod and Aegnor: his great deed is done in a moment of beserk rage, and it is a feat of strength. This then implies that she is comparing Pippin to Finrod. That’s one hell of a complement coming from Galadriel: but as I just pointed out, entirely warranted. Pippin manages to reproduce Finrod’s feat of radio silence, in the face of torture by Sauron. Which again, is extremely impressive given that Pippin is far younger and less experienced than Finrod was.

[nohomo-mrfrodo]

You see me <3

[godmodebeginswithlesbians]

"we need less sanitized queer stories" yall keep saying fucking she-ra romanticizes abuse. you couldnt possibly handle less sanitized queer stories