Somedays I want to feel like I am a beautiful Woman. While I view myself as gender fluid, I sometimes feel like an 'amorphous blob of a human', when what I really want to feel is beautiful and comfortable in my own skin. I never feel like a beautiful woman, and rarely do I feel like a beautiful human. Maybe it has nothing to do with how I view my gender. Maybe it is my low self-esteem, my lack of unconditional love and accptance for myself. Maybe its because I dress like a guy, partly to hide myself. And I realize this may not be serving me. And YES. My body is wonderful and strong; I've been amazed and proud of everything my body is capable of doing. And I can see that I have beauty inside of me as well. But too often than not, I hold harsh judgement on myself and presume what others think of me. I wish those moments of feeling proud, comfortable, beautiful,strong were not fleeting. I wish I could look in the mirror and not feel disappointed at the face staring back at me. Maybe someday I will find the love for myself that I seek. Maybe someday I will put less value on the opinions' of others. #personal #writing #thoughts #sharing #self #feelings #freewriting #feels #journaling #livingwithanxiety #livingwithdepression #life #words #genderfluid #selfesteem #selflove #unconditionallove https://www.instagram.com/extraaguacamole/p/BvyEh0sl05Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qnhy36yxxvxl
