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july 8 | the view over the weekend and the flowers that awaited me when I got back to school on Monday. officially over halfway through my degree!

🎧 saints — the breeders

🎮 bendy and the ink machine

📺 attack on titan (s2)

📖 the king’s men — nora sakavic

✍️ getting ethics approval, participating in studies

🕊️ grateful for people that are gracious and patient with me. I promise to show them patience in return

midnightinshadow

girl-please-study

04/100 Days of Productivity ✨

I couldnt do any training today I was studying the whole day!! I didn't even realised when the sun went down else i would've gone for a little run. As a student, when you reach a flow state — there's nothing better than your work. It's like a drug.

🎧 : Vienna, Billy Joel

zb

by Christian Young

nanuuiycacahuates

Liminal 🎪

haciaelmar

it has been a while | Olympus OM-1 | Samsung Prime Color 200 | 2026

shakespearesdaughters

tormentherapy

🫀⃝ㅤ 𖥔ㅤ݂ㅤׂㅤ𝐑𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦 𝐝𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐝𝐮𝐦𝐩 (𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞)ㅤ݂ㅤ𖧧ㅤׂㅤ⊹

anali-msqt

I <3 doing these type of « moodboard » (idk if I can use this word for this type of editing) 🌲🪵

ramavoite

Game Changer - "Night Shift"

thepaleheart

4 July 2026 - I'm a "doctor" now, I guess

I defended my dissertation last week. I had been going through absolute hell the week leading up to it. My advisor was sending me lots of bizarre, antagonistic emails. Provided little support. Did not give me any tips for the defense until like 2 hours before, telling me "Oh, by the way, I expect to see a PowerPoint" (it's not typical in my PhD program). Lowkey, it felt like sabotage by not telling me earlier. But luckily I made one any way because I always over-prepare.

Overall, another professor on my committee ended up being the one to congratulate me and to give me gifts and try to celebrate a little. I honestly don’t understand where so much of my advisor’s contempt is coming from. I can feel it whenever I'm in the room with her. And this weird relationship has made this PhD program end on such a sour and painful note. I get that the defense and final writing phase is difficult for everyone. But this was excessive.

Now I just have to implement the final revisions my committee gave me at my defense. My advisor sent me an email summarizing everything, but I am dreading opening it. Opened it by accident and immediately the first line was criticizing me for not being energetic enough in my presentation—who the hell is going to have energy and spunk after all the crying and panic attacks I've had?! Every email I've received from them has made me cry and have panic attacks the last 2 months. I would need to be in the right headspace to open them.

I'm also working on teaching a small class over the rest of the summer and slowly packing my things to move out of my apartment and leave this town for good. Can't wait to leave all of this behind.