Triumphs & Tragedy

Stories, poems, heartbreak, & wisdom-- Medicated moments

[triumphsthrutragedies]

You're the cap to my stem

A magical trip

[verpasstzuleben]

[triumphsthrutragedies]

Be The Snail 🐌

O snail,

Climb Mt. Fuji,

But slowly, slowly!

Wise nurse once told me, take it day by day. When I became disabled, it was a different world I had to get adjusted to. It was always going to be a battle every day. I will always continue to climb Mount Fiji, no matter how hard it becomes.... Keep going. Even if your climbing alone, it's okay. You have the resources to do so. Never give up.

[kirkshiresloss]

02.22 ((written in smoke)) original photography

Every morning i sit here and realize im not okay as tendrils spin through columns of golden sunshine. Loaded memories are like roadside bombs on this highway to nowhere. A future I once held in my hands with a white knuckle grip has slipped through my fingers like sand. And all I can do is light up another and blow another cloud at the past.

Loving you was easy with memories my heart won't soon forget.

But wishing for you now is like trying to put smoke back in this cigarette.

~-kirkshiresloss

[triumphsthrutragedies]

"Recovering alcoholics don't reach out because isolation is their new safe place. Reaching out and talking to others can lead to a high chance of relapse. Not only that, but they can suffer from false memories of situations that happened during the time they drank. They often dont see situations as they are, and havent during their alcoholism leading to heavy consequences. They can be unable to pin point moments in the past, often can't even remember past situations/memories correctly leaving those around them confused. Loved ones hurt. Leaving loved ones angry when the alcoholic reaches out for help when damage has already been done. Where the loved one cant help an alcoholic. Where the loved one doesnt even want to help the alcoholic due to their disrespect and false sense of reality. Asking the loved ones to do things that could damage their own life, even putting their loved ones in legal trouble by asking for help in their divorce, or any other consequences they brought upon themselves. Love yourself first, never get involved. Say no. No is a full sentence.

Daily reminder: Dont agree to help the alcoholic when it wastes your time, money, gas by picking them up somewhere drunk. Dont help them out with legal consequences because the loved one will get burned. Dont help them, because most of the time, the loved one has actually already GIVEN advice to the alcoholic they did not take, and now theyre asking you for help or worse, they want YOU to fix the problem when they're in deeper when they should have listened to you in the first place but they didn't because they were drinking. Keep your peace, love yourself first, dont hurt yourself with alcohol, smoking or drugs when they drive you insane and hurt you....let them go. Let that shit go. Love them from a distance, let them figure it out themselves. You can't help them anyways, ultimately it's up to them"

[triumphsthrutragedies]

I don't want to feel the heaviness

In my throat and in my chest

My body feels dry from all the tears I've cried

The feeling of warmth washes over me

It's hard to breathe

When drowning

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Your music to my labyrinth

The boots to my hike

The map to my journey

The direction to where I want to go

A fresh breath of air

The tie dye to my shirt

The cap to my mushroom

Chocolate chips to my cookies

The sweet to my candy

The Mac to my cheese

My Mickey Mouse

You're the magic I'm feeling

In a world full of ordinary

I wish I wasn't dreaming

I wish I had my own family

I know, this was so cheesy

[triumphsthrutragedies]

Up a hill down to a long windy trail

I sit in a bath feeling the ocean breeze on my face splashing the water with my feet

The sea otters play with curiosity

I can feel the touch of cold on my cheeks

Wonder and wisdom lies within the sea

Fighting my pain to pull through, whatever you believe, I can do.

Imagining walking up the steps to find whats ahead

A beautiful view

Lens captures everything that has caught my eye

I meditate on what's in front of me

What's your story?

Anxiety and apprehension

Listening to the ecouraging words of motivation

I feel more driven to adventure and discover

The miles in between don't really matter

I'm not intimidated by the length of the bay or the hours it takes

I didn't know it was possible to wake up years later and fall in love in the same place

Reminiscing hearing the water splash upon my back

Putting my head against the rocks

I can hear the ocean playing its own music

I listen to you photographing the city view

As the sun begins to set I feel sad another day has passed

I photograph again the moment before I have to dry myself off and go back

I don't want to half believe

I need to know if this is the real thing

As the water washes off my feet

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TAKE CHARGE AS A PATIENT

BE YOUR OWN MEDICAL DETECTIVE

Feel free to share this post. It's good information!

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✨Drs want to see INVESTED INTEREST. Patients need to be prepared for appointments and lab results WILL show if youre not putting in effort. Patterns are established, diagnoses can be made. That including drinking and drug use. Be a trusted patient. Trust has to go both ways. Don't trust your doctor? Switch!!

✨Be ASSERTIVE-PERSISTANT-AND POLITE

✨Pharmacists DO have favorite patients who call in and they will do favors usually for those who are consistently polite! Treat others how you want to be treated

✨If your dr is resistant, enlist a friend or family member. Call in charge nurse. Enlist Social workers!! Don't forget about RISK MANAGEMENT. You have a right to make FORMAL COMPLAINTS.

"Please comply with me within my care"

✨It IS unethical AND impossible for doctors to know all. Remain patient, self research.

✨Have ALL medical records. Keep a binder with a medical ID card. Dont forget to include latest prescriptions!

✨WRITE DOWN WHO YOU SPEAK TO.

If needed, you can always call local med association and state board US department of Health and Human Services!! You must know your rights as a patient!

✨Cant make an appointment? Are they busy? Ask for Practice Manager! Remember to ask for cancellation list!

✨If you dont recognize the generic FDA approved medication name or identical bioequivilant brand name? ASK.

✨Shape, Size, & Color of pills can change within MONTHS

✨Medical errors are higher on WKNDS, NIGHTS, & HOLIDAYS.

✨Ask if your procedures are necessary!! Sometimes its just for Financial Motivation to run tests, procedures and surgeries!

I hope you guys find this helpful!

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[books-n-quotes]

“I take great care of myself by carefully shutting myself away.”

— Vincent van Gogh, Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh

[books-n-quotes]

“You are unexplored, unusual, and terrifyingly beautiful. And only a few will know how to love you without breaking you and making you dangerous.”

— Nikita Gill, To the Heartbroken Ones on this Night